Blinding Trust (21 page)

Chapter 29

Savanna

I had been itching to get to North Carolina since before Amy went into labor. Colt had
become so protective that he followed every rule by the book. If I had to be stuck in my house for one more day, I was going to have myself committed. I was recovering from the successful removal of a mass, not battling leprosy. Not that body parts actually fall off when you get it, but history does portray it that way.

Anyway, it was about time the doctor said I could finally travel.

Amy and Conner’s newest daughter was as pretty as sunshine. She looked just like her other two sisters. Poor Josh was outnumbered and I wouldn’t have recommended him hanging out with Jake and Jax. Those two were Hell on wheels. Ty and Miranda really had their hands full. After they set fire to a hay bale, they managed to catch a baby bunny and tie a piece of thread to it’s tail. How in the world did two five years olds come up with these ideas?

Conner had invited us to stay at their house, and I think Colt was all for it, considering that our other option was staying with Ty and Miranda. I think he didn’t want the boys anywhere near our girls. It wasn’t that I thought they’d hurt the girls. Christian was a force to be reckoned with when someone made her mad. I was certain she could handle both of them with no problem. Addy was the sensitive one. Everything hurt her feelings and she loved getting people in trouble. Since she’d be sleeping with us anyway, Colt and I agreed to stay with Ty and Miranda. Conner’s house sometimes seemed like a daycare and I didn’t have enough energy yet to deal with it constantly.

It was getting late and the kids were becoming whiney. Amy took the baby and the little ones in the house and turned on a movie. They’d probably all fall asleep on the floor and we could let them spend the night.

Noah and Bella were making smores. I looked over and saw them giggling. All of the sudden
ly, Noah got up and ran into the house like his pants were on fire. Bella giggled again and kept looking at me.

A few minutes later, Noah came outside carrying a guitar. He handed it to his father and whispered in his ear. Colt smiled and looked right at me, shooting me a wink before he started playing a cord.

He hadn’t played in a really long time, but seemed to have remembered what he was doing. At first, he just hummed to match the tune of the strings. Then he began to sing a special song, while looking right at me.

“
This life would kill me If I didn’t have you. I couldn’t live without you, baby. I wouldn’t want to. If you didn’t love me so much, I’d never make it through.

‘Cuz this life would kill me…This life would kill me if I didn’t have you.”

It had been so
long since Colt sang to me. It literally took my breath away. Noah went over and they started doing medley’s together, but all I could hear was him singing those words to me. My eyes filled with tears and they weren’t from pain or fear. I was blown away by his devotion to me.

He’d never left my side. When he told me that he wouldn’t, I just expected him to go back to his normal routines in life.

Instead, he’d dropped everything to be with me.

I loved being with our family, but after that happened, all I wanted to do was be alone and in his arms. Thunder was rolling across the fields and the sky was flashing with lightning.

I closed my eyes and thought back to that night where I found Colt in the rain. We’d made love in the mud, with the storm surrounding us. Nothing has ever compared to that night. I knew he was who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. The truth was, Colt had always taken care of me.

When the guitar playing stopped, I looked over at Colt. He was giving me that half smile where he knew exactly what I was up to. I blushed and even in the dark I think he knew it.

My heart was beating fast and I had butterflies in my stomach. Ever since my surgery, I hadn’t been in any kind of mood or condition to be intimate. The closest that we’d come was when he was giving me sponge baths.

We were focused on each other and it was like the rest of the
family disappeared. Colt stood up and sat the guitar down. “If you’ll excuse us, I think I’m goin’ to take my wife on a little walk.”

“But it’s goin’ to rain.” Noah was concerned. He didn’t understand that we really needed to be alone.

“I’ll keep your mom dry, son. Go on home with your cousin and we’ll meet you there.” Colt took his arm and put it around my shoulder.

We started walking away and the guys were already saying smart comments. “The combines in the west field this time, losers!” Ty had to be the first to comment. I was glad he could joke about that night. It took me a long time to tell him the details of it, since technically we were engaged to each other, at the time.

“You better hope that lightenin’ doesn’t bite you in your naked ass!” Conner’s deep voice traveled across the field.

“Ignore them, darlin’.” Colt leaned over and kissed the top of my head.

Drops of rain were starting to fall as we got further away from the house. “Are you really walking us to the west field?”

He pulled me along. “You’re damn right I am. Except this time, I know you belong to me.”

As the rain got heavier, my heart beat faster. Suddenly, I wasn’t the thirty year old mother of three, battling breast cancer. I was the same young girl in that field so long ago. I was that girl who was so insanely in love with a man that nothing else mattered to me. I would have done anything to taste his skin; to kiss those lips and to be naked in that field making love to him.

I stopped walking, forcing Colt to give me all of his attention. We were now far enough away from the house that only a small light could be seen. I took a couple steps back, leaving Colt watching me. While staring right in his eyes, I started pulling my wet t-shirt off of my body. I held it out in front of me and dropped it on the ground.

Colt took one step forward and I took two back.

I reached behind me and unhooked my bra. I was still a little sensitive, plus this was the first time that I’d undressed outside of our bedroom.

He shook his head as I threw my bra at him. He caught it and watched me take two more steps in the other direction. I think he finally understood what was happening. The more I walked away, the more he followed, picking up my clothes as he moved.

The rain was coming down harder, causing my makeup and hairspray to run down my face. I wiped it away and pushed my hair back off of my face so I
could watch my husband decreasing the space between us. “Darlin’, you’re drivin’ me crazy.”

I bit down on my lip. “Mmm, that’s the point.”

