A Forbidden Love (The Forbidden Series) (17 page)

“Wow,
what are you gonna do?”

“I
don’t know, I called Allan back and went to see him. I forgot I promised to
come back over and tried to weasel my way out of it. He reamed me a new one,
told me I still better come over, and then he pulled an ultimatum on me, too. I
just can’t
fucking
win with either of them.”

“Maybe
you should take a break from the both of them. Go straight to work and back, no
dates! Hopefully you’ll be able to clear your mind and make a decision. Just
follow your heart and figure out who truly deserves to have you.”

“You’re
such a girl. Don’t get all sappy on me Nik! That was a good idea though. I’ll
try to ignore them, it’ll definitely be hard I won’t lie, but I’ll see how I
feel in a couple days.”

“Good,
now enough about the male drama in your life, let’s swallow a pint of this
frozen chocolate, and watch movies
til
the sun comes
up!” We laughed all night long, watching a ton of Adam Sandler movies. Lacey
pounded on the door a few times telling us to shut up, but after one A.M she
gave up the fight.

Nikki
took my phone in case one of them called. She was determined not to let me talk
to either of them until I knew for sure who I wanted to be with. I could feel
the vibration of my phone on my
bed,
she looked at it
and shook her head.

“That’s
the third time he’s called.”

“Who?”

“Allan.
I clicked him off the first two times, but he’s a persistent bastard.”

“Maybe
I-.”
Nikki interrupted me.

“No!
You will not even dream about talking to them while I’m here. I know I can’t
help much outside of your apartment, but you will learn some damn self
control.”

“Alright,
alright!
Calm down, mom!”

Nikki
left my house first thing in the morning. Neither of us slept a wink, but being
around my best friend and downing a tub of forbidden chocolate ice cream
together always cheered me up.

Three
days had passed and my voicemail was full of pleading and begging from both
Allan and Lance. It was flattering at first, but then it became downright
annoying. I went to work that night and a short four hour shift later, I walked
back to my car through the dark parking lot.

“Hey,
hey!”

The
voice sounded very familiar but it was too dark to see who it was coming from.

“Ice,
it’s me.”

“Allan?”

“Yeah
it’s me. You hadn’t returned any of my calls so I came down to make sure you
weren’t dead. One of your co workers told me you’d be in, so I waited around.”

“How
did you get here?”

“I
borrowed a car from someone.”

“I
see, well I’m fine, you can go now.”

He
ran from the darkest part of the lot and shut my car door, while I was opening
it.

“Al,
what the hell is wrong with you?”

“I
fucking love you Alecia Moore, that’s what’s wrong with me. I didn’t want it to
come to this, me stalking you at work, but its killing me not being able to see
you when I want.”

“Okay,
well you saw me, can I go home now?”

“Look
at me, look me right in my fucking eyes and tell me you want me to go,” he said
while tightly grasping my shoulders.

I
looked him square in the face, his eyes were lifeless, his skin was pale, and
he looked like he hadn’t shaven in weeks.

“Al,
I want you to go. I haven’t made my decision yet.”

“Fine
I’ll go.”

It
broke my heart to hear him say that. I cried the whole drive home, but I had to
stay strong. If he was truly my soul mate then we’ll be back together in a few
days and things would return back to normal. Lacey was sitting in front of our
new entertainment center when I got home. I was hoping she’d be asleep or in
her room so she wouldn’t see me a blubbering mess.

“What’s
wrong, Alecia?”

I
sat down on our brown leather sofa right beside her and said, “I don’t know
Lacey. I’ve tried to stay strong, I really have but, staying away from the two
people that have made such an impact in my life is killing me. Al showed up at
my job tonight. He looked so pitiful, like he lost his best friend. I broke
down on the drive home after I told him to leave.”

“Is
there turmoil between you two? Why aren’t you seeing him anymore?”

“Long
story short, I’ve caught feelings for Lance and Allan found out. Now they both
have given me ultimatums and are forcing me to decide between them.”

“Sounds
rough.
If you want my honest opinion, I say you choose Al. Every time you mention his
name you glow, when I see you in school after a night out with him, you’re
beaming with joy. With Lance, you seem happy, but judging by the fancy car I
see you speed away in, I can tell things with him are more materialistic.”

“Thanks
Lace, I really needed to hear that. Have a goodnight.”

“Night.”

She
was
right,
Al and I didn’t go many places, but just
being in his company made me so happy. I always felt at home with him, I felt
safe. Lance was sweet, caring, and definitely spoiled me but, I didn’t feel as
strong of a connection with him. I called him right away to deliver the news.

“Lance,
I’ve made my decision.”

“Alecia,
it’s two in the morning.”

“I
know but I did a lot of soul searching, and as much as it pains me to tell you
this, I can’t see you anymore. You’re a great guy but my heart belongs to
another.”

“Allan?”

“Yes.”

“If
that’s what you really want, it sucks that I didn’t make the cut, but as long
as you’re happy with your decision I’m happy. If things ever change, you know
how to reach me. Goodbye, Alecia.”

“Bye.”

Even
‘breaking up’ with him, he was still a sincere sweetheart. I wasn’t ready to
tell Al my decision yet, because the image of him in the parking lot replayed
over and over in my mind and I hated it. I hope to never see him look like that
again.

