Ashen Winter (3 page)
“Yeah, he could.”
We sat in silence.
After a while, Darla asked, “Why’d you stand up in front of those guys?”
“I was trying to talk to them. To delay them.” In the rush to take care of Max and get Dr. McCarthy, I hadn’t really thought about the fight. “You saved my life again.”
“Yeah, what’s that now, forty-seven times?” Darla shrugged.
“About.”
“You have a serious talent for needing to be saved.”
“I guess. Thanks.”
“Trying to talk to those guys was stupid. I wasn’t ready to shoot yet.”
“I couldn’t let them walk off with the kids. And you got ready in time.”
Darla grabbed my collar, pulling me closer and yelling in my face. “Yeah, but Christ, you scared me! What if I’d missed? You do anything that idiotic again and I’ll shoot you myself to save the heartache of watching someone else do it.”
“Sorry.” I really hadn’t been thinking too clearly. Obviously. But still . . .
“And I still don’t get why the guy with the machine pistol didn’t perforate your sad hide.”
“He was unnerved by my crazy taekwondo charge?” I forced a smile.
Darla glared. “You have a death wish or something?”
“No. Crappy as this world is, I don’t want to leave it.” I reached out and squeezed her hand. “Don’t want to leave you.”
Suddenly she rolled on top of me, yanking our scarves out of the way and kissing me. Darla pressed her body into mine, burying me in the snow. Her weight, slight though it was, hurt my side. I ignored the pain, wrapping my arms around her and trying to keep up. The kiss lasted for a dizzying minute. When she came up for air, she said, “Don’t you ever do something like that again.”
“If it means I get another kiss like that, I might.”
Darla slugged my shoulder, hard enough to bruise.
“Got it,” I said. “Shouldn’t we be helping Uncle Paul?”
Darla stood, offered me her hand, and pulled me up. We made our way through the two plastic doors that formed an airlock for the greenhouse. It was relatively warm in there, which was good—I was freezing after being half-buried in snow by Darla.
Most of the kale had come out of the soft, moist greenhouse soil with its roots intact, so we could replant it. When we found a plant with badly damaged roots, we harvested the leaves, saving the stems and roots for the goats.
“Will the kale regrow?” I asked Uncle Paul as the five of us walked back toward the house.
“I think most of it will be okay.” He laid a hand on my shoulder. “You sure you’re okay?”
“Yeah.” I thought for a moment, picking my next words carefully. “I’m going to leave. To look for Mom and Dad.” I glanced at Darla and was relieved to see her nod.
“How will you find them?” Uncle Paul asked.
“I’ll track down the two bandits who got away.”
“They aren’t going to volunteer the info you want just because you ask them to,” Uncle Paul said.
“We’ll bring guns,” Darla replied dryly. “Those are pretty convincing.”
There was a long pause in the conversation as we approached the house. Eventually Uncle Paul nodded. “I’ll start sorting out supplies for you. You’ll want to get moving at first light so they don’t get too far ahead.”
I held the storm door for my uncle and Darla. “Maybe we should leave now?”
“Better if you get a good night’s sleep. They won’t be traveling tonight either—their torches are still on the toboggan.”
The scene inside the house was positively tranquil after all the craziness of that day. Dr. McCarthy was gone. Aunt Caroline was sitting on the floor beside Max, holding a cup of water to his lips while Rebecca stirred a bowl of corn porridge.
“What’s this about traveling?” Aunt Caroline said to Uncle Paul.
“How’s Max?” Uncle Paul asked.
“He’s fine. Tell me what you’re talking about.”
“Alex and Darla are leaving in the morning.” Uncle Paul frowned. “One of those bandits had Blue Betsy.”
“What? No.” Aunt Caroline sloshed water across Max’s face, and he spluttered. “There’s no way we can keep up with all the work without Alex and Darla. And what if we get attacked again? What if they attack the house next time?”
“We’ll have to manage,” Uncle Paul replied. “We can board up all the windows on the ground floor, put bars on the doors, too.”
“Your leg isn’t completely healed from the fall and—”
“I’ve been off the crutches for more than a month, hon,” Uncle Paul said, clearly exasperated.
“I know, but you’re still limping.”
“Not much. The muscles are weak, that’s all. It’s getting better.”
“They’re still kids. We can’t let them go running around in this mess—they’ll get killed.”
“I’m eighteen.” Darla folded her arms over her chest. “And Alex isn’t a kid anymore, whatever his age.”
