Broken Pieces (3 page)

My mother has been trying to make amends with me over the summer, though I have no clue why. It’s not that we had the worst relationship when I lived at home, but it sure as hell was not the best, either. I knew she was always there for me when I needed her, but after that night, I think that’s when our relationship hit rock bottom. She knew that I was not the same, but I wouldn’t open up to her about it. Being from a small town, there were accusations like “Karaline are you doing drugs? Are you drinking? Are you having sex? Are you pregnant?!” The questions never subsided so I just always gave her the silent treatment. It was better than the truth.

“Hello?” I don’t know how many times she has said it to get my attention. She snaps her fingers in my face, but I don’t come back to reality until I look out my window and see we stopped. I’m guessing we are where at our destination, even though she did not tell me where that was.

“Oh … sorry. Are we here?” I say, trying to sound more excited than I really was. I feel like a total idiot dressed like this, and I was going out with people I don’t know. Really, what was I thinking? Well, I can’t do anything about it now. Time to slap on a fake smile and make the best of it. This is what college is all about right?

“Yeah! Are you ready to party?” She’s sporting a mischievous grin on her face.

I look around one more time before getting out. We are sitting in front of some random house that I don’t know, probably because I do not know the city very well. Just great. I’m here at God-knows-where. I start to really get nervous, sweaty palms and all.

We are parked on the side of a busy street in a neighborhood-like setting that I could never afford to live in. There are people walking around in business suits, talking on their phones. I look up and see an old building that looks like it was remodeled at one point. I look at Lauren, give her the best smile I could muster, and go to open the car door.

I try my best to get out as gracefully as possible, but the length of the dress makes me think that it’s not going to be easily accomplished. When I go to step out and stand, my sandal slips off the curb. I saw a face-plant in my future, but warm hands caught me. Embarrassed as hell, I look up to find the most gorgeous hazel eyes staring back at me. I am lost as to what I was supposed to be doing. I just stand here, staring at this perfection of a man who still has his hand gripped around my upper arm. I wanted to believe that he didn’t want to let go almost as much as I didn’t want him to. We seemed lost in each other’s eyes.

“Are you alright?” Lauren stood on the sidewalk, fiddling with her clutch, staring at me and the stranger that is still holding my arm. Impeccable timing, Lauren.

I look over to her. “I slipped.”

“Are you okay?” The voice caused my head shoot back at him. Hearing him speak for the first time made my knees buckle beneath me. He tightens his hold a bit.

Get a grip, Kara!

I realize that he’s still holding me upright so I stand to straighten myself and regain my composure. I was getting a good first look at the male figure standing in front of me. He was so close that I could smell a scent that should be illegal, and it was making me think things I have never thought before.

He was perfection. His soft black hair paired well with those hazel eyes, his straight-lined jaw went nicely with those full lips. Because I’m just standing here, trying to memorize his every feature, he raises those sexy eyebrows, leans down to look me in the eye, and smiles. My god, even perfect smile. I realize he is waiting for me to answer.
Crap!
I’m sure I look more like an idiot than I did when I almost fell.

“Uh … yeah, I’m okay.” It’s all I could manage to get out. I was still fixed on how gorgeous this man is. I look down, hoping the ground would just swallow me up right now. This is why I do not go out.

Lauren stood awkwardly to my right, waiting for whatever was happening to be over with. She looked at her watch. “Karaline, we’re going to be late.”

I had totally forgotten about the party. It was like everything from this evening had slipped my mind just by looking at him. That is when I knew I needed to get as far away from him as possible because everything I had built up and pushed out would fall apart otherwise. He was already making me forget what I was doing.

He spoke again, more concerned than any stranger should be for another. “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Yes, thank-you for … uh … keeping me from falling.” I stutter over my words. I didn’t fall; I
almost
fell. I was already reaching for the door, I could have caught myself. Yeah, right, I would have totally face-planted it.

More satisfied with this answer than the previous one, he nods and says, “I’ll let you ladies get to your evening plans then.”

With that, he turns and walks away, giving me a good look at his exquisitely muscled back that shows through the black shirt as he moves effortlessly down the sidewalk. I look down at his arms to see the tattoos poking out of one sleeve and covering the other arm completely. I really need to stay away from him, but I can’t stop looking.

Lauren startles me … where did she come from? “He’s pretty freaking hot!”

“Huh? Oh, yeah, I guess. You ready to go?” I was hoping that I wasn’t that obvious when I was checking him out, but he really was something to look at. I am sure that is all he is, too. Aren’t all guys that look like that? He turns the corner and I look at her.

She doesn’t pay any mind, “Yup! Let’s go have fun!”

She starts walking in the same direction as the strange guy. When we turn the corner, he’s gone, but there are people everywhere. It is Friday, but do these people not have anything better to do tonight? I take in my surroundings. The street lights catch my attention, as they begin to flutter to life. I can hear the beat of the music. When I realize we are going to a club, I start to panic.

Looking at the line of people, I turn to Lauren. “It doesn’t look like we’re getting in tonight.”

I tried to sound bummed and hide my excitement at the same time. She smiles at me with a smile that I’ve learned to recognize. I follow behind her, as we walk past all the people waiting in line. They give us bad looks. We walk right up to what I assume is the bouncer. He stands at least 6’3”, with arms bigger than my head. He is wearing a pink shirt that hugs him everywhere. Even if he didn’t pull the look off, I highly doubt anyone would tell him otherwise. I’m sure I wear a shocked expression as Lauren saunters right up to him, stands on her tiptoes, and kisses him on the cheek. She whispers something in his ear, he looks at me, back to her, and smiles. He moves the velvet rope back, and I gape at her. She turns to me and smiles, “Come on!”

