Authors: Dianne Blacklock
Anna stepped into the hall and picked up the phone.
âHello?'
âHi, it's me.'
She'd been surprised yesterday morning to find Mac still asleep beside her when she woke. He was always up before her. She'd left him sleeping but he
had stirred as she was leaving for work. He claimed to be feeling better, maybe he'd slept it off. She tried to phone him later; there was no answer at home and when she tried the office she only got his voicemail. When Anna arrived home there was a note explaining that he felt fine and he'd ended up being called up to the Brisbane office. He'd be in touch tomorrow. She tried to phone him on his mobile then, but he'd turned it off, he was either on a plane or in a meeting. She left a message, that she hoped he was all right and he should try to take it easy. That was the best she could do, but it didn't feel as though it was enough. Mac never got sick, he was always the one looking after her. She should have stayed home with him, but he'd baulked when she'd suggested that yesterday, shooing her off to work.
âHi Mac, how are you feeling?'
âI'm fine, much better . . . thank you. It must have been a twenty-four hour bug, or maybe even a twelve hour one, if there is such a thing.'
Anna smiled. âI don't know. Did you sleep all right? I tried to call.'
âYeah, thanks, I got your message this morning.'
âSo, is it hot?'
âI beg your pardon?'
âRemember when we were there a few years ago at this time of the year? The sun was like a blowtorch at six in the morning. Did you get enough sleep?'
âUm, yeah . . . look, sorry Anna, I can't really talk now.'
âOh, of course,' she said. âWhat time do you expect you'll be home?'
âAh, I'm not sure at this stage. Why?'
âYou haven't forgotten about the christening tomorrow?'
âWhat?'
âMatthew's christening . . .' Silence. âRob and Stacey's Matthew?'
Anna could hear the sigh all the way from Queensland.
âI didn't know anything about it, I'm not sure if I can make it back.'
âMac, you did know about it, I told you when we first got the invitation, and it's written on the calendarâ'
âI don't check the calendar at home.' There was that irritable edge coming through in his voice again. âYou should know that by now, Anna.'
She took a calming breath, she didn't want this to escalate. âIt's Sunday tomorrow, Mac. If they're asking you to stay, it's only to play golf.'
He didn't say anything.
âI would really appreciate it if you could make it home. I don't want to go to the christening alone.'
Another sigh, surrendering. âOkay.'
âThank you.' She swallowed. âLook, I better let you know while I'm at it that Mum and Dad are flying in on Monday afternoon.'
âWhat?'
âThey couldn't get a flight on Christmas Eve. Besides, I think that would have been a little too rushed anyway.'
âI wish you'd told me about this, Anna.'
âYou knew they were coming, I only just found
out the details,' she protested. âWhat's the problem? Christmas is only a few days away anyway.'
âBut I have a lot of work to get through if I'm going to take any time off.'
âSo you are thinking about Noosa?'
âI didn't say that, Anna,' he returned. âMaybe I'd like to visit my family seeing as you didn't even factor them into our plans.'
âI brought it up with you over and over, Mac, and you wouldn't commit to anything,' she added, annoyed. âAnyway, you didn't even visit your family last time we were in Melbourne.'
âAll the more reason I should make some attempt to see them for Christmas.'
âWell, what do you expect me to do about it now?'
âNothing,' he said flatly. âI'll make my own arrangements.'
âMac . . . you are going to be around for Christmas?' Anna asked warily.
âOf course I am. But don't make any decisions about Noosa.'
Louise came to stand beside Georgie at the window, wiping her hands on a tea-towel. âLooks like Gracie's taken to him.'
Liam had arrived soon after Zan and Molly, and he'd barely been introduced when Grace took him by the hand and led him out the back door. They were out by the sandpit, where she had lined up a series of plastic bowls and cups on the bench next to him. She was holding a plastic jug of water and Liam would select a bowl or a cup, Grace would fill it with water and he would place it back along the row. When there was no water left in the jug, they would empty the bowls and cups back into the jug and start again. They were doing this very methodically, and apparently without the need for conversation or verbal instruction of any kind.
âWell at least somebody likes him,' Georgie murmured.
âI like him,' Louise insisted.
Georgie looked doubtfully at her.
âWhat makes you think I don't like him?'
âMaybe because all you ever do is criticise him.'
âI do not,' she denied. âIt's the relationship I have the problem with, not Liam.'
âWell, you never say anything nice about him.'
âWhat do you want me to say?'
âI don't know,' said Georgie, mildly exasperated. âDo I have to write you a script? How about, he's nice, or charming, or good-looking . . .'
âGirls, stop talking about me, I'm right here.' Nick came up behind them, slinging his arms around their shoulders.
âWe're not talking about you, we're talking about Liam,' Louise told him. âAnd Georgie, the first time
he came into the shop, I believe I was the one who pointed him out to you.'
âWere you perving at the customers again?' Nick frowned.
âAlways.'
âWhat do you think of him, Nick?' Georgie asked.
âYou can't ask a guy that, we're not supposed to notice if another bloke's good-looking. It makes us sound gay.'
âI mean, do you like him?'
