Authors: Rupert Thomson
She lifted the palm-leaf packet out from among her many jars and bottles, and carefully untied the string. The powder lay inside, all flattened out, and smooth as icing-sugar. She touched it with one finger, tasted it. Stale â like chalk, or plaster. She sniffed at it. It did not smell of anything at all.
That morning in the witch's tent, a week ago, seemed as remote as history. If she could only talk to someone. Wilson Pharaoh, with his slow face and his crooked teeth and his hands too big on the end of his wrists. He was good and kind. She had never imagined that ordinary Americans might be like that. She had only read of gunfights and liquor. But this American, he lifted his hat to her and wiped his hand on his trousers before he shook her hand. Also, sometimes, he said âGee'. He would have listened to her; he would at least have tried to understand. But he had gone. A strange numb dread invaded her, and her limbs felt heavy, bolted on to her body. She looked at the powder lying in its leaf. Two pinches in a cup of water.
On her way downstairs she passed Théo's study. He was bent over his desk. She could hear the scratching of a pen on paper. He would be writing another letter to his mentor, Monsieur Eiffel. In the parlour she saw Imelda, searching the sewing basket for a cotton thread to match the silk of her new dress. Imelda did not notice her either. It was so quiet in
the house. She rested one hand on the fine wire-mesh of the screen door and looked out into the dark. She listened to the creaking of a gecko on the veranda. She could imagine it, pale-yellow, almost transparent, with eyes like black rubber, moving in silent spasms towards a fly.
Upstairs in her room once more, with the door closed, she reached for the powder and stirred two spoonfuls into her glass of water. She drank it down. Then she lay back and waited for the promised sleep to come.
17 Calle Francesa, Santa SofÃa, Lower California, Mexico
22nd June, 189 â
My dear Monsieur Eiffel,
It was with great delight that I received your letter of the 2nd of April and I thank you for your prompt reply, especially considering the weight of your responsibilities at the present time. The projects that you mention certainly seem of sufficient importance to be worthy of your attention; a Paris Métro is, in my opinion, long overdue and will bring a new freedom of movement to a city that has become congested, both with pedestrians and vehicles. Moreover, the technical problems involved should prove most challenging â a challenge to which the Compagnie des Ãtablissements Eiffel will doubtless rise with its traditional competence and ingenuity.
One problem that has been occupying me in idle moments is the problem of insulation. Some members of the community have expressed a degree of concern regarding the high temperatures which they fear may occur inside the church during the summer months. Monsieur Castagnet and I have put our heads together and we have, I believe, come up with a most satisfactory solution. We have decided to use the local pumice stone which is abundant here owing to the volcanic nature of the land, and should prove extremely effective when ground into a fine powder and inserted between the panels (Monsieur de Romblay has already placed at my disposal certain machinery at the smelting plant for this specific purpose). The lightness and porosity of the stone make it an ideal material for insulating both the walls and the roof, and I feel confident that it will dispel, once and for all, the anxieties of everyone concerned.
You may remember that I referred, in a previous letter, to the new spirit
of eagerness that prevails among my workers. This mood was temporarily soured last week when I returned from lunch to find a Mexican soldier administering a beating to one of the Indians. It was a beating of such untrammelled savagery that I felt compelled to intervene, at some risk to my personal safety, since the soldier in question had lost all semblance of control and succeeded in striking me a blow on the forehead before he could be overpowered. When he had regained his senses, I asked him what the Indian had done to merit such punishment. He became stubborn, almost mulelike, referring over and over again to the laziness of the Indians, their primitive ways, their stupidity; in short, he could give me no satisfactory answer. I determined that he had been acting solely out of prejudice and dismissed him immediately, an action which caused quite a stir on the site, there being no love lost between the Indians of the peninsula and the mainland Mexicans. I realise that this dismissal may upset the Mexican contingent and weaken the security of the site, but I would rather lose another box of bolts than see a man beaten for no good reason. In any case, one might say that we profited from this unpleasant incident: the Indians were most grateful to me for coming to their defence and redoubled their efforts, working with an industry and vigour that was quite unparalleled.
