Authors: K.Z. Snow
even more than the audience,” Bob had told him.
“Or at least pretend to. We set the mood as much
as the music does.” Dare understood perfectly.
He’d been performing in one capacity or another
for the past decade, and he knew any kind of
performance had to be sold. So he let the music
carry him, and he swayed as he played.
At the edges of his vision, colors swirled. He
fancied he stood before a tank in which polyester
fish swam. A floral-print blouse glided by, then a
lime-colored knit shirt; a pair of striped
suspenders, then a flamingo-pink jacket. Costume
jewelry occasionally twinkled or sent out spears
of light. The dancers moved in buoyant, interlinked
circles, but not hectically so. They meted out their
energy.
Just to change things up, the Doodles
interspersed
their
signature
polkas
with
schottisches and waltzes. The couples on the dance
floor were versatile.
Dare’s first solo, which came during the
“Fascination Waltz,” was approaching. Bob had
rearranged the playlist so Dare could sit out the
song preceding it. Not that he needed to—he was
twenty-six, not seventy-six, and in excellent shape
—but he was grateful for the break. The “Too Fat
Polka,” otherwise known as “She’s Too Fat for
Me,” came right before “Fascination,” and it
featured Bob on the glockenspiel.
The look and sound of the instrument
undermined Dare’s concentration. He didn’t think
he’d be able to play along with it, not while his
whole digestive tract knotted at intervals like a
climbing rope.
With great relief, he took a seat toward the
rear of the stage while Bob and the guys hammed it
up during “Too Fat.” A gleefully offensive song, it
was nevertheless a crowd favorite. The Doodles’
fans had grown up in an era when political
correctness was pretty much restricted to not using
the N word.
Unperturbed by the song’s lyrics, the dancers
continued their shuffling, 2/4 gallop around the
pavilion. Dare watched them and tried to enjoy
their enjoyment instead of watching Bob. He
listened to the singing rather than the tinkling of the
glock. One large, jovial lady embraced the tune
with exuberance, nearly flinging her much thinner
partner into one of the tables that bordered the
dance floor.
Smiling, Dare tapped his foot and sipped
water, the bell of his upright clarinet resting on his
thigh. Occasionally, instinctually, he licked the
reed to keep it moist. A calm confidence displaced
his nervous tension. The day was awash in early-
autumn sunshine, the crowd seemed merry, and the
band had been ticking along like a fine Swiss
timepiece.
His past had no place here. With that
realization, his frame of mind shifted, squaring
itself. The pavilion was a family place full of low-
keyed fun, and he was making a singular
contribution to its ambience.
Dare had practiced “Fascination” like crazy,
alone and with Bob. The accordionist played the
first verse, the clarinetist played the first chorus,
then they played together for the second verse and
chorus while the drummer softly worked his snare
and cymbal with wire brushes. It was quite pretty
and was Dare’s favorite song with the Doodles.
He was looking forward to showing off his
long-buried musical talent.
As the “Too Fat Polka” ended, Dare got up to
join Bob at the front of the stage. Bob introduced
him to the audience, then intro’d the waltz and
began to play. No vocals; the song was lovelier
without them.
Seconds after the music began, Dare saw
something he hadn’t expected to see. Not in the
least. Not here. A young man about his age swept
past the low stage with an elderly woman in his
formally-positioned arms. For the briefest moment,
the dancer’s shamrock-green gaze caught the
clarinetist’s stare.
The guy wasn’t what Dare considered a
knockout. He was well groomed in a straitlaced
way, and his dance partner only intensified that
image. Maybe it was simply his gender and age
that set him apart. The only people under forty here
were kids, mostly little girls. There didn’t seem to
be another fit young man on the premises.
When Dare’s portion of “Fascination” came
up, his focus snapped back to the sheet music. His
tonguing was crisp. His fingering was sure. The
notes slid out of the clarinet like liquid copper,
with just the right tempo and subtle shifts in
volume. Toward the end of his section he looked
up again. His gaze immediately lit on the same guy
he’d noticed earlier.
Dare thought there was something vaguely
obscene about his eyes following the man’s
movement around the dance floor while he had his
lips tightened around a long, tubular object. He
ushered the notion out of his mind. In actuality, his
lips were tightened around a mouthpiece, which
wasn’t very phallic, and he was maintaining a
good embouchure. That had
never
been a
consideration when he’d had dick in his mouth. In
fact, a good embouchure would’ve been at odds
with a good blowjob.
Still, Dare couldn’t keep his mind out of the
gutter.
The waltz continued, lilting and poignant.
Dare didn’t have to keep his attention glued to the
music. He all but had it memorized. So he
continued to let his gaze stray to the twenty-
something male dancer.
Average face, average hair, average build.
Slender, and a little taller than Dare’s five-foot-
nine. Hm, maybe not entirely average. The guy
wore gray wool suit pants that made his ass look
like a million bucks—a delectably dirty million, at
least in Dare’s manloving eyes—and a tailored
trim-fit shirt in lilac. He knew how to emphasize
the lines of his body, no doubt about it, and knew
how to move with assurance and grace.