I
distracted myself with Photoshop and made a small collage of my grandmother and
me. I printed it out, cut it into a little heart shape, and super glued my
creation inside of the locket. On the left was a picture of her and me as a
little girl at my third birthday party. She had straightened my curls, and
baked me a homemade cake with food colored pink frosting, and edible happy
birthday letters on top. It was the best thing I had ever eaten. The right side
was of her and I right before she went into the hospital. Even on her death
bed, that woman was photogenic.

She
had jet black hair with silver-
ish
gray streaks
splitting from the crown of her head, all the way around to the back of her
infamous single braided ponytail. She was short and fair skinned, wore thick
bifocals with a thin gold frame, and was always there for me. If it wasn’t for
her buying me my first computer as a kid, I wouldn’t be the art nerd I am
today.

“I’ll
never take this off again, Tina, I miss you so much.” I said aloud while
tightly squeezing the locket in my palm.

I
could hear the birds chirping outside my window and knew the sun was about to
rise. I opened my curtains and waited for the sun to appear. A bright orange
sphere slowly arouses from behind a bundle of trees and enhanced everything the
rays touched. The trees were greener, the sky was a mixture of light blue and
orange tones, and the clouds went from dark to light. I’ve never actually sat
and enjoyed the sun rise before, but it was an amazing sight to see. It cheered
me up a lot feeling the warm rays brush against my skin through my window.

It
was almost seven in the morning when the sun fully raised into the sky; I knew
then, that I had to call Allan. He needed to know how I felt and that I never
meant to hurt him, and never will again.

“Hello?”
he said, with a raspy voice.

“Allan,
I choose you!”

“Wait,
what, who is this?”

“Who
else would it be?”

“I’m
sorry I came to see you last night. I had to, before I did something I’d
regret”

“What
do you mean before you did something you’d regret?”

“I
thought about calling Stacey over last night, but I got drunk instead.”

“So,
because I needed time to think about a situation that
you
put me in, you
almost called your ex? But instead you got completely obliterated? Maybe I made
a mistake choosing you.”

“You
didn’t make a mistake, it was just a thought, and I didn’t go through with it,
so calm the fuck down.”

“Whatever.”

“Get
over here right now.”

“No.”

“Now,
Ice”

“Now,
why?”

“Because
this is bullshit, and I need to teach you a lesson.”

“You’re
a pig.”

“So?
I’ll make it worth the ride.”

My
nipples hardened under my thin white cami, and the warmth of desire burnt
between my legs. I needed him; I needed to feel his love tool inside of me.

I
stopped and picked up a caramel frappe for the ride over. I hadn’t slept all
night and I needed energy for the fate that awaited me in Auburn.

I
arrived at his house a bundle of nerves, because once inside, I became his and
there was no turning back now. The side door was left open and I went inside
straight to his bedroom.

He
was sitting on his bed shirtless, leaning against the wall, with a thin white
sheet stretched across his lower body.

“Shut
the door, and take off all your clothes.”

I
casually removed my jeans, sweater, and cami, waiting for his next request.

“Now,
what?”
I said, standing there bra-less with only my white lace panties on.

He
ripped the sheet off his lap and walked over to me. Shoving me against the
door, he placed my hands above my head and licked my neck, while using his free
hand to feel around underneath my panties.

“I
told you to take
all
of your clothes off,” he said, while biting the
side of my neck.

Soft
moans began to escape my lips, which fueled him even more. He picked me up over
his shoulder, just like the 2x4’s I had seen him handle at his job, and laid me
down on the bed. Sliding the lace onto the floor, his tongue greeted the inside
of my thighs. He had an amazing tongue and I was prepared to release all over
it.

He
pleasured me until I saturated the side of his bed, forcefully inserted his
firm dick inside of me, and began smacking his body between my legs.

I
wrapped my arms around his neck and held on tightly while he went balls deep
inside of me. He walked us over to the doorway and slammed my head up against
the door. Ramming his erection in and out of me and lightly sucking on my erect
nipples until I let out several loud moans. My body trembled, craving more and
more of him. I loved the warmth of his bare skin against mine, and the passion
in his eyes while he brought me pleasure.

Laying
me down on the floor, he stretched my arms above my head, and placed his other
hand firmly around my neck. My pelvis was tilted against his which changed the
sensation. He had never gone that deep before, and the sudden urge to release
was stronger and more explosive than ever. His body shook as he let out several
rough moans, and collapsed on the floor next to me.

“That
was the best sex I’ve ever had, Ice. You make me want to fuck to the brink of
pure exhaustion.”

I
smiled and kissed him on his chin. “There’s more where that came from later, if
you’re lucky.”

“Lucky?
If I want it you’ll give it to me, always.”

“I
know, and that’s why I love you Mr. Shaw.”

He
gazed into my eyes and I could see the life came back into them. He needed me
just as much as I needed him. He looked around my neck and noticed the locket I
was wearing.

“Where’d
ya
get that?”

“Lance
gave it to me.”

“Oh,
I see, well it’s nice I guess.”

I
opened the locket to reveal the pictures of my grandmother inside. “This is why
I wear it, other than him giving it to me, I don’t think of it as a reminder of
him.”