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Write This Down

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To my brilliant editor,
Margaret Ferguson,
with love

 

1

Here's the best thing about being a writer: it's like having a magic wand to make whatever you want happen to imaginary people in a made-up world.

Here's the worst thing about being a writer: it makes you wish even more that you had a magic wand to make whatever you want happen to actual people in your own real life.

I'm propped up in bed on a rainy October morning, sipping my special writing beverage, Swiss Miss hot chocolate, in the mug my brother, Hunter, gave me for my twelfth birthday this past April. The mug says, “Please do not annoy the writer. She may put you in a book and kill you.”

It's hard to think of a mug much better than this one. Or a brother much better than one who would buy it for his writer sister.

And that's the kind of brother Hunter used to be: the best brother in the world. But everything's changed between us since school started back in August, tenth grade for Hunter, seventh grade for me. And I don't have a magic wand to make things be the way they were before.

I still love the mug, though, especially when it has hot chocolate in it, topped with a swirl of whipped cream squirted from one of those cans that don't look big enough to have that much whipped cream inside. I emptied one once out of curiosity when I was little, and believe me, there is a lot of whipped cream in there.

I'm writing a chapter in the first novel in my fantasy trilogy about this princess named Tatiana and her (very cute) wizard enemy, Ingvar. The problem is that I don't know what's going to happen next. I know Tatiana has to have more adventures, but she's already been in an earthquake, and her father, the king, was murdered by Ingvar's uncle, and she's just discovered an amulet—that's a magical object that protects her from harm. But if she has the amulet, nothing too bad can happen to her, and I'm only on chapter three, so maybe she has to lose the amulet somewhere, but it seems too soon for her to lose it when she's only had it for two and a half pages. But if she has it, how can she have adventures? And without adventures, I have no plot.

So I put aside the novel, which I'm scribbling on a yellow legal pad, and open my newest Moleskine notebook. I love Moleskine notebooks so much, with their creamy narrow-ruled paper and limp, soft covers tied shut with a slim black elastic ribbon. I fill a Moleskine notebook every month with poems, journal entries, story ideas, bits of dialogue, and descriptions that pop into my head that I don't want to forget.

On the first, beautifully blank page I write the opening line of a poem. Okay, not just a
poem
, but a new love poem for this boy, Cameron Miller, who sits next to me in journalism. A lot of kids think he's weird, but I have a huge crush on him. He's older than the rest of us because his parents took him out of school for a year to travel around the world—Paris! Buenos Aires! Beijing!—so he fell behind on a bunch of academic stuff. But he's way ahead of us in everything else.

I'm not going to show any of these poems to Cameron, of course. I'm not a completely clueless person who thinks the way you get a middle school boy to like you is to write poems for him. I'd never show my Cameron poems to anybody except my best friend, Kylee Willis, who is the only person I can share everything with, however mortifying. Kylee is the most calm and comforting person I've ever known. I bet she's awake, too, on this rainy morning, and thinking what a perfect day this is for knitting. Kylee is an amazing knitter. She can make scarves, hats, mittens, even sweaters.

Anyway, I keep my Cameron poems hidden away like Emily Dickinson did with hers. When I die, the poems can be published posthumously, which is a great word I learned that means “after my death.” Everyone will say how tragic it is that I died so young. In these fantasies, I haven't totally worked out what I die from. In the books I like from long ago, it would be consumption, which nobody dies from anymore. The important part of the fantasy is how sad it will be that I died so young and that Cameron didn't even know of my love. He'll read the poems after they're published and finally know that the girl who sat next to him in journalism was the next Emily Dickinson. And then he'll wish he had said something to me other than “Hey” or “How's it going?”

But unless I die young, which I don't really want to happen, he's never going to read my poems, because I'd die if he did, unless I knew for a fact that he'd think they were wonderful and that he liked me, too. But if he thought they were pathetic—or if he thought I was pathetic for writing them—I would totally, completely, absolutely wither up and
expire
. So one way or another, if Cameron reads my poems it will either mean that I'm going to die any minute or that I'm already dead.

