Angel Falling Softly (12 page)

The waitress and busboy arrived with the dinners. The two set out the sushi and tempura, miso and rice. Troy thanked them in Japanese. The waitress grinned and bowed in return.

Milada cradled her miso bowl and sipped the hot, salty tea. She hadn’t tasted miso in a while. She had forgotten how much it reminded her of blood.

Troy dipped a slice of the sushi roll into the soy sauce. He used chopsticks with a practiced dexterity. “Zoë?” he said, picking up the thread of the conversation.

“The younger of my two sisters.”

“What does she think the purpose of life is?”

“Killing people she doesn’t like.”

The surprised look on his face was followed by a suspicious expression that his leg was being pulled. Milada shrugged. “She battles evil, if you like. Rather haphazardly. I agree, I can think of better occupations.”

“Is she a police officer or soldier or something like that?”

“Something like that.”

The sushi wasn’t bad, Milada thought.

“So you believe in evil then.”

“I believe people can be bad, can be cruel. Perhaps can be clever enough to be evil. But even the clever ones eventually end up against the wall like the Ceausescus. Or erased from history like the Gang of Four. Evil accumulates. It eats away at the core. It destroys its host. For evil to survive, it must find some good that justifies its existence. Some higher purpose—if nothing else, making the trains run on time—or else it collapses almost as soon as it begins. So kingdoms rise and fall. In the meanwhile, a well-run corporation outlasts any government. And most nations.”

“Which means you do or don’t believe in the devil?”

“I believe there is evil enough in ourselves. I’ve never met the creature myself. I have met a few of his foot soldiers. And in their time most were thought to be—and thought themselves to be—good and decent men.”

Troy nodded.

Milada said, “I knew someone once, a person who did evil with purpose and intent.” Briefly, she looked past Troy, through the window at the shadowed sidewalk, at a man and woman pushing a stroller, a boy coasting by on a skateboard. “She thought she was doing the right thing. Or perhaps was doing the only thing she could do. Or perhaps was merely frightened. Fear and ignorance are so easily confused in the moral imagination.”

They ate in silence until Troy asked, “What about God?”

“Were I to believe in God, a personal God, as Christians would have it, I must believe in a God who values life much differently than we do.”

“But in the end, good triumphs over evil.”

“No, my experience is that mediocrity triumphs over all. Hence the need for grace, would you not say?”

He conceded the point.

Milada finished off the last of the tempura. “This is quite good.”

“As good as what you can get in New York?”

“Hardly Nobu Matsuhisa. But not bad.”

Troy checked his watch. “We’d better get going.”

He paid the check at the front desk with a Platinum Visa card. They arrived at Troy’s car, a red Jeep Wrangler. Milada’s initial reaction was dismay, and she didn’t stop it from showing.

“Don’t worry,” Troy said, “I keep it clean.”

The Jeep was indeed tidily kept. Milada’s concern had not so much to do with cleanliness. She had a phobia of convertibles, regardless of the time of day. It was light, though the sun had settled safely behind the Oquirrh Mountains.
Get a grip,
she told herself and buckled herself in.

Steven had pointed out Abravanel Hall on their informal tours of downtown Salt Lake. It stood kitty-corner from Temple Square, southeast from Energy Solutions Arena. If she were still around later in the year, she should take in a Jazz game.

Salt Lake’s Brahmins mingled together on the polished tile below the glass façade of the concert hall. A line of gushing fountains along the edge of the plaza cooled and moistened the air. Milada spotted a few tuxedos and evening gowns, here and there a black-felt Stetson on top of starched cotton and pressed jeans. It looked like a collision between prom night and Sunday school.

And Milada found that comforting. She had worn her black Mondi to work that day—she’d given her gray to Rachel Forsythe—and though it was a ridiculously expensive outfit, it was cut for utility, not show. Had she appeared at the Met thus attired, the immediate question would have been whether she was dressing down on purpose or by accident. No one cared here, and what a relief that was.