He growled and came forward quickly, catching me off guard. I lost my balance and tumbled back onto the wet ground. Colt came down beside me, making sure his weight didn’t land on top of me. I backed away, letting my hands fill with mud as I shimmied out of his reach. “Savanna..”

We were acting like teenagers and I loved it. Colt kept laughing, while trying to finally grab me. I managed to stand up and start running away from him. This whole game was about the chase. The closer I got to that west field, the stronger the storm was getting. “Lose the clothes, cowboy!”

The rain was pouring down over us and all I cared about was getting naked and being with my sexy man. I started tugging down my shorts as we walked. I knew he was gaining on me again, in fact, I wanted him to. We were getting closer to the combine. I could see it every time the lightening flashed. I felt my shorts and panties fall down to my ankles and I stepped out of them.

When I turned around to tease him, he stopped dead in his tracks. A large flash of lightening filled the sky. It was now raining so heavy that it was hard to see each other, even though we were only a few feet away. “You’re beautiful.”

“What?”

This time he yelled. “I said you’re beautiful.” I watched his shirt come off his body in record time. His cargo shorts followed as I got closer. I wanted to feel his breath on my skin. His lips needed to be on mine.

He grabbed me by the hands and pulled me into his hard chest, wasting no time planting his first kiss over my lips. I could taste the rain on his mouth and tongue. The smell of the fresh tilled dirt filled the air. We crouched down to our knees, letting our bodies sit down on the warm soaked ground. Colt took my legs and pulled them so they straddled
where his hard cock sat. He growled when he felt my naked body slap against his. “Say it again.” I licked his bottom lip.

He reached his hands up and ran them down my arms. “You’re so damn beautiful.” I felt his stubby face rubbing agai
nst my neck, before his wet tongue slid up to my ear. “We ain’t makin’ it to the combine.”

I swayed my hips, creating the friction against his hard cock to drive him mad. My lips brushed over his. “I know.”

He grabbed me from underneath my arms and pulled us both down. I was on top of him, while he lay on the muddy ground. I could feel him kicking his shorts off the rest of way, so it was easier to move his legs.

I sat up, cupping my breasts with my hands, because I just felt uncomfortable. Colt took one hand and pulled my right hand away, then he slowly repeated the process on my injured breast. He fingertips traced over my nipples and with the rain falling down, it was slippery and tantalizing. I leaned my head back, letting it fall down right on my face, while Colt’s magic hands took care of my hunger.

I could feel it pressing against my leg, just sitting there ready to enter me. Each time I moved my hips, Colt would move his to let me know he was prepared. I reached down between my legs and took him into my hand. His length still made me tremble when it first penetrated me. This time was no different, except for the fact that we’d gone so long without being intimate.

Colt was fueled by a need and as much as he wanted to be gentle, nothing was gentle about it. Once my hand had him in position, he forcefully thrusted himself inside of me. I gasped and screamed out into the dark night. He thrusted again, this time grunted as he did it. His hands were dug into my arms and he was almost shoving me down to fill me completely. “Is this what you want?” He asked.

I closed my eyes and felt his lips savagely kissing me. Our tongues brushed and our teeth collided, but we were too caught up to feel the pain of it all. It was exactly what I wanted and I wasn’t about to let it stop. I gritted my teeth as I answered, “Oh yeah, Colt. I want it like that night.”

He pumped harder, sometimes even grunting as he moved up and down. My body was
bouncing all around and all I could do was hold on and enjoy the ride. I sat up, and shook out my wet hair, before grabbing it with both hands and moving it out of my face. Colt reached up and grabbed at my shoulders. He pulled down on them, making us almost slap together. I bounced faster, riding him as if he were a mechanical bull. The rougher it was, the more turned on I became. A tingling sensation overwhelmed me and I cried out in ecstasy.

As my pace slowed, Colt picked his up. I dug my nails into the sides of his abdomen, pinching his skin. The more pain I gave the more pleasure he seemed to get. He stopped, but only to flip me around. With my ass in the air, he slapped it before positioning himself right behind me. I was only empty for seconds, but when he went back inside of me, I could feel myself losing control again.

“You like it when I fuck you?” He never talked like that anymore. It was freaking hot. The ground was filthy and starting to get cold. My hands were tangled up in roots and mud and I dug in more, trying to control my being overcome with sexual release. I felt dizzy, like I was literally seeing stars. “Yes!” I screamed and cried at the same time. My body was his and he could do whatever he wanted to it. This was even better than when we were younger. This was fueled by insatiable desire and pent up tension. We both needed to do this, to feel this.

We needed to feel alive.

Colt grabbed my hips and moved quickly. He slapped his body into my wet ass and it was loud, but not as loud as my screams. I wasn’t in pain. It was all euphoric. My stomach was filled with butterflies, while my legs felt like butter. I could feel Colt running his hands over the wet skin of my ass. He squeezed one cheek, making sure I could feel his hand sliding around my anus. I pulled away, not willing to let him finish without looking at me. My muddy hands reached around his neck as I sat right over his hard erection, letting it get right back to where it was before I interrupted.

I ran my hands
across his cheek, spreading a trail of dirt everywhere I touched. Mud ran down his chest and as the lightning continued to strike, I could see just how dirty he was. I dug into his hair and pulled his lips against mine. We savored another kiss, before I pulled him away from my mouth by his hair. He licked his lips and stared right at me. I grinded myself into him, in a circular motion. My hips were swaying and I leaned back, running my muddy hands over my bouncing breasts. “Look at me, Colt. I want you watching me.”

He nodded as I grinded even faster.
When his eyes started rolling back, I knew he was losing control. He looked right at me and squinted as his body began to tighten beneath me. “Oh, God!” His body shook a few times before his head fell against my shoulder.

We should have gotten up and found cover.

We really should have.