A Raging Dawn (26 page)

Jimmy was gone for the night, so there was no one to hear me if I screamed for help. Phone. Where was my phone? On the table near the sofa, too far away.

Littleton staggered to his feet, shaking his head, his eyes wide with rage. “I’m going to kill you.”

Music filled me, ominous bass notes of a church organ. Echoes of color shimmered around him as he seemed to move in slow motion. A fugue coming on. Once it hit, I’d be frozen, helpless. Littleton and his partners could do anything they wanted to me.

Tymara’s body filled my vision.
No.
I brushed against the refrigerator, freeing two pictures of Tahiti. They floated to the floor, gold and crimson and aquamarine ribbons of light trailing behind them.

Littleton lumbered toward me, coming around the opposite end of the island, hands down at his waist, a knife in his right one. I grabbed the closest thing at hand—the glass blender container filled with soap and water—and launched it at his head.

Caught between the island and the kitchen counter, he had no room to duck. It hit his head and sprayed soapy water over his face before landing with a crash on the floor, shattering. He raised his empty hand to clear his eyes, but I didn’t give him a chance.

I grabbed the top plate from the stack in the dish rack and heaved it like a discus, aiming for his arm with the knife. The heavy ceramic plate caught his wrist. He twisted, coming up against the island and leaving the side of his head exposed.

I hurled plate after plate, edge-on, hard. The blows sent him staggering back, into the puddle of water and broken glass left by the blender. He slipped, feet going out from under him, hands flailing, head cracking first the countertop and then the floor.

The sounds echoed like tympani in my brain as colors whirled around us. He was out cold, but wouldn’t be for long. I grabbed on to the nearest solid object, the refrigerator, not sure if I could make it to the apartment door before the fugue overtook me. My weight bumped the refrigerator door open, its momentum carrying me back against the opposite counter. My hand grazed the drawer pull, and the drawer spilled open. The roll of duct tape on top of the other clutter sparked silver in my vision.

Suddenly, I had a plan—and it wasn’t of escape, running for help, watching the justice system fail once more while lawyers like Gena Kravitz set men like Littleton free.

I knew how to get justice for Tymara and Jacob. Devon had been right all along.

My hand closed around the duct tape. My vision cleared for a moment, as if even the prions polluting my brain agreed with my insane idea.

Avoiding the broken glass that now littered my kitchen floor, I lurched forward and fell to my knees beside Littleton. He’d dropped his knife. I grabbed it. It felt so natural in my hand, as if this was meant to be.

Using the knife to cut strips off the roll, I wrapped duct tape around his wrists then wrapped more around his ankles. He moaned as I finished and stood, leaning my weight against the island, looking down on my work.

“What the fuck?” His voice was filled with incredulity and rage.

Ignoring Littleton as he writhed and struggled on the floor, I looked over at my dining table with its assortment of pills. The PXA bottle glowed as if surrounded by an angel’s halo.

Shambling along the island, I headed for the table. It could have been miles away or inches—my vision was so warped I couldn’t tell. As I lunged across the open space at the end of the island, I stepped on one of the fallen pictures of Tahiti.

“What the hell are you doing?” His voice held a definite quaver.

I hit the table and reached for the PXA. Could I really do this? Drug him, force my way into his brain, take what I wanted, and leave again?

“Your so-called brothers. Who are they?” I was surprised by how steady my voice was.

Rape. It would be mental rape. An absolute betrayal of everything I’d ever believed in. Of Jacob’s belief in me. Of Ryder’s fight for law and order.

I opened the bottle, my hands no longer shaking, counted out enough PXA to knock Littleton out for a good long Death Head trip, about ten to twelve hours. It wouldn’t kill him.

As if that made what I was about to do okay.

“What did you tell yourself after you left Tymara alive?” I asked as I returned to crouch beside Littleton. Waves of purple and black poured off of him, a tribal drumbeat of color and sound filling my body as the fugue began to take over. “That what you did to her wasn’t so bad because you didn’t actually kill her?”