So Emily Dickinson is the role model for me.

I take another sip of hot chocolate, wiping the whipped cream from the tip of my nose with the back of my hand. And I keep on writing.

*   *   *

Three poems later, I go downstairs to toast myself an English muffin. While I was writing my Cameron poems I also had a mental breakthrough about the plot for my novel. Instead of trying to figure out how Tatiana can face exciting dangers if she has a magical amulet to protect her, I can take
out
the amulet scene and move it to
later
in the book. I know this sounds like the most obvious fix in the world now that I've said it, but when it comes to writing, things that seem obvious as soon as I think of them never seem obvious until after I think of them.

My parents are sitting at the kitchen table eating egg-white omelets crammed full of veggies. My father is an orthodontist, and now that I have braces, he's
my
orthodontist, too. His orthodontist name is Dr. Jaws, which he thinks is catchier than Dr. Granger. He must be right, because half of the kids at school who have braces go to my dad. His office also has a shark theme. If you want to make my dad go absolutely crazy with joy, buy him another grinning stuffed shark he can take to work, or come up with a new design for a shark-shaped Dr. Jaws refrigerator magnet.

My mother is a stay-at-home mom. She used to work as an administrator at the university, which she called “herding cats,” as professors don't like being made to do anything they don't want to do. She quit her job a couple of years ago because she read in a pamphlet she picked up somewhere—“Surviving the Teen Years: A Guide for Parents”—that the teen years are actually the most important years to stay home with your kids, because that's when “things can happen.” “Things can happen” might be code for “Your kids can start acting the way Hunter has been acting lately.”

“Good morning!” Dad says.

This greeting could sound sarcastic if I said it to Hunter when he staggered out of bed past noon. Or it could just be an ordinary way of saying hello. But when Dad says it, he says it with gusto.

“Good morning!” I reply with equal gusto. It's not fake gusto, either, because I just wrote three poems and had a plot breakthrough. If that's not a good morning, I don't know what is.

Mom beams. She doesn't have as much gusto as Dad—few people do—but she's happiest when the rest of us are happy, which is probably the definition of being a nice person. My mother is the second-nicest person I know. The first-nicest is Kylee.

“What plans do you have for today, Autumn?” she asks.

I shrug. Not a sullen Hunter shrug, but a mellow shrug of having a whole day to look forward to when there's nothing I
have
to do.

“I guess I won't be raking the leaves,” Dad says, looking out at the rain. He doesn't sound disappointed.

“The band is practicing this afternoon,” Mom says.

“Here?” Dad asks uneasily.

I know both my parents think the band might be part of the reason Hunter is different now. The other guys in the band are older than he is—juniors and seniors. But maybe he changed first and
then
joined the band. I'm not sure.

Even though my parents are suspicious of the band, they still let them practice in our house, down in the basement rec room. It's Mom's fault. She told Dad how important it is during the teen years that parents know where their kids are and what they're doing. The best way to do that is to make your home a welcoming place for your teenager and his friends. “If Hunter has to be in a rock band,” I heard her tell Dad, “better that they practice here, don't you think?”

Now Dad gives a sigh. “Hot stock tip,” he says. “Invest in a company that sells earplugs.”

He laughs, and Mom joins in, so I laugh, too. Because the band really does play very
very
loud.

*   *   *

The band members start to trickle in around three. The name of the band is Paradox, and it has four people in it. The lead guitar and lead vocalist just happens to be David Miller, which is to say—drum roll—Cameron's older brother. If Cameron were in a rock band, I bet he'd be its lead everything, too. Maybe he's too cool to be in a rock band, even though rock bands are definitely cool. But if he
were
in a band, he'd probably write the songs for it. He's one of the best writers in our journalism class.

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