Beyond Pain (26 page)

"She said you want intel, but..." His gaze drifted to the side. "Tell me what you want to know. When I've got it, I'll send word. But I won't hand it over until after I've seen Emma."

The quiet confidence of the demand raised the hairs on the back of Bren's neck. "Who backed Wilson Trent's play to kill Dallas and take over Sector Four?"

Noah laughed abruptly. "Oh, just that. That doesn't come cheap."

"You can take the job or leave it, Lennox." Bren hesitated. Playing the hard line was smart if the guy was a creeper from Emma's past, but if he really had simply been a friend of her brother's... "She's all right, you know. She's doing okay."

"Is she safe?"

A deceptively straightforward question, edged with lethal challenge as well as hope. "I saw her right before I left. She was having a drink with the others."

Noah seemed to process that. "How serious is O'Kane about cleaning house over here?"

"Pretty goddamn serious."

"Then we'll be in touch." The man vanished into the fog.

Bren rubbed his temples and headed back toward his bike. No new answers about Trent, but putting Lennox on the trail was progress.

It didn't answer Dallas's other questions, the ones about Emma's relationship to this elusive hacker. Ace could get the truth out of her easily enough, though Bren was starting to think it didn't matter. For all Noah Lennox's intensity and mystery, he didn't act like a man driven to reclaim something he'd lost and believed to be rightfully his.

Then again, maybe that was the point. He'd asked all the right questions, shown just the right amount of concern for her well-being--like a man telling the truth, or a consummate sociopath.

So which was he?

The note was simple, so simple she struggled with only a few of the words, mostly due to Bren's harsh, slanted handwriting. Abrupt and efficient as he was, the note directed her to climb the stairs at the end of the hallway.

Mysterious.

Most of the O'Kanes lived in converted rooms on the first floor of the building. In fact, Six had only been upstairs on the nights Dallas threw his extravagant parties. She hesitated on the stairs, trying to imagine what the next one would be like. All those naked bodies, all that pleasure. For once, she'd feel free to watch, to take in the joy and the lust and let her imagination run wild.

Until Bren dragged her someplace quiet and fucked her cross-eyed.

With that thought sparking a flutter in her belly, she followed the directions up the stairs, past the party room, and down a narrow corridor toward one corner of the building. The hall ended in a simple wooden door, slightly ajar.

Anything could be on the other side, but in her gut she already knew. Bren, and Ace, and God knew what else. Whips and chains and all those things she'd never thought much about until she'd started thinking about Bren and what he might do with them.

What he might want
her
to do with them.

She took a deep breath to settle her nerves before pushing open the door. Inside, Bren was sprawled on a huge cushion in the middle of the floor, a drink held loosely in one hand.

He was the only familiar thing about the room.

Since he was watching her, assessing her reactions, she lingered in the doorway and took it in slowly--the chains along the wall and hanging from the ceiling, the oddly shaped furniture whose purposes she couldn't quite figure out, and the solid wooden shelves along the far wall, where Ace stood testing the weight of a leather flogger.

If the party room was expansive debauchery, this room was...distilled. The hard liquor of fucking. Sin on the rocks.

Bren nodded to the couch behind the cushion. "Sit."

She took her time pulling the door shut, but that
click
did more than shut out the world. It triggered something inside her, something that recognized this moment for what it was.

This wasn't simply another night in his room or hers or even Ace's. This was a stolen moment, set apart from the others. A fantasy, where reality could be what they wanted, with no past or future or baggage or worries, just now.

Her heart beating faster, she crossed to the couch and sank down on the middle of it.

Bren lifted his glass to his lips for a leisurely sip. "We have some things to talk over, starting with the basics. Who touches you?"

Six glanced at Ace, who gave her his wickedest smile in return, the one that had sent panic racing through her in the past. It still made her nervous, but the good kind, the kind that shivered over her skin with the same prickling pleasure as Bren's fist in her hair.

She wet her lips and returned her attention to Bren. "Would you let him touch me?"

It was Bren's turn to smile. "No."

