Berserk (26 page)

He walked back to the roadside, looked both ways, and swore loudly. Nobody answered so he swore again, giving the finger to a frowning passenger in a passing car. The swearing did not make him feel any better so he continued, varying the words, desperate to purge the feeling of doom which percolated through his body.

He’d made the call almost an hour ago. Shouldn’t Higgins be here by now? Didn’t he have a fleet of helicopters standing by for just such an eventuality? Or had ten years softened the Major? Maybe now he was just a desk jockey killing time until retirement. Cole hated the idea of that, but he thought it likely as well. Even ten years ago, the Major had been unwilling to go to Cole’s lengths to track down the berserkers.
They’re perfect,
the old fool had said.
There’s no way on earth they’d let us catch them, so why even try?

“Because they’re fucking killers,” Cole whispered to the afternoon air, and the accusation echoed back at him from nowhere.

But he had killed for good reasons, hadn’t he? He’d murdered through necessity, and always quickly. He had never let anyone suffer. No torture. No sadistic shit. Just a quick bullet to the head, death before they knew it was coming. He thought of Natasha lying beneath his gun, closed his eyes, hoped so much that he would see that opportunity before the day was through. And as if it would help find her, he silently promised to kill her quickly.

“Where the fuck is he!” he shouted. A man filling his car with fuel glanced over and Cole stared him down. The man hurried to the shop to pay, head lowered, and Cole looked at his car. The driver’s door was open and the keys were in the ignition.

Back at the shop the man was staring fixedly at the woman behind the till. She too avoided looking at Cole through the shop’s window, which made him certain that they were talking about him.

It was a Ford Mondeo, turbo diesel, fast and filled with fuel.

The man glanced at Cole then away again, pretending to peruse the display of wine and spirits behind the counter. Selling alcohol in a petrol station; Cole had never understood that. May as well sell guns in a bank.

He looked along the road in both directions, heart thumping with the potential of the chase to come. No sign of Higgins. He’d described to the Major the car Tom was driving, said he’d wait here to be picked up, and the idea that maybe Higgins would pass him by only came to him then, a possibility that he tried to disregard but which was now growing and growing in his mind, taking over and convincing him of its veracity. Higgins was going after them himself, and the killings that Cole had perpetrated would be for nothing if he wasn’t there to see all this end.

“Fuck!” He flicked his cigarette away and strode for the Mondeo just as the man emerged from the shop. “You better just stay there!” Cole said, pointing, staring, and the man dropped the bag of sweets he had been carrying.

“What?” he said, eyes going wide.

“Just a car,” Cole said. “You’ll get another. I need it. Don’t fucking move.” He reached down and grabbed the pistol in his coat pocket, but let it go again. No need to cause such a scene now. He noticed the mechanic peering around the corner of the building, cigarette dipped from the corner of his mouth. “Somebody Else’s Problem,” Cole said to both men. “That’s me. Leave it that way.”

Cole ignored him, dropped into the car, slammed the door, placed the pistol on the passenger seat, started the engine and pulled away. Music blasted on, some weird whiny jangly shit, and Cole turned it up so that he could not hear the man shouting at him. He saw him, though, running after the car as Cole drove it from the forecourt and onto the road, performing a perfect U-turn and aiming back at the motorway.

Higgins had left him! That mindless prick. At least Cole knew he had been believed; Higgins would already have been told about the excavated grave on the Plain, and it would take only minutes to check with police about the stolen car and the showdown at the holiday cottage. So whether Cole was involved or not, he knew that Higgins would have called in every favour owed to him to get a force together looking for Tom and Natasha. He may have been reluctant a decade ago, but the Major would never pass up a chance like this. Especially so close to retirement.

Cole steered onto the motorway and put his foot down, lifting the car up to one hundred with ease. Traffic was relatively light, and he hogged the outside lane and flashed drivers aside when he drew up behind them. His aggressive driving attracted some angry gestures, but Cole ignored them. If only these idiots knew what he was doing and why. Secure in their own blinkered worlds they had no comprehension of what really existed around the dark corner of their existence. They had no idea of the horrors he had seen, and which he now hunted to kill. So he let them throw him the finger, flash their lights and honk their horns, comfortable in the knowledge that he was doing all this for them. His legs ached, he bled from various wounds, he was a killer, and it was all for them.

