A Child of Jarrow (8 page)

Alexander followed, entranced. He had misjudged Polly. There was no sign of the retiring wallflower he had thought to so easily impress the night before. She was obviously far more at ease among horses than high society. They set off at a brisk trot.

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Aunt Lizzie helped Kate make ready for the evening, combing out her hair and fixing it up with combs and pins. Lizzie and Peter could not be persuaded to go, her aunt unable to walk the distance and her uncle happier to smoke a pipe at his front door than be made to dance.

‘You've lovely skin, our Kate,' Lizzie marvelled, stroking the softness of her cheek. ‘You've your da's fair face.'

Kate felt a stab of affection for her aunt for mentioning her long-dead father. Her own mother never talked of him for fear of riling John McMullen's jealousy. It was as if William Fawcett had never been. But now, by insisting on taking his name, Kate had reinvented herself and thrown off the yoke of being branded one of those unruly, boastful McMullens who fought with their neighbours and had been evicted more times than she could remember.

‘What was he like?' Kate asked softly. ‘Me da.'

Lizzie spoke with a hairpin between her teeth. ‘Gentle. Hard-working. Good with you bairns. Real family man like my Peter. A gentleman, I'd say. But proud of being a skilled working man.' She took the pin from her teeth and slid it into Kate's hair. ‘Never had good health, mind, poor lad.'

Kate mused. ‘I remember he used to take us by the hand and we'd run down the lane. He'd say, “Come on, lasses, catch the moon.” ‘ Her eyes shone at the memory. ‘And I remember him singing and playing the piano. Don't recall his face clearly, but I can still hear him singing.'

‘Aye, he had a grand voice - him and your mam - sang like birds.'

‘Mam an' all?' Kate asked in surprise.

Lizzie exclaimed, ‘Of course! Our Rose had a voice like an angel - just like yours.'

‘I never hear her sing.'

Lizzie grunted. ‘Aye, well, your mam hasn't had much to sing about these past years with old John.'

‘No,' Kate sighed, feeling a nagging guilt at how willingly she'd left her mother to cope with her boorish stepfather.

‘Now don't you go worrying your pretty head with thoughts of home,' Lizzie said, seeing her niece's worried look. ‘Tonight you're ganin' to the castle to enjoy yourself for once.'

Kate sprang up. She was to meet Suky at the gate to Farnacre at eight o'clock. She glanced quickly in the cracked mirror above her aunt's washstand. A pale oval face with large dark-lashed eyes stared back.

‘Ta for doing me hair,' she smiled, and smoothed down the pink and white calico dress that Lizzie had helped her make.

‘Hurry now,' her aunt said, hobbling after her on a stick. ‘I'll see to the lads.'

Kate found Suky waiting impatiently by the wrought-iron gate to the old hall.

‘Haway! It'll all be over if we don't get a move on.'

Kate laughed and linked her arm through her friend's. If John McMullen could see her now, he'd go off like one of last night's fireworks! Kate and the boys had gone out late to look at the cascade of bright colours showering the sky over the castle and marvelled at the distant sight of guests in fancy dress, but had been warned off by an officious footman from coming too close. Well, tonight it was their turn to have some fun.

Kate was amazed at the size of the servants' hall, where tables had been laid out with trenchers of meat and boiled potatoes, mounds of lettuce and radishes and steaming pies of cheese and potato. For pudding there were baked apples stuffed with raisins and jugs of custard, and wobbling jellies that sparkled in the overhead lights.

Even Suky seemed overawed as they squeezed on to a bench at the bottom of a long trestle table, the noise of chatter deafening around them. Jugs of beer were passed up and down the table. Suky tried some, but Kate wrinkled up her nose at the bitter smell. It reminded her too much of home and a familiar knot of tension gripped her insides.

Soon they were enlivened by food and were chattering with some of the kitchen maids around them. Halfway through the meal, the door at the far end opened and a well-dressed couple entered. Immediately a hush fell on the hall and everyone sprang to their feet. Kate craned for a view. An elderly gentleman in evening dress leaning on a stick made his way slowly down the length of the room, nodding and talking to people as he went. At his side, holding his arm, was a beautiful woman in a damson-coloured gown and strings of heavy pearls at her throat.

‘Lady Ravensworth,' Kate breathed, recognising the woman at once.

