Beyond My Control: Forbidden Fantasies in an Uncensored Age (33 page)

But do not denigrate jealousy. It is part of our survival in- stinct. In an appropriate jealous situation, you want to feel the green-eyed monster, want to open your eyes if you are actually in the position of losing your beloved. However, overreacting to jealousy may be the surest way of pushing that lover away, just as the survival instinct “fear” sometimes ends up killing you. A sexual get-together of three people will not lead to the loss of one person’s beloved…usually.

So, let us honor this meaningful emotion and try to under- stand its impact on us. Remember, a threesome fantasy is a scene in our heads alone, which need never see the light of day unless we are 100% certain we can handle it.

Emma

I am twenty-six years old, married with one child, and I am an exhibitionist. I love to show off my body, but at times, I am shy, too. I love to go around without a bra and panties; if I can get away with it, I sometimes go to work without these items. I have a clean-shaven pussy. My husband doesn’t like hairy ones.

My husband calls me his little nymphomaniac. My favorite fantasy is having two men at the same time. I told my husband of this fantasy, and

he agreed to let me live it out to see what it would be like. I loved it at first, but then it kind of threw me that my husband and the male friend who joined us enjoyed watching each other so much. I felt like waving my hands, saying, “Hey, guys, I’m over here.” I’m not saying I won’t ever do another threesome. I just won’t do it with my husband.

s h a r i N g o N e m a N

“A Hard Man Is Good to Find”

We women have our problems to contend with, but no one ex- pects our clitoris to stand at erection. Men have more at stake imagining themselves in a threesome with a woman and another man. For a woman who can handle jealousy, sharing her man can be a sensational piece of pie. She’s often shared a bed with another female, first mother, then sleepovers with other young girls, and now this lovely woman in bed with her and her man.

How interesting to imagine in fantasy or to actually live out a scene wherein she watches her husband with her friend, see- ing herself in the other woman’s place to the extent that she can almost feel what the other woman is feeling, having been there. And how is he, her man, feeling with this new woman? Without the nasty “grrrr” of jealousy, perhaps she’s able to assist her man in pleasing this lovely woman. And if that works out, perhaps switch places with the woman without skipping a beat or switch to a duo wherein the other woman now watches her and her husband do the erotic dance they do so well. Though now, with eyes upon them, they perform as never before, feeling the inten- sity of the other woman’s gaze, the sheer exhibitionism of it all!

For the men and women in this chapter, a threesome fantasy is a ticket to the World Series. In our erotic imaginations, we move the other two players around at will, picturing our best friend bringing our husband to a climax, or maybe the friend bringing us to climax while he watches and masturbates, or maybe—?

Sasha

We know men often like the scene of their woman aroused by either another woman or a man. “Let me take you in. Let me look! Let me
see
!” Watching one’s mate can be a rich turn-on. Now more and more women are joining the club. Sasha dreams of including another woman with her and her fiancé, with her dream scene being the sight of her lover filling every orifice of another woman.

My fantasy is that I’d love to have a girl with my fiancé Max and me, where we all have sex. I want to see Max lick her cunt, fuck her in her ass, and make her cum. I want to go down on her and taste her pussy, feel her juices on my tongue and all over my face, making me sticky. I want her to lick my pussy so I can know what another
woman
feels and tastes like. Max knew about my fantasy, and we talked about it during sex. It drove us crazy with wanting. The only problem was, we didn’t know where to find another willing woman. We were both hesitant to go online, but a few months ago, our desire finally got the best of us. We’ve been sharing a beautiful woman ever since. Thank you, Internet!

Perhaps the fact that Sasha had been sexually active with both men and women from an early age assuages some of the insecu- rity others might feel in her dream scene.

W o m e N o N T o p

The old line that men “needed” sex in a way that we women did not is quickly becoming an old wives’ tale or, perhaps more appropriately, an “old husbands’” tale. Women today are going places we didn’t used to even (literally) fantasize about. After depriving ourselves of our full sexuality for so long, our entrance into the workplace has everything to do with our sexual ac- ceptance of who we are and what we want. I might add that a threesome is relatively new for women. Amazing what real independence can do for the imagination.

Hullo boys I am a 21 year old bisexual prison officer. I am looking for lads to go out with, have a few drinks and a laugh. I am single, like both sexes, but prefer men. I love to travel, eat out, not into cinema. I prefer pubs & clubs. My fantasy is to have a threesome with another guy and girl but I am not sure if I would go through with it.

Let loose, come party tonight with me and my friend who is a guy. 420 (marijuana) and drinks, and whatever else.

both black, me, bbw (big beautiful woman) female, he very slim, dark, handsome and great in bed. lets have fun tonight. SAFE PLAY ONLY ALWAYS

i can host i live alone, nice apartment.

hit me if you are interested.

oh and yes I’m bi, so you should be too.

Playful and sexually adventurous, uninhibited professional femme lesbian BBw’s (Big Beautiful Woman) looking for another experienced serious BBw to join us in a 3some TONIGHT, the pleasure will be very satisfying.