The knife blade danced across his lips. It was almost as if it wasn’t my hand controlling it. Almost.

I lowered the blade. His eyes met mine. No more pretending, his fury and hatred were clear.

“Biggest mistake I ever made. I could have swore that bitch was dead. Didn’t know she wasn’t until the cops came to arrest me.” He spat the words at me, then opened his mouth for a final epithet. “Fucking—”

I shoved the PXA down his throat, holding my hand over his mouth and nose until I was certain he’d swallowed it. The knife blade pointed at his eye was enough to keep him still.

“Relax,” I told him. “You and I are going on a little trip.”

I lowered the knife. He thumped his feet against the floor and tried to squirm away from me. I held his arm in a tight grip.

“You’re going to tell me the truth. You’re going to tell me everything.”

“I ain’t telling you nothing, bitch.” His words were already slurring. The PXA was pharmaceutical-grade, the gel caps designed for rapid onset.

Damn. I’d forgotten. When I’d overcome Leo’s defenses to force my way into his mind, I’d also been dosed with PXA. I glanced across the kitchen to the dining room table where the rest of the pills were. The floor between here and there roiled as if the century-old pine floorboards had returned to life, bucking and churning against their imprisonment, their iron nails dancing.

Littleton slumped, eyes rolled back into his head as the PXA took control. I closed my hand tight on his, willing the fugue to release its power. But now that I’d set it free, it seemed reluctant to pounce.

“Come on, damn it!” I shouted to the heavens. “What the hell good is dying if I can’t do some good before I go?” I hurled my question out into the night beyond the windows on the other side of the apartment. Each syllable crashed against the glass, shattering into infinity with a cascade of brilliant gold sparks.

My energy depleted, last remnants of adrenaline vaporized, I collapsed against Littleton. The knife clattered to the floor. As the fugue overtook me, roaring through me with the strength of a tsunami crashing down, my last words were “I’m sorry.”

AS DEVON AND
Ryder were separated, taken down to the police station, and questioned by a revolving team of detectives, Devon remembered why he avoided police. Nothing to do with his occasional skirting of the law or a fear of being arrested. Everything to do with how damn boring and predictable they were.

Hanging out with Angela and Ryder, he’d almost forgotten that. But now, with one of their own law enforcement family assassinated, they were determined to thrash through every detail as if Devon could miraculously grow X-ray vision and tell them who their shooter was.

Too bad it hadn’t been Angela who’d witnessed Manny’s murder. When she was in one of her fugue spells, she could dissect an event microsecond by microsecond, ferreting out every nanobyte of information her senses had absorbed, no matter how deep it was buried. If she’d been there, standing where he had, maybe she could have seen past Manny, through the slits in the blinds, and identified the shooter.

All Devon had seen was the muzzle flash. No help there. Which he told the cops repeatedly as they tag-teamed him for the next few hours.

He wasn’t charged with anything. There was nothing to charge him with. He hadn’t hurt Manny, and Devon’s gun was legal and properly registered. It was Manny who’d held him at gunpoint. All Devon had done was knock on Manny’s door and strongly insist that the prosecutor give him the truth.

As he repeated the same answers to the same questions, Devon wondered about that. Manny had been highly excitable to start with, but to react so violently to Devon’s suggestion that he might know the identities of Eugene’s partners suggested that maybe Eugene Littleton was not lying. Devon would never trust Eugene to tell the full truth, and Manny definitely had been involved in something less than kosher. But mass murder, rape, torture?

What didn’t fit, and bothered Devon the most, was the implication that Manny had purposely thrown the case against Eugene. Devon just couldn’t see that happening. Prosecutors like Manny lived and died by their conviction rate, and Manny had been especially competitive. If Manny was involved, he would have found a way to silence Eugene without letting him walk free from a trial Manny was working.

Angela was right: Killing Eugene would have been so much easier. Less mess, less risk.