"Harsh, brother." Ace didn't seem upset as he ran the flogger's tails over his fingers. "But I don't think she minds."

Six didn't realize she was smiling too until she tried pressing her lips together. Bren was watching her, so intent, so
protective
, and she couldn't help it. "He gets a little possessive," she murmured, nudging his leg with her foot.

Bren nudged her back. "So do you. Ace might not have much to do tonight with his hands. Or his mouth."

But Ace would have to wield the whips, and for one moment, that did make her jealous. Anything her body wanted, Bren found a way to supply, but he had needs she couldn't meet.

Yet. "I want him to show me how."

"You mean the flogger." It wasn't a question.

She still answered. "If you'll let me. If you want me to."

He held her gaze--and licked his lips. "Ace?"

"It's her night, brother. Hers and yours. I'll show her anything you want me to." The words were more serious than any she'd ever heard from the man, so solemn her gaze jumped to him again. He'd picked up a different flogger, one with wider tails. "But I did bring the deerskin, in case you want it."

Bren rose slowly, set his glass aside, and reached for her. He combed his fingers through her hair, pulling just a little, and kissed her cheek. "Deerskin is soft," he murmured. "You should know what it feels like before Ace shows you how to use one."

She shivered and turned into his cheek, inhaling shakily. "I thought you weren't going to let Ace touch me. Or is that different?"

Bren hummed softly. "If you were like Noelle--if this
was
sex for you--then I'd want to be the one to give it to you. But the leather doesn't fit in my hands like it does in Ace's. He can show you better."

"It doesn't have to be about pain," Ace said, his voice closer than it had been. "Some people like the adrenaline. Lex is like that. It gets her warmed up, floating, but it doesn't get her off."

Adrenaline. God knew Six had a thing for that, like the illicitness of fucking where she might get caught, or the dangerous thrill of Bren's hand around her throat, cutting off her air. So careful, so controlled that it didn't feel like danger, not exactly, but she'd come so hard she'd been woozy for hours.

She lifted a hand to touch Bren's cheek. "What will you do while he's flogging me?"

"We talked about how it can be part of sex or separate," he whispered. "Which do you want it to be?"

It was an impossible question to answer, because she still couldn't imagine it. "I don't know if I want to keep them separate, or if I'll be able to."

"Hey, fighter-girl." The couch sank as Ace settled next to her, close but not touching. "Anything you want to try is okay, anything you don't is off the table. Bren and I understand the rules in this room. He's the boss. That's it, start to finish. If something I do gets you wet and tingly? Well, that's because
he
told me to do it. You don't even have to remember I'm here."

She turned just enough to study him, but nothing in his dark eyes or easy expression indicated distress. Being considered an extension of Bren's will didn't seem to bother him, but that didn't make it fair. "You really don't mind?"

"Not even a little." Ace winked. "I can't promise not to get hot watching the two of you, but I know plenty of girls who'll be more than happy you sent me over already warmed up."

Bren shifted on the couch, sliding his hand down her back. "Yes or no?"

Curiosity might have been enough to motivate her, but this was more than that. More than Ace's jokes about tingles, though sitting between them with the promise of lust in the air was enough to set anyone squirming. Bren was offering her a peek into himself, a chance to experience something as profoundly important to him as her little bolthole in Three was to her.

She had meticulously strung Christmas lights. He had this. Pain.

Meeting Bren's eyes, she nodded. "Yes."

"If you want it to stop--
any
of it--you say so."

Her smile widened. "Not a problem."

"And if you don't want it to stop..." Bren's fingers spread wide at the small of her back. "It's like the man said. What I say goes, and you have to trust me to make you feel good."

Saying
no
came easily to her.
Yes
was still new, but not as new as the knowledge that her consent mattered. They'd moved past some invisible line where Bren was willing to serve as caretaker for her body, a body she didn't know how to own. It had become
hers
, in a way she'd never understood was possible, and he never wanted to take it away.

He wanted something more precious, something she'd always guarded closely even though it was so shattered she didn't know where all the fragments had ended up.

