Autumn Rose: A Dark Heroine Novel (36 page)

His mouth parted into an O and his voice produced the same sound. He stopped stalking and slowly approached us, kneeling next to me. In his palm appeared a long, extremely thin, and sickeningly sharp metal instrument, and in the other a small glass Petri dish, which he cast a spell over. Whatever he was doing, it was far beyond me, and I just watched, frowning, feeling her skin go colder and colder.

He took her wrist from me and, locating the largest blackened vein, pierced her skin with the enlarged needle. As he withdrew it, I saw it was in fact some kind of pipette, and in its tip was a globule of the liquid, which he dropped into the dish. He cast another spell over the dish and its contents, and waited.

I was getting agitated by his slow diagnosis, because whatever had been done to her, she wasn’t breathing, and Valerie Danvers was no vampire.

The contents of the dish slowly began to swirl of their own accord and change color. While they did, Edmund examined the puncture wound he had created. It was tiny, but even with my rudimentary medical knowledge I knew she should be bleeding. She wasn’t, and she didn’t until Edmund massaged her wrist and forced a dribble of blood out onto her skin.

But it didn’t stay there. As soon as Edmund removed the pressure, it was sucked right back into the wound.

“Charnt”
was Edmund’s muttered understatement. His next word was much, much cruder as he took the dish back up and examined its color.

“Edmund, hurry,” I prompted.

“She’s not dead,” he eventually announced. “Not yet. She’s in a sort of coma, dangling on the edge.”

“What can we do?”

Edmund’s lips twitched and he cocked his head slightly, gently placing Valerie’s wrist onto the cold ground. My eyes flicked toward Fallon, who had stopped with the resuscitation.
They can’t be serious?
But we were guardians! It was our duty to protect the humans, to heal them when things went wrong. How could they blatantly ignore that?

“This is very dark blood magic. The source caster of this curse has somehow been in contact with her, and used her blood as well as his own. He’s draining the energy from her. Unless we can find the source, there’s nothing we can do.”

Mr. Sylaeia had descended from the crowd and was comforting Valerie’s hysterical friend, who had heard every word of Edmund’s English. “We can make sure she’s not in pain,” the kind teacher muttered. “There are things we can do . . .”

“Extermino, it has to be,” I continued in Sagean.
Who else would do this?
They were making a point. Adding to the blood on my hands . . . it was guilt-tripping, turned murderous. I felt guilty. I felt awful. A thousand of her lethal taunts did not add up to this. It was with an odd, burning feeling in the back of my throat, like bile was bubbling up, that I remembered telling Nathan about Valerie, when he still worked at the café . . .

“And they’ll be long gone,” Edmund retorted. Fallon had started stroking her hair, brushing it out of her expressionless face. It was pale, and getting paler, her lips turning a noticeably bloody shade of purple.

I had to do something. I couldn’t just kneel here and watch her die in front of all her friends and peers and enemies. I was a Dark Heroine; there had to be a reason fate had chosen me, something deep in my magic that could help her. I racked my brain for what I knew of blood magic. Unmaintained chests of knowledge shifted to the forefront of my mind, old lessons from St. Sapphire’s and my grandmother that I had made no effort to remember. Sage rarely used blood magic—why should they, when they could conjure incredible power with the wave of a hand or simply replenish their energy with that found in nature? Instead it remained the preserve of the Damned, who gambled the crimson liquid in pursuit of power . . . a power limited only by the strength and daring of the wielder. It was all dark, and all dangerous, and curses like this were outlawed.

“The law of opposites, and the law of the conservation of energy,” I suddenly blurted, feeling a spark of hope. “Sagean elemental magic is the direct opposite of blood magic on the wheel, right? And energy used or taken by performing magic always has to be replaced from another source, because you can’t create or destroy energy. It has to remain constant.”

“Autumn, that’s first-grader stuff. It can’t help us,” Edmund murmured, gently trying to tug me away from the body.

I carried on, ignoring him. “Death curses work by taking away the magical energy in a person, right—the part that keeps us all going, even the humans—and leaving them as just a big heap of biomass. It’s breaking the laws of nature that apply to absolutely everything that doesn’t belong to the genus
homo.
Why can’t we just stick to the physics and replenish the energy that is lost? And bonus, Sagean magic is particularly potent against blood magic, and will drive the curse out!”