Even as I write, however, a pall of uncertainty hangs over the town. Last night one of the mine's principal tunnels collapsed, costing the lives of several Indians. Many others are still in a critical condition. The situation is volatile, to say the least, since charges of negligence have been levelled at the company. Many of my own men are related to the mining families, either by tribe or by blood, with the result that all work on the site has had to be temporarily suspended. I trust this tragedy will not greatly affect their morale or interfere with the completion of the church, which is now only a few days away. I find myself wondering how much of the unrest and irrationality that I have witnessed can be attributed to the climate, which has become almost intolerable of late. The great heat that we are currently experiencing is usually associated with the months of August and September and I feel that I can speak for both myself and Madame Valence when I say that we envy you the mildness of Paris in June. I can only hope for some respite in the days to come.
On glancing through your letter once again, I notice that it took far less time to reach Mexico than we did, from which I surmise that the trans-Panamanian Railway has resumed operations. Welcome news indeed, if true; I do not think that I could face Cape Horn a second time â though my wife will no doubt be disappointed! My first hope is that the present situation eases and that our work is brought to a
successful conclusion. This is a long letter, Monsieur, yet it will not be sufficiently long if it leaves you in any doubt as to the continuing zeal of my endeavours and the profound respect with which I have the honour to be your humble and obedient servant,
Théophile Valence.
Wilson spent the early part of the evening in the Hotel La Playa. He occupied himself with small, painstaking tasks. He mended a shirt. He cleaned his round-nosed shovel, sanding the place where the blade had worn to silver. He sharpened his pick and oiled his rifle. He wanted to rid himself of the dream about Suzanne: her explicit beauty, her poignant, unexpected brittleness. It was his mind more than anything that he was working on.
Outside his window the streets were quiet. Every part of the mining operation had shut down. The natural sound of the land descended. That wide, desert silence. Air standing tall and glassy on the soil. Air shocked by heat. The silence had rarely been heard in the town before, and there were some who had to bury their heads beneath their pillows. Others picked fights because fights made noise. From his balcony Wilson watched a man running along the Calle Majore with his hands clamped over his ears. One of the man's moccasins fell off, but he did not stop. It lay in the street, the wrong way up â an emblem of his fear. Most people were frightened of silence. Maybe it was because they could hear the fragile loop of blood in their veins. Maybe they thought it was death coming in his soft shoes. Creeping closer, closer still. Sitting in his room up on the first floor, Wilson had the feeling that the Indians were turning the silence to their own advantage. They were used to it, after all; it was their element. It was their masters â the Mexicans, the French â who had brought sound to the peninsula.
He stood up and stretched. Hung his shirt over the back of a chair, leaned his shovel and his pick against the wall, wrapped his rifle in a rag. But still he could hear her voice accusing him.
You've been avoiding me.
âI've been away,' he said, âthat's all.'
He was talking to an empty room.
It was no good; he could put it off no longer. He left the hotel and started up the hill to the Mesa de Francia.
On the Calle Francesa the silence had a different quality, denser, more deliberate. It was not silence that had fallen so much as silence that had been striven for. It was like held breath. There was nobody parading up and down beneath the trees, nobody drinking on the veranda of the Hôtel de Paris. The French sat inside their houses, quarantined by apprehension and uncertainty.
And suddenly he did not know why he had come. He stopped in front of the steps that led up to her house. Turned away, turned back. Then turned away again, his mouth dry and all his courage, or whatever it had taken, gone. He saw his father, standing at the window of a boarding-house in Denver. He heard his own voice reach across that dusty room; he heard the words that he had promised his mother he would say.
âMaybe we should think about heading home.'
Shirt-sleeves rolled, one forearm resting on the sash, his father was staring down into a sunlit street.