“Why do you guys keep talking about Alex and Darla?” Rebecca said. “I’m going, too.” She folded her arms, mimicking Darla so closely that it might have been funny except for her grim expression.
“Rebecca, no.” I said, as gently as I could manage.
She turned on me. “You think it was fun, waiting for you last year? Thinking you were dead? And then Mom and Dad left, and I thought I’d lost everyone, my whole family, gone. I’m not going through that again.”
“I know it’s hard,” I said, “but Aunt Caroline is right—she and Uncle Paul need help. Darla and I wouldn’t be leaving now except for that shotgun.”
“Darla can stay. They’re not her parents.”
“I’m going,” Darla said flatly.
“Then I am, too,” Rebecca said, although she sounded far less certain than Darla.
I shook my head, scowling. I understood how she felt—I didn’t like being treated like a kid, and really, none of us were kids anymore. We spent our time struggling to survive, not going to school or playing games. But if she got hurt—or God forbid, killed—looking for our parents, I’d never forgive myself.
Rebecca looked down and whispered, “I . . . don’t want to be alone again.”
“I know.” I pulled her into a hug. “But you won’t be alone. You’ll take care of Max and Anna. And help your aunt and uncle.”
“Yeah,” she murmured, holding onto me. “But you better come back.”
“You and Darla had best get some sleep,” Uncle Paul said. “Caroline and I will get your packs ready. I’ll wake you before dawn.”
I let go of Rebecca, and Darla took my hand, pulling me toward the kitchen. “Let’s get washed up.”
That night, I lay awake in bed for more than an hour. Darla was on one side of me; Rebecca, Max, and Anna on the other. My aunt and uncle still hadn’t come to bed. The kids called out or moaned occasionally in their sleep—nightmares, I assumed.
From her breathing, I could tell Darla wasn’t sleeping, either. I put an arm over her shoulder and hugged her closer. “You okay?” I whispered.
Her body heaved and she choked back a sob.
“It’s okay,” I whispered. “Shh. You don’t have to be tough all the time.”
“I . . . I never killed anyone before.”
“I know.” I stroked her back.
“It’s not like killing a rabbit or pig.”
“No.”
“Does it get better?”
I thought about Ferret and Target—bandits I’d killed during our escape from Iowa last year. They still occasionally starred in my own nightmares. “No.”
Darla snuggled against my shoulder. I couldn’t hear her crying, but I felt the tears washing my neck. It was a long time before she fell asleep.
My side ached and my thoughts raced. I stared into the darkness, thinking about my trip from Cedar Falls last year, about all the people who’d helped me during my journey.
My thoughts turned to Mom and Dad. I couldn’t call up a clear picture of either of them. I mean, I knew what they looked like, but the images were blurry. I lay awake, struggling to remember my parents’ faces until Uncle Paul called to me in the grayness just before dawn.
We ate a huge breakfast. Duck eggs scrambled with kale from our farm and ham we’d gotten in trade from Warren. Everyone was silent, like they had so much to say, they couldn’t decide where to start. It made me uncomfortable, so I wolfed my food and excused myself.
Bikezilla’s load bed was packed with bags and bundles. Darla untied the ropes holding down the load and started poking through it.
“I packed everything you’ll need,” Uncle Paul said.
“Doesn’t hurt to check,” Darla replied.
The pistol and the shotgun, Blue Betsy, were there along with a box of shells. I was a little surprised. That gun, with the extra ammo, was worth a fortune. People everywhere were hoarding weapons, so their value had skyrocketed since the eruption. By now, the shotgun and shells were probably worth as much as a small herd of goats or a flock of egg-laying ducks.
The shotgun wasn’t the most valuable thing Uncle Paul had given us, though. Twenty small envelopes made from pages of an old Dan Brown novel were tucked into a cloth pouch. Each envelope contained two hundred carefully counted kale seeds. One packet like these had been enough to buy the snowmobile, tandem bike,
and
a welding rig in Warren. If, before the eruption, someone had handed me a briefcase stuffed with hundred-dollar bills, it would have been about this valuable.
I stared at the bundle, shocked into silence.
Darla tilted her head toward Uncle Paul. “You sure?”
He nodded. “I saved enough for a safety margin. And we’ll let a third of the next crop go to seed. We’ll be okay.”
“I don’t know what to say,” Darla said.
“You and Alex may not be married, and he may not be my son, but we’re all family—you, too. We take care of our own.”
