A Not So Respectable Gentleman? (2 page)

It read:

Dear Leo,

No time to write a proper note. I meant to be there in person, but Father will explain it all.

Wishing nothing but good to you,

Mariel

It was written in her hand. The paper even smelled of her.

He crushed it in his fist.
Father will explain it all.

‘I'm sorry, boy,' Covendale said quietly.

The fire roared inside him again and flames filled his vision.

The special licence. Mariel's absence. Her note.

His failure.

There was no more denying it. She'd chosen respectability over him. A legitimate husband over a bastard one. And, without knowing, a wealthy man over a failure.

‘I do not know what else to say to you,' Covendale said.

Leo barely heard him.

He thought about losing his horses, his stable. Losing Mariel was a thousand times worse. The pain was so intense he had to fight to remain upright. It was as if his insides were consumed by flames and what was left was ashes, a void that never could be refilled.

Respectability be damned. Stud farm be damned.

What had all his conscientious behaviour and hard work brought him? A pile of cinders.

Being jilted by Mariel.

He forced himself to rise to his full height. ‘You are correct, sir. There is nothing more to say.' He nodded to Covendale. ‘Good day.'

Leo turned and strode out of Covendale's library, out of the town house, into the grey afternoon drizzle.

And the emptiness that was now his life.

Chapter One

June, 1828—two years later

L
oud pounding forced Leo from a dead sleep.

He opened his eyes and was stabbed by a sliver of sunlight, harbinger of a fine spring London day. He clapped his hands to his head.

Too much brandy. Now he was paying the price.

More pounding. A caller at his door.

Why the devil did Walker not send them away?

Walker was Leo’s valet, but likely not out of bed himself. He and Leo had engaged in a bout of celebratory drinking after Leo returned from the card tables the previous night.

Walker might act as Leo’s valet, but he looked nothing like a gentleman’s gentleman. He’d been a ruffian from the Rookerie, caught by circumstance in Paris and hungry for a new life. Leo encountered him by accident and they had become more than gentleman and gentleman’s man. They’d become friends...and now business partners.

The pounding resumed and Leo could just make out the voice of a man demanding to be admitted.

He groaned and roused himself from the bed, searching around the room for the clothes he’d shed the night before. The sound stopped and he sat back on the bed. Excellent. Walker would deal with it. Send the caller away.

Once, Leo would have been up and out to his stables at dawn. He’d have done a half day’s work by this hour. He rubbed his face. That had been an age ago. A different lifetime. Being in London brought back the memory, but he’d carved out a new life for himself—from very rough rock, he might add—but it was a life that suited him surprisingly well.

Walker knocked and entered his bedchamber. ‘Your family calls.’

His family? ‘Which ones?’

‘All of them.’

All six? His brothers
and
his sisters? ‘What the devil do they want?’

‘They would not tell me,’ Walker replied.

Leo ran his hand through his hair. ‘Why didn’t you make some excuse? Say I was out?’ It did Leo no credit that he’d avoided them for the fortnight he’d been in town, but he’d been busy. Besides, they’d never understand the direction his life had taken while he’d been away.

Walker cocked an eyebrow. ‘I thought it unwise to engage in fisticuffs with a duke, an earl and one tiny, growling dog.’

Good God. His sister Charlotte brought one of her pugs.

‘Very well. I will see them.’ He pulled his shirt over his head. Walker brushed off his coat with his hand.

Leo’s siblings had, no doubt, come with help to offer and would scold him for his behaviour, which had taken a downward path since last he’d been in London, although he trusted they’d never know the half of it. Let them believe the stories about him, that Leo was as much a libertine as his father had once been, but they would not know that Leo had faced situations their father would never have imagined facing.

He shoved his arms into the sleeves of the coat and pulled on his boots. ‘I have the feeling I will not enjoy this.’

He left the bedchamber and entered the sitting room.

His brothers and sisters immediately turned to him. They stood in a circle. In fact, they’d even rearranged his seating into a circle.

‘Leo!’ Nicholas spoke first. As duke, he was head of the family. ‘Good morning.’

Charlotte’s pug yapped from under her arm.

Justine rushed over to him, clasping both his hands. ‘Leo, how good it is to see you. You look dreadful.’ She touched his cheek and spoke with some surprise.

‘Indeed.’ Brenner joined her.

He must look a sight. Unshaven. Rumpled clothes. Bloodshot eyes.

Brenner searched his face. ‘Are you unwell?’

‘Not at all,’ Leo replied. ‘Late night.’

Brenner and Justine comprised the most complex of his unusual sibling relations. She was his half-sister by his father, and Brenner, now Lord Linwall, was his half-brother by his mother. They were married to each other. Their love affair happened right after Leo’s parents died.

