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Authors: Brandilyn Collins

Cast a Road Before Me

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Book One of The Bradleyville Series
cast
a
road
before
me
BRANDILYN COLLINS

For my husband, Mark
.
For all you’ve done and all you are
.

Epigraph

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the L
ORD
, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Jeremiah 29:11

Contents

Cover

Title Page

Epigraph

~ 1960 ~

chapter 1

chapter 2

chapter 3

chapter 4

~ 1968 ~

chapter 5

chapter 6

chapter 7

chapter 8

chapter 9

chapter 10

chapter 11

chapter 12

chapter 13

chapter 14

chapter 15

chapter 16

chapter 17

chapter 18

chapter 19

chapter 20

chapter 21

chapter 22

chapter 23

chapter 24

chapter 25

chapter 26

chapter 27

chapter 28

chapter 29

chapter 30

chapter 31

chapter 32

chapter 33

chapter 34

chapter 35

chapter 36

chapter 37

chapter 38

chapter 39

chapter 40

chapter 41

chapter 42

chapter 43

chapter 44

chapter 45

chapter 46

chapter 47

chapter 48

chapter 49

chapter 50

About the Author

Praise

Books by Brandilyn Collins

Copyright

About the Publisher

 

 

~
1960
~
chapter 1

T
he last time I saw my mother alive, she was on her way to serve the poor.

She was wearing one of her favorite dresses, a blue cotton knit with a sash at the waist. She’d had it for years. It was her favorite not because of style, but because it was comfortable and easy to wash. “This dress will do just fine,” she would say whenever I bewailed the notion that she wore it so much to Hope Center, people might think she slept in it. She was far more careful in dressing for work, starching blouses and skillfully mending old skirts so they would not bespeak her lack of a wardrobe. She’d add one of her three pairs of dime-store earrings, sometimes an inexpensive necklace. But any jewelry was out of the question at the Center, where it would only get in the way or, worse, remind the homeless and hungry that their needs were far beyond our own. As for the blue cotton dress, it had been spit up on by mewling babies, dirtied by the spilled soup of children, even torn by the clutching hand of a frightened young mother. Mom would drag home from another long evening at Hope Center, her beautiful face lined with fatigue and a thick strand of her dark auburn hair straggling out of its
rubber band, and shake her head good-naturedly over the day’s ruin of her dress. Then she’d wash it by hand and hang it up to dry for the next time.

I often volunteered alongside Mom at the Center. After my homework was done and her workday as a receptionist at an insurance firm was finished, we’d hurry through a simple meal, then drive to the two-story brick building in downtown Cincinnati that provided room and board to the poverty-stricken. Saturdays, I always went with her. Except
that
Saturday. My high school sophomore finals were the following week, and Mom had insisted I stay home to study. “You stay home too,” I’d pleaded. “You’re exhausted, and you haven’t given yourself a day off in weeks. Let somebody else fill in for you just this once.”

“Oh, but I can’t,” she’d replied softly. “I promised little Jianying and a whole group of children I’d read to them today, and then I’ve got to teach that class on how to interview for a job. And besides, Brenda’s sick, so I’ve got to oversee cooking dinner.” Brenda Todd had founded the Center ten years previously and acted as manager. Mom had been her “right-hand woman” for eight years.

And so, on that horrific Saturday, my mother kissed me good-bye and walked out the door of our small rented house and down our porch to leave. I followed, still protesting. “Then at least let me come with you. Maybe I can help with dinner, and you can come home after the class. I’ll get somebody to give me a ride home. I can study all day tomorrow.”

She placed her hands with firm gentleness on my shoulders. “No, Jessie. Stay here and study. And maybe I can find someone to replace me tomorrow. I wouldn’t mind a day in bed.” She smiled, trying to hide her tiredness as she slid into our battered Chevy Impala.

I will always remember that smile. It is cut into my brain like a carved cameo. I can picture her blue dress; the paleness of her cheeks, void of makeup; the warmth of her brown eyes. She’d placed her worn white purse beside her on the seat, its bent handle flopping forward. Something about that old purse tugged at my
heart. I thought of the long hours she was about to put in—again—for no pay. How many dresses, how many purses could she have bought had she spent as much time earning money?