Darla’s eyes shone in the dawn light as she turned away.
Uncle Paul pulled her into a rough hug. “You come back. Find my brother and his wife, if they’re alive. And bring that boy home, too.”
“I will,” she said. “I will.”
“I’m right here,” I said. “I’ll bring myself home.”
Darla and Uncle Paul looked at me in the exact same way. Yeah, right, their faces said.
I decided to change the subject. The pistol the bandit had used to shoot Max lay amid the bundles on Bikezilla’s bed. I picked it up. “How’s this work?”
“I’m amazed it works at all,” Uncle Paul said. “I stripped it down and oiled it, but it’s a piece of junk—a Saturday-night special.”
“You test fire it?” Darla asked.
“Nope. There’s only one magazine with four bullets. I could get more .22 pistol ammo in Warren, maybe, but I don’t have any here.”
“We should try it anyway,” Darla said. “Better to have three bullets we know work than four we’re not sure of.”
“It worked on Max’s head yesterday. Wish it hadn’t. But go ahead if you want.”
“I’ve never fired anything but a rifle or shotgun,” Darla said as she took the pistol from me.
“It’s a semi-automatic,” Uncle Paul said. “Safety’s on the side. Rack the slide to chamber a round.”
Darla clicked the safety to “Fire,” pulled the slide on top of the weapon toward her, and released it. She held the pistol in a two-handed grip and aimed at a patch of snow about ten yards off. She squeezed the trigger and I put my hands over my ears, expecting a bang. But the gun just clicked. Darla looked at Uncle Paul.
“Misfire,” he said. “I was afraid of that. The ammo looked old.”
Darla tried to squeeze the trigger again, but nothing happened.
“Rack the slide to eject the dud.”
Darla ejected the bullet, aimed, and squeezed the trigger again. Pop! It wasn’t much of a noise, even for such a small gun. A spray of snow kicked into the air where the bullet struck.
“Well, two bullets left. Which might or might not actually fire. You may as well keep it.” She thumbed the safety on and handed it butt first to Uncle Paul.
“No, you keep it. Maybe you’ll be able to trade it for something. Or buy some decent ammo.”
Darla started repacking. In addition to the guns, Uncle Paul had given us a huge supply of cornmeal and dried pork, a tent, a large sleeping bag, extra blankets, extra clothing, a coil of rope, two pots, four water jugs, two spoons, a medical kit, old road maps of Illinois and Iowa, a small pair of binoculars, a lamp with an extra bottle of oil, a couple of homemade candles, and a fire-starting kit with a chunk of flint and a mess of dry, shredded oak bark.
I had a hatchet and a five-inch Bowie knife on my belt. I carried the
jahng bong
, or staff, I’d made not long after I’d reached the farm eight months ago. The staff had always been one of my favorite taekwondo weapons. I snagged the package of kale seeds and tucked it into the inside pocket of my coat, against my chest. Darla slid both guns and my staff under the ropes on top of the load so we could get at them in a hurry if we needed to.
Then we said our goodbyes. I hugged everyone in turn—my aunt, uncle, and sister. I’d said goodbye to my cousins Max and Anna earlier. Max was still too woozy to get up, and Anna was keeping an eye on him.
By this time, I was itching to get moving. I straddled the bike’s back seat. I figured Darla should be in front, because she’d be better at spotting the trail than I would. Plus the view was better from the back seat of Bikezilla. Not that there was much to look at—Darla was wearing heavy winter coveralls, and her luscious dark hair was wrapped in hats and scarves. But still.
The biggest problem with Bikezilla was getting it started. Darla and I had to stand on the pedals, straining against our handlebars, just to get it inching forward. Once we got it going, though, we sailed across the snow.
I glanced back. My family had receded to tiny figures, indistinguishable from each other. They were already dispersing to start their morning chores. The land around us was low, rolling hills suffocated under the never-ending burden of ash and snow. Occasionally the sad remnant of a tree protruded from the snow, its branches broken and leafless.
Darla clicked into a higher gear and we sat down, settling into a ground-eating pace. My side hurt, but I ignored the pain as best I could, and soon it dwindled to a numb ache.
I thought we’d have to move slowly to track the bandits, but if anything, Darla was speeding up. I craned my neck to peer around her and figured out why. The bandits had left a trail of trampled snow heading roughly south across the fields. Every thirty or forty feet, a few drops of blood stained the snow—easy to see against the nearly featureless white expanse.
