1 Dewitched (14 page)

“You’ve been delirious with a raging fever for over a week,” says the voice I heard in my dream.

“Thank goodness, it’s finally broken,” says a second one.

“You almost died, dear,” says a third.

 I blink my eyes several times. Slowly, everything comes into focus. I’m back at Faraway, lying in my bed. A vase of wild flowers sits on a stand next to me, and the Badass Fairies are hovering over me.

“You must have picked up something from that disease-ridden moat,” says Fairweather as she gently wipes my forehead with a damp cloth.

“I had to throw out my dress and bonnet!” tisks Fanta. “Flossie was able to repair the tears, but no matter how much I tried, I couldn’t get out the stains or that awful smell.” 

The events that have brought me here come back to me with the mad rush of a rockslide.

“You’re lucky that nasty crocodile we keep in the moat didn’t eat you alive,” adds Fanta.

There’s really a crocodile in the moat? I thought I was making that up when I gave Hook the brush off. Truth be told, I’d be better off dead than back here. I wish the crocodile had gotten me. Or The Huntsman had killed me.

I’m near tears when Winnie tiptoes into the room. She’s holding a tray with a tea caddy and cup. Her presence brightens my spirits a little.

“Hi,” I say feebly.

 She smiles at me. She looks different. Maybe my vision is still impaired. As she gets closer, I realize my eyesight’s just fine. She’s lost weight. She’s a lot thinner.

 “We’ll leave you two alone,” says Flossie. She and her sisters fly out the door. 

Winnie carefully sits down on my bed, placing the tray on the nightstand. She plumps another pillow under my head, then pours me a cup of tea. She holds it up for me. I feel like a helpless child.

 “I always give tea to my children when they’re sick. It makes them feel better.” Her soft voice spreads itself like a blanket on my chilled body.

I take a sip of the hot beverage. Chamomile. Elz’s favorite.

 “Where’s Elz?” I ask, sounding a little stronger. Her bed doesn’t look like it’s been slept in for a while.

“She’s gone.”

I bolt up, knocking the teacup out of Winnie’s hand. “She’s dead?”

 “No, no, Jane! She’s
not
dead! She’s gone back to Lalaland. The staff felt she was ready to start a post-rehab apprenticeship.”

My heart sinks. Elz is gone? I didn’t get a chance to say good-bye to her.

“You missed her going away party. It would have been more fun if you’d been there.” Winnie reaches into her pocket and hands me a folded up sheet of parchment. “Elz made this for you.” 

 I unfold it. Before me, is a childlike drawing of two smiley girls hugging each other, one very tall and thin with long brown hair and a bow; the other, not as tall or thin, with short dark hair and a crown. Below the picture, the words “BEST FRIENDS FOREVER” are printed in big block letters.

I burst into tears. “I wish I was dead!”

 “Jane, you must never say that!
Never!
” Winnie holds me close to her. “Let’s get some fresh air. It’ll do you good.” 

She helps me out of bed, letting me grip her body for support. Though I’m no longer in any pain, it takes all my effort to stand up. Clutching Winnie’s arm, I take my first step. My legs wobble. My body trembles. I’m much weaker than I thought.

As I limp down the corridor with the only friend I have left at Faraway, I feel something I haven’t felt since I was a little girl. Vulnerable. The Evil Queen, who once upon a time was not afraid to kill, is now afraid to die.

***

At lunch, a huge banner above the buffet welcomes me back. Everyone has signed it, except for Sasperilla. Rumpelstiltskin’s signature, written in large, ornate letters, sticks out like a sore thumb. He must really be proud of his name. I’m touched; it takes everything I have to hold back tears.

The best part of being back from the dead is that everyone’s so nice to me. They bring me my meal and volunteer to do my yucky chores. Even Hook’s on good behavior though I’m not sure how long that’ll last.

I’m surprised, to say the least, when Sasperilla sits down next to me and wraps one of her scrawny arms around my shoulders. Could she have she possibly become a new person while I was sick?

“I have a welcome back present for you,” she says.

