Charon (30 page)

 
"Why not just go along with him and then settle back like before?" I asked him. "You didn't have to cut and run."

 
"Oh, things will never be like they were before—not after that stuff in the square. Morah's been publically humiliated. Matuze will take it personally. If those people in Bourget have any sense—and the majority don't—they'll all cut and run. Even though they missed their targets, Bourget's going to become a big, ugly example. Permanent troops and a Synod sore will be installed there from now on, bet on it. You won't be able to blow your nose there without permission."

 
I told him of my suspicions about Morah.

 
"Hmph. Morah an alien. Hadn't thought of that before, but it could be—providing we accept a couple of givens. One is that the aliens can catch the Warden bug themselves—Morah's just loaded and he knows how to use that power better than anybody I've ever seen. But if they
can
catch it the same as us, how'd that delegation five years back come and go without getting trapped?"

 
"They could have the cure," I noted. "Their whole deal with the Four Lords is predicated on that claim. What better way to prove it?"

 
"You may be right," he agreed, "but I'm not so sure. True, I know nothing of Morah's background, but that's not unusual. And then there's that fine show he staged at the end." -

 
"You mean that monster he became?"

 
He nodded. "Get a good look at it?"

 
"Not really. Everything happened so fast. A multiheaded dragon, that's about all I can remember. Three heads. That's about it."

 
"That's fair enough. In fact, there were
four
heads, not three, and each of the four was extremely different. One was saurian, one like some great insect, one a creature of the sea, and one vaguely humanoid. See any significance?"

 
I shook my head. "Not really."

 
"Charon, Lilith, Cerberus, Medusa.
The living sign of the Four Lords of the Diamond."

 
I gave a low whistle.
"Symbolism to the very end."

 
"Almost the real end too," he noted. "Look, the only reason he wasn't totally fried was that he wasn't really there at all. You couldn't sense it, but I saw. The moment the first shot was fired, the one that unfortunately missed, he was off that platform and into the crowd. I lost him at that point—he cast a spell on himself so complete I couldn't tell him from the victims."

 
I looked around nervously. "Then he could be here with us now."

 
"He could, but I doubt it. He would be the only one capable of coordinating the hunt, not to mention reporting to the government. Besides, he couldn't fool Koril, so once he got here he'd just have betrayed us anyway. No, don't worry about that part. But that was quite a show all the same . . . Say, speaking of shows—how the hell did you wind up like
that,
anyway?"

 
Briefly I told him the sequence of events.

 
"Fair enough.
I thought you'd have sense enough to stay in the town hall, damn it, so I didn't pay any attention to you. I was far too busy trying to keep out of the line of fire while trying to spot Morah; then I got bogged down helping with the escapes."

 
"How*d you know it was me here?"

 
He smiled. "Your
wa—
your Warden brain pattern. It's unique, distinctive, as everybody's is. Not that I remember everybody's, but you were around for months in the same building."

 
"What about these spells, Tully? Are they really permanent?"

 
He stopped and turned to look at me. "Nothing's permanent, particularly not on Charon. But it's far, far easier to add than to subtract, if you know what I mean. When you cast a changeling spell, you form a mental set of instructions in your mind and transmit them to your subject's Wardens. Those Wardens then proceed to do whatever they're instructed to do. They draw energy from somewhere—external, certainly, but where nobody's ever found out. They draw the energy in, convert it into matter often at astonishing speed, and apply the redesign."

 
"Yeah, but it's not just changing shape," I replied. "Hell, I need a far stronger backbone; I have a different digestive system better adapted to this; a different balance mechanism—and a million other things, big and small, that make this creature that's the new me work. You can't possibly know or think of all the little details required. It would take an extensive biomedical library complete with full biological design capabilities to do that"

 
He looked at me seriously. "Want the truth? I warn you, it's something we don't tell everybody."

 
"I sure do."

 
"We haven't the slightest idea how it's done, and that's the truth. Some of it, I think—the basic stuff—simply borrows from the Wardens elsewhere on the planet. Information requested and exchanged in a way we can't comprehend—it's a whole different form of life. The bunhar parts of you, the pigmentation and so on, are probably borrowed like that. In fact, we know they are—one can sense the request for and flow into the subject of that information. But when there's no equivalent, or when you have to put bunhar and human together and make the new creature work, well, that's a whole different story. The Warden organism doesn't think. It's more like a machine, waiting for instructions. It's too simple a thing to think, even if you considered all of them on the planet as a single organism. Without instructions, it's totally passive."

 
I could only nod and file the information away—for now. I returned to the immediate subject at hand. "But basically once you're changed you're stuck."

 
"Fairly much so.
It took very little time to remake you, but it'd be a ticklish operation and maybe take a year or more to put you back the way you were. First of all, you'd be destroying the homes of all those billions of extra Wardens, and they have a fair survival instinct. Second, the extra mass has to go somewhere, and in general the.only place it can go is back to energy. Do that wrong, or in too much of
a hurry
, and you get a big flash and bang and you're dead.
Far easier to modify you.
In fact I think some modification may be in order. I can tell by looking at both Darva and you that your
spell's
become somewhat unraveled, and if that isn't checked, you'll have even bigger problems."

 
"Huh?
How's that?"

