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Part 1

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Chapter 31

Chapter 32

Chapter 33

Chapter 34

Chapter 35

Part 2

Chapter 36

Chapter 37

Chapter 38

Chapter 39

Chapter 40

Chapter 41

Chapter 42

Chapter 43

Chapter 44

Chapter 45

Chapter 46

Chapter 47

Chapter 48

Chapter 49

Chapter 50

Chapter 51

Chapter 52

Part 3

Chapter 53

Chapter 54

Chapter 55

Chapter 56

Chapter 57

Chapter 58

Chapter 59

Chapter 60

Chapter 61

Chapter 62

Chapter 63

Chapter 64

Chapter 65

Chapter 66

Chapter 67

Chapter 68

Chapter 69

Chapter 70

Chapter 71

Chapter 72

Chapter 73

Chapter 74

Chapter 75

Chapter 76

Chapter 77

Chapter 78

Chapter 79

Chapter 80

Chapter 81

Chapter 82

Chapter 83

Chapter 84

Chapter 85

Chapter 86

Chapter 87

Chapter 88

Chapter 89

Chapter 90

Chapter 91

Chapter 92

Chapter 93

Chapter 94

Chapter 95

Part 4

Chapter 96

Chapter 97

Chapter 98

Chapter 99

Chapter 100

Chapter 101

Chapter 102

Chapter 103

Chapter 104

Chapter 105

Chapter 106

Chapter 107

Chapter 108

Chapter 109

Chapter 110

Chapter 111

Chapter 112

Chapter 113

Chapter 114

Part 5

Chapter 115

Chapter 116

Chapter 117

Chapter 118

Chapter 119

Chapter 120

Chapter 121

Chapter 122

Chapter 123

Chapter 124

Chapter 125

Chapter 126

Chapter 127

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This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events,
real people, or real locales are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places,
and incidents are products of the author's imagination, and any resemblance
to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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The text for this book is set in Gotham.
Manufactured in the United States of America
First Edition
2 4 6 8 10 9 7 5 3 1
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Howe, James, 1946–
Addie on the inside / James Howe. — 1st ed.
p. cm.
Summary: Outspoken thirteen-year-old Addie Carle learns about love,
loss, and staying true to herself as she navigates seventh grade, enjoys
a visit from her grandmother, fights with her boyfriend, and endures
gossip and meanness from her former best friend.
ISBN 978-1-4169-1384-9 (hardcover)
eISBN-13: 978-1-4424-2381-7
[1. Novels in verse. 2. Identity—Fiction. 3. Self-acceptance—Fiction.
4. Grandmothers—Fiction. 5. Schools—Fiction.
6. Interpersonal relations—Fiction.]
I. Title.
PZ7.5.H69Ad 2011
[Fic]—dc22     2010024497

To Zoey

Who Do You See?

The poems that follow
are written in the voice of
Addie on the inside.

But this poem is written
from me to you,
writer to reader.

I want to ask you:
Who do you see
when you think of me?

Am I young or old,
wise or a fool,
teacher or friend?

Who do you see
when you think of you?
Are you an outsider,

cool, distant, angry,
swimming against the current,
or are you in the flow?

When they tell you,
This is who you are
do you say yes or no?

Who do you see
when you look at them?
You know the ones I mean:

the others, the olders,
the youngers, the ones
who are not you, not

like you or your friends,
who wear the labels
you give them until

they give them back,
I believe these
belong to you.

Who do you see when a girl
like Addie walks down the hall,
sharp-eyed, tall,

when a girl like Addie
raises her hand in class
for the hundredth time

offering opinion as fact
and outrage as opinion,
wearing her attitudes

more comfortably than her
less than awesome clothes?
Who do you see

when you look beyond
the skin and the surface,
when you drift to sleep,

when you are the person
no one else knows? Who
are you on the inside?

Don't answer these questions.
Not yet. First, open your eyes,
your mind, your heart.


—James Howe

on the Inside

This Purgatory of
the Middle School Years
You Are Who They Say You Are

They say in the seventh grade
you are who they say you are,
but how can that be true?

How can I be a
lezzie loser
big mouth
string bean
freaky tall
spaz attack
hopeless nerd
*bad word*
teacher's pet
showing off
just to get
and did I
(that's true)
badly dressed
(says you)
social climber
(such a lie)
(well, I try)
to another
time and place?

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