Before Lauren dragged me through the door, I caught a glimpse of the name of the club. Hmm …
Club L,
with the “
L
” in neon pink and an intricate design. I’ve never heard of it before, but how would I? The name of the club goes to the back of my head, as I look around the inside for the first time.

It is like something you would see out of a magazine. Amazing! I gape in awe. There are white couches sitting against the walls framing the entire club. Do they really want a bunch of drunken people around those? There’s a second story with more plush couches in cabana-like covers. It is so loud that I barely hear the guy ask me for my coat. A coat guy, too?

“Where are we?” I yell.

She turns, smiling. “My daddy’s club!”

My mouth drops open as I scan the room one more time. Holy cow, she can’t be serious! I knew she had money by the way she dressed and her sports car, but this? This place is insane. The name totally makes sense now.

She turns and motions for me to follow her deeper into the club. The lights are everywhere, flashing to the beat of the music of some upbeat pop song. Not exactly my forte but, by the looks of the dance floor that is centered in the massive room, it’s popular amongst others my age.

It is just one night of normal! I got this!

As always, I thought too soon. I feel a hand touching my backside. I turn to see a preppy guy that looks like he has had way too many drinks. He is dressed like a million bucks, and he isn’t much older than me. Mr. Preppy is good-looking and he knows it, which is never a good sign. I stand frozen as he all but undresses me with those ice blue eyes. The flashy lights are reflecting on his dirty blonde hair.

“Hi, I’m Collin. What could they possibly call something as sexy as you?” he says, as he leans in way to close. He’s drenched in expensive cologne, and it making me gag.

I close my eyes, as the smell of the alcohol on his breath instantly takes me back to that night.
No, not again, please!
The smell of the exhaust is flooding my brain, as I stand frozen. I try to push all the bad memories away. I’m here to have fun. I try to do what the therapists always say in movies: go to a happy place in your mind where he can’t touch you … but it’s not working. I’m freaking out on the inside, while I stand here and look like an idiot.

As quickly as the stench of his breath came, it was gone. I open my eyes to see where Mr. Preppy guy went; he probably just left, thinking I was a freak or something. That is when I look up and see that the guy from earlier, the one that kept me from almost falling on the sidewalk, has his forearm holding Mr. Preppy by the neck up against the wall.

When I finally realize what is going on, I hear tattoo guy say, “I don’t think she was feeling you, man!”

Mr. Preppy smirks and mouths back. “Just what would you know about getting a girl, you thug?”

Just then, the security guys show up and start to haul both guys out, but Lauren stopped one of them. She whispers something to the security guy, and he lets tattoo guy go. They drag out Mr. Preppy. I turn to look at her and she’s smiling at something. I look to my right and see tattoo guy, who’s cautiously looking at me like I might explode at any second.

I break this triangle we have going on. Embarrassed, I say, “Thank-you, again.”

“Anytime, Miss …” My eyes lock with those killer hazels for the second time tonight.

Oh, crap! He wants your name, dummy! You’re just standing there like an idiot again!
“Kara … Karaline … but people call me Kara.”
Real smooth, Kara … not!
He smiles. I thought he had killer eyes; they are nothing compared to that killer smile.

I try to look at anything but the gorgeous man who had saved me twice tonight. I see Lauren standing ten feet away at the bar, sipping a drink and enjoying the show. I look back up at him. He’s still staring at me, smiling. I try to talk normal, but my voice isn’t cooperating. “Thank-you again … Mr …”

“Drew … Andrew, but people call me Drew,” he says, mocking me with a smile.

I smile back at him while I pull myself together. “Well, Drew, thank-you again. I’m going to leave so you can enjoy your night without saving me every five minutes.”

He chuckles at that. I can feel myself caving in to the perfection of this man, but I know nothing with him will work. He is the bad boy type with booty calls on the side, I’m sure. All I know is that I need to get away. I cannot get mixed up with anyone, but then I get a whiff of him. He smelled like a fresh shower mixed with sweet musky amber. Getting close to him will ruin me, I know it.

“I’m sorry. My friend is waiting for me at the bar so I better go. It was nice meeting you, and thank-you again.” I turn to leave.

He softly placed his warm, rough hands on my forearm. I stiffen and glance down at his hand. He catches the change and releases my arm. He gestures to his hand. “I’m sorry.” He pauses like he’s deciding in his head what to say. “It was my pleasure.” With that, he turns and walks away.

I watch him walk away for the second time tonight. I can still feel the warmth from where his hand was on my arm. I turn and see Lauren at the bar, flirting with some guy. I go to the part of the bar that is closest to me, just down from Lauren and her flirt buddy. I order a rum and coke, something that I heard one of my mom’s boyfriends order while we were out eating one night. I take a sip, it’s not bad. Not bad at all. I make myself comfortable at the bar because dancing isn’t really my scene.

It seems like forever that I have been sitting here, and I have lost track of how many rum and cokes I’ve consumed, when Lauren comes up beside me. “Hey, girl! You havin’ fun?” I could tell she had a few drinks, too. She stands there, all bubbly personality, like always, with some fruity drink in her hand.

“Uh, how are we getting back to the dorms?”

She giggles. “Oh, don’t worry! My daddy had my car taken back to the dorms, and he arranged for a car to take us back!”

As I turn back to my drink, I see her smile get wider and her eyes go big. I look over my shoulder. Then I see him again. We had been here for a while. I’m here because I have no life. I wonder why
he’s
still here. He walks through the crowd with grace, but with a “don’t fuck with me” look.

I turn back to the bar, absentmindedly stirring my drink with the little straws you get with them. I act oblivious to him, as he walks up on the opposite side as Lauren. He leans in way to close for comfort. I am fighting to keep my walls up.
Just don’t look into those eyes!
I don’t have to because I can smell him. However, there’s more than that … I can
feel
him there.