Her fragile, wounded heart beat too fast, and she knew when she opened her mouth that she was offering it to him. If she was lucky, he'd be too distracted to realize it was busted until she'd jammed enough of the pieces back together to make it worth a damn. "I trust you."

She barely got the words out before his mouth descended on hers, quick and hard. He pulled her up, into his lap, her hips nestled to his as he slid his hands into her hair, and her heart slammed into her rib cage so violently it was amazing it didn't break all over again.

The first rush of pleasure from his mouth knocked her senses sideways, and it wasn't until she was closing her teeth on his lower lip that she remembered they weren't alone. Pressing her forehead to Bren's, she tilted her face enough to catch a glimpse of Ace, sprawled against the corner of the couch a few feet away.

He met her gaze with a slow smile that crinkled the corners of his eyes and made her stomach flip-flop. "Don't mind me," he murmured, stretching his legs out in a way that made it impossible not to notice his dick straining his fly. It could have been lewd, except that Ace didn't leer or rub at himself like a creeper. He stared at them, obviously turned on by their pleasure, his eyes full of as much fond affection as hot lust.

Being watched wasn't so bad when the person watching just wanted to see you get off.

Shuddering, she turned back to Bren and licked his lower lip until he eased his hands under her shirt. He cupped her breasts, flicking her nipples with his thumbs, and she couldn't hold back a moan of protest. "Harder."

He smiled, his thumbs maintaining their easy rhythm, caught the front of her shirt between his teeth, and dragged it up to bare her breasts.

She wasn't all that exposed, not with his large hands cupping her tits. But Ace's gaze still pressed in on her, a hint of danger scraping her nerves and heightening every touch.

And he could tell. Either she was transparent or he was a lot damn deeper than he let on, because his voice smoothed over her, low and soothing, inviting her to laugh off the tension. "I've never seen Bren so damn possessive. I don't know which of you I'm more jealous of."

"He's a liar." Bren's voice was hoarse. "He's always wanted me."

"Who wouldn't?" But words weren't enough, so Six crossed her arms and caught the edges of her shirt, jerking it up and over her head before she could think too much about stripping half naked in a room with two men.

Trust.

"You're beautiful." The words whispered over her skin, followed by the wet heat of Bren's tongue. He stroked her breast, his fingers pinching and then parting so that he could lick her nipple.

The gentle touch jolted straight to her pussy. She
was
wet and tingly, a second from squirming even as she cupped the back of Bren's head. "Harder," she whispered again, punctuating it with a whimpered, "
Please.
"

He sucked her nipple into his mouth and opened her pants with his free hand. Her gasp turned into a groan when his knuckles brushed her abdomen, a groan Ace echoed.

She tilted her head and found Ace digging his fingers into the leather couch. "You need some help, brother? Or are you the only one who gets to undress her?"

Bren was panting already, his broad chest rising and falling with each quick, rough breath. Instead of taking off her pants, he jerked them low on her hips, low enough to slip his hand into her panties. His wide fingers parted her, one fingertip nudging her clit, and the tingles exploded into buzzing warmth all the way to her toes.

Finally, he answered Ace's teasing question. "Get the flogger."

Ace vaulted off the couch, leaving Six to hover over Bren, her body pulsing with the need to grind against his hand until she tipped over the edge. "You want him to flog me while your hand's in my pants?"

"In you." His hand shifted until one finger pushed inside. "I want to see if it turns you on."

It was so calmly obscene she had to bite her lip to keep from moaning, but she couldn't stop her body from tensing, clenching around the finger rocking so hot and deep inside her. "That's stupid," she said unsteadily. "What wouldn't turn me on while I'm riding your hand?"

"You're not riding it." He thrust a second finger inside her, almost distracting her from the steely hand he laid on her hip, stilling her furtive movements.

Panting, she put more effort into moving, but he had her fixed in place, trapped with two fingers filling her, stretching her. Arousal constricted around her, and now she was aware of every damn way her body reacted. Her tightened nipples, her flushed skin, her pussy clenching around his fingers, every reaction betraying how hot he was making her.