They collected their programs and found their seats. First tier, stage left. A brief inspection told Milada they were just behind the best seats in the house, the corporate patrons. She opened her program and said, honestly surprised, “Keith Lockhart?”

“He splits his time between here and Boston.”

A couple came down the aisle along the railing. The man saw Troy. “Hey, Troy,” said the man, “didn’t expect to see you here tonight.”

“Brother Newhall.” They shook hands. The man said, “So who’s this fine young woman you’re with?”

“This is Milada Daranyi.”

“Sister Daranyi, I’m Greg Newhall. My wife Cynthia.”

Milada shook Cynthia’s hand and then Greg’s.

Greg said, “By the way, Troy, how’s the press run on the new Monson book coming along?”

“We begin shipping to the bindery tomorrow.”

“Good, good.”

The Newhalls continued up the aisle to the corporate seats. A few minutes later, a man came walking back down the aisle, a man who knew how to wear a tuxedo. He made a beeline for them, for her. He said, “Milada Daranyi, I presume?”

She didn’t contradict him. He introduced himself. “I’m Russell Stander with Piper Jaffray.”

“Mr. Stander.”

“I hear you’re making a play for WMI. We all know that Daranyi doesn’t buy into positions just to run up the price. Besides, you gotta know by now that the only way in is through the old man.” Russell chuckled. “Good luck cracking that nut. Say, you still with Garrick Burke? We can give you better margins at Piper Jaffray.” He flicked out a business card.

Milada took it and gave it a cursory glance. “We’re very happy with Mr. Burke.”

“Can’t blame me for trying.”

Milada smiled politely.

Russell Stander moseyed back to his group. Troy said, “What was that all about?”

If she had meant to impress the boy with her importance, she had succeeded all too well. “Blood in the water, as Garrick says. Sooner or later the sharks start to circle.” She handed him the business card. “Here. I do hate throwing away these things myself. Bad luck or something.”

The house lights dimmed. Keith Lockhart strode onto stage. The concert began with Ravel. They didn’t play
Bolero,
thank God. Instead,
Valses Nobles et Sentimentales
and the
Piano Concerto in G.
The soloist who performed the latter was proficient and the conducting competent, and passions were kept in check. The orchestra was saving its best for last.

The pianist bowed, the musicians were acknowledged. Mr. Lockhart left the stage. The lights came up for the intermission. Milada excused herself.

The plaza outside the hall was almost devoid of cross traffic, vacant compared to New York. She took out her cell phone and dialed Garrick’s number. The tall granite spires rising above the high walls of Temple Square were lit up in the blue-green glow of the mercury vapor lamps. The Angel Moroni shone like Gabriel at the Second Coming.

She got Garrick’s answering machine. “Garrick, it’s Milada. I’m at the Utah Symphony. Did you know they have Keith Lockhart out here? Anyway, a Piper Jaffray rainmaker picked me out of the crowd and started chatting about Wylde Medical. Told me we’ll have to deal with the old man. Meaning Darren Wylde controls fifty percent. Worst-case that scenario, please. I do not want to be blindsided by a proxy war. I’ll check back with you on Monday.”

When Milada returned to the balcony, Troy was talking with the man she had been introduced to before, Mr. Newhall. He saw her and said, “Ah, Miss Daranyi.”

So her religious status had been amended.

The house lights dimmed. The audience found its seats. Mr. Lockhart appeared again, turned to the orchestra, and raised his baton.

Milada closed her eyes, steeled herself for that great explosion of brass that begins the prelude to
Scheherazade,
a fanfare that bursts out, recedes, dies, fades to near silence before the solo violin echoes the theme, the small, soft, seductive voice of the storyteller herself. The prelude always struck Milada as Rimsky-Korsakov’s ironic reply to the excruciating foreplay in Wagner’s
Tristan and Isolde,
the waiting, waiting,
waiting
for the climax. All classical music was about sex. Or death. Or death and sex, if it was Wagner.