Edmund looked genuinely worried now, staring at me through wide eyes like I had gone crazy.
Maybe I have. Maybe learning about being a Heroine has just tipped me over the edge . . .

“Second-grade ethics, Autumn! You can’t go around reviving the dead! It’s against the laws of nature!” He tugged me harder this time, but I yanked my arm away.

“You can’t break something that is already broken. She’s not dead, there’s still time.”

“And you think a little blast of magic will do the trick? She is this far from passing”—he squeezed his thumb and forefinger together so there was no gap at all—“and it would take an entire life-force to bring her back. And not just any magic, or collection of different people’s magic, but powerful magic. Magic so potent, and so pure, it is strong enough to give her life and counter the curse.” He yanked me up with a hand under my arm, all pity he might have felt for Valerie gone with the rousing call of duty.

The Athan will become your shadow.

“Some miracles aren’t meant to be performed. It’s unnatural. Sage that powerful don’t exist!”

You are a deity.

Why? Why do I have to be kept pure?

We need you.

I need you.

“Don’t they?”

Fallon realized what I was going to do too late; he made a dive for me, but I had already done the deed. I had poured every ounce of my energy into Valerie Danvers. It didn’t take any effort, no more than it took to twitch a finger, and within a second her eyes had flown open and she gasped down a mouthful of air.

Fallon made contact with me and we scrambled backward, pushing the circle outward as the humans allowed us room to tussle. The prince didn’t stop manhandling me until I was on my back but raised on my elbows, staring up at him. His features were hard, creased up into grooves with shock and concern, but they softened as he looked down at me. Behind us, Edmund was torn between me and Valerie, unsure of which to attend to. I allowed him a small smile, to reassure him.

“I know what I am,” I whispered.
And what I shall not be for much longer.
“My grandmother left me a letter.”

“Y-you shouldn’t have done that.” He crawled a little closer, tentatively, like I was wild and untamed. Slowly he reached out and brushed a strand of hair off my forehead. “You could have died if you used all your energy.”

In the background, Valerie spluttered and coughed, shrieking as she spotted her inky arm, which was gradually returning to normal. With the help of her friend, she was raised into the same position I was in and silenced.

“I did use all my energy, Fallon,” I murmured, meeting his eyes again. They were milky. After I drew in a long breath that didn’t feel like it even tickled, let alone quenched my lungs, I raised one of my hands. My hand was fine. The grass below it wasn’t. A small patch had turned black below my palm; when the gentle breeze made contact, the few remaining black stalks turned to ash and blew away with the wind. Involuntarily, my body was drawing the energy from the ground beneath it to try to stay alive. That was the only thing keeping it alive.

Suddenly, my elbows buckled and my head struck the hard ground, sending stars dancing across my eyes. I blinked them back and stared up at the sky, feeling strangely elated. The weight on my shoulders had drifted away, both weights, and I felt free. Free to bask in the feel of Fallon’s cradling arms around me; free to enjoy the tingling warmth lingering in the miniscule gap between our skins . . .

“Fallon, it won’t work,” I rasped. “You heard what Edmund said, nothing can save me now.”

“You’re not as near to death as Valerie was. And you’re not cursed.”

Holding me, he transferred his own magic to me, letting it seep through my skin. His limbs were gently trembling, he was sparing too much, and I wasn’t going to drag him into my darkness.

“I want to die, Fallon. I don’t want to be a Heroine,” I whispered, and even that felt like there were needles being thrust into my throat. And there lay the crux of what I had done. It probably looked so selfless, risking my life for Valerie’s, but it wasn’t. It was the most selfish act I had ever committed, and I was a rotten child at times; I was escaping my pain, and my fate, and leaving my kingdom and its people to suffer. And yet the boy—almost man—above me still looked down on me like I was the dying sun itself.

“I hate you,” I croaked. “For lying about why you were here. For never telling me. I hate you.”

Even as I said it, my heart sighed,
liar.