Mom hadn’t led an easy life herself, yet she was always thinking of others. Her husband—my father—had wandered away when I was a baby, leaving her with nothing but dark memories of his alcoholism. Years later, he was killed in a drunken fight in some bar halfway across Ohio. Her one sister lived in a tiny, remote town in Kentucky, and they rarely saw each other. And Mom had been estranged from her parents for years before their deaths. After the one and only disastrous time we’d taken a chance and visited them, I’d declared with all the righteous indignation a ten-year-old could muster that we’d
never
go back again. Within four years of that visit, my grandfather had died from cirrhosis of the liver, and my grandmother from heart disease.

As Mom slipped the keys into the ignition, the smile I’ve held in my memory faded from her lips. Then, for the briefest of moments, her eyes slipped shut, and I watched an expression of despair spread across her features. Anxiety for her hit me in the chest, and I was just about to argue with her further about staying home when her eyes reopened. She noticed me gazing at her, and the expression vanished. She smiled again, a little too brightly. The car started and she began to pull away from the curb. I saw her left hand come up, fingers spread. It was a small wave, intimate. “Thanks for caring,” it seemed to say, “but you know I’ll be fine.” I lifted a hand in return, managed a wan smile back.

I sighed in worry as I watched Mom ease down our street and turn right. Then she was out of sight. Two blocks from our house, she would turn left and begin the climb up Viewridge, which curved to become visible from where I stood.

I fervently wished she had stayed home to rest.

The distinctive sound of a mail slot opening clanked through my thoughts. I turned to see Jack, our mailman, pushing envelopes into the Farrells’ house next door. Calling out a greeting, I waited near the curb for him, shielding my eyes against the sun.

“Hi, Jessie,” Jack said as he drew near, pulling our mail from his cart. “Almost done with school for the year, aren’t you?” He folded the envelopes inside a magazine and held the bundle out to me. I raised my hand to take it. That’s when the squealing began.

It was a long keening, the unmistakable sound of frantic brakes. It’s not the noise itself that immediately draws your eyes, it’s the expectation of what’s to follow. Jack’s head jerked up. I whirled around, scanning Viewridge, and caught sight of my mother’s car. Then I saw the vehicle reeling toward it, pulling a trailer. Fish-tailing badly. Dread bolted me to the sidewalk.

Time slowed, suspended in the suddenly suffocating air. In the next second it looked like Mom swerved onto the shoulder toward safety, but she had little room. I remember the nausea that seized me at that moment, even before the inevitable crash. I felt as if I were watching a horror movie, shouting “No! No!” at the screen. Then I heard the words yelled and realized they were my own.

Jack murmured a prayer. Vaguely, I registered the sound of mail hitting the sidewalk.

The crash played forever. There was the smash of impact as the truck hit the side of my mother’s car, a grinding of metal and gears, the lingering screech of twisted vehicles careening to a halt. Then utter, dead silence. My feet still would not lift from the sidewalk. Screams gurgled in my throat.

My next memory puts me a block away, breaths ragged with sobs, running, running….

chapter 2

S
he had such a good heart.”

“Your mother was the most giving person I’ve ever known.”

“Dear child, you can know she’s in heaven, for all the loving things she did.”

Words of solace poured from the mouths of all who attended my mother’s funeral. Hope Center’s large gymnasium, cleared of its overnight cots for the homeless, was filled with men, women, and children who wept with me for my mother. Little Jianying Zheng, her doe-brown eyes brimming, wordlessly pressed a white rose into my hand. Her mother placed both palms against my cheeks, her gentle fingertips conveying what her tightened throat could not. In that simple motion I understood the depth of her gratitude. My thoughts, numb as they were, flashed to the recent night this tiny Chinese woman and her five children had come home with Mom to sleep on our floor, the Center being too crowded to take them in. Mei Zheng and her children were immigrants, her husband recently dead from an illness he’d picked up in a filthy overseas refugee camp. Mom had seen that they all were fed and bathed, patiently trying to understand their broken
English as they told of their troubles. After dinner, Mei Zheng had pulled a small statue of Buddha from her ragged knapsack, and the entire family knelt before the statue on our checkered kitchen floor to give their thanks. I had never seen such outward religious obeisance before and was touched by it. As long as I could remember, Mom had instilled within me the understanding that one’s soul is more important than earthly matters. How one reached God was up to the individual, she said; people throughout the world found him through differing religions and beliefs. Mom taught me that the way was not important. Her personal way was living a life in service to others.

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