Beyond Nostalgia

 
BEYOND NOSTALGIA

by

Tom Winton

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Comment by Julia Siboney, author of 'Children of Light':
I love it when I find a book so touching as yours. The story itself is the force of it all, you capture human emotions going against real life obstacles. It's been a beautifully haunting read.

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omment by Isabel Lopez, author of 'Isabel's Hand-Me-Down Dreams':
Beyond Nostalgia is a story told with such tenderness and depth that it will break your heart. Though not sappy-sweet in sentimentality, it is warm and loving. It evokes our own fragile memories of that true and eternal love that happens but once in a lifetime and of making choices that will sometimes haunt us forever. It reaches out and grabs the hopeless romantic in all of us.   The vivid imagery of his New York neighborhood and the memories of an unforgettable bygone era will touch many of his readers, but in the end, it will be the moving story of two young lovers and the heartbreaking cards they are dealt that will have readers reaching for the Kleenex and reminiscing about the one that got away and took their hearts with them.  Powerful in its simplicity and honesty.

Comment by K.C. Hart, author of 'Summer Rose':
I absolutely love your story. The place, the pacing, the sweet youth of Theresa and Dean, you have captured it all, the language. I have no idea why, but I kept thinking about Eddie and the Cruisers all through the story, and I don't even remember what that movie was about.. Dean's voice (your writing) is so perfect. I feel him peeling off the shells of the protective coating he's layered to protect himself and her. This is about more than love it is about intimacy, opening your heart and soul.

Comment from Barbara Mayo-Neville, author of 'The Sea Pillow':
I have to admit that I am dumbfounded to read such a lovely, haunting and relational story from the hands of a man! There are a few men who can write in such a way--it is wonderful.

To Blanche, for being so selfless, for so long.

Chapter 1

I once believed soft, warm, beautiful things could never flourish in an environment of hard concrete and cold, dark bricks. In a tough, paycheck-to-paycheck, hard-luck place with a name like Flushing, life’s finer things appeared only in dreams. I thought on the rare occasions when good things did happen in neighborhoods such as mine, to people like me, they had no place there and were always short lived. I thought the phrase I’d penned on the cover of my loose leaf notebook senior year was quite ingenious for a kid with such a humble background and education.

In large block letters it shouted ELATION IS ELUSIVE – HARD LUCK ENDURING.  Just beneath that I’d borrowed a line from Bob Dylan, “WHEN YOU GOT NUTHIN’, YOU GOT NUTHIN’ TO LOSE”.

My negative philosophy was deeply entrenched not only in my mind but also my soul. I’d been thinking that way all my young life, but you can’t blame me. I clearly saw what was happening all around me. I could read the writing on the walls, when there wasn’t graffiti obscuring it. But one night during my eighteenth spring all that changed in a New York second. My perception of life, love, hope, and pain would never be the same.

For that was the night I met Theresa Wayman.   

Nearly forty years have slipped away since then, yet I can still recollect most of what happened that damp, cold April night in 1967. I was at a dance with my three best friends:  Don Scully, Jimmy Curtin, and Steve Waters. At the time, we all played basketball for our respective high schools and everybody knew it. The Borough of Queens is a big place, yet at every dance we went to we always saw some familiar faces. In that respect, and only that respect, this dance, this night would be no different. 

As always, we wore our varsity jackets over shirts and ties. We thought we were H-O-T hot, too cocky and headstrong if you ask me now, real smooth if you asked me then. Still, we were four nice looking young guys, drenched in English Leather, who could dance with the best of them and fight when we had to. We were always together. 

That night we were at Saint Agnes Girls High School in College Point. I was dancing near the gym’s center court line when, as it does so often in the city, trouble erupted. Fueled by a six pack of Rheingold Beer, I was feeling right, getting into the Shing-a-Ling with Debra Kennedy, a cute little blonde I knew. We were dancing real well together to The Rascals' hit 'Lonely too Long' and soon, after seeing what we could do, most of the couples around us started giving us a wider berth on the hardwood floor. By now I was feeling cool, real cool, like Travolta must have a few years later in Saturday Night Fever. 

But there was somebody in the crowd who didn’t think I was all that much, or maybe he did, and that’s why he started in. All I know is this guy who had been dancing next to me, a real tall oriental dude with a greased-back Elvis hairdo, suddenly slammed an elbow into my kidney. Instantly, I saw stars, an entire galaxy, and my eyes glazed over just as fast. I hunched over, grabbed my side, tried real hard to squeeze away some of the pain. Then, just as quickly, I spun back up and around, aimed real high, and nailed the troublemaker with a good one to the cheekbone. 