With a wide smile, she dumps her plate of food on mine and then saunters off. Shame on me for thinking she could be nice. She’s just jealous I’ve lost weight from my illness.

After lunch, I retreat to my room. I’m still not well enough to go to group or meet with Shrink. Which is fine by me because I dread going to either.

 Slumped on the edge of my bed, I stare at the empty bed next to mine. God, I miss Elz. Her homely face. Her fashion-challenged bows. Even her annoying singsong voice and her “lalalas.” Who’s going to get me up in the morning? Those stupid birds probably won’t even show up now that she’s gone.

I suppose I should enjoy having the room to myself. It’s only a matter of time until I get a new roomie. A new loony who won’t replace my Elz. As I pull my covers over me, I take another look at the card she made.
“Best Friends Forever.”
Holding it next to my heart, I close my eyes.

CHAPTER 15

Lalala! To my surprise, the birds fly in the next morning and pull down my covers. Hello, my little feathered friends! I’m feeling much stronger. And I’m starving--guess I must have slept right through dinner last night.

After breakfast, I feel well enough to join the others for morning meditation. Our sun salutations make me even stronger. I’m ready to face Shrink.

The climb up to Shrink’s office isn’t easy for me. I have to stop several times to catch my breath. When I finally get there, she’s waiting for me. That’s a first.

“Jane, it’s good to see you,” she smiles. “You’ve been through an ordeal. Would you like to talk about it?” 

“Not really,” I say, collapsing onto the chaise. “I want to know when I’m getting out of here.” 

“That’s up to you, Jane.” Shrink does a figure eight across the room, then hovers over me.

“What do you mean?” 

“What I mean is that you have to want to get better.” 

“I do.” Surprisingly, I really mean it.

“Good. Then you must trust me. You must start opening up about your past so that I can understand the roots of your addiction and help you recover.” 

My past. The words run cold through my veins.

“For tomorrow, I’d like you to write down as much as possible of what you remember about your childhood. Where you were born. Your earliest memories. Your relationship with your father as well as--”

“My father?” I cut her off. “I don’t know who he is.”

 “Good. Include that detail. It’s important. And, of course, don’t forget about your relationship with your mother.” 

My mother!
My stomach knots up into a painful ball. Why can’t I just pretend she’s dead?

“You wrote on your assessment that your relationship with your mother was no one’s business. Well, it’s mine. I need to know about it.” 

I take a deep breath. I’m not sure if I can go through with this.

“We’re running out of time for today, Jane. Do you have any questions?” 

 “Why didn’t The Huntsman kill me?” My eyes tear up. “I deserved to die.”

 “No, Jane, you didn’t deserve to die. You deserved to
live.
That’s why he spared your life.” She pauses. “Did you know that he’s the one who committed you to Faraway?” 

The Huntsman committed me? 

The all-too-familiar chime sounds.

“Time’s up for today, Jane. I’ll see you here tomorrow.” She shoots out of the room, covering me in a cloud of fairy dust.

I linger on the chaise, unable to stop thinking about The Huntsman. Shrink practically made it sound like I should fall to my knees and thank him. Give me a break! The hatred I feel toward him cannot be put into words. There’s no one who’s more deliberately and underhandedly messed up my life. Not even Snow White. She couldn’t help being born beautiful.

***

After lunch at group, Grimm introduces two new members to me.

The first is a teenage boy in tan overalls named Pinocchio. I would actually call him beautiful if it wasn’t for his nose. It’s as long as a parsnip.

“Why are you here?” I ask.

The boy stares at me. His expressive brown eyes remind me of my puppy Bambi. “There’s nothing wrong with me,” he says.

He’s got to be kidding. Seriously, with a nose like that, he’s at least got to have girl problems. Suddenly, something happens that makes me almost fall off my chair. His nose grows three inches!

Grimm frowns. “Pinocchio, tell her the truth.”

“Okay, I’m a pathological liar. My father won’t stand for it anymore. So he sent me here.” 

To my astonishment, the boy’s nose shrinks considerably.

“Good, Pinocchio,” says Grimm. “You told Jane the truth.” 

