Authors: Elizabeth Stewart
“Are you here to work?” the Belgian asked, at last acknowledging Sylvie's presence. He was stern, even when he was trying to be friendly.
“No. I'm waiting for Doctor Marie.”
“Anything I can help you with?”
There was, in fact. “Is Canada bad?” Sylvie asked abruptly.
He got a puzzled half-smile. “No, Canada is not bad. Why?”
“Someone told me the big mining companies in the Kivus are owned by Canadians. Is it true?”
“Yes, it's true,” answered Marie. Sylvie and Doctor Van de Velde turned to see her coming into the waiting area, pulling surgical gloves from her hands. She looked tired. “A lot of the companies are Canadian-owned.”
“Butâ¦you said people in Canada want to help us,” said Sylvie, struggling to make sense of it.
“There are many people in lots of countries who want to help, Sylvie,” remarked Doctor Van de Velde. “Take my country. A long time ago, a Belgian king declared he owned all of the Congo and everything in it! Now, some of us are trying to make up for that arrogance.”
“Most people have no idea what the mining companies are doing over here,” added Marie. “That's why Alain and his group started their website.”
“Why don't you tell them what's happening, Sylvie?” said Doctor Van de Velde with a shrug. “Marie, this website your boyfriend started, it's a good start. But how about a video, telling people exactly what's going on, from Sylvie's perspective?”
From the look on Doctor Marie's face, Sylvie could tell she liked the idea. “Sylvie, what do you think?” she asked.
More people staring at me
, is what she thought. But if it would help to change things⦠“What would I say?” she asked.
“You could start by telling people what happened to you,” suggested Marie. “I mean, the parts you're comfortable talking about,” she hastened to add.
Sylvie thought about it. “We need a movie camera, don't we?” she asked.
Marie fished her mobile phone out of her pocket, tapped the screen with her finger, and suddenly it was a video camera. “
Voilà !
”
“It's ironic, isn't it, that there's coltan in that thing,” commented Doctor Van de Velde.
Sylvie thought he had missed the point. “Coltan is just a rock. ” she said. “It's the fighters who hurt people.”
The two doctors exchanged a look.
“Sylvie,” Doctor Van de Velde told her, “I think you know exactly what to say.”
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AT FIRST IT SEEMED STRANGE
to Sylvie to be speaking to a mobile phone. Marie held it up in front of her as they sat together in the clinic waiting area, after the staff and patients had gone. Sylvie tried to convince herself that she was simply telling the story to Marie. Still, it was hard to know where to begin.
“How old were you when your village was attacked, Sylvie?” prompted Marie.
“I was ten.”
“When did you first see the soldiers?”
“I was in our house, playing with Pascal, my little brother. We heard a truck outside. The next thing I knew, soldiers were breaking the door down.”
“Then what happened?” asked Marie.
Sylvie saw the soldier in her mind, felt his weight on top of her. Smelled his heavy stink of diesel and sweat. She wanted to tell Marie about it, wanted to let go of the festering memory, but her mouth refused to form the words.
Marie turned the camera off and let the phone rest in her lap. “Do you want me to stop recording?”
“No,” she replied in a whisper.
“If you say something, and you decide you don't want it to be in the video, I can erase it,” Marie told her.
Sylvie nodded. Marie lifted the camera-phone up, and they tried again. “The soldier pushed me down⦔ Sylvie began. Her heart raced. She couldn't speak.
Marie saw her difficulty and said it for her, “He raped you?” She said it in a calm way that made Sylvie realize she had guessed it a long time ago. Sylvie gave a short nod. Marie kept the camera-phone steady. “Have you ever told anyone about this before?”
“The Congolese don't talk about things like that,” she told Marie.
“But talking about it can help,” Marie said, choosing her words carefully. “It's what psychotherapists do with their patients. It can help people to be able to remember traumatic events without reliving them.”
“Reliving them,” said Sylvie, grasping her meaning, “like in nightmares, and panic attacks?”
“Exactly. Should we keep going?”
Sylvie hesitated before replying, “Yes.”
“What else do you remember?”
“I woke up in a truck,” she said. “I couldn't see because there was a bandage over my face, but then I pulled it up a little.” She lifted an imaginary bandage. “The first thing I saw was Pascal, sleeping, and that made me happy because he was safe. Then Mama told me it was my own fault that the soldier cut my face, because I was so stubborn.”
“She said that to you?”
Sylvie nodded. She could tell that Marie was struggling not to let anger show.
“Then my other brother, Olivier, said, âPapa is dead.' Just like that.”
Sylvie stopped. She was remembering Olivier in the truck, sitting apart, sullenâhis words so cold and hard, twisting in her like a knife.
“What did you feel in that moment?” asked Marie, her voice thick with emotion now. “I felt⦔ What had she felt? Until this moment, she hadn't realized. Now, she was sick with shame as it came to her. “I hated him,” she said. “I hated Olivier, because he was the one who told me about Papa. Because of the way he told me.” That was why she had let her heart turn against him, finding defect in everything he did. Mama had been right all alongâhe stayed away because of her bad temper. Sylvie looked past the camera-phone, searching Marie's eyes. “He was only nine,” Sylvie said, tears streaming freely. “It wasn't his fault.”
Marie turned the camera off. “But, Sylvie,” she told her, her own cheeks wet with tears, “you were only ten.” Marie was quiet for a moment as she ran her thumbs under her eyes, wiping them clear. “Maybe this wasn't such a good idea, after all,” she said, turning back to Sylvie. “It's good you're talking about these things, but it's too personal for a video.” Sylvie watched as Marie tapped the phone's screen a couple of times. “There!” she said, forcing a smile. “Erased, all gone. It isn't your responsibility to be the poster child for coltan.”
