Chase Me (15 page)

Eddie handed me my shoes to put back on, but I merely sat them on the shelf while Eddie walked over to his Fastback and climbed inside. He let his head fall back and breathed in the smell of old leather.

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You are an enigma,” Eddie spoke softly and I walked towards him in question. “You are absolutely stunning, and yet with your manicure and perfectly styled clothes and hair you would rather be in a dirty garage being a tomboy. I don’t think I have met anyone like you.”

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I cuss like a sailor, drink like a fish, fuck like a whore, and yet I know how to play the part of acting like a grown up when I have to. I don’t think that makes me different. It just means I am versatile.”

He patted the seat and I walked to the passenger door and opened it to climb inside.

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You ever done anything you wish you could take back?” I asked and he nodded.

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My parents died in a car accident when I was in college. They were headed home from visiting me. There was this girl and I didn’t want to be bothered. So, I yelled at my dad in the quad for all to see telling him he was an embarrassment to the family. I told my mother she was just as bad to have settled for him. I said some really bad things. Those are the last things I ever said to them. They told the paramedics they loved me and forgave me. They didn’t want me to live with it on my conscience, but if I could that would be the one thing I would change. What about you?”

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I wish I could take back the day of my college graduation. That was the day my mom decided to find my dad. Two years later, I met the trailer trash and his troll who he was merely engaged to. I would definitely change that.”

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That the only thing?” Eddie pried and I swear he read right through me to know that I didn’t really care if I changed that or not. I took a deep breath and chose to go with honesty when everything in my body said to lie to him.

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I once slept with a married man,” I mumbled under my breath. “I didn’t know he was married. His wife was away on a business trip and I was lonely, he was lonely. I was young so I thought we had something real something shiny and new, but instead it was like the fake gold that turns your finger green.”

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What happened?” Eddie asked and I swallowed hard. I hadn’t talked about this in a really long time. Since before college.

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His wife came home and he came clean. She filed for divorce and took their daughter. It was brutal. They both loved each other and were both hurt by what happened, and when they finally let go of the anger and resentment they got back together, but their daughter, this little blond thing that reminded me of myself was never the same.”

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That can be hell on a kid, and seems like you were a child then too. Why is that the one thing you would change, when it helped them reconcile?”

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Because it is the only time I ever felt ashamed for the way I lived. I have never seen a guy twice since then unless it was just in passing. Call it daddy issues or whatever, but my mom made it on her own and so will I.”

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You know you don’t have to live your life alone, right?” Eddie asked as I sat beside him and toyed with my fingers to keep my emotions off my face from his last question. Silence grew with my refusal to answer. I needed to change the subject.

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I’m not a crier,” I fumbled the words out without a point to them. Eddie turned to look at me. “I never cry, well almost, I don’t cry unless it is one of my lifelines.”

His brows furrowed, and I knew I wasn’t making much sense. I had gone from talking about the one regret I had to my lifelines. I was sure this guy was going to get whiplash riding my crazy train.

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I broke your car driving faster than my own problems. I mean it’s not totaled or anything. I merely caught the undercarriage and wheel wells on fire.”

Eddie reached over and took my hand and placed it in his. He had this way about him that was like he was a therapist. When he was silent I wanted to tell him anything he wanted to hear to get a reaction and my filter was still busted so I blurted it all out.

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Brooklyn is moving out. She hasn’t said it yet, but she took this new job, and when she leaves I will have lost her. She will want to join the grown-ups where people don’t say what they think, they drink in moderation, and fun is what they reminisce about or they tell their kids to go do it.

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I don’t like my sperm-dad’s wife because she is a human floatation device with a brain the size of a broken peanut. He isn’t much better as he lost his balls to her so he fires people she wants gone to avoid letting them have their retirement. I hate the idea of working for him, but my mom took care of me and I want to help take care of her medical bills now that he has fired Mike-,” I got cut off.

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Kate,” Eddie whispered and I looked up at him realizing that my focus had dropped to my feet. “You don’t always have to be strong. You should tell people how you feel so they can react accordingly.”

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Tell me about you. I feel cut open, and yet I know nothing about you,” I whispered and Eddie smirked.

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I’m old, fat, smelly, and poor,” Eddie chuckled as he loosened his tie.

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Tell me something I might believe,” I retorted.

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I’m an inch and a half and I cum real fast,” he stated with too much enthusiasm hoping I would buy it.

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I want to sell you beach front property off the coast of Arizona.”