None of that for Rimsky-Korsakov’s sultan, who hops in the sack and gets it over with first thing. Then it’s up to Miss Scheherazade to entertain
him
for the next, oh, thousand and one nights. Talk about having to be resourceful in bed.

The music burrowed into the recesses of Milada’s mind, into the places where memories moldered like rotting corpses in forgotten graves. It turned over soil and brought up bones on the blade. She could remember so much if she wanted to, and she did not want to.
Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.
Or the year, the decade—or, frankly, the whole bloody century. The past was the past, and she didn’t live there anymore.

She opened her eyes. The one thing even the best of recordings on the best of sound systems lacked—
all that movement.
The weave of the baton, the stroke of the bow, fingers blurring on glittering brass. A symphony was a life lived in exaltation and killed with triumph. Eternity made the best of music monotonous, the best of lives meaningless. The performance was made wondrous by the fact that it would end. Dramatically. She lived in that moment and died with the last, fading notes, in the vanishing echoes before the applause.

She preferred experiencing death in music. She’d experienced too much of it in real life.

M
ilada enjoyed the drive home, enough to put aside her phobia of open-top automobiles. The city, at street level, was quiet and orderly. Composed like a postcard. The headquarters of the Mormon church occupied several blocks in the heart of downtown, a Vatican City in miniature. Gray granite buildings with heavy stone foundations. A kind of architectural temperance movement.

Back in the suburbs, they’d long since rolled up the sidewalks. Porch lights were on. Bedroom windows glowed behind drawn curtains. Troy drove up Larkspur Lane. He pulled into her driveway and switched off the engine.

“I’ve had a great time this evening.”

Milada smiled at him. “So have I.”

The boy returned the smile sheepishly. He hesitated, making an internal calculation. Milada added up the numbers for him. “Why don’t you come in for a nightcap?”

They got out of the car. Out of the corner of her eye, Milada saw him take a package out from under the front seat. “What is that?”

Troy held up a box slightly bigger than a video case. He seemed pleased she had noticed. “I’ll show you inside.”

The night only gets more interesting.

Contrasted to the desert night, the house felt musty and warm. Milada took off her blazer and went around opening windows. Troy said, “You’ve got a swamp cooler, don’t you? You can air out a house pretty fast at night just turning on the swamp cooler fan.”

As she slept in the basement, Milada rarely bothered with it. The switch was located on the wall at the top of the stairs. She stepped up and turned it on. A gush of cold, damp air poured down from the louvered vent in the ceiling.

“An interesting contraption,” she observed.

“The air in New York is too humid for swamp coolers?”

“Very much so.” In the kitchen, Milada took a bottle of Martinelli’s Sparkling Catawba out of the fridge.

“Umm—” Troy said.

“Don’t worry. It’s just expensive grape juice. I purchased it the other day on a whim.”

She twisted off the foil-wrapped top. The bottle opened with a pop. She retrieved two glasses from the cupboard and filled each half full. She raised her glass. “
Kanpai,
” she said.

“
Kanpai.
” They clinked their glasses together.

“Hmm,” said Milada, “like very good Sprite.” She set down the glass and leaned toward him, her elbows on the counter top. “So what do you have in that box?”

“Oh, yes.” Troy set the box on the countertop and lifted off the cover. It was a book. The book had a black leather cover of middling quality. Her name was embossed in the bottom right-hand corner: Milada Daranyi. Spelled right, even. Milada wasn’t sure whether to be taken aback or amused. She removed the book from the box. Gold-trimmed pages, scriptures of some sort.

“It’s a triple combination,” said Troy, quite proud of himself. “That’s what we call it. The Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, and Pearl of Great Price. Three books—”

“Hence, a triple combination. The Mormon canon, I take it.”

She was familiar with the title of the first. “I don’t know what to say,” she said, which was the truth. She idly flipped through the pages as she walked from the kitchen and down the half-flight of stairs to the family room. She flopped onto the couch, kicked off her shoes, and rested her feet on the coffee table.