Chime (22 page)

“How did you find me?”

“Don’t try to sidetrack me,” said Eldric. “What were you doing?”

“But really,” I said. “How?”

“I can always find you,” said Eldric. “Don’t ever think you can hide from me. Now—”

“You have to tell me first,” I said. “Because I’m sick.”

“Oh Lord,” said Eldric, but he laughed. “It was brought forcibly to our attention that you’d left the Parsonage when your father found he had something more to say to you. My manly intuition told me to look in the swamp. You weren’t on the Flats, I found the knife in the Quicks—” He turned away, sat on the end of the bed. Up I went.

“You found me in the Slough?”

A pause; Eldric cleared his throat. “And I’d had the good sense to bring a Bible Ball. What were you thinking? Or not thinking?”

“I wasn’t not thinking anything,” I said. “What did Father want to talk to me about?”

“You’ll have to ask him.”

“He’ll never tell me now,” I said. “It was just the energy of the moment when he thought—well, you know.”

“You are not a comfortable girl to be with,” said Eldric.

“I shall persist in being uncomfortable until you tell me.”

“You’re going to be sorry,” said Eldric.

“I shan’t.”

I could feel Eldric shrug. “It had to do with the
Well, you know
part of it, with his assumption I’d lured you into the swamp to—well, not to put too fine a point on it—to seduce you. And then it occurred to him to wonder whether you actually knew what a seduction involves. The details, I mean.”

I spread my wicked left hand over my face, but surely slices of crimson tide showed between my fingers. “You’re right,” I said.

“That you’re sorry?”

“That I’m sorry.”

“What shall I tell your father?” said Eldric.

“Don’t tell him anything!”

“You teased it out of me,” said Eldric. “You ought to answer. It has your father worried, actually.”

“Tell him I read a lot.” I could almost hear the curling lion’s smile in Eldric’s voice.

“Very well. Now will you answer my question? Tell me what you were doing in the Quicks, with that knife.”

But I couldn’t tell him. “It’s unfair, I know, but—”

“You can’t tell me, of course.” My end of the bed went down. Eldric stood beside me. He pulled my hand from my face.

“I have a request.” Eldric rolled back his shirtsleeve, offered me his forearm. “The next time you need to make a blood offering, please ask me for a contribution.”

I stared at his forearm, bulging with bad-boy veins.

“It’s as red as yours,” he said. “I promise.”

I nodded.

“I know you won’t, though,” said Eldric. “Because despite being Fraters—”

“Frateri,” I said.

“Frateri, you still keep everything to yourself and don’t ask for help. The blood offering, the pumping station—tell me this, at least: Are the two connected?”

A gulp of silence hung between us.

“I have the advantage,” said Eldric, “of being able to wear you down. You have the disadvantage of being wearable and of not being able to leave. I shall keep at it until you tell me.”

I nodded.

“Are you telling me they’re related?”

I nodded.

Eldric knew more about me than anyone since Stepmother.

“I’m here to make a bet with you,” said Eldric.

“What sort of bet?”

“I’m willing to bet that you’ll go to Blackberry Night.”

“Have you been talking to Cecil?” I said.

“Never, if I can help it.”

“He mentioned it too, at your garden party. But the reverend’s daughter can’t go to Blackberry Night.”

“I’m not finished,” said Eldric. “I’m betting you’ll go to Blackberry Night if we can guarantee you one hundred percent—yes, one hundred percent, ladies and gentlemen—that the Reverend Larkin will never find out.”

“That’s an odd sort