Brenner flashed him one more worried look before wrapping his arms around Leo in a brotherly hug. The others swarmed around him. Charlotte burst into tears and wept against his chest. Nicholas and Stephen slapped him on the back. Even the pug raced around his feet and tried to jump up his legs. Only Annalise held back, but that was typical of her. She was observing the scene and would probably make a painting of it and call it
The Return of the Prodigal Son.

Only he had no intention of returning to the well-meaning bosom of his family. He was just passing through, literally waiting for his ship to come in.

‘What are you doing here?’ he managed to ask.

Nicholas clapped his hands. ‘Come. Let us all sit and we will tell you.’

One of the chairs was set just a little inside the circle. That was the one they left for him.

Nicholas leaned forwards. ‘We are here out of concern for you.’

Of course they were. ‘Concern?’ They intended to fix things for him. Take care of him as they’d always done.

‘We are so afraid for you, Leo!’ Ever the dramatist, Charlotte punctuated this with a sob. ‘What will become of you?’ Her dog jumped onto her lap and licked her face.

This was all nonsense. ‘What the devil are you talking about?’

Nicholas spoke. ‘You are spending your time drinking, womanising and gambling.’

He certainly looked the part this morning.

‘It won’t do,’ Nicholas went on. ‘It is time you found some direction in your life.’

‘Some useful occupation,’ Stephen explained.

‘Before it is too late,’ Charlotte added.

It appeared that rumours of his rakish living had preceded him. To be sure, he often stayed up all night playing cards, but he womanised hardly at all and actually drank very little.

Except for this morning.

They could not know of his more clandestine dealings, one that nearly got him killed, and others that skirted the law and earned him a great deal of wealth.

Leo started to rise from his seat. ‘I assure you, I am well able to handle myself.’

Brenner, who was seated next to him, put a hand on his shoulder and silently implored him to stay in the chair.

He sat back down. ‘Do not trouble yourselves about me.’

‘But we do,’ whispered Annalise. ‘I mean, we
must
trouble ourselves.’

Brenner took on a tone of reasonableness. ‘We understood your need to get away, to travel. It was good for you to see something of the world, but now—’

‘Now you are just drinking and gaming,’ Justine broke in. ‘You avoid the family. You avoid healthy pursuits.’

How easily they believed the worst of him. And how readily they assumed it was their job to fix him.

‘You cannot know my pursuits.’ He gritted his teeth.

‘Oh, yes, we can.’ Nicholas levelled his gaze at him. ‘We have ways of finding out everything.’

Not everything, Leo thought. They obviously knew nothing about his investments. He’d wager a pony that they had never heard of what he and Walker had been through. And they’d never known the real reason he had fled England, why he still had no use for London society.

One after the other they begged him to change his life, to abandon his pursuit of pleasure. They implored him to
care
about something again, to invest his hopes and dreams in something.

He ought to tell them, but the shipment of goods he was expecting was not precisely done to the letter of the law. Not that it would hurt anyone.

‘The thing is...’ Nicholas glanced towards Brenner, who nodded approval. ‘We have a surprise for you.’

Stephen moved to the edge of his seat. ‘We’ve rebuilt the stable at Welbourne Manor! And the outbuildings. Bigger and better than before. It is all ready for you. Complete with a fine breeding pair from my stables, already in residence at the Manor. Say the word—today, if you like—and I’ll take you to Tattersall’s to buy more horses. If you need money—’

Leo felt the blood rush to his face. ‘No.’

Charlotte piped up. ‘Nothing has changed at Welbourne Manor. Even the servants are the same. Halton, Signore Napoli, Thomas—’

‘It is waiting for you,’ Justine added. ‘What do you say, Leo?’

Leo regarded each of them in turn. ‘I sold Welbourne Manor to all of you. It is not mine any more. I no longer wish to breed horses. And I am not staying.’

‘Leo—’ Brenner began.

‘No.’ He spoke firmly. ‘I do not need help. And I especially do not need for you to tell me what to do.’

‘We are not...’ Brenner protested.

It was no use to explain to them. He did not need them to help him. He did not need anyone. He’d proven it to himself. He had left the country after losing everything, and, almost out of nothing, built a solid fortune. Without a good name. Without top-lofty connections. What’s more, he no longer sought the good opinion of the
ton.
He’d discovered self-reliance was more valuable than what society thought of him.

‘I refuse to discuss this further.’ Leo kept his voice firm. ‘If you continue, I will walk out the door.’ He softened. ‘Tell me about yourselves. How are you faring? How many nieces and nephews do I have? I confess to have lost count.’