Suky looked at her in surprise.

‘Seen her before in the gardens,' Kate explained. She looked beyond to see if Master Alex might be with them too, but saw with disappointment that they were alone.

They came all the way down the hall, talking with all the staff, until finally they arrived at the bottom where the girls from the hall were standing.

Lady Ravensworth looked at them quizzically.

‘Are you new?' she asked them.

‘F-from Farnacre, ma'am,' Suky stammered, going puce.

She smiled at them. ‘Can you sing?'

‘Sing, ma'am?' Suky asked in confusion.

‘Yes. The Dowager loves to be sung to. It's all she understands now.'

‘Kate here's got a lovely singing voice, ma'am.'

Kate flushed, nudging her friend in embarrassment.

Lady Ravensworth eyed her, thinking how translucent the girl's skin was compared to the mottled complexions around her.

‘Sing me something, Kate,' she smiled in encouragement.

‘Now, ma'am?' Kate gulped.

Her Ladyship nodded.

Kate was suddenly aware of the silence all about. Lord Ravensworth had stopped speaking loudly to Miss Peters and people were glancing at Kate in sly amusement. She could tell some of them were willing her to make a fool of herself, the lowly laundry maid from the hall, with the Tyneside accent.

Kate lifted her chin. She would show them she could sing! Taking a deep breath, she began a song about the Waters of Tyne and a girl waiting for her sweetheart to return safely.

Unsure at first, Kate's voice soon found its strength and lifted high into the barrelled ceiling of the hall. The tender words rang out clear and melodious, needing no accompaniment. At the finish, the hall remained in silence as if wrapped in a spell. Then Lady Ravensworth clapped her gloved hands in delight and others followed her lead.

‘Well done, child,' she smiled. ‘You shall sing for His Lordship's mother.'

The earl nodded with a benign smile, then turned to move on.

Kate flushed deeper, only remembering to bob in curtsy after they had turned away.

When they had gone, Kate and Suky burst into giggles of relief. Everyone around them began to show more interest. Where on Tyneside did she come from? Had she had singing lessons? Kate laughed and shook her head.

‘Everyone from Jarrow sings!'

There were demands for more songs and Kate needed little encouragement. Soon there was a general sing-song up and down the hall. Only the Farnacre housekeeper, Miss Peters, pursed her mouth in tight disapproval.

‘She's no proper lady, that one,' she muttered. ‘Takes too much interest in the servants, if you ask me. I'll not have you bothering the dowager with your noise, whatever that one says.'

Suky pulled Kate away. ‘Don't listen to her,' she whispered. ‘She hates it when folk enjoy themselves. Never approved of Lord Ravensworth remarrying, so they say.'

Later they went out to the stable courtyard from where the carriages had been moved to make room for dancing. It was a fine night and music from a fiddler filled the air. Kate threw herself into the dancing. In the semi-dark and confusion she became separated from her friend. She danced with several of the stable boys and a gardener's son she recognised. Then the musicians struck up a polka and someone grabbed her hand in the dark.

She turned laughing to find herself staring up at Alexander. Before she could say anything he was sweeping her away in the lively dance, her feet almost flying off the uneven flagstones. Her heart pounded as they twirled so fast everyone else around them was a blur. All she was aware of for those brief minutes was the grip of his hand on hers and the feel of his strong arm supporting her back. Kate hardly dared look into his face, so amazed was she to find herself in his arms.

‘I thought I'd imagined you,' he laughed, ‘a nymph from the woods with her basket of berries.'

Kate stole a look at him. His eyes glinted with merriment.

‘But you are real,' he grinned. ‘I can feel you are quite real.'

Kate smiled but could think of nothing to say.

‘And now I know you have the voice of a nightingale.'

She shot him a look.

‘Yes, I heard you sing for Lady Ravensworth.'

‘I never saw you!'

He scrutinised her blushing face. ‘Were you looking for me?'

Kate bit her lip and laughed in confusion.

‘I hope that's a yes.' He held her closer for a moment so that she could feel the warmth of his breath on her forehead, then the dance finished and he let her go.

Alexander bowed and then he was gone, melting through the throng of dancers and drinkers and disappearing under the arch of the clock tower. Kate stood with thumping heart, peering after him, wondering if she had imagined the magical dance. What was he doing at such a party? Why had he suddenly appeared at her side and swept her into a polka? Had he been dancing with others or had he singled her out? It was like being given a sip of water when parched; she yearned for more.