Whoof! This place has gotten even more whacked. 

The other new member is a frail, silver-haired man in a formal frock coat and bow tie, who must be in his seventies.

“I’m the Wizard. The Great and Powerful Wizard of Oz!” he proclaims.

“Yo, Oz. Show Jane some of your magic tricks!” mocks Hook.

The elderly man’s face and body twitch. He flushes with embarrassment.

Sasperilla bursts out laughing. “Maybe we should call him ‘The Wizard of Spaz.’”

God! Can she get any meaner?

 “And, Sasperilla, we should call you ‘The Wicked Bitch of the West!’” says Hook.

“W-wicked Bitch! W-wicked Bitch!” chants Rump.

Go, Rump!
His words shut the scrawn up. My hero.

 To my surprise, Grimm moves the focus of the group on to me.

“Jane, would you like to share anything with us today?” 

Is he out of his mind too? What makes him think I now have a reason to share my life with these whackos? “Thanks, but no thanks.” 

“Fine. Does anyone have any questions for Jane?” 

Hook raises his missing hand. “So, babe, do you want to ‘hook up’ later?”

 That’s it. I’ve had it. It’s time to set him straight. “First, my name’s not ‘babe’; it’s Jane. And second, I’d rather make it with a one-legged stinky cheese man.”

 Stunned, Hook rocks back on his chair and topples over. He mutters a curse. Ha! Serves him right.

 “Group’s over for today,” announces Grimm.

Hallelujah! I can’t take a minute more of these pathetic losers. I’m going to work hard with Shrink to get out of Loserville once and for all.

***

After dinner, I return to my room and work on Shrink’s writing assignment. I have writer’s block. I can’t get started. Or maybe it’s more because I don’t want to. Okay, I admit it. I’m afraid of writing down my past.

  It’s a good thing there was a roll of parchment waiting for me. Each time, I begin with  “I was born,” I can’t write another word and tear up the sheet. There’s a mountain of shreds next to my bed.

I need a new approach to my life story. Wait! That’s it! I’ll try writing my life like a story. I start over again and the words flow.

Once upon a time, there was a little girl named Jane who lived alone with her poor but beautiful mother, Nelle. Little Jane was always curious about her father, but whenever she would ask her mother where he was, she would reply, “Who knows!”

On her fifth birthday, Jane’s mother handed her a rusty
,
old tin cup. Every day from that day on, she had to walk miles to the village square where she would
dance until her feet bled. Passersby dropped coins into her tin. When it was all filled up, she would limp back home. Her mother would take all the money and spend it on new clothes and makeup. She never bought Jane anything, not even a tiny toy.

The little girl’s mother had a large mirror that she kept in her bedroom. It was her favorite possession. She loved to look at herself in the shiny glass. Every night, she would dress up and admire her reflection. Then she would go out, leaving Jane all alone.

One night, Jane snuck into her mother’s room. She put on one of her mother’s pretty dresses and looked at herself in the mirror. “Mirror, mirror, on the wall. Who’s the fairest one of all?” she asked. To her delight, the mirror replied, “Your mother is fair, but her beauty is bland; You, My Queen, are the fairest in the land.”

Jane loved this game of make-believe. She secretly played it again and again. Then one evening,
her mother came home early and surprised her. “How dare you dress up in my beautiful clothes and look into my mirror!” she screamed. She beat Jane so hard that the little girl could not dance for weeks.

When Jane grew up, she married a King and became a Queen. She never had to worry about her mother or money. Ever again.

THE END

  I quickly reread my story. It’s perfect. I even got in the no-father detail. Shrink will be pleased. Exhausted, I crawl into bed, surprisingly looking forward to my session with Shrink in the morning. I’m one step closer to going home to my castle. And my magic mirror.

CHAPTER 16

After morning meditation, I’m stress-free and determined. All the better to see Shrink. I’m not going to let her get to me today, I promise myself as I head over to her office with my story in hand. Actually, I bet she’ll treat me with the respect I deserve now that I’m opening up about my past.