“What the hell this shit?” Cole ejected the CD. It was bright yellow and decorated with pictures of weird, colourful, fluffy characters. As he dropped it he heard a sound that caused his heart to stutter in surprise.
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A baby crying.

CHAPTER TWELVE

Natasha was away again, perhaps talking with Lane and Sophia. Tom was terrified. What he had seen of these berserkers in Natasha’s memories was enough to scare anyone, but his mind kept drifting back to what he had seen of their prey. The men and women in the drug house basement, torn and killed and eaten. The two men and one woman they had brought back with them to the boat, naked and shivering and bleeding, little more than fodder. None of them had been with the berserkers later in the truck.

And the people chained to the wall in the berserkers’ living quarters at Porton Down. They had looked like corpses, thin from so much feeding, bags of bones that clung on tenaciously to whatever life they had.

Steven would be like that, Tom was certain. There was nothing else for him to be, and the prospect of seeing him in that state seemed worse than believing he was dead. The death of his son was something he had come to live with, if not fully accept. Now there was a chance that the past ten years would be tipped on their back, and that a whole new history would have to be written for Tom’s life.

And with Jo gone—

They’re telling me where to go,
Natasha said. She had not spoken out loud since leaving the services. Maybe it was too much effort, or perhaps it pained her.
Keep driving north. They’ll be waiting for us and they’ll tell us where to find them.

“Don’t you know where they are?”

Natasha was silent for a while, yet still there, and her doubt made Tom uncomfortable.

Well,
she said at last,
they’re not telling me. I don’t think they trust me very much. They know what happened to us, but they don’t understand how I’m still alive. I told them about Mister Wolf and what he did, but
. . .
I don’t think they believe me.

“Do they mention Steven?”

Again that pause, just slightly too long.
No.

“They must know that Cole’s after us. Why would they risk—?”

Because I’m one of them.

Natasha withdrew from his mind and Tom drove on. He kept his eyes on the road and concentrated on staying within the white lines. His back was a throbbing pain now, and it itched terribly. It was the sort of itch that accompanied healing. Since Natasha’s last feeding he had felt better, calmed perhaps, stress suckled away. Natasha took, and she gave as well. Just what she gave he could not dwell upon right then. It made him better, it helped him drive, and every moment took him closer to Steven.

And Steven was the only good that could come out of this mess. His son. Tom would take him away and make him well again, guide him through the process of finding home, love him just as much as he had loved his memory for the last decade. They would be a family again.

“My family,” Tom whispered, awed. The idea was amazing.

* * *

The baby would not stop crying.

For a few seconds after first hearing it, Cole had almost stopped the car. He would exit the motorway, return to the petrol station, give the kid back to its father and then leave again. Except it would not happen like that and he knew it. There would be complications. Nothing could ever be that simple.
Oh, here you are, I stole your car and kidnapped your baby but please take the kid back now
. . .
er, but I still need your car, and you’ll recall I have a pistol in my coat pocket?
The police would have been called, the father would be frantic, the mechanic would no longer consider it Someone Else’s Problem, and apart from the time he would waste Cole had no wish to become embroiled in some messy forecourt brawl.

And there’s the woman I shot,
he thought,
her blood all over the MX5. They’d have noticed that by now as well.
He tried not to think of how frantic the father of the baby would be.
I’m doing this for you and your kid,
he thought. But no good intentions or moral justification would stop the brat from screaming.

“Shut up!” Cole shouted. It worked for a minute and then the crying started again. He frowned, bit his lip and concentrated on driving.

That was when the dead brunette with the pale thighs and black underwear came into his mind.