Assets aside, the dancer was hardly worth
Dare’s attention. In all likelihood he was some
uptight, boring-as-beet-juice straight dude. If he
wasn’t, he wouldn’t be here, looking like he’d just
come from church and leading an old woman
through an old waltz. He’d only caught Dare’s eye
because he was an anomaly in this place.
And because Dare was a tad horny.
The
band’s
first
break
came
after
“Fascination.” Dare had no idea if there was some
protocol for breaks—retreat to the kitchen,
socialize with the audience, creep out to the rear
parking area and smoke weed; what did he know?
—so he took his cues from the other members.
As Bob divested himself of Lucille, he leaned
toward Dare and mumbled, “Better head for the
potty, little boy. If you don’t want to be swamped
by fans, you can use the bathroom back in the
kitchen.”
“I assume you’re being facetious,” Dare said.
“And
I
assume you forgot what I told you
about using ten-dollar words around two-bit guys.”
Junior and Ernie had already headed for the
kitchen. Mad Max was at the bar, drinking
something on the rocks. Bob made for the tables,
all glad hands and grins. He wasn’t really a gruff
asshole, just liked to act the part when he wanted
to get some point across.
Dare didn’t feel like circulating. This was
hardly his natural milieu. After laying his clarinet
on a chair, he descended the stage steps to seek
refuge in the kitchen.
“Excuse me.” The voice was soft and
tentative. And male.
Dare turned his head to the left. Reflexively,
his eyebrows rose. Rich green eyes held his gaze.
“Just wanted to tell you what a great addition
you are to the band.” The young man,
that
young
man, immediately blushed. “I mean your clarinet
playing. The waltz sounded really nice.”
“Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.” The guy’s timid smile
was pretty damned charming. Not seductively so,
but warm and sincere. “Is this your first time here
or your first time playing with Bob’s band?”
Christ, he had arresting eyes. And skin so
smooth it seemed to lack pores and follicles—on
his face, anyway. His hair wasn’t the common
bark-brown it had at first seemed to be. Other
shades, lighter and darker, subtly wove through it.
Yeah, this was definitely somebody who
required more than a passing glance to be
appreciated.
“Both,” Dare said. “It’s my first time with
any
band. Since dropping out of college, I mean.”
Senses sharpening, he stuck out his hand. “I’m
Dare Boothe.”
The guy nodded. “I heard Bob introduce you.
Jonah Day.” His hand slipped into Dare’s. It was a
polite clasp, not manly, not wimpy. Certainly not
suggestive. “I take GG, my grandmother, out
dancing every weekend.”
“Ah.” One question answered. “That’s
considerate of you.”
“Well….” Jonah shoved his hands in his
pockets and turned at the waist to look behind him,
probably at his grandma. Dare snuck a quick look
at his ass. What a fine piece of scenery.
Damn
fine. Slim waist, too. “She’s done a lot for me,”
Jonah said, his tone weightier than before.
A mild restlessness shivered through Dare’s
groin. He had a fleeting fantasy of rubbing his
frontside against the taut, round swell of Jonah’s
backside. To banish the image, he glanced at the
older woman, who was dressed far less
conservatively than her grandson. When he
inadvertently caught her eye, he smiled and lifted a
hand. She mirrored the greeting.
He turned back to Jonah. “So, do you live
around here?”
“Not
too
far away. I live near GG so I can
sort of look after her. We’re in Wind Lake. It’s—”
Brightening, Dare jumped in. “I know where
it is. I live in Waterford.”
“Really?” Jonah grinned—almost, it seemed,
in spite of himself. “We’re practically neighbors.
Do you, uh, live alone, or with your parents, or
have a wife and family, or…?” He pulled in his
smile. “Not that it’s any of my business, of
course.”
Dare reassuringly cupped Jonah’s arm, but
just for a second or two. “No, no, that’s okay. I
live with my older brother. Our parents offered to
let us rent the house when our dad took a position
at a hospital in San Diego last year. The place had
been up for sale a few months without any offers,
so my folks figured it would benefit all of us if
Carver and I became their renters.”
“Good idea in
this
housing market.”
“Yeah, it worked out well for the whole
family.”
“You and your brother especially,” Jonah
said. “Waterford’s become pretty gentrified.”
“Sure has. I don’t exactly fit in.” Dare hoped
that might serve as a hint that he didn’t follow the
straight-and-narrow. Just in case Jonah might be
wondering.
Jonah appealed to him. That much was
apparent. Less clear was why. Many of the
customers and all the go-go boys at the Sugar
Bowl were countless degrees hotter. And they
were openly gay, which spared interested parties
that frustrating guessing game, Is He or Isn’t He?
They drank prodigiously, laughed loudly, and
never hesitated to make their intentions known.
Okay, so maybe that was precisely
why
Jonah
appealed to Dare. He clearly wasn’t a party
animal. And Dare hadn’t hooked up with anyone in
longer than he could remember.
“I should go back to GG,” Jonah said, gracing
Dare with another smile. “Didn’t mean to
monopolize your whole break.”
“You haven’t. And I appreciate the
encouraging words.”
He forced himself not to stare as Jonah
walked away. Shit. Still no closure on the gay or
straight issue.
As it turned out, Dare had plenty of time
before the next set. The band took leisurely breaks,
and the old folks in the pavilion didn’t seem