Authors: Sharon Lee
My arm around the moose’s neck, I breathed in, tasting ripe peaches, and accepted that each and every animal on the carousel had been filled with
jikinap
.
Never mind
open
; I’d interrupted an attempt to
blow
the Gate wide.
And, I thought, looking around me, feeling my power yammer to consume more of itself—and, if they had just left the rooster alone, rather than trying to displace the working I’d left in it . . .
They might have succeeded.
That would have been bad. Even magical explosions can destroy real things.
Kill real people.
My stomach clenched and I swallowed bile. I closed my eyes and concentrated on taking deep breaths.
When I was feeling steadier, I opened my eyes, and straightened from my lean against the moose. The glow of
voysin
was bright enough to make me squint.
Well, I couldn’t just
leave
it here, potential threat to life as we know it.
And there was only one way that I knew of to render loose power harmless.
Accordingly, I centered myself . . . and breathed in.
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
Low Tide 1:58
P.M.
EDT
I was sitting in the chariot, hot, bloated, and shivering, when I heard a step in the door, and a voice call out.
“Who is here?”
“Kate,” I managed, making some shift to sit up straight and get my eyes decently open. Wouldn’t do for the help to find the boss falling down drunk.
Not that I could think of a way to avoid it.
I heard footsteps crossing the floor, and then a light thump, which must have been Vassily jumping to the platform.
More footsteps, and here the child was, his
voysin
burning in his breast like a votive table in a church.
He stopped a prudent distance from me, his hand on the lion’s rump.
“Are you . . .” he paused, perhaps hesitating over the proper word. He licked his lips and tried again. “Are you an angel from heaven?”
I blinked at him, having expected that “well?” would be following “are you.” It was on the tip of my
jikinap
-loosened tongue to tell him to stop talking nonsense, and I looked down to gain some measure of control.
Whereupon, I saw my own hand, resting on my knee. The glow of my newly increased power made a fairly pedestrian brown and work-roughened member into a thing of strength and beauty. Tears rose to my eyes, just looking at it—absolute perfection, the ideal to which all hands must strive . . .
I yanked my thoughts back from
that
edge, before I took a nasty tumble, and looked back up to Vassily.
“No,” I said, wisely not shaking my head. “Not an angel.”
He nodded. “Are you in pain?”
That was better, I thought, peach and butterscotch at war on the back of my tongue.
“I’m a little under the weather, nothing to worry about,” I told him, hoping that wasn’t mere optimism.
It had by now occurred to me that I might have done something that wasn’t particularly smart. Though I’d imbibed
jikinap
previously, I’d apparently not noticed an important fact.
Mr. Ignat’ had
given
me his magic, and, beyond finding myself the unwilling vessel, I’d borne no ill effects.
I’d also stolen
jikinap
—a boatload of the stuff. And that had gotten me power-drunk, out of control, and slightly mad. That time, the survival of the land had been on the table, and I wasn’t tracking very well, anyway—see drunk, crazy, and beside myself, above.
This time, there wasn’t any deadly enemy into whom I could more or less immediately release the power I had ingested. The only thing I could do was digest what I had eaten, and endure until the new power settled in.
“The door was open,” Vassily said, carefully, “and you are here. Am I . . . dismissed?”
The kid’s worried about his job—and his dinner. Focus, Kate
.
“No,” I assured him, taking care with my diction. “I just . . . stopped by. The door was open when I got here.”
His eyes widened. “The animals—the wheel—there is no damage?”
“Everything looks good. Guess Nancy just forgot to put the lock through the loop on her way out last night.”
“This does not seem like her.”
“No,” I agreed, “it doesn’t.” I leaned forward, testing my balance. I’d been unsteadier.
The worst problem was my head, which was pounding like a Ginger Baker drum solo. I really didn’t relish the prospect of taking it outside to meet Midsummer’s brilliant sky. Lesser problems were my stomach—definitely queasy—and my balance—not great.
“Why don’t you open up,” I suggested to Vassily, “while I finish getting myself sorted out here? I’ll be out of your way in a couple minutes.”
“Yes,” he said, and crossed the platform, jumping lightly to the floor.
I heard his steps, and then the clatter of the storm gates being opened.