Fists were flying, a flurry of rights and lefts, hard punches, and I was getting the better of him. But it didn’t last long. Mere seconds elapsed before two chaperones grabbed me; big burly blue-collar types in ill-fitting sport coats and mismatched polyester ties. They yanked me off the instigator and started dragging me, no questions asked, toward the principal’s office. 

“
Lemme go,” I shouted, “he started the whole thing!”  But it did no good. My captors wouldn’t say a word, or listen to one either. They continued to strong arm me out of the gymnasium then down a long empty hallway. One beefy hand cuffing each of my skinny arms, I felt like Lee Harvey Oswald just before he ran into Jack Ruby.   

After successfully transporting me to the principal's office, my captors paused for a moment and eyeballed the long row of empty metal folding chairs lining the wall just inside the doorway. "Let's put 'im over there," one of them finally said, jutting his square jaw toward the farthest chair from the doorway. They marched me over, plopped me down, and gave me two nasty looks that said '
Don't even think about making a run for it'.
 

They then strode across the linoleum to where this very old nun, a tiny woman the size of a pixie sat behind the biggest desk I’d ever seen. She couldn’t have been an ounce over eighty pounds.  Translucent skin stretched across her forehead and tiny cheeks tight as leather on a bongo. With only that tiny face and miniature black habit visible behind that huge mahogany desk, she looked like something you’d see on “Laugh In”. But that’s where the humor ended. The chaperones surely didn’t think anything was funny. With their backs to me now, both of them facing the toy nun, their heads bowed like altar boys, they began murmuring to her.I leaned this way and that, but their voices were too low.  I couldn't discern one word of my indictment. 

At first I wasn’t overly concerned about the whole thing. There had been other times my friends and I had been in fights, and all anybody ever did was kick us out. Our only concern on those nights was how many guys might be waiting for us outside. But this thing was beginning to drag on a bit too long. I was getting antsy. I thought, '
Shit man, maybe they don’t play around here at Saint Agnes
'. Then, when one of the chaperones pointed to the telephone and I thought I heard him say something about the police, I really started getting uptight. Even with the buzz still going on in my head I realized things could get real serious, real quick.

A minute or so went by. I looked out into the hall and considered making my break. Ten, fifteen feet, and I’m out of here, wouldn’t take but a second or two. I could do it so fast they wouldn’t know what was happening. I’ll haul ass outta here, go down the hall right to the coatroom. Then I’ll …  Right there my scheming ended. That’s as far as I got. Boom! Poof! It simply shut down, just like that. Because standing outside that doorway, on the far side of the hall, off to one side, apparently trying to remain hidden from everybody else in the office, was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. And her dark, alluring eyes were locked on mine. 

Holy Christmas! What a knockout! She’s got to be the prettiest girl this side of the G.W. Bridge. A little on the hood or hitter side maybe, like the kind of girl who's into guys with greased back hair and leather jackets, but still, what a fox! 

I felt like I was in Westside Story, one of the 'Jets' checking out one of the forbidden 'Sharks' girls. This girl was utterly captivating - no, beyond captivating. Forget that she wasn’t all that tall or overly busty, that she didn’t dress collegiate like me and my friends. She had this rare beauty that was as subtle as it was striking. Wrapped tight in a sleek, black dress with spaghetti straps, I’d have been content just to stare at her bare shoulders all night. 

But there was so much more to take in. Her hair, blacker and silkier than her dress, cascaded from a perfectly centered part like two dramatic stage curtains, framing her face like a masterpiece. A teenage Cleopatra with eyes so dark, so mysterious, they almost looked oriental, like sideways drops of dark coffee that looked into you rather than at you. And talk about lips - full, sensual, all-female lips coated ever so carefully with a sexy flesh-tone gloss. Lips that somehow seemed familiar but, of course, weren’t.           

She lifted her chin just a bit, arched her feline brows and slowly brought an index finger to those lips. "Shhhh!" Then she lowered her hand from her mouth and pantomimed a word, just one word, system … or assistant … something like that. I wasn't sure.  She straightened her dress, cleared her throat, twice ran her fingers through her hair, and strode into that office looking like the queen of Queens. Exuding an air of confidence that nobody alive could put on, she marched directly over to the nun and chaperones, and began talking to them. 

With her back to me, I couldn't hear a word she was saying.