Bloods Gem (38 page)

I held his face in my hands. “Yes, I want to
marry you,” I said, smiling, making him believe every word.

“
Iu.hh you…” he started
stuttering.

“
It’s okay, if you think it’s too
soon… we can wait.”

“
No!” He yelled.

I smiled and kissed him on his lips. “Just
say the words…” I whispered in his ear and started kissing on his
neck.

“
Yeah, now, Please.”

I knew I had him wrapped around my finger, I
felt his desire for me.

“
We can start making the arrangements
then,” I said.

He nodded, picking me up and wrapping my
legs around him. I felt his entire body shaking. He started making
these strange movements as he held me closer to his body and
quickly stopped. “Shit…” He mumbled.

I felt puke come up my throat again. “It’s
fine…” I said, embarrassed for him.

“
No it’s not, this is embarrassing!”
He said.

“
It’s not a big deal. I'm sure it
happens all the time to guys, don’t be embarrassed.” I put my hand
on his trying to make him feel better. He smiled at me and ran
upstairs. “I'll be back!” He yelled.

I scratched my head and couldn’t believe
everything was happening so fast. Being dry raped and mentally
raped against my will had me seriously contemplating suicide. I
hated every moment and I felt disgusted for being this close to
another man. I fell down on the sofa holding myself. I gotta keep
it together, gotta keep this together, damn it!

This was going to be impossible, acting for
god knows how long, I felt like a whore, and I was disgusted at
myself. I started crying, rocking myself back and forth again.

Out of nowhere, I heard his
voice.
Faith.Love. Please meet me
somewhere. I don’t want to cause a scene in front of
Chris.

It was Daniel. Crap, what if he seen, this
is bad, horrible but if he did He might believe me then. I hate
this!

I responded. Fine.
Where do you need me to meet you?
I asked,
through my mind.
Our house,
he said.

Okay,
I
replied and started crying again. I was lost… I just wished I would
die already. This was all just too painful and I knew if I seen
him, I didn't know if I could hide the pain. He would see right
through me. All I could do was my best. I already knew how to block
him out completely, courtesy of Adrian.

I ran upstairs and told Chris I would be
back later. He handed me his truck keys and kissed me goodbye.

I drove as fast as I could. I needed to see
his face, to show me this was worth all the pain. Everything I was
doing was worth saving him at least. My life was hell and would be
forever. I needed to be reassured in some way.

I pulled up along side the house and he was
waiting outside. He looked depressed. His eyes bloodshot like he
hasn’t slept in weeks. I hopped out of the truck, staring at him.
He grit his teeth. “His truck?” He asked. “Couldn’t you at least
run here?”

“
Sorry,” I said.

He had his hands in his pockets, looking
down. He was blocking me out of his head as well.

“
So Are you happy?” He asked, looking
up at me.

I swallowed hard and whispered, “Yes.”

He glared at me, shaking his head. “I can’t
believe you. I mean, I knew exactly how you felt before I took off
to try to find Adrian, how can it change so fast?” He asked,
searching my thoughts.

I found an quick answer. “I only showed you
what I wanted you to see.”

He breathed in deeply. His eyes focused
straight ahead. I was in immense pain, being this close to him,
holding back all the feelings emotions. I had to stand my
ground.

“
I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry
that I have these feelings for Chris,” I said, trying to make him
believe.

“
And you have no feelings for me?” He
asked, starring at me again. He caught me off guard. I didn’t know
how to respond without seeming so heartless but it was the only
way. “No,” I answered, starring him back.

He shook his head then suddenly pulled me
into him and kissed me.

My body went limp in his arms, he made me
weak. My body dropped under me, I was in spirit form instantly and
didn’t know how. He stood in front of me in spirit.

“
I knew it. You realize you can’t
block me out completely just yet? Not in spirit. You haven't
mastered it. I can read all your thoughts and emotions this way.
Sorry I pulled you out of your body but I had to know the
truth.”

My mouth dropped. I didn’t know what to do
or say. I couldn’t talk myself out of it and I had no power to do
anything else, he was above my training. I dropped to my knees and
started crying.

“
Come out Adrian, I know you're behind
this! You didn't train her well enough to keep me out completely,
You bastard!”

Daniel was enraged, as he cursed Adrian.
Daniel picked me up. “I'm so sorry for not protecting you better
then this Love. This is all my fault, he wont touch me, your family
or anyone for that matter, I promise you. No matter what he told
you Faith, I will give my life willingly for you and I will kill
him for doing what he has done to you. He went to his knees and
started crying.

“
I'm sorry. I had no other choice. I
couldn’t let you or my family… I didn’t have a choice!” I
yelled.

He took my hand in his. “I know Love, I
know. I'm not holding anything against you, even though I seen
everything that you. You did it with the best of intentions and I
would have done the same.”

“
But what do we do about Chris? I
mean, I hurt him too.”

“
We will go speak to him and tell him
the truth.”

“
He’ll think we're crazy and he’ll
never forgive me!”

“
He will, he loves you Faith. Even
though that’s hard for me to say or even… He will forgive
you.”

“
I hate myself… I can’t.You don’t
deserve this!” I yelled.

“
No Faith, I don’t deserve you. I
didn’t protect you. I left you and on top of that you were willing
to risk everything for me. I don’t deserve that, not for what I let
happen.”

I felt him getting angry again. He stood up,
cursing again.

“
I swear, I will kill you. Show
yourself! Man to man, lets do this!”

I placed my hand into his. “He's not going
to show himself, he's gone for now,” I said, softly.

“
Um… how do I get back--” I pointed to
my body. He looked up at me and sighed. “Yeah, sorry. You just,
jump back in,” he said.