Tentatively, I slid carefully across the bench, got to my feet, and exited the chariot from the money side, holding tightly onto the edge so that I didn’t overbalance on the climb to the floor.
By the time I’d gotten myself onto solid land, Vassily had the walls locked back. I straightened, forcing my spine straight by millimeters. My mouth tasted too much of magic, and my nasal passages seemed to have captured the odor of ripe peaches, so that every breath brought me the scent.
I’ve never really liked peaches.
“Am I to bring Anna?” Vassily asked from beside me. “You do not look well.”
“Just a little bug; gone in no time,” I assured him. “I’m going to go home and lie down. Be back at four.”
“If you are ill later,” Vassily said, sounding stern, “you will not come. I will work longer, or Nancy will come.”
“You got it, boss man.”
“This is a joke?”
“Joke,” I affirmed, swallowing hard, and tasting only peaches. I reached out and patted him on the arm. “I’ll be fine.”
I could walk a reasonably straight line, if I concentrated and took it slow, which I did, leaving the carousel by the exit gate, rather than risk ducking under the safety rail.
Outside, the sunlight was a hammer, striking my head. And with each blow, I tasted more peaches and less butterscotch.
Kate, you idiot, what did you do?
I could barely see in the blare of sunlight; it felt like the next hammer blow would knock my head clean off. Eyes watering, I let the land guide me, staggering like your drunken sailor, to the fountain.
I collapsed to the lip, closed my eyes against the punishment of the sun, and concentrated on not throwing up. The land whimpered, and pawed my hand, but I didn’t dare . . . didn’t dare open myself to its healing until I knew what I had taken on. Poisoning the land—not in the job description.
Phone
, I thought laboriously, and, eyes screwed shut, fished it out of my pocket, flipped it open and hit speed-dial, wondering who I’d just called.
“Kate?” Peggy’s voice was brisk. “Listen, can I call you back?”
“I need help,” I said, my voice slurring.
“Where are you?” she asked, sharp now.
“Fountain.”
“I’m sending somebody. Stay on the line.”
“Thank you.”
“Stay on the line! Kate?”
“Here.”
“What happened?”
What happened, the woman asked.
“Kate.
Tell me what happened
.”
“Ate something . . . that didn’t want to be, to be . . .”
“Have I
told
you never to eat the blue cotton candy?”
I half-laughed, which was almost disastrous, and swallowed hard.
“Here you are, now, Guardian,” a low familiar voice was cool in my ear; a hand comfortable on my shoulder.
“Felsic,” I said.
“That’s right.” I felt something settle on my head. “This’ll help, maybe. Wicked bright today. Now, you just lean on me; we’ll get you up an’ out o’the sun in a shake.”
“Felsic, am I glowing?”
“A mite; nothin’ to notice—not in this light. Come on now, I’m putting my arm ’round you.”
True enough, a strong arm came around my waist and the next moment, with no real sense of how I’d gotten there, I was on my feet. I felt a touch of vertigo; opened my eyes to slits. The brim of Felsic’s gimme hat threw an improbably deep shadow; I felt like I was standing in a cave.
“Nice cap.”
“Does what it’s s’posed to. Had it donkey’s years. Peggy?”
“Here,” she said. Hell; I’d forgotten about the phone.
“We’ll be at The Mango in a few—Kate needs to take it slow. Best if she puts the phone away.”
“Got it. Should I call an ambulance?”
“No!” I said sharply. “I just . . . need a place to sleep it off.”
There was a slight, charged pause, before Peggy spoke again.
“If, in my sole judgment, based on what sort of hell you look like when you get here, you don’t need an ambulance, you can sleep in the office.”
“You’re a champ, Jersey,” I said, and signed off, sliding the phone into the pocket of my jeans.
We’d gone two slow, easy steps, when I noticed a cool, salty energy seeping into my veins. It cooled the fever and for a moment only, I was profoundly grateful. Then, I remembered.
“Don’t!” I snapped, stumbling in my distress. “I
don’t know
what I got into. You don’t want to—don’t want to share this.”
“That’s all right,” Felsic crooned, adjusting for my stumble with no noticeable strain. “Don’t fatch, Kate. Just a little home brew; nothin’ taken; only givin’.”
“I can’t wait to see the bill for that,” I muttered.
Felsic laughed.
