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Authors: Jill Barnett

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The tension-filled moment seemed to creep by, Stephen and Alec both stunned and silent—one with fear and possibly recognition and the other with an angry realization that she knew must have created a sea of turmoil within him.

With animal instinct, Beezle reacted to the tension and scrambled up onto Stephen's shoulder, knocking the wide-brimmed hat from his head.

Stephen's hair was gray.

Alec stiffened, then swore quietly, his face revealing conflicting emotions that Joy could only imagine, for her husband was staring into a misshapen version of his own face, his own dark yet drooping sad eyes, a tragically twisted double whose family tie no one could possibly deny. Stephen was a Castlemaine.

The Truth

 

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools.

—Macbeth,
William Shakespeare

 

Chapter 25

 

"Aye, I know who Stephen be. He's yer brother. Yer father had me drive the carriage th' took him away," Old Jem admitted, looking Alec straight in the eye.

"When?" Alec's voice was devoid of emotion—surprising considering he was so close to the edge.

The coachman appeared to think about that for a few seconds. "Ye were over three. Yer father already had ye riding yer first pony. The youngling were but a few months old, I'd say. Yer mother couldn't even look at him. Yer father sent him to live in one of the crofters' cottages till he could send him away. In quiet."

Alec tapped the letter opener silently against the embossed leather edge of the desk pad. "All these years and I never knew. Why hasn't anyone mentioned him?"

"'Twere done in the middle of the night. Most believed what yer father told 'em—that the youngling died."

Alec stared at a portrait of his father on the opposite wall. The fourteenth Duke of Belmore—his father— stood among his hounds, his pride evident in the arrogance of the pose, so in control he could send his own son away. The Dukes of Belmore—an old myth shattered. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath that helped little. "That'll be all, Jem. Saddle the new stallion for me and have him brought around."

Jem grunted a response and rose slowly, turning to walk toward the door, his shoulders slumped, head bowed. Alec saw every one of the man's years in his bearing. Today's revelation had made Alec feel just as old, just as tired, as if he'd lived for some fifty-odd hard years.

"Jem?"

The old man's leathery hand paused on the doorknob handle and he turned back.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

Their eyes met, questioned and challenged. After a second of silence Jem answered, "Yer the Duke of Belmore, have been fer many years. Even if I hadn't given yer father me word, I wouldn't've told ye. 'Tweren't me place."

Those last three words said it all, brought the situation into sharp focus. Yawning before him was the chasm of English social class—the very system he was taught to respect. He felt the burden of his title more at that moment than at any other. And he suddenly saw the ludicrousness of the notion that one human being was better than another, of the belief that a title—an ancient trophy granted at the whim of a king—and a subsequent accident of birth made one man more deserving respect than another. There was insanity in that concept and in the fact that it was so readily accepted by an immoral world.

And the ultimate irony, that his father, the esteemed Duke of Belmore, a man who had been cold and hard and calculating—a man so in control he was devoid of compassion, a liar who hid one son away while he demanded the other son serve their revered family name to the exclusion of everything else. Everything human. Alec thought of his brother. Everything humane.

The door clicked closed and he turned, his mind a crush of dishonor, frustration, and anger. He crossed the room and looked outside. His wife and his brother stood together. The woman no one knew was a witch. The man everyone regarded as an ogre.

His fists shook in angry reaction to the knowledge that he'd been living a sham. Nothing was as it seemed. His blood ran hot, his muscles tightened; he felt a desperate need to strike out, to hit something, shattering it into a thousand pieces, because that's the way he felt. Shattered.

A flash of black caught his attention. The restless stallion was saddled, but it reared and balked at being made to stand and wait. Alec wrenched open the door, feeling little satisfaction at the sound of it crashing against the wall. He strode down the steps, and a minute later there was no sound but the thunder of the beast's hooves beating the ground. A damp snort of equine breath blew into the air as they sailed over a hawthorn hedge, splattered through a trickling brook, spraying up water, then dust. Across the grass, past the lake, up a hill they flew, horse and rider moving as one, drinking the wind and beating to death a worthless lifetime.

***

 

Stephen sat in the old splintered rocker. "This is my chair." He stood up quickly and pointed to a pile of old broken furniture. "My things. My special things."

Joy smiled, seeing the pleasure and pride he took in the pitiful belongings he insisted be brought to his room. She scanned the interior, which was as opulent and richly decorated as the rest of
Belmore
Park
. Everything was rich deep blue accented by gilt, marble, and crystal, but Stephen couldn't have cared less. The gleam of excitement in his eyes came not from the large bed atop a dais, not from the crystal prisms dangling from the bedside lamps, not from the thick carpet or the bas-relief that circled the ceiling, but from a lopsided old table so weathered the wood was gray, from a creaky splintered rocker, and from a jumble of shabby old possessions that only he in his simple pride could have treasured.

He set each piece in a special place, then stood back to admire it, and Joy had to hold the gasp in her throat, for his face held a look of pride that she knew too well. It was the look that Alec had worn—until yesterday.

"This is my book." Stephen held up a ragged Bible. "It has a title. Like Alec. He is the duke. This is . . . ”

He pointed to the letters and, with effort, he slowly sounded them out. "The bi . . . bull."