âWe could rest up for a while. I could get a job. Playing piano, like I used to.'
His father was still staring, down into that sunlit street.
âThe Empire would take me on â '
At last his father turned back into the room. His eyes seemed to have darkened and expanded. âYou forgot, didn't you?'
âForgot what?'
âYou forgot.'
He could not look away from his father's face. He could not speak. His right hand closed around the stone he carried in his pocket. Smooth stone, from the River Gila. Smooth, smooth stone.
His father sat down on the bed. âLet me remind you. He pulled the shirt off his back, the buttons scattering, and there were the scars, gnarled, almost black, a stack of sticks piled for a fire.
The shirt caught round his elbows, his father began to weep. âI can't go back,' he was saying, âhow can I go back?'
It was another three years before he was ready, and by then it was too late.
One bat jinked past, as if the air were full of obstacles. Wilson tipped his face till it was level with the sky. The stars glowed and faded, glowed and faded. They made him feel ill.
He had to think.
He hid in the narrow strip of land that separated Suzanne's house from the house next door. Stood with his shoulderblades against the wall, sweat crawling on his skin. There were two windows on this side of the house. One dark, one lit. The light thrown like a playing-card on the ground. A shadow passed between the window and the lamp. He inched closer, risked a look inside. Monsieur Valence stood over his desk, sealing an envelope with a bead of scarlet wax.
Wilson edged along the south wall, careful to avoid the needles of the century plant. He ducked beneath the flight of stairs that led down to the kitchen hut. Two dark windows, then another playing-card of light. The north side of the house. He did not recognise the room. A girl with black hair sat with her back to him. He could not see her face, only the nape of her neck and one hand curving away from her body, returning, curving away again. She might have been a marionette, her body motionless, one hand controlled by a secret string. Lifting himself higher, he saw that she was mending a dress of Suzanne's. He moved on, reached the front of the house once more. He noticed a lamp burning in a window on the first floor. He saw a shadow swoop across the ceiling. That was where she must be. And it was all he could know of her tonight, that lamp, that shadow. But it was a comfort to be close to her, and then imagine. It was enough. He would sleep now.
On his way back down the street a voice called his name. He looked round. The doctor sprang from his veranda as if he had been fired from a bow. He did not glitter this evening. He did not shimmer or shine. He was dressed in a surgeon's coat, plain white, with no adornments.
Wilson felt the need to explain himself. âI was just out walking,' he said.
âOn a night like this, Monsieur Pharaoh, it would be wiser to stay at home. May I join you, though?' The doctor chuckled, rubbed his hands.
âPlease do. You're going to the hospital, I take it?'
âI have been there all afternoon. But there is more to do. Much more.' The doctor danced along the empty street on the points of his toes like a young girl learning ballet. âYou have heard, presumably?'
Wilson nodded.
âA terrible business. A tragedy, in fact. Three fractured legs. A crushed pelvis. More cracked ribs than I can count.' He let out a sigh that seemed at odds with his excitable gestures and his light balletic walk.
âHow many dead?' Wilson asked.
The doctor threw him a wary glance. âNo figures have been released.'
Wilson did not pursue the subject. They passed the de Romblays' house. A carriage stood outside, attended by a man with rows of bullets gleaming on his chest.
âMontoya's,' the doctor said.
He told Wilson that the Director had already spent almost three hours trying to persuade Montoya that it was unnecessary to kill anyone. That, far from restoring order, it would ignite a situation that was highly flammable, provoking hostilities on the streets of Santa SofÃa, if not anarchy. A state of affairs which Montoya, with his handful of soldiers, would be powerless to remedy. But the young Mexican seemed wedded to the idea.
âDo you know what he said?' The doctor leapt in front of Wilson, showing all his teeth in an astonished smile. â“I will shoot them down, like dogs.”'
âHas he lost his mind?'
The doctor did not take the question lightly. âIt's possible.' He sighed again and resumed his place at Wilson's shoulder. The two men walked on.