âCan you rephrase?' he winced. âStill sounding a bit gay.'
âWho's sounding gay?' Zan asked, joining them.
âDefinitely not me,' said Nick firmly.
âWe were just talking about Liamâ'
ââwhich is not only bad manners, but probably blatantly obvious to the poor bloke,' Nick remarked. âI'm going to take him out a beer.'
âAnd I'd better get lunch organised,' said Louise.
Georgie turned to Zan. âSo what do you think of Liam?'
She shrugged. âI don't know, I've barely said two words to him.'
âBut come on, first impressions,' she persisted. âWhat do you think?'
Zan sighed. âHe's not my type.'
âWell, I know that. He is male, after all.'
âYou think it's the dick that's the problem, George?' Zan never minced words. In fact, she generally served them up in a large meaty slab, medium rare, without any seasoning. âIt's not the
dick. It's the body attached, or more precisely, the brain that rules it all. But then that brings us back to the dick, doesn't it?'
âMy daddy's got a dick.' They looked down and Molly was staring up at them.
Zan was unfazed. âYes, he does. But we don't talk about people's private parts.'
âYou was.'
âShe's got you there,' Georgie muttered.
âWell, we're not going to any more,' Zan said plainly. âLet's go and help Mummy.'
Louise directed them to set the table. Zan laid out the placemats and napkins while Georgie followed her with the cutlery.
âSo you didn't actually answer me before,' she said, returning to the subject.
âWhat did you ask me?'
âWhat do you think of Liam?'
She stopped, looking directly at Georgie. âOkay, if you want to know the truth, I found him a bit stand-offish. He seems a little stiff.'
âWell, he's probably uncomfortable,' Georgie defended. âNervous, you know?'
âProbably,' Zan shrugged, continuing around the table.
âHe's actually very talkative, once he's relaxed. At least he is with me. He tells me everything. He says he can't talk to anyone the way he can talk to me. And he's got a great sense of humour, we laugh at all the same things. And he's sensitive, sometimes a little too sensitive, which I find sweet. He's works too hard, but he's trying to get that under controlâ'
âGeorge!' Zan interrupted her. âOkay, you like him, I get it. Why do you need my approval?'
âWell . . .' Georgie hesitated. âIt's important to me.'
âYou have to learn to make up your own mind, George. You're the one who has to put up with him when all is said and done, not me, or any of us. I mean, I'm glad you all get along with Jules, but I couldn't give a rat's arse if you didn't. I'd still be with her now.'
Georgie sat relaxed at the table, thanks to a full stomach and a couple of glasses of wine. Her arm was casually linked through Liam's, and she had an overwhelming feeling of contentment. He was finally here, part of the family. He was not an illusion who had not survived re-entry, or whatever snide comment Zan had made that day. He was her real, live . . . God, she hated the word boyfriend, but there was no alternative. Grown adults had to call each other boyfriend and girlfriend because the vocabulary police had not come up with anything better. Partner sounded like you were in business together, lover was icky, there wasn't a term to describe the male and female parties of a mature, committed relationship until you became husband and wife. Maybe that's why marriage was still so popular. It solved the problem of what to call each other.
Liam wasn't talking much, but he had been asking all the right questions, and currently Zan was spouting forth on her latest project, which would
doubtless keep her happy. Georgie slipped a little lower in her chair and leaned her head against Liam's shoulder. She felt his hand tighten around hers. She didn't care if he impressed them or not, he wasn't a show pony. Her family would have to accept him, they weren't going to get a choice, because Liam was rapidly becoming the centre of her life, which was exactly how it was supposed to be. Maybe she was finally growing up. If Louise was ambivalent about him, that was her issue. The same with Zan. Nick seemed to like him, but Nick liked everyone. The only thing he would not tolerate was Liam hurting her in any way. But that was not going to happen.
Georgie just realised she'd heard the words insemination and endometriosis. Last time she'd tuned in it was roof trusses and north-facing elevations. When had the conversation taken this detour? She sat up straight and started paying attention.
âSo because Jules has all these problems, you're considering IVF?' Louise was asking. âWhy don't you just have the baby, Zan?'
âWell, Liam,' Zan said, turning to him. âWhat do you think of Louise's proposal?'
âI beg your pardon?' said Liam, taken aback.
âI'm asking, hypothetically of course, if men were able to have babies and your partner couldn't have a child, would you be prepared to bear the baby?'
There was a grumble of protest around the table led by Georgie. âZan, I don't think that's an appropriate thing to be asking someone you just met.'
âOh, come on, Liam's a big boy, aren't you, Liam?' she said, not waiting for him to answer. âI'm
simply getting the “other partner's perspective”, and there's no other man here.'
âWhat about me?' Nick declared, his voice a little high-pitched.
âYou may as well be a woman, Nick,' Zan dismissed.
Nick put his glass down on the table. âJust because a man looks after the children and cooks, you call him a woman! I hope you realise, Germaine, that kind of jibe stereotypes women as much as men. And for your information, I can't stand chick flicks, I follow football, and other sports as well. And I spit, and I don't mean just in the sink when I'm brushing my teeth.' He stood up. âNow excuse me while I go and arrange the fruit platter.'