He looked as if he was listening to
something and seemed confused. He pushed me closer to my body.
“Hurry, we need to go,” he said.

I went to my body and leaped back into it.
It was like a vacuum, sucking me in. I was back up on my feet
within seconds, he was standing there waiting for me. “Come here,”
he said, holding his arms out. I ran into his arms and he held me
tightly.

“
Please forgive me,” he
cried.

I shook my head. “It’s my soul that needs to
be forgiven not yours.”

“
No, I have no soul if I could let
this happen. I don’t deserve to be near you.”

I glanced up at him. “Please stop talking
like that.” He gazed down at me and kissed my head. “I'm sorry,” he
replied.

He told me to get in the truck. We had to go
tell Chris everything and my stomach was in knots. He started
driving.

“
I can’t Daniel….” He stopped in the
middle of the dirt road.

“
Alright, I should be the one to do it
anyway. I can drop you off at your Moms.”

“
I can’t ask you to do that Daniel…
I'm the one who made him believe--”

“
Wait,” he said, thinking. “I can
always--” He said, staring at me.

“
Um.,Are you serious?” I asked,
reading his mind.

He nodded. “It would be easier and he
wouldn’t have to know what we are.”

“
So you can just erase the part from
when I called him?”

“
Yeah. I'll erase it all love. I'll
make this go away. I can do the same for you.”

I shook my head. “No you cant!”

“
You're going to hate yourself
forever. You're hurting.”

“
And so are you. What about
you?!”

“
I deserve this. Don’t worry about
me.”

“
No, then… I wont let you!”

“
You cant stop me,” he said, pain in
his eyes.

“
Please don’t. I mean, I can’t live
knowing I hurt you like this too!”

“
Faith, this is the only way for me to
learn and understand my mistakes. I need to feel this so I can
protect you better. I'm sorry faith but when you hurt it kills me.
I can‘t bare it.”

I seen his hand coming towards me and I
quickly flew out of the truck. “Stop Daniel!”

He stepped out. “Please don’t make this
harder then what it is Love. You can’t stop me and I wont hurt you
either. So please, just calm down and lets get this over with.”
“Okay wait first, hear me out?”

He shrugged.

“
Okay you said, you want to remember
this right? So you can learn from it?”

“
Yeah, so?”

“
Well, don’t we need to make mistakes
and learn from them. I mean, isn’t that whats supposed to happen. I
can learn from this too.”

He shook his head. “Learn what Faith? I can
already see it now. Your going to hate yourself for a long time and
in the process, push me away.”

“
No I wont I promise!”

“
Faith, You don’t believe me. Do you
realize I also have the ability to see the future when it comes to
us?”

“
I do believe you. I
just--”

He stared at me and I knew there was nothing
I could do or say. I couldn’t run from him, his mind was set.

“
I love you,” he said. I closed my
eyes as he drew closer. He gently kissed my lips and whispered in
my ear, “I'll make your pain go away Love, I promise.”

I felt his hand burning into my skull as I
collapsed.

Daniel

I took Faith to her mom’s house, telling
Darla that Faith was ill and needed rest. I told Darla I’d be back
for her shortly, to take her home. Faith's mother needed see her,
so she didn’t call the cops on me for kidnapping, since Faith had
been away for so long, she seemed pretty upset at me. I knew she
was worried and Faith failed to call her or let her know much of
anything, again, I took the blame upon myself.

I drove the truck back to Chris’s house. He
sat in the living room watching television. I snuck in behind Chris
and placed my hand to the back of his head. He tried fighting but I
encouraged new emotion into his thoughts, so he relaxed. I erased
his memory of Faith ever calling him. I was disgusted to see all of
his memories with her, it pained me. But it couldn’t be helped and
I deserved much worse in my opinion. I recognized that I didn’t
deserve Faith, from the very beginning. She was too good for
me.

Faith was committed to give up
everything, including damning her soul to keep me and her family
safe. And that bothered me,
about me
anyway
. I wasn’t worth much. There was nothing I could
give her in comparison to what she's given me.

Thinking about all the sacrifices she's
made, I felt sick. I flew back to the house after I was done with
Chris. I made sure to take Faith's belongings from his house and
placed it in our bedroom. I wanted to give her some time to rest
before I bringing her back home.

I called Father and told him everything. He
told me he would send a crew to help out, just in case. I wanted
Faith to be protected, and away from harms way. I wouldn't waiver.
And I definitely wont let Adrian go unpunished for what hes done.
Until Adrian was dead he wouldn’t stop and I still didn't
understand his purpose.

Even when I read Faith and saw the events
with Adrian, I never seen his reason in her mind. He never told
her, unless he erased it from her head. Of course he would. If he
was smart. Father told me Celeste and Howell left hours ago,
knowing I would need their help.

I needed to entomb my pain and be the man
Faith deserves. Knowing once Faith woke, it would be possible that
she could end up feeling my emotion. I couldn't have that and undo
all the work to eradicate her suffering. I didn’t want her to
remember, anything. When she woke, I would tell her we decided to
come back to Siloam because she wanted to come back home. Also
stating that we were still looking for Adrian but needed to have
the crew close.

After about thirty minutes of meditating, I
felt Celeste approach. I went to the door and opened it. She
glanced at me and walked in, Howell right behind her.

“
I’m sorry.” She said, hugging
me.

I shook my head. “Don’t be, not for me.”

“
Daniel, you have to stop beating
yourself up for this. It’s not your fault. You didn’t know this
would happen.”

“
But, I should of known. That’s why I
need to master my ability in mind and spirit. It will give me an
advantage.”

“
You can go back and get more
training. We will stay here and keep things in order.” I laughed.
“Not a chance. I wont leave her.”

She sighed. “I know.”