That dead woman, brains blasted out by a shot he had not intended for her, had appeared in his mind unbidden, uninvited, and he knew it was more than his imagination because he could smell her, taste her. It was more than just a memory. She had risen briefly from the underground – shifting aside a manhole cover and rising from the darkness, a ghost he had never intended creating – and he had dwelled on her parted legs and skimpy black underwear, hating himself but unable to shake the image.

The baby cried.

“Leave me alone!” Cole said, not exactly sure to whom he was speaking. The smell of the woman was still there, a mixture of Obsession and the decay already creeping into her cooling flesh. Her body must have been found by now, but her mind, her soul, surprised by an unexpected death, had become lost in the darkness of his subconscious. He was sure it would rise again.

She shouldn’t be dead,
he thought.
I shouldn’t have fired off that shot.

The baby gurgled in agreement, then started crying again. Cole twisted the rear-view mirror so that he could glance at the kid. She was bundled up in pink, and her face had coloured to match her coat. Tears streamed down her face.

“I’ll stop soon,” he said, “don’t worry, there, shhh, shhh.” He had no idea how to handle children other than what he had seen on TV. And now he was a kidnapper as well as a murderer.
It’s all for them,
he thought,
all for the sheep.

The woman rose in his mind once more, drifting up out of the dark and revealing herself fully to his scrutiny, and her name was Lucy-Anne. She was there with him, a true presence instead of a simple memory. He gasped, and as he took in the next breath he could taste her, a saltiness to her cooling skin. She moved in his mind and revealed her pale thighs once more, good legs, sexy underwear that she had never expected to display to a bunch of investigative officers today. She pulled those panties aside, and much as Cole tried to draw away from what was happening, he could not. He could smell and taste her, and his guilt did nothing to change what he was smelling and tasting. He could see everything but her face.

The baby cried on. Cole drove. Lucy-Anne’s ghost tortured him and he found himself crying, great shuddering sobs that blurred his vision. The car drifted over two lanes and vehicles swerved to avoid him, their brakes smoking angrily. He wiped his eyes and regained control of the car, but Lucy-Anne was still there. She was back in the driver’s seat of the MX5, her head blown apart and her legs splayed wide, inviting him in to finish raping her body. He had raped her life with a bullet from the .45, and now there was little left for her to protect. He knew her anger and rage. He ran the streets of his mind to escape her, but she was always faster, always there.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered, “I’m so sorry.”

The baby cried, and so did Cole. He had never been haunted before.

* * *

Tom drove on, observing the speed limit. His breathing was shallow; he expected any deep breaths to burst his wound and set the blood flowing again. He felt so delicate.

Natasha was away. She had been gone for ten minutes, and he hoped she was talking with the other berserkers, finding out where they would meet. Tom did not think he could go on for much longer. He drove toward the light of Steven’s life, leaving behind the darkness of Jo’s death. That darkness would fall again, and when it came it would be hard and heavy and difficult to accept. But for now Jo was somewhere away from here, a loving memory that he was reserving for later when things were better. Natasha had done something to help him with this; that made him uncomfortable, yet accepting. For now.

The present pulled him on and he went with the flow.

Beside him, like a bag of shells being shaken, Natasha giggled.

* * *

Lucy-Anne giggled. It was a grotesque sound and Cole tried to ignore it, but it was insistent, reverberating through all the dark places of his mind and echoing into the streets of his psyche. He could not escape himself, and that was where Lucy-Anne was. Inside. In him. him, because of what he had done to her. Her giggle seemed misplaced but he was not in a state of mind to really dwell on that.
With

The baby was still screaming, and Cole knew he had to stop. He could not go on like this; guilt would not let him, and neither would the pulsing headache the kid’s screaming was giving him. The question was, what could he do? He could not just pull over and leave the baby by the side of the motorway, and to exit would lose him precious time. He was still only assuming that Roberts had driven north with Natasha, and now that Major Higgins seemed to have abandoned him, he could think of no real way to trace them. Higgins would likely have at his disposal the police with road cameras, patrol cars, aerial surveillance. Cole could rely on nothing more than Natasha’s occasional mockery in his mind to locate her.