The tension in the air from me unloading my info had evaporated. It felt like before Kurt happened. It was so easy to just tell him my problems, get it off my chest, and then he would make it better. He was able to distract me in just a few sentences where life didn’t seem so overbearing.
Ah, shit… I was head over heels for this guy.

I took my hand back quickly and Eddie’s brown bedroom eyes glanced up at me and I knew it to be true. How the hell could I like him when I kept myself guarded?

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I think we should leave,” I stated as I climbed out of the Mustang. I shut the door and a red light flickered on the wall. When I looked away from it Eddie was right beside me.

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What’s wrong?” He asked and I couldn’t tell him I liked him. That would be the worst thing to do. “Is it because you still don’t know me?” He asked and I nodded the lie. I knew him.

I knew he was husband material, and would have two point five kids. He would continue to work directly under Henry for another five to ten years and then step out and start his own company. Something he could pass down to his kids. Then he would retire to the only penis shaped state, Florida, and spend his days getting denture free oral at the retirement village.

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I graduated from high school at sixteen with honors, and got a scholarship to Western Carolina University where I majored in Emergency Medicine. I then worked as a EMT as I attended Harvard and graduated with a Master’s in Business Administration. Henry came to me before I graduated and offered me a job in his firm. He paid off my Harvard loans and I am contracted to stay with him until I have paid it back.”

I walked across the car and stood there in front of Eddie and took his hand in mine.

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Seems we are both hostages to Henry,” I joked, but his face was serious. “What would you do if you had freedom?” I asked and he answered without a second thought.

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I would be a paramedic. I want to help people live, not build portfolios and run companies. I once thought about building up my bank account and buying my contract out, but then everyone who I have helped financially would be lost in Henry’s mediocre system.”

Chapter 13

My body took control as my heart warmed to his answer. I pulled on his lilac tie and bringing him down to me. I placed my lips on his and fireworks exploded in my veins as the blood rushed through excessively fast. I slowly wrapped my arms around his head as he kissed me back. I felt his arms tighten around me as he lifted me off the ground and laid me on the hood of the Mustang.

I was going to be ruined for every man with a kiss like his. It was soft and warm like hot velvet, it kept me yearning for more, like a drug. When I wrapped my legs around him I felt him harden through his suit, and without warning my clit hardened and pulsated. I could feel the wetness under my panties grow as I realized I was in my own fantasy. It wasn’t a vineyard, but who the hell cared when he kissed like that.

Then the flood of ice came pouring down my spine. I couldn’t do this. I went from wanting him to climb on top of me to fighting him to get off.

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Kate,” Eddie said calmly “Kate, breathe with me,” he stated and I felt his chest. I breathed in when he breathed out. After a few moments we were in sync and I felt foolish for my overreaction.

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Eddie,” I whispered into his ear. “I’m sorry. I want to, but-,”

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Shhh,” Eddie breathed into my ear and goosebumps flooded my shin. Tingles traveled back down my spine and it was like the panic attack didn’t happen. “We aren’t going to do anything you don’t want to do.”

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I need you to make me,” I tried to explain., and saw his hesitation. I reached down and unbuckled his pants.

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Kate,” he growled in frustration. “You aren’t ready and I can’t force any woman to do that.”

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Please,” I begged as tears filled my eyes.

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I can’t force you.”

Then I sobbed as Eddie held me close.

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Kate, tell me what is going on in your head,” Eddie spoke sweetly as he held me tight.

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I can’t stop freaking out, but I want to. I need to do this. I need to move past this. He can’t win this part of my life.”

I tried to explain, but he didn’t understand. Maybe I needed a victims support group, but I wasn’t raped, at least not in the sense that he penetrated something other than my mouth. I needed to get Eddie to understand that I needed him to do this for me because there was no other man that I trusted enough and felt this way about that would get me over the hump.

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Please, Eddie,” I begged as tears fell from my face. “I need it to be you. I need you to make me so I can have this part of my life back.”

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Kate, I want to, but I can’t force you to. I can do a lot of things, but when you say no or you get upset I stop.”

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Then we will just have to breathe together when it happens,” I whispered as I unzipped his pants. I could still see hesitation in his eyes. I pushed him up and unzipped my own jeans and pushed them down my legs. I then pulled my sweater off and waited there for him to judge my body, but his eyes never left mine.

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You sure you want to do this?” Eddie asked and I nodded.

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Foreplay?” Eddie asked, but I shook my head. I didn’t want to second guess myself. I didn’t want to have time to think.

Eddie pulled a condom from his wallet and I took it and tore it open with my teeth. I then pinched the tip and let it roll down his long hard cock. Holy hell, he was definitely going to be able to hit all the right spots with that.