 
"Well, the situation's unusual, but I've seen it before. Both of you have an abnormally high sensitivity to the
wa
,
and it in turn listens to you. Without control, your subconscious, your animal parts, take over. If the trend isn't checked or modified, it'll turn both of you completely into bunhars. Tell me—have you been having any odd, ah, mental problems or urges lately?"

 
Sheepishly I told him of the hunting experiences in the wild.

 
He nodded gravely. "Well, we'll have to do something about that as soon as I can make a complete examination of you. It'll be tricky for several reasons. They're
your
Wardens, and
wa
will follow what it perceives as the will of its host first and foremost. We work by convincing it that you're some other way—by convincing
you.
In these reversions, the mind is the first to go since it's not only unnecessary to the ultimate goal but often gets in the way. The process is so slow only because it does not occur on the conscious level—and because you're around other people. If you'd missed us though, and stayed in the wild, the process would have accelerated. In a few months you'd have become a total bunhar, running with herd, and absolutely no different from a natual-born one. You were lucky."

 
I shivered. "Tell that to Darva, will you, Tully? That's what she wanted to do—and I almost caved in."

 
The changelings were being moved out in very small groups, usually by ship but occasionally even by air. Koril's network was far wider and deeper than I'd suspected.

 
Tully took the time we had there to work with us as much as possible. Our days were spent in a series of exacting and often extremely boring mental exercises, many of which gave us headaches. There were all sorts of effective blocking techniques as well, many based on simple self-hypnosis that I could do in a
moment, that
kept the growing understanding of the power within us under some sort of control.

 
The basics were simple. First, you couldn't make something out of nothing. There had to be Wardens there to work with. Thus, one could not materialize something out of thin air—it just wouldn't happen. But given something very small, even a rock or pile of sand, you could cause it to grow, multiply, and transform itself. You could not, however, give non-Warden life to something that had no life at the start. You could create a lot of things with simple sand, but you couldn't make it a living thing. You could, however, reshape it, then direct and motivate it, puppetlike, by your own powers of concentration.

 
Darva was, in many ways, a quicker study than I was, because she was taking up where she'd left off so long before. TuUy warned us, though, that there was only a small chance of us growing beyond very powerful apts, since the younger you were the easier the Art was to learn. Still,
he
had learned it starting at an age not far from mine, and that spurred me on. Koril, in fact, had become perhaps the most powerful and he'd learned it after he was forty.

 
You would think that the more you practiced a thing the easier it would become, but in fact it became harder as we progressed, since the more ambitious you became the more complex the instructions and the more millions of Wardens had to be contacted.

 
Finally though, when we'd been there almost four weeks and the company had dwindled to only a handful— meaning we were soon due to depart—Tully admitted he'd taken us as far as he could under these conditions. It was not far enough, of course, but we had far more self-control and power than either of us could have hoped to have had without his
help
. In point of fact, we were full-fledged, if still minor, apts.

 
"You'll be leaving in two days," Tully told us finally.
"Going south, to Gamush, on my recommendation.
You should feel nattered—only apts with potential are sent there. You might even meet the big man himself."

 
"What about the reversion?" Darva asked nervously.

 
"Well, youVe stabilized it. I think we caught it just in tune, in fact. But down in Gamush you'll get the top professional help you need, extra training, and—who knows?"

 
"How will we be going?" I asked.

 
"Well, we've been having problems with the ships, of course. Troopers are boarding and searching every one they spot, and they have effective aerial patrols out. We've been able to fake a lot—they don't have much of a list of names, let alone changeling descriptions, but it's a slow and risky process. No, we'll get you out by air. Rather direct, I'm afraid, but the best way."

 
Tully's "rather direct" turned out to be an understatement. We were not built for the compartments of a soarer, but a soarer modified and controlled by a sore could be used to transport humans up top—and changelings by having the damned thing swoop down and pick us up in its huge prehensile feet.

 
Though we were both sedated for the sudden "pick up," it was still one of the most frightening things I'd ever experienced. Crossing an ocean held in the grip of a great flying creature's toes is
not
guaranteed to make anybody comfortable, although, it proved more comfortable than riding in that damned cabin. Not reassuring, though, when you looked down at countless thousands of square kilometers of open ocean and knew that you could be dropped in a moment if the big flying monster had an itch—and nobody would ever know.

 
Our sense of security was no greater when, several hours flying time later, we crossed the barren coast of
Gamush
. For one thing, this was the first time I had seen a broken sky and bright sun since landing on Charon. The sky was reddish-orange, with gray clouds, and it looked really strange. The gas layer was thin enough for the real sun of the Warden system to be clearly visible—and it was a real hot one. Since our body temperatures rose or fell to adapt to the outside temperature, I began to worry about just how high that temperature could go in our kind without boiling our blood. It really was that hot, or so it felt—and incredibly dry. Below, orange and brown sand, ridged and duned, stretched as far as the eye could see.

 
What a world, I remembered thinking. Tropical rain forests north and south and a desert baked almost beyond imagining in the middle.

 
Still, there
were
creatures about We could see them flying around; apparently wingless cylinders, but none came close enougk for us to get a really good look at them. Somewhere down below, other things also must live, I realized, for those creatures to feed upon. Yet in the whole journey I never saw a single tree, shrub, or animal.
Nothing but desolate sand.