Bittersweet Love (10 page)

“I love you.” He whispers against my cheek. I know where this is going. I’ve been waiting for this day forever; to finally be one with him. I take my hands and encompass his face bringing his lips to mine, not wanting to wait another minute. The tenderness of his kiss sends shock waves through me. How he can go from fighting someone, to being impossibly soft with me. He sits up pulling his shirt off, as he slides his body over mine. The contours of his body fuse with mine, and it’s as if we’re a perfect fit.

“Are you sure you want to?” He asks his breath already shallow. I can feel his erection poking into my stomach, and the fact that I do that to him turns me on more. I nod my head yes, and grab him again begging him with my lips to show me the love he says he has for me. I tug at my top wanting to be free of all clothes, wanting to be able to glide my body against his. To be one.

“You look fucking beautiful.” He mumbles against my lips as he crashes down on me with urgency in his kiss. Our lips never separate as he unbuttons my shorts and I shimmy out of them. He breaks free to look at me.

With my top and shorts gone his kisses become more intense, my heart starts beating out of control as his mouth trails kisses down my neck and onto my chest. He looks up at me to make sure I’m okay, and then pulls the cups on my bra down exposing my breasts. He places small kisses on the nipples and works his way around the areola. The sensations sky rocket through me as he finally takes my nipple into his mouth. I arch up into him wanting more, so much more. He kneads my other breast making sure they get equal attention.

I feel something building deep within my body, something I’ve never felt before. I let out a loud groan and bite my lip to help stifle the noise. I can feel Rex smile against my skin.  I look down and watch him as he releases my nipple, and a loud popping sound resonates through the room.

“Be loud. Scream. I want you to be vocal. You want it harder tell me, you want it nice and slow you tell me. I’ll give you whatever you want baby.” I can’t form a response let alone a coherent thought so I just let out another moan to affirm him that I heard him.

He licks a path down my chest, and onto my belly. He hits the very top of my underwear and places his hands on the white lace, his fingers tracing against my hip. “These are so sexy baby.” Suddenly I feel nervous this is going to happen,
we’r
e
going to do it. His fingers pull on my underwear as he slides them down my sides at a slow pace. The anticipation is killing me. He throws them across his shoulder as he gives me a one dimple smile.

“Are you ready for me baby?” He asks situating himself between my legs. Suddenly he’s sliding down the bed, lying on his forearms, his face
directly about my vagina. Oh shit. I’ve never done this before. He knows that. My face grows red with embarrassment.

“I’ve… Never done this before.” I say meekly, afraid that I may have ruined the moment.

“I know I’m going to be your first, open up real wide babe. I’m going to be the first to feast on this.” He says skimming his finger in between my seams. I let out a gasp, between him talking dirty and his soft touches I could be over the edge in a moment. Hesitantly I spread my thighs, as a greedy smile forms on his face. His hands reach up and grip my hips pulling me into his mouth. I can feel his hot breath on my entrance. I don’t know about this Rex….

One finger slowly enters me as he licks me straight between my folds. It’s a deep lick, like the kind you would give an ice cream cone, trying to get every last drop of ice cream to savor the flavor. I let out a squeal and try and bring my legs together trapping his head in-between them. His finger starts to pick up more, as does the licking.

I feel myself reaching the edge, and the sensory overload on my mind is crazy. I grip at his hair, and let out a shudder, all it takes is one more push, one deeper lick and I cum right there for the first time on his face. He laps p my juices as if they’re his last drink of water.

He brings me to another orgasm, and by the time he’s done. I’m worked over very well. I smile up at him as he reaches over
into his wallet and grabs a condom. . We never talked about protection but I’m glad he thought of it. He slips it on, positioning himself at my entrance.

“Are you sure you want this? There’s no going back after this. I let you walk away once before, if we do this you’ll be mine. I’m branding a part of myself on you by doing this.” His voice is possessive, and there’s a hunger in his eyes like I’ve never seen.

“Yes.” I say reaching up and looking deep into his eyes. I nip at his lips begging for more. His tip pushes into me gently, and he kisses me with everything he has as he pushes in all the way. The sensation is filling, and as I gasp for breath I try to deal with the uncomfortable feeling; pricks of pain filter in and out as he moves slowly, his eyes never leaving mine. Sweat builds on his brow and I know the sheer focus and patience it’s taking him to not slam into me. After a few minutes the pain evaporates and I find myself moving in sync with him. His pace picks up, and I feel the distinct building again. The ecstasy of my last orgasm is still weighing heavy on my body.

“I’m so close.” I moan against his lips. He pushes in harder, pushing us over that last edge that we climbed together; making sure that we stick together the whole time. Our hearts are racing, and we
’re both sticky with sweat. I cringe a little bit when he pulls out of me. That’s going to be sore tomorrow.

Pulling his underwear on he turns and gives me a once over, smiling before saying, “Stay put I’ll be right back.”

“Pretty sure I’m not going anywhere after that.” I say giggling. A moment later he returns with a wash cloth, I watch him as he tends to me, feeling blessed to have such a great man.

“Just so you know what we just did makes you mine. You’ve always been mine Jenna. You just didn’t know it.” He sets the wash cloth on the nightstand and snuggles back into bed with me. I always knew this was where I belonged
, right here with him. Through everything, there was no way I couldn’t forgive him. Yeah he fucked up, but we all do. I forgave Corey and what he did was way worse than what Rex ever did. Sometimes the heart wants what the heart wants, and mine wants Rex Winchester.

