A Warrior's Perception (41 page)

She pleaded with her eyes,
“
Donna compare me to her.
”

He dwelled in her eyes for a long time. He could see her pain. Pain from what? A single tear slipped down her cheek to the corner of her lips.

“
Why do ye cry?
”
He asked softly as he wiped the tear away, his thumb lingered on her lips. He stood and sat down beside of her, taking her hand into his.

He placed her hand on his chest where Llana's had been. Another tear slid down her face as she jerked away. She simply could not
bear
this.

He sighed heavily and lay back onto the bed,
“
Tell me why ye cry.
”

“
I...
”
Andra could not tell him that her heart felt like it was breaking. She could not tell him that Llana had made her jealous. She could not tell him that she wanted him to love her.

“
Let me touch ye and I will make ye a bargain ye can'na turn down,
”
he whispered as he caught her hair in his fingers.

“
What?
”
Andra turned to face him, confusion wrinkling her nose.

“
Let me touch ye and I will allow ye to spend one night at the orphanage.
”

“
The oath is broken as is the betrothal. Ye can'na determine where I can or can'na go.
”

Kagan smiled,
“
I am still ye laird and I still command.
”

“
Touch me where?
”
Andra narrowed her eyes at Kagan, trying to read his mind.

“
Here,
”
he replied as he traced her lips with his finger,
“
and here,
”
he continued as he caressed her shoulder,
“
and here,
”
he whispered as he cupped her breast and rubbed her nipple. He pushed her back gently onto the pillows,
“
And here,
”
he begged as his lips met her hip.

“
Why do ye want to touch me?
”
Andra interrupted him as him as he slid his hand along her thigh and across her knees.

“
And here,
”
he whispered as his hand ran up her thigh between her legs.

Her eyes widened in fear,
“
Na there!
”
She caught his hand and bolted upright in front of him,
“
Why do ye want to touch me?
”

“
The same reason any man wants to touch a woman,
”
he replied as he kissed her lips,
“
Because I want ye Ell'andra and I need to touch ye.
”

“
Ye will hurt me,
”
she whispered as he kissed her lips again,
“
Ye only want to conquer me as ye do any other woman. Go to the lover ye ha'e spent ye return with.
”

“
Nay, I will'na hurt ye, nor do I want to conquer ye. I only want to show ye ...
”
He smiled as her eyes closed and she laid his hand on her breast.

“
One night e'ery seven, I can stay at the orphanage?
”
She could barely breathe as he rubbed her nipples and kissed each darkened nub. She would go the orphanage and never return. She would love Kagan for the rest of her life and her heart would break every day knowing he did not love her in return.

“
One night on the full moon each passin',
”
he promised as he trailed one hand down her stomach.

“
Do ye swear it Kagan?
”

“
If ye wish it, then I will swear anythin' ye want me to,
”
he whispered as she leaned back onto the pillows.

She caught his hand as he gently touched her mound of golden curls,
“
Na there, e'erywhere but there.
”

“
Nay, I must ha'e more,
”
he begged as he traced her lips with his finger.

“
That is all I can offer,
”
she pleaded as he kissed her stomach and gripped her hips,
“
I will only let the man who loves me ha'e it.
”

“
Let me show ye what I offer 'fore ye decide,
”
he drawled as he slid down between her legs and buried his face in her curls before she could stop him.

She melted as his tongue touched her soft folds. He eased her legs apart and deepened the onslaught of his tongue. She cried out and clung to his head like a lifeline. She arched under him and pulled him closer as he went deeper and sucked greedily at her warmth. She screamed and arched against his mouth, completely lost in unadulterated pleasure. Her body shuddered as he pulled from her and eased himself atop her body, eye to eye.

She took his lips and wrapped her arms around his neck. She kissed him passionately and melted underneath the heat of his body. She arched instinctively as he crushed his pelvis down on hers. Her cheeks flushed as she moaned. His erection rubbed between her legs and she threw her head back, arching again. Kagan smiled and kissed her extended neck. He sucked, leaving red botches under his tongue. She whimpered as she clung to his massive shoulders.

“
Andra, look at me,
”
he whispered.

She opened her misty green eyes and stared in bewilderment into his gray ones. Her skin blazed with desire under his body and she ran her hands into his hair. She tore her eyes from his and buried her head into his collar.

“
What ...what is this?
”
She asked as he rocked against her pelvis.

“
Keep lookin' at me,
”
he whispered as he pushed her down onto the pillows.

She looked up and held his eyes as he rocked against her again letting his erection invade her silky folds and rested slightly inside her. She arched trying to keep her eyes open as he caught her lips in mind blowing passion. His body pressed down on her and she moaned in his mouth.

He growled as she arched again, desire burning in her eyes. He searched her face for signs of refusal and found none. He stilled his movements and softly kissed her pouty lips. She raked his back with her fingertips as he reached for her leg. She curled it around his hip, pressing him further to her warmth. The tip of his shaft was covered with sultry heat and he pressed farther inside as she arched again.

“
Ell'andra....,
”
he groaned.

“
Kagan!
”
She screamed his name as he slid deeper inside of her.

He fought for control as he whispered,
“
I want ye...tell me ye want this as badly as I. Tell me ye want me!
”

His words were barely audible as she twisted and arched underneath him. His shaft teased and tormented her womanhood. She begged him to make it stop,
“
Kagan, please ...
”
             
“
Tell me,
”
he growled pushing her head back onto the pillows,
“
Tell me ye want me.
”

“
I donna understand...what are ye doin' to me?
”
She screamed,
“
What is this feelin'?
”

Kagan closed his eyes,
“
It is desire, need, want. Tell me.
”

He pushed farther into her tightness, knowing he was big, knowing it would hurt briefly, but he could not stop. His head met her maidenhead and he looked down at her as his shaft throbbed with need.

A breathless,
“
Oh...
”
escaped her lips as she stilled beneath him.

Her eyes were wide with fear, anxiety, and desire. He caught her lips and crushed her to him as he ripped through the membrane. She screamed in pain inside of his mouth and dug her nails into his shoulders.

“
I will make it as quick as possible,
”
he whispered as she braced herself, tensing every muscle in her body. He edged farther and she gasped for air as the pain crept to every crevice of her loins. Pierre's memory flooded her mind as Kagan rocked back and forth. She blindly beat on his chest as the pain continued.

“
Stop hurtin' me! Stop Kagan...please...please...
”
Her screams subsided as he rocked gently against her.

She moaned as the first tidal wave of intense pleasure swept through her body. She arched to meet his next thrust and he met her on the dazzling torrid of desire. His thrusts quickened as she curled both her legs around his hips, clinging to him in desperation and need.

“
Tell me na to stop,
”
he whispered as she met his thrust.

“
Donna stop...please Kagan, I need ye ...I...
”
She threw her head back as the first tremor of painless passion overtook her mind. She moaned and melted inside out. Her body tingled with need and lust. Her eyes were completely misted and shimmered with ecstasy at Kagan. Her proud dark warrior moved with a rhythm as old as time and she smiled in reckless abandonment as he kissed her lips.

“
Kagan...Kagan...
”
She tried to speak, but her mind refused to linger on her mouth.

“
Aye.
”
He spoke softly as he looked into her eyes,
“
Say it again. Say my name, dear sweet innocent Ell'andra.
”