But he was nowhere to be seen. Maybe he had come on a whim, a diversion from a dull evening after the grandeur of last night's ball. It couldn't have meant anything to him, yet it left her feeling bereft.

Suky found her. ‘Who was that you were dancing with?'

Kate looked longingly over the crowd. ‘A lad from the castle.'

‘Didn't look like a servant to me,' Suky snorted. ‘One of the guests having a bit fun, more like.'

‘Aye,' Kate admitted.

‘Well, you watch out for that sort,' she warned. ‘Fancy silks and common serge don't mix in the poss tub.'

Kate gave her a shove of annoyance. ‘You and your washing! I was just having a dance.'

Suky gave her a knowing look. ‘Aye, well, don't say I didn't warn you.' She saw Kate's wistful look and took her by the arm. ‘Haway, it's not over yet. Let's find a couple of footmen and have another jig.'

Chapter 8

The summer flew by for Kate. The days were spent working at Farnacre and the evenings helping her aunt at the cottage, with trips to the gardens with her uncle. As autumn arrived, they were frantically busy harvesting vegetables and filling the store houses. Turnips and cabbages were laid in sand in the cellars, while apples and pears were carefully placed in airy lofts to keep right through to Easter.

Kate helped knit together pungent onions into garlands, which were hung in the sheds along with carrots and parsnips. Peter nurtured his stores of fruit like a nurse, inspecting them daily, rooting out rotten pieces, setting traps for rats and sweeping out cobwebs. When frosts came, he would cover his crop with blankets or moss. Cherries were layered in hay and sealed in air-tight boxes; grapes were stored in earthenware jars with dry oats and sealed with pitch and beeswax.

At the hall there was a busy making of jams, preserves and syrups, of pickling cucumbers and drying out apples, quinces and artichoke hearts for cooking in winter stews and pies.

Kate enjoyed the work and the changing seasons, though she was never asked to sing for the dowager. Lady Ravensworth appeared to have forgotten her request at the servants' ball. She had probably never given it a second thought. Kate did not mind, though for her that night was still crystal clear months later. She would never forget the brief dance with Master Alex or the feel of being held in a man's arms.

Her only sorrow was that she had not seen him since. After several weeks of vainly looking out for him, she realised he must have left the estate. She neither knew what business had brought him to Ravensworth, nor where he had gone. Once she asked about him when she and Suky were needed to help in the castle laundry. It was a cold winter and an outbreak of influenza laid low half the castle staff.

‘You must mean Mr Pringle-Davies,' Hannah, a housemaid, preened. ‘I laid his fire and brought his hot water.'

‘Aye, that's the one,' Kate said eagerly. ‘Where's he gone?'

‘What's it to you?' Hannah sniffed.

‘Just asking,' Kate blushed.

‘The Davieses live in the south of the county - least that's where his letters came from.' Hannah gave a satisfied look, as if pleased with her detective work.

‘So he's not one of the family then?' Kate persisted.

‘No. The Davieses are coal agents. But Mr Pringle-Davies seems to spend his time drawing - pictures all over his room. Once asked if he could draw me laying the fire! Doesn't act like a man of business, that one.'

An older parlour maid joined in. ‘I've heard it said he's a fortune-hunter,' Lily whispered as they hurriedly finished their tea. ‘Very close to Her Ladyship - too close, some say. Waiting for the old earl to pass on.'

Hannah pulled a scandalised face.

‘Aye,' Lily nodded, ‘bit of a one for the ladies.'

Hannah clucked. ‘And to think I let him draw me!'

Kate and Suky exchanged looks but said nothing as they cleared their tea plates in the large kitchen. Later, Suky commented, ‘Told you to put him out your mind. Whatever interest he might show in lasses like us it won't come to any good. Got his eyes set on Lady Ravensworth - fancy that!'

‘That's just castle tittle-tattle,' Kate snorted, but said no more. Whether any of it was true was nothing to do with her. He was so far out of her reach that she was foolish even to give him a second thought, let alone the hours of daydreaming she had wasted. So she put the mysterious Alexander from her mind and determined to look for a suitor among the estate staff like her Aunt Lizzie had done.