He only half listened as they proudly filled him in on their children, their lives. When they spoke, their faces glowed with contentment and deep satisfaction. They were happy and that gladdened him.

But their visit brought back memories. Of his dreams for Welbourne Manor, and a similar happiness that had almost been within his reach.

* * *

Late that night Leo again sat at a card table at a Mayfair gaming hell. Tucked among discreet buildings off St James’s Street, the place buzzed with men’s voices and women’s laughter. Smoke from cheroots filled the air. Disquieting. Smoke always disquieted him.

Leo held excellent cards. Perhaps a run of luck would settle the restlessness that had plagued him ever since his siblings’ visits.

‘Did you hear about Kellford?’ the man on his right at the whist table asked as he rearranged his cards.

Leo lifted his eyes from his own hand without any great interest in Baron Kellford. He’d known Kellford in Vienna. ‘Your turn, sir.’

But the man clearly would not throw down his card before disgorging his precious
on dit
. Did he have a trump card or not?

Leo’s opponent rearranged his hand. Again. ‘The news is quite amusing.’ Pressing his cards against his chest, the fellow looked from Leo to the other two men at the table. ‘Kellford is soon to be flush in the pocket.’ He leaned back, waiting for one of them to ask for more.

Leo’s whist partner took the bait. ‘Did he engage some unbreeched pup in a game of piquet?’

That would be like Kellford. Take advantage of some green lad in London for the first time.

‘Oh, he did not win a hand at cards, but he will win a hand.’ The man chuckled at his clever wordplay and finally threw down a card of the leading suit.

Leo trumped it.

Seemingly unconcerned with the loss, the man grinned. ‘Kellford is betrothed. He’s marrying an heiress.’

Poor woman. Leo collected the markers he’d won.

His partner shuffled for the next deal. ‘I’m the one who needs an heiress. Who did Kellford find? Some squint-eyed daughter of a wealthy cit?’

‘Not at all,’ the man said. ‘He’s marrying Miss Covendale.’

Leo froze.

No. Mariel married Ashworth. Hadn’t she? Leo spent two years on the Continent, travelling as far as he could to keep from hearing news of her marriage to Ashworth. On his first day in London, who did he glimpse on Oxford Street? Ashworth. He’d half expected to see Mariel at the man’s side. What had happened?

More to the point, why marry Kellford?

The noise and smoke-filled rowdiness of the gaming hell receded, and in his mind’s eye Leo saw Kellford, whip in hand, about to strike a cowering tavern maid from the hotel where they both happened to be staying. Leo had pulled the whip from the baron’s hand and forced Kellford out of the hotel.

‘Come now. I hired her!’ Kellford had protested. ‘I would have paid her well.’

Leo closed his eyes and saw Mariel’s face instead of that nameless girl.

‘Mariel Covendale?’ Leo’s partner leaned back. ‘Men have been trying to win her fortune for years. How the devil did Kellford manage such a coup?’

How indeed.

‘I do not know.’ The gossipmonger shook his head. ‘But the first banns have been read. I wager before the knot is tied, I’ll learn how he did it.’

The fourth man at the table piped up. ‘I wager a pony you will not.’

As the three men placed bets with each other, Leo stood and scooped up his share of the winnings.

‘What are you doing?’ his partner cried. ‘The set is unfinished.’

‘I must leave.’ Leo did not explain.

He hurried out to the street. The night was damp after a day of steady rain. The cobbles glistened under the lamplight and the sound of horses’ hooves rang like bells.

Leo walked, hoping the night air would cool emotions he thought had vanished long ago.

Kellford had once boasted of being a devotee of the Marquis de Sade, the French debaucher so depraved even Napoleon had banned his books. ‘The man was a genius,’ Kellford had said of de Sade. ‘A connoisseur of pleasure. Why should I not have pleasure if I wish it?’

Now all Leo could picture was Kellford engaging in pleasure with Mariel.

A coachman shouted a warning to Leo as he dashed across Piccadilly. He found himself wandering towards Grosvenor Square within blocks of Covendale’s London town house. From an open window in one of the mansions, an orchestra played ‘Bonnie Highland Laddie,’ a Scottish reel. It was near the end of the Season and some member of the
ton
was undoubtedly hosting a ball.

Did Mariel attend?
Leo wondered.
Was she dancing with Kellford?

He turned away from the sound and swung back towards Grosvenor Square, staring past the buildings there as if looking directly into her house on Hereford Street.

Had her father approved this marriage? Surely Covendale had heard talk of Kellford’s particular habits.

Or perhaps not. One disadvantage of living a respectable life was being unaware of how low deeply depraved men could sink.