Poster child?
Sylvie didn't understand what Marie was talking about, but it didn't matter. She was busy thinking about Olivier, and how she could make it up to him.
I can get him away from here, to a better life!
she thought.
If only I can convince Mama to go.
“Marie,” she said, “we have to make the video.”
“No, Sylvie. It's too hard on you.”
“But we won't make it about me,” she said. “We'll make it about all of us. My family.”
Marie studied her for a moment. “Will they agree?”
That was the question. Sylvie couldn't be sure if they would. But she was sure of thisâthat unless she could persuade her mother to go with her to Canada, Olivier would never leave. And if Olivier stayed, how long would he go on living?
AT THE BEGINNING OF THE SUMMER
, Fiona found a job working part-time at the food concession at Kitsilano
Beach, dishing ice cream bars, fries, and burgers for swimmers and sailboarders. Kits Beach had the most California vibe of all the Vancouver beaches. It was where the under-thirty crowd made the scene, showing off hot bodies in skimpy swimwear. Fiona wasn't into competitive tanning, but it was nice to be near the water, and she liked her boss, Cathy. Still, by the middle of July she was having a hard time even looking at a hot dog, and she missed her friendsâall of them, it seemed, were either away at camp, or vacationing with their families.
She missed her cell phone, tooâmore than ever. Without it, it was so much harder to stay in touch with Lacey and Megan and Brit. She'd been hoping that her dad would relent and help her get a new one without making her wait for her birthday, but no. Mr. Learn-Your-Lesson was holding fast.
“You're making money now,” he told her when Fiona raised the issue at a Sunday barbeque in early August. Fiona had taken the bus over the Lions Gate Bridge to her dad's place in West Van. “You should be able to pay for a basic phone in no time.”
“Nobody has a basic one anymore,” Fiona replied. “I need Internet.”
“A smartphone is a luxury, not a necessity. Surely you could live without Friendjam 24/7,” he remarked, flipping salmon steaks over a stainless steel grill that was the size of a small car. Looking around at the kidney-shaped pool and the set of outdoor furniture that was nicer than the stuff in her mom's living room, Fiona rolled her eyes. Her dad wasn't exactly denying himself his share of luxuries.
“Dad, seriously. You're talking social death.”
“She's right, Dave,” Joanne chimed in as she came through French doors out onto the patio. Joanne was blonde and perkyâpretty much the opposite of Fiona's mom. Out of loyalty to her mom, Fiona had tried for a long time to dislike Joanne, but resistance had proved futile. She was younger than Fiona's parents. She got things. “Phone's are everything to kids today,” she told Fiona's dad. “Besides, it's a safety issue. I wouldn't let Brandon or Katie leave the house without theirs.”
They all looked over to Brandon and Katie, who were sitting in lounge chairs by the pool. Brandon, who was eleven, was playing Angry Birds on a tablet, and six-year-old Katie had her mom's touch screen laptop open, using a paint program to trace a picture with her finger.
“It's a beautiful summer day, and look at these guys, glued to little screens,” remarked Fiona's dad.
“Hey, Brandon,” Fiona said, rallying his support, “Dad's taking your cell phone away.”
“No way!” he howled, looking up from his game.
“Fiona's just teasing,” said Joanne.
“Dad, please?” pleaded Fiona. “Just give me my birthday present a few weeks early.”
“The answer is no, kiddo.”
His tone told her there was no point in pushing it any further.
“Fine. So I'll be a social outcast for the rest of the summer,” grumbled Fiona.
She headed to the pool, stripping off the cover-up she was wearing over her swimsuit.
“Hey, dinner's almost ready!” her dad called to her.
“I know.”
And I don't care.
She was about to dive in when Katie's drawing caught her eye. She was tracing a balloon face with big round eyes.
“That's really good,” Fiona told her, even though it wasn't.
Katie put her finger above the right eye, and drew a diagonal line to the left cheek.
“What's that?” Fiona asked.
“What's what?” Joanne came over to look. “Katie, that's wonderful!” she exclaimed, her voice rising by an octave. In Joanne's eyes, Brandon and Katie were mini-
geniuses. Fiona loved them and everything, but reallyâit could be a bit much.
“It's that girl,” Katie explained.
“What girl?” Joanne asked.
“That girl, on your favorites.”
She clicked the mouse and a blog spot came up on screen, featuring a photograph of a black girl with a scar across her face.
“Katie!” scolded Joanne, “I don't want you looking through my favorites, okay? Pictures like that aren't appropriate for kids.”
“Like what?” asked Fiona's dad from his post at the grill. Joanne carried the laptop over for him to see. “Oh, not her!” he groaned. “The media has been after me all week because of her. Why do you have her on your favorites?”
“Somebody in my book club sent the link. Her story is heartbreaking.”
Fiona went over to take a look. Under the girl's photo was a caption.
Help Sylvie!
“What's her deal?” she asked. “Help her with what?”
“She lives in a refugee camp somewhere in Africa. They're trying to bring her to Canada,” explained Joanne.
Fiona turned to her dad. “What's she got to do with you?”
“Nothing. That's the point. Our company's operations
in the Congo are completely ethical. There's so much misinformation on the Internet. Another reason you don't need unlimited access to it,” he added, pointing his barbeque fork at Fiona.
“But what happened to her face?”
“Can we drop it, please?”
“Yeah, what happened to her face, Mommy?” echoed Katie.
“I don't know, honey,” replied Joanne, closing the site with a click of the mouse. She handed the laptop back to Katie, “but I'm sure she's okay now.”
Katie turned her attention back to her drawing. Joanne gestured to Fiona with a “don't go there!” look. If her dad hadn't been such a hard-ass about getting her a smartphone, she could have been googling the site right now.