âHe's such a drama queen,' Zan muttered as Nick walked over to the kitchen. âAnyway, Liam, what do you think?'
He went to answer but Georgie intercepted the question. âYou can't ask a man that.'
âWhy not?'
âBecause men aren't built to have babies, they can't have babies even if they wanted to, so it's hypothetical at best. Whereas in a same-sex female couple, either partner has the equipment, so it's a completely valid question.'
âIs it? I'm trying to make the point that there are certain expectations, defined roles, in any relationship, regardless of gender,' Zan contended. âJust because I have the “equipment” doesn't mean I want to give birth. Does that make me less of a parent? Half the parents in the world don't give birth, but no
one disputes their role because they don't have the “equipment”.'
âLiam?' said Molly loudly, obviously bored.
âYes, Molly?'
âDid you know you've got a dick like my daddy?'
Everyone froze. Georgie was pretty sure no one was even breathing.
âHe wishes,' said Nick from the kitchen, breaking the silence.
âNick!' Louise chided. âI'm sorry, Liam, males are a bit of a novelty around here.'
âSee, even your wife thinks so, Nick,' Zan threw at him.
âYeah, well with Liam around there's going to be a shift in the gender balance, so you better watch out, Zan.'
âI'm shaking in my boots,' she replied, deadpan. âYou know what they say. One man, one brain, two men, half a brain . . .'
âThree men, no brains at all,' recited Molly.
âOkay, that's the last time you're staying at Aunty Zan's for the night.'
It was coming on dusk when Liam pulled up outside Georgie's flat.
âSo at least the ice is broken now,' said Georgie.
âI suppose that's one way of putting it.'
She winced. âMolly's not the most subtle child, is she?'
Liam switched off the engine. âI kept thinking,
everyone's getting a mental picture, no matter how hard they're trying not to.'
She laughed. âWell, it's not such a bad mental picture, let me tell you,' she said as she leaned across and kissed him firmly on the lips. âAre you coming up?'
She could tell the answer already from the strained expression on his face.
âI've got an early start tomorrow,' he said hesitantly. âI forgot all about it, I'm not going to be able to stay.'
Georgie grinned at him. âMm, Sunday, could only be one thing. Golf.'
He smiled faintly. âNo, it's not golf, but it is a social thing . . .' He paused. âI'd ask you, butâ'
âI'd be bored out of my brain because I wouldn't know another soul.' She gave him a light kiss on the lips. âThanks anyway. Some other time.'
He frowned. âSo you don't mind?'
âLiam, I've had you for a whole night and a whole day, you're not going to hear me complaining.'
He looked a little astounded.
âWhat?' Georgie asked him.
âI just . . .' he took a breath, âI just love you very much.'
Her whole face broke into a smile. âAnd I just love hearing you say that.'
âThen get used to it,' he said, pulling her close and kissing her longingly.
âSo,' Georgie murmured when they came up for air, âI'll see you . . .' Suddenly she sat bolt upright. âOh no, it's Christmas next week!'
âYeah,' he said awkwardly. âI wanted toâ'
âOh my God, I've been meaning to talk to you about that,' she blurted.
âYou have?'
âOh, now I feel bad, I should have said something sooner.'
âWhat is it?'
She winced. âIt's not like you're being excluded or anything, really, they've only just met you. And I know they liked you, if it was anything else . . .'
âGeorgie, what are you talking about?'
âWell, the thing is, we don't make a big deal about Christmas. We keep it very low-key, only immediate family.'
âOh, okay then,' Liam said vaguely.
She sighed. âI have to explain something, and it's going to sound really melodramatic. But it isn't, it's an untimely coincidence, that's all. I don't want you to feel sorry for me or anything.' She paused. Liam was watching her, obviously intrigued. âYou see, the accident happened on a Christmas Eve.'
His expression immediately softened, and he reached over and squeezed her hand.
âThe police knocked on the door in the middle of the night,' Georgie continued, trying to sound offhand but not doing a very convincing job of it. âWe all went down to the morgue. Nick didn't want us to come, but Zan refused to stay behind. This lovely policeman drove us home in the morning, I remember. He was an older guy, he said his kids were all grown up so he didn't mind doing the overnight shift on Christmas.' Georgie took a deep breath in and out. âWhen we went inside, the tree lights were still on. There were a
few presents underneath, but most of them were hidden away. Mum liked to keep up the magic.' She stared out the windscreen. âWhen we cleared my parents' room out a couple of months later, we found them, all the gifts, wrapped and tagged. But we couldn't bring ourselves to open them.'
Liam didn't say anything as he drew her close to him.
âSo I hope you're not offended,' Georgie said, her head on his shoulder, âbut we usually spend Christmas quietly, together. We do the tree the night before and presents in the morning, for the girls, and then we go to the cemetery after lunch. After that, we just wait for the day to be over.'
âI understand,' he said, kissing her on the top of the head.
âSo, you'll spend Christmas with your family?' she said after a while.
He nodded, though he didn't look too happy about it.
âWhat's the matter?' Georgie frowned, straightening up to face him. âYou've been saying you want to spend more time with them.'