"You can read," Joy said, trying to keep surprise from her voice.

That Belmore pride lit his face again, and he nodded vigorously. "I want to be smart. I worked hard to learn my letters. People that read are smart. Roddy was smart. He taught me." His eyes suddenly looked lost, as if mentioning the name of the man who had raised him brought forth his simple expression of grief. Tears.

Joy said nothing but waited. His sadness passed with childish speed. He leaned over and picked up an old willow broom. "This is my broom." He held it up so she could see it, turning the crooked, knobbed handle this way, then that. "I do my job good. Roddy told me I do my job good. Sometimes the other men at the docks asked me to go with them after work. I think it was only when I did a special good job, because they'd say, 'Bring yer broom, Stephen.' They would like me then. I could tell. They would take me to the Empty Net with them, like I was a friend. All the fishermen went to the Empty Net after work. They would say, 'Show everyone how you sweep off the dock, Stephen.' And I would take my broom and sweep the tavern floor. Everyone would laugh and slap their knees and say that Stephen is a real Joe Miller, he is."

Her heart was somewhere near her throat because she knew that a Joe Miller was a jest, a fool's joke.

"I didn't know who Joe Miller was but I think he must've been a good worker. So I like being a Joe Miller. I told them that, and they all laughed again. I laughed too, because I was proud that I did good work. And if I always do good work, people will like me. Then they won't leave me out."

Joy couldn't speak through a throat clogged with suppressed tears. A choked sound of anger, barely audible, came from the doorway and she turned.

Alec stood there, one white-knuckled hand gripping the doorjamb, his haunted eyes locked on the broom in Stephen's large hands. From his hard expression she could tell he'd heard Stephen's story. She prayed for both the brothers' sake that he wouldn't vent the rage she saw trembling in him. She watched him take long deep breaths, saw the hand at his side tighten into a fist of fury, and finally watched with relief as the hand loosened. Their eyes met. She glanced at Stephen, who was now burrowing through a trunk. She started to speak, but Alec shook his head. He gave his brother one last unreadable look and quietly left.

After that, she spent a large part of each day with Stephen, helping him adjust to his new home, feeling desolate because she couldn't help his brother. And Alec . . . it seemed as if he did little but try to ride the legs off every horse in the Belmore stables. She'd heard the servants' comments about the duke, had seen him taking the stallion out only to return later, exchange the lathered horse for a fresh one, and ride off again. At other moments she'd caught sight of her husband watching as she and Stephen talked or walked in the garden or sat together in the music room where she would pluck out a Scottish ditty on the pianoforte and then teach her brother-in-law to do the same.

Alec never showed up for meals, never came into their sitting room or to her bed. She'd stayed up two nights listening for him, but she'd never heard him and both times had finally fallen asleep as the sun began to rise. She wondered where he had slept, where he had hidden. She told Henson she needed to speak with him, but Henson would return and shake his head sadly. Alec had locked her, and everyone else, out of his life.

***

 

He stood in utter silence atop a hill that offered a panoramic view of the endless spread of his ducal lands. Alec dropped the horse's reins and let the animal graze and drink from a small brook that dissected the hillside.

He walked over to an outcropping where he sat on a flat rock. The sun was full and beat down on the hilltop, but he felt nothing beyond confusion. He'd asked himself over and over how one could set aside everything he knew and believed in. He was the Duke of Belmore. But what was that? Little more than a part in life. His duty. His whole life had boiled down to that one thing—his duty. His role in life.

Odd that he'd always looked at life in terms of roles. Much was becoming clear now. He'd been taught to value above all else his pride in being a duke, his role in society— dictated by an immoral ton, by hundreds of years of ritual without reason, and by his father's rigidly skewed perception—a blight he had passed on to his son. One of his sons. The one he claimed.

Alec had also been taught to value and protect the Belmore name above all else. He laughed, a sarcastic sound that was caught by the wind and carried into the crowns of the nearby trees in all its caustic glory.

God . . . What pride was there in a name that placed a reputation before a human life, pride before ties of blood? His mind went back in time, to memories of a childhood alone, to the hours that had seemed like days to a young boy of four or five who was so isolated that he talked to the walls, the chairs, pretending they could listen—until his father caught him and flew into a rage so violent that Alec never again spoke in his presence unless prodded to. He might as well have been deaf and dumb, for that was how he had lived. In silent fear.

Eton
had come as a welcome escape. There even the stiffness that hid his fear of the other students, even his aloofness and silence, hadn't discouraged the two lads who still stood by him today despite his pompous behavior.

What had Scottish called him? A hypocritical prig. Quite perceptive, and right. He was his father's son. And he'd allowed his rigidity to spill over into his personal life. He'd constantly reminded Scottish that she was the Duchess of Belmore, his wife, and that she should conduct herself as such.

There were the roles again. Scottish wasn't a role to him any longer. She wasn't his duchess, his wife, a witch, a monster. She was a living, breathing woman who could make him forget a lifetime of sadness with a pair of innocent eyes that bespoke her love.

God, but he needed that now. And he needed her.

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