Knowingthatyoursexuallysafewithexcellent hygiene allows us to enjoy our playtime/great sex. We are both d&d (drug & disease) free and clean so approach us correctly ladies.

Not here to play email tag or picture games with you all evening we value our time and we’re serious about meeting TONIGHT.

Be ready to voice verify…exchange pictures… and meet/travel.

LADIES ONLY

I’m moving away soon so want to have fun before I do. Always wanted to a try 3some with 2 other women. NO MEN please. If any girls interested, I can arrange it and host.

Only clean, drug free, sweet. Any race ok.

Write about yourself and send picture if you can. Thanks.

T h e g a y m a N ’ s
L a c k o f
g u i d e T o p l e a s u r e

From online personal ads, I find frightening the amount of dan- gerous unprotected sex going on amongst young gay men. The endless ads demanding “BB” or “Raw” (bareback/no condom) make me want to grab them by the ears and shake some sense into them. Though the majority of gay men may act responsi- bly, dangerous sex is much more rampant in the gay population than heterosexual or lesbian. I’m not surprised. We women have been taught to say “No!” How many gay men are raised to value their homosexuality? Still today, so many parents put out signals to dissuade their child from anything but a heterosexual life. Without the love, support, and guidance, where do we learn to appreciate and care for who we are? How can we act appropri- ately if we have never been encouraged to be comfortable with our sexuality, a most essential part of our being?

i wanna get on my knees and have two guys fuck me at the same time planting their seed… getting off on the idea of double

i am white, 6´ tall, 160lbs, 30˝waist, 28yo, br hr hz eyes, hiv neg/std free

like to get head, give head, rim and fuck, get fucked…nice ass and legs, can host…send stats AND a pic and be around my age and hot… vers masc…at home after a fun night, horny as hell, be musc and straight-acting, ready for sex

into white and black musc toned, masc guys…

really into tight ass and big arms…wrestlers

and jocks a plus!

My friend i need a hairy raw top guy to host us tonight. If you can host a threesome, email me now with pic and stats and location. Must be a nice guy, very discreet, drug and disease free.

Im a good looking Puerto Rican top (meaning “dominant”) looking for a 3some. Im looking for 2 hot older white guys who can host. Guys can be a couple, friends, fuck buddies what ever. Im not looking to steal anyones love, partner, fuck buddy. im just looking to help another top fuck a nice raw bttm. I prefer older couple but older man younger bttm or younger top and older bttm will work. Married guy here discreet, your pic gets mine. Im D&D free. Not talking about body pics here. Im looking for face pic trades. not into endless emails please.

T h e g a y / l e s B i a N W i T h i N

A threesome sounds like so much fun. Th word itself promises a good time, the more the merrier. Who doesn’t like a party—espe- cially when ice cream and balloons are replaced with hot forbidden sex? We go into it ready to double the pleasure, double the fun.

But as I discovered from my own first experience, sometimes

there is another reason for creating the party of three, one that the hosts and guests are often reluctant to admit, even to them- selves. Consider the bisexual, or latent homosexual, who is drawn to a same-sex union but hasn’t yet consummated it. Given shy- ness, fear, anxiety, uncertainty as to whether he or she can handle it, it’s not uncommon for men and women to live out a same-sex experience through their partner/spouses. A suppressed homo- sexual wish? Or could we settle for ardent erotic curiosity?

T h e B u d d y s y s T e m

Buddies! Pals! Bisexuals?

Earl

Earl, a married man in his mid-thirties, is deeply aroused by videos of his wife doing everything with four men. He fantasizes his wife being fucked to the breaking point by anenormousblackman. in another email, healso fantasizes about a sixteen-year-old girl in a threesome with two men who fi every orifi “fi (the girl) completely with their cum.” in actuality, he lost his virginity to his mother’s best friend. is he gay? Does he long to be in his wife’s position, every orifi fi Clearly, a three-way with hiswife andanothermanexciteshim. But is the female presence necessary to his sexual arousal, or there to cover his bisexuality? Does even he know?

I knew, and approved, of my wife’s “promiscuity” before our marriage. She told me everything, though not in detail. However, two years into it, I stumbled on some old videotapes, genuine homemade porno with my wife the star! I felt cheated. Not because she hadn’t told me but because she’d never done those things with me. I have to admit watching those tapes got me hot as hell. Watching my wife having four guys, seeing them in her ass and pussy at the same time, hearing her cries of pleasure as they showered her with their semen, brought on many a fine load.

I sometimes now fantasize watching my wife with a huge black man. He’s so big, my wife’s fingers can’t encircle his thickness. I tell her that I want to watch her suck his cock. I watch as the man grabs a handful of my wife’s hair, holds her head, and fucks her face. Spit dribbles from her wide-stretched lips. She can’t swallow fast enough. By the time he has all of his meat inside her pussy, she’s biting her lip in pain, unable to concentrate on kissing me, but she keeps right on fucking him back. Her eyes meet mine, pleading for intervention. As they glaze over, I know she’s cumming. He fucks her to the limits of her endurance as he drives his cock deep and dumps his load inside her.