“I’m sorry,” he breathed. “I’m so sorry. Please don’t hate me. I wanted to tell you your grandmother was an innocent. I wanted to tell you it was chri’dom who did it. I did, but I knew it would kill you. It
is
killing you!”

His gaze left mine and flicked up as the sun was blocked out by a hulking figure. My vision was blurring but I could tell it was Edmund by his voice.

“No, you’re not comatose yet. Don’t you dare pass beyond, little duchess, or I’m coming right after you to yell at you for being so stupid!”

His words were fierce, but the voice behind them was cracking. I soon felt his magic flowing into me, too. I floated on it, warm and comfortable, lighter and happier than I had been in years. There was nothing to worry about. I wouldn’t have to go on grappling in the darkness without my grandmother. No future-altering fate would rest on my shoulders. No court, no politics . . . no guilt over feeling this way for Fallon . . .

Fallon . . .

It was dark, but I didn’t remember closing my eyes. More hands were resting on my exposed skin and more magic was entering my body, but it wasn’t bringing me back.

“Autumn, please open your eyes. We’re going to save you. Just hold on.”

I was being rocked gently, and my head wasn’t on the ground anymore. By the way my new support dipped in the middle, I thought it might be someone’s knees. They were really quite comfortable.

“C’mon little one, suicide isn’t an option.”

Do they think I’m slipping away? Maybe I am.

“Autumn, it’s Valerie. I’m so sorry for everything I did and said. Please hold on.”

A little late for apologies now.

I realized how supremely quiet it was. Other than the voices close to my ear, I couldn’t hear anything. Not the breeze through the trees, or the shouting of the crowd, or the siren on the ambulance that had been approaching when I saved Valerie. There wasn’t much to feel, either: the hands on my skin didn’t feel warm anymore, and the ground felt soft, like I really was floating. Cut loose and floating, and for once, not drowning.

One thing I could feel were lips and breathing on my ears.

“I love you, Autumn Rose Al-Summers, I always have. That’s why I came here. That’s why I kept everything I did secret. Not because of orders, or fate. Because I wanted to protect you. And so I promise to look after you always, in life and in death. If you live, I will never leave your side. And if you die, then we will face whatever is beyond fate together. You will never be alone again.”

I didn’t know if I believed in true love, but in that moment I believed in love that defied death.

I forgive you . . .

My mouth opened and I took a wheezing breath, sound and then warmth rushing back in a tidal wave. It was overwhelming and confusing, especially when I had no control over my pinned-down limbs; I might well have been a newborn child for what I could do. All I knew was that I couldn’t die, because Fallon had to live.

Amid the confusion, I tried to focus on the magic pouring into me, sending it where it needed to go. It was like trying to meditate in a Category 5 storm.

“Move!” roared Edmund all of a sudden, and I could hear the stomps of hundreds of backpedaling feet and the drone of the crowd growing quieter.

“Her heart rate is rising,” somebody barked. “She’s coming back to us.”

“Lords of Earth,” I heard Fallon breathe, still right beside my ear. The awe in his voice was punctured by a sob, and with a tremendous effort I opened my eyes. But he wasn’t looking at me. He was looking straight through the gap in the Athan around me, staring at the trees.

Or what was left of the trees.

They looked like they had been scorched, the last autumn leaves burned to a crisp and drifting as fire balls to the ground. The grass wasn’t grass anymore, just a patch of arid ground that I realized was hot. The crowd had moved right back, beyond the heat.

I was doing that. I was draining the plants of their energy, taking strength enough to open my eyes and talk. But nature didn’t work like people. Nature didn’t just die. Nature wanted its energy back.

“I don’t want to die,” I whispered as my eyes fluttered closed and I slumped back into the prince. The magic I had drawn was draining just as fast, and there was nothing I could do to shut the floodgates. It was an ebb and flow out of my control.

The flow from the Sage around me was getting weaker. My heart was slowing and there were black spots at the edge of my vision. But my body’s search for replenishment didn’t stop. Some sense, alien and new, slithered across and through the ground, hungrily tunneling past the dry earth to a new source of life.

I sucked on it greedily. It was wonderful, I was drowning in it there was so much, and my senses tuned back in again like a faulty radio. There was lots of noise now. Coughs, and splutters, and strange choking rasps.