There was tall, serious-faced Robert, the head gardener's son, who worked hard in all weathers, or Tommy, one of the friendly stable lads who was always cheerful and telling jokes. She had danced with them both in the summer and sat near them at the harvest festival service at Lamesley parish church, which the Liddells attended. Tommy would be more fun, but Robert a better catch, diligently learning his craft from his father. Kate determined to impress him by offering to sweep out the store houses and feed the gardeners' cats that kept down the threat of mice in the sheds.

Suky became her ally in romance and was happy to spend snatched moments of freedom walking by the stables or potting sheds and exchanging a few words with the lads. On their fortnightly day off the girls would dress in their best and go down to St Andrew's church in Lamesley for the morning service, then walk up the hill to the mining village of Kibblesworth where Suky's family lived.

Kate loved the cosy fug in the squat cottage and the smell of roasting meat and the steam puddings that Suky's mother made. Suky had two younger brothers just recently started down the pit and a younger sister who demanded they play hopscotch as soon as they arrived. Suky's parents were kind and welcoming, and Kate envied her friend such a haven to which to return.

She felt guilty that she had never been home to Jarrow once since leaving in July, but had written to her mother that it was too far to travel for a day off. She would not get back by nightfall on these short dark days, she told them. She would wait until she could arrange two days off and come and see them, maybe near Christmas.

Kate received no letters back, but did not expect them. Her mother could barely write and she imagined Mary refusing to on her behalf, just out of awkwardness. No news probably meant that everything was fine.

She shuddered to think what her stepfather would say if he knew how she spent her free time, attending an Anglican church and sitting down to eat in a pitman's house. He would curse her into next week! Even though he never darkened a church door, John would fight to defend his Catholic faith and take a belt to any of his family who dared do anything else. As for miners and their families, to John they were dirty and rebellious and not to be trusted. How often had Kate heard him blame all their ill fortune and the slumps in trade on the miners? Even bad weather seemed to be the fault of the miners or the Protestants, or more usually both. Kate felt a defiant thrill of rebellion that she could do as she wanted at Ravensworth and her ranting stepfather was none the wiser.

Christmas came, but Kate never went home. She and Suky helped decorate Farnacre with streamers and glittering baubles, and a large Christmas tree with candles and gaudy paste bells. There was a generous Christmas dinner in the week before the day itself for the estate staff up at the castle to which they went, and every one of them received a present from the Liddells - small bars of soap, combs, mittens, handkerchiefs or ribbon.

Lizzie was walking properly again, but Kate insisted on cooking their Christmas dinner and roasting chestnuts in the dying embers of the fire. On Boxing Day it snowed, so she did not venture to Kibblesworth with Suky, but stayed and sledged on sacks with George and Alfred. They ended up in a snowball fight with Robert, and Kate thought with a brief pang of guilt how Jack would have enjoyed such an afternoon. How was her young half-brother faring this Christmas? She would go home soon.

Then suddenly, in the middle of January, the dowager died in her sleep. The estate was plunged into mourning and Kate's happy world was shaken.

“What'll happen to us?' Suky asked.

Kate shrugged in despair. If the house was closed, she would have no option but to return to Jarrow. Lizzie was well again and without the job at the hall there would be no excuse to stay.

For a month they carried on working at Farnacre while lawyers and estate managers came and went, assessing the contents and itemising the furniture. Suky and Kate were set to scrubbing the place from the attics to the cellars and packing away china and linen, which was carried off to the castle or to auction. Eventually the dustsheets were drawn over the remaining furniture and the life seeped out of the hall like the bleak, chill dead days of January.

At the end of the month, Miss Peters, the housekeeper, told them with a note of satisfaction that they would only be employed for a further week. She and Cook would be staying on to keep an eye on the place, but the young women would not be needed.

Suky pulled a face behind the woman's back. ‘Least we won't have to see her miserable face every morning,' she muttered out of earshot.

The next day Suky disappeared.

‘Gone home,' Cook told Kate.

‘She never said goodbye,' Kate said, feeling hurt.

‘Doesn't stand still long enough for goodbyes,' Cook grunted. ‘Heard of a job down at the Ravensworth Inn. Told me to tell you. Don't want to work in a place like that,' she added in disapproval.