Do I look different?

***

I roll
over and collide with a warm body realizing the events from the evening before. I smile big as I feel the ache between my legs put there by the man I love. I look at the clock on the nightstand and know that I’m going to be late for class.

“Hey, sleepy head, I have to go to class.” I poke at his ribs, memorizing every divot and ripple as if this moment will never happen again. Then
again I guess it never will since you can never take back your first time.

“No… Stay here with me, I will feed you, clean you, and do lots of other bad, bad, bad things to you.” He whispers into my ear, goose bumps erupting all over my skin.

“I would love to, but I can’t you know how important school is, and I have to check on Mimi. We may be an item now but she’s my best friend and I will dump you for some girl time.” I say, scowling at him. This affect he has on me could end badly if he keeps touching me or whispering to me, then I may not go anywhere.

He lets out a hefty laugh. “Oh I’ll let you have girl time, Mimi is way more than I could ever handle and no way am I going head to head with her over you.”

“Good. I have to get ready. I love you.” I whisper against his skin, my body betraying me telling me to lean closer to him. Damn you, you stupid body. You stupid hormones.

“Hey, thank you for last night. You have no idea what it means to me to be your first. I will cherish it and you forever.” I can see the love in his eyes, by the way he held me last night, and in the way he looks at me now. Everything seems to be different after you have sex with someone, you feel different and you look at that person different, or at least I do.

“No thank you. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for giving me a love that is bittersweet to the end.” I whisper to him, giving him one last peck on the mouth before leaving him in my bed to get ready for the day.

I try and be as quiet as possible as I tiptoe out of my room, not wanting to disturb Mimi if she’s still sleeping. I grab my flip flops out of the bin to put them on my feet when I hear “Well this is awkward” The voice scares me, and I hit my head on the wall trying to come up and look at her.

        “Ouch.” I mumble while holding my forehead. A smile the size of Texas is on her face and I’m sure she’s already made every assumption she could possibly come up with.

        “You little fucking snatch, you did it, you finally lost your V.” She says shocked but happy for me at the same time. My face grows red and even though we are best friends this is kind of a foreign conversation to be having with her.

        “How could you tell?” I ask. Her face grows impassive, and I feel myself growing confused. Then a cheesy grin forms.

        “Oh how about the, “you tell me how you want it baby, do you want it hard…” I stop her before she can finish the sentence, my face getting redder by the moment. 

        “Enough, don’t give me any shit.” I say trying to hide the embarrassment. I’m not really embarrassed, but like I said what I do with Rex in my free time I’m a bit self-conscious about. It’s kind of like talking to your parents about it; it’s a no, no, no.

        “Well from what I could tell it sounded like it was good, but then I just kind of walked away to my room and turned on some music.” Fabulous, I didn’t think I was loud really.

        “It was amaze-a-balls I’m a little sore today but it’s a good kind of sore.” I say smiling, remembering all the feelings Rex stirred in me last night, and the way he imprinted his soul into mine.

        “Well are you happy? You’re officially a woman now.” She says all jittery.

        “Yeah, yeah I am. Because in the end I got revenge, I got Rex, I got love and all those things? Well I guess you could say they’re bittersweet.”

        We both smile at one another knowing things couldn’t get any better.

Epilogue:

      Two months later

        I rolled over feeling for my phone, instead my hand collided with Rex’s body and a shudder ran through me. Sleeping next to him every night would never get old. I smiled down at his angelic face, how he could sleep through my phone ringing a million times was beyond me. I finally got a grasp on my phone, missing the chance to answer the call.

        I looked down at the screen, the light blinding me. It was nearly four am, and Mimi’s name popped up on the screen. She had texted me fifteen times in the last twenty minutes and called me ten times. My heart rate picked up as I realized something could have happened to her. I pressed the send key and called her, she picked up on the first ring, her voice meek and full of hurt. Why was she hurt?

        “Hey what’s going on are you okay?” All I could hear on the other end was shallow breathing, and then something along the lines of a muffled cry.

        “Mimi what’s going on, are you okay? Talk to me, you're scaring me.” Silence again, and then a deep breath.

        “I’m not okay, I need you to… to… come down to the police station.” She mumbles her voice is hoarse, and it sounds as if she’s been crying.

        “What the fuck happened… Don’t go anywhere I’m coming right now.” I say fumbling with the sheets, trying to get out of bed.

        “I’m not going anywhere Jenna and please bring Rex.” Her question has me pausing, wondering what the need for Rex is.

        “Why do I need to bring Rex?” I ask cautiously.

        “Because Corey’s in jail.”

The End…

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Acknowledgements

This book would have been nothing without my street team. Literally, those girls are just amazing. They help me in so many ways from making teasers to, pimping, to just being there when I need a shoulder to cry on. They keep me going, and make sure that I’m always delivering what I plan too. Thank you girls you have no idea how much it means to me to have each and everyone one of you as a friend. Love you all. Xoxo

To the blogs. Every single blog that helped with the cover reveal,
and the release blitz. That answered my private messages and shared things for me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know you all take time out of your lives to help so it means a lot to me.

To my mom, for listening to me ramble nonsense about the book. For inspiring me to continue to write. I love you.

To my hubby, and daughter. I can’t say thank you enough. Someday the work will pay off, I promise you that.

& lastly but most definitely not least YOU. The reader. Thank you for loving Rex and Jenna’s story. For taking a chance on me, the new author on the block. Thank you, thank you.
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