“And you arrived at what time?” the current detective asked for the fourth time, sounding as bored as Devon was.

Devon’s phone rang. He glanced at it, ignoring the detective’s irritation. Flynn. “Where’ve you been? Why didn’t you call me back?” he answered, not caring that the detective shamelessly listened.

“I did. We just got here,” she replied, no sign of annoyance at his clipped tone. Typical Flynn. She cared even less about social niceties than Devon did.

He glanced at his phone, saw he’d missed a message from her earlier. Wait. He still had no idea why she’d left the school in the middle of the night. He stood, grabbed his coat. “What happened?”

“We’re not done—” Devon shushed the detective with an impatient gesture as he walked out of the interview room, his full focus on Flynn.

“Esme. She can’t sleep and has been having these spells. The doctors up there couldn’t figure them out, but I know Dr. Rossi can.” Flynn paused. Uncharacteristic for her. She usually never began a conversation without already having weighed and measured her words. “You know she’s sick, right? I think Esme has the same thing. She’s having spells like Dr. Rossi.”

Devon froze in the middle of the detective squad, dozens of overworked police officers watching him, sensing something was wrong.

Esme? Having fugues like Angela? He’d halfway convinced himself that she’d be fine, that it was just a coincidence.
No, no, no…this couldn’t…This can’t be happening.

He forced himself to walk at a normal pace, the detectives relaxing as he passed through the squad doors and headed to the elevators. “I’m on my way.”

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WAVES OF MUSIC
thundered over me as my body froze. Tympani and cymbals and ponderous bass notes crashed, stirring every molecule of air surrounding me. I could sense them all, dissect each individual note. Here, a stray organophosphate molecule, garlic in tone, viridian green in color. The pesticide Littleton used at work. Despite him being in jail for months, it still seeped from his clothing. There, a whiff of too-bright artificial lemon, remnants of the soap mixed in with the water puddled on the wood floor.

And the water, oh, the water…I could see each beautiful crystal rainbow drop as it reached toward Heaven and was consumed, evaporating. I’m not sure how long I lay there, my head resting on Littleton’s chest, staring transfixed and unblinking as the world pulverized into the elemental stuff life was built of. Time in a fugue was elastic, impossible to measure without some fixed point.

Littleton’s breathing, rocking my head, had grown slow, erratic. The thundering echoing through my body was his heartbeat, I finally realized. I pulled my focus inward, assessing the sound like a clinician. No stethoscope necessary, not with my every sense stretched to its max.

His heart was roaring. I could feel the blood rushing through his arteries. Too fast, too hard, his blood pressure spiking. In my hyperacute state, it wasn’t a difficult diagnosis to make: hypertensive crisis brought on by the PXA, leading to bleeding in his brain.

What was I thinking, giving a man with a head injury, no matter how minor, a drug like PXA? I’d as good as killed him. Recriminations roiled through me. I’d done it to save lives, but instead I’d taken one.

I could feel life slipping from him…and suddenly, I was inside him, with him, in his mind. At least I thought I was.

It wasn’t at all like the other times. Then, I’d been able to reach a person, have a conversation, connect with their consciousness. Inside Littleton, I wandered in a thick fog, each tendril smoky and thick with blood, women’s screams swirling the mist. I fought through the spider web of confusion, searching for something coherent.

Eugene Littleton!
I called out in my mind as my body lay frozen on top of his.

No answer. But the fog around me filled with images. Horrific, brutal visions of women being raped and tortured. I recognized Tymara, Gena Kravitz, even myself among the many. Littleton’s lurid fantasies.

Thunder surrounded me as I waded through the blood and screams. I lost track of the women, fought to escape, terror spiking through me as I felt him grow weaker.

Eugene!
I shouted in a last effort to reach him and gain the answers I sought.
Tell me about your brothers. Who are you working with?
Laughter mixed with the crackle of fire, the mists devoured by flames that scorched everything black. A black that burned and choked and threatened to consume me in its oily stench.