Kate knew the place; they had passed it often on their way up to Kibblesworth. It was a lively coaching inn, busy with passing trade and miners supping in the bar on pay day. On high days and feast days, staff from Ravensworth were known to quench their thirst there too. Compared to the pubs around Jarrow in which her stepfather spent his evenings, the local inn looked a palace, but Kate said nothing to Cook.

Feeling down at heart, Kate rolled up her sleeves and got on with the meagre pile of washing - a tablecloth, aprons and a handful of towels. Later, as she pegged them out in the raw air, she comforted herself by singing. A fluffed-up thrush sat on the nearby water barrel and listened to her mournful song, ‘Thora', of a lost land of stars and happiness. She would look back on these golden months at Ravensworth with the same deep longing as she felt in the bitter-sweet song.

Only when she had finished did she become aware of someone pausing in the shadow of the courtyard gateway. The figure moved forward and Kate saw the strained, pale features of Lady Ravensworth, a fur cape pulled about her black silk mourning dress. Kate bobbed in curtsy.

‘What beautiful singing,' the countess smiled. ‘I've heard you before, haven't I?'

‘Yes, ma'am,' Kate nodded, ‘at the summer ball - for the servants, ma'am.'

‘Of course. You were going to sing for Her Ladyship,' Lady Ravensworth recalled. ‘Did you ever sing for her?'

Kate shook her head.

‘What a pity.' She stepped across the icy cobbles.

‘Watch your step, Your Ladyship!' Kate cried in alarm, rushing forward to support her. ‘It's slippy as fish round here.'

Emma laughed, then checked herself. ‘Oh, dear. I know we're all supposed to be so sad and solemn, but it is nice to hear someone singing for a change. It's so depressing up at the castle, everyone draped in black like crows. It's not as if Her Ladyship didn't have a good and happy life.'

Kate stared, embarrassed. Fancy Lady Ravensworth talking so candidly to her, a laundry maid!

‘Oh, I'm sorry, I'm making you feel awkward.' Emma smiled, and patted Kate's pink cheek. ‘It's just I've done my fair share of dressing in black.' She did not elaborate, just sighed and pulled her cape about her.

‘Aye, it's sad for us all,' Kate blurted out. ‘I've been that happy working here.'

The older woman eyed her in surprise. ‘Aren't you staying?'

‘No, ma'am. Not needed now the house is being closed up.'

‘What will you do?'

Kate's shoulders drooped. ‘Gan back to Jarrow and look for work.'

‘Is that where you're from?'

Kate nodded.

‘Isn't that strange?' Emma declared. ‘The earl's family had a connection with that town. His Lordship's cousin Edward was the rector of Jarrow for several years. Perhaps you've heard of him, Canon Liddell?'

Kate shook her head, then remembered. ‘There's a dispensary named after a Liddell, mind.'

‘No doubt that was for Edward - such a kind, dear man. He came to our wedding. Was very frail by then. They say Jarrow killed him - worked himself into an early grave. Such a nice wife too.'

‘I'm sorry,' Kate said, feeling in some way implicated. ‘Jarrow's a hard place. Me own father died young too.'

‘Poor girl!' Emma exclaimed, her delicately boned face creased in concern. Suddenly she made up her mind. ‘You can't go back to that town - I won't allow it! If they don't need you here, you'll come and work at the castle. Yes, you'll brighten up all the long faces with your singing! Promise me you'll sing while you work?'

Kate gawped in astonishment. Was she really being offered a lifeline at the last moment? Or was this just another of Her Ladyship's whims that she would forget by nightfall?

‘I'll sing as much as you want, ma'am,' she said quickly.

Lady Ravensworth laughed. ‘Splendid! I'll speak to Miss Peters now - she can arrange it all.' She waved her cloak in the direction of the hall. Kate followed, stuttering her thanks.

As an afterthought, Her Ladyship asked, ‘What is your name, child?'

‘Kate, ma'am,' she smiled proudly, ‘Kate Fawcett.'

Two days later, to the resentment of some servants who thought her a brazen upstart, Kate began at the castle as a housemaid, cleaning out fires and carrying pails of water with Hannah. She ignored the callous comments about her lowly origins and smothered her Jarrow accent as best she could, aping the more refined speech of the parlour maids. And she hummed and sang as she worked.