“You look like hell,” Peggy said, staring hard into my face. “Falling-down-drunk hell. Or maybe epic-migraine hell. Not ambulance hell.” She pointed at the desk. “You may use the emergency couch.”
“Thank you. ’Preciate.” I sat on the edge, and took a deep breath. Felsic’s little draught of home brew had settled my stomach, and cooled the fever; but my tongue was still saturated with peach; my nose clogged with it.
“Just by the way,” Peggy said. She pulled Felsic’s hat off my head, and held it out to its owner. “You
are
glowing. I
knew
the blue stuff is radioactive.”
“Cracks in the head?” I asked.
“None visible. You want some Advil?”
“Won’t help, thanks.”
She looked like she was going to argue that, but the buzzer rasped, cutting her off.
“When do I wake you?” she asked, moving toward the door.
“In time to relieve Vassily at four.”
“Got it.” She passed through the door into The Mango. I heard her voice, brightly suggesting today’s special smoothie, banana-raspberry.
Felsic had replaced the gimme hat, and gave me a hard look from under that deep brim.
“What happened?”
I sighed. “Somebody was trying to take out the Gate.”
Felsic’s eyes widened.
“Anything we ought do?”
I sighed. “If you see an unfamiliar glowing Ozali come into the midway, run.”
Felsic nodded, looking serious, patted my shoulder, and went away.
I got myself into the middle of the desk, rolled up the purple sweatshirt for a pillow, closed my eyes and willed myself to sleep.
I dreamed.
I dreamed that I stood in a world strange to me, dazzled by a landscape so saturated with light that the very air burned. There was music—singing, so I thought, and then thought that what I heard must be the voice of the wind in this place.
The light was thick and heavy, like honey, or molten gold. It coated me where I stood, binding me to the brilliant land.
Before me, I descried bell-shaped flowers on bending stalks lining a winding path, and in the distance, trees with branches limned in silver, leaves dripping with the heavy light.
The golden air rippled above the path, and a shape appeared—manlike, tall and lissome. Rainbow wings arced from his shoulder blades, each feather as sharp as a shard of glass. He was quite naked, and, to my dream-eyes, sexless.
“Release me!” The voice that disturbed the wind’s whisperings was raw, dark with anger and pain. “Release mine!”
“I’m not holding you,” I objected, my voice a meager thing against the majesty of this place.
“Who are you?” the angry voice demanded.
“I’m the Gatekeeper,” I said.
“Gatekeeper! Say, more truly, jailer!”
“That, too,” I agreed. “We’re all of us many things.”
“Then, hear me, Jailer. I give you the opportunity to avoid mayhem. Release what is mine!”
“To the best of my knowledge, I don’t have anything of yours,” I said.
“You hold Jaron, Varoth’s fairest son, my second self. Release him to me.” Slowly, he sank to one knee. “I abase myself. I beg you.”
“I am powerless,” I told him, spreading my hands against the heavy air. “It’s not given me, to know who the prisoners are. Petition the Wise—”
“The Wise!” He came to his feet with a great clashing of wings. “It was the Wise who tore him from my arms!”
“I am powerless,” I repeated—
The rainbow wings clashed. The light tore, the landscape shredded, and a maelstrom shrieked from the black air; I took flight on wings of my own, battling the winds, until I rose, panting, into my own body . . .
. . . and woke to the scent of pineapples and strawberries, on the desk in the office behind The Last Mango.
I sat up, shaking my head to clear the vision of the angry Varothi.
“I definitely need a cat.”
The door opened, and Peggy put her head into the room.
“It’s three-forty. You good to go, or you want to call in relief?”
I took stock. The inside of my head felt tender with the aftermath of the headache, but it wasn’t actively throbbing. The queasiness had passed off, leaving me hungry, and I felt like my skin was a good fit for me, neither too loose nor too tight.
“I’m good to go,” I told Peggy, rolling off the desk. “Thirsty.”
“I’ll make you a smoothie,” she said. “Dinner
and
a thirst quencher, all in one handy cup. In the meantime, the bathroom’s back there.” She pointed. “You need to wash up and rebraid.”
I nodded, and turned in the direction of the point.
“Oh, and—” Peggy said. I looked at her over my shoulder.
“You’re not glowing anymore,” she said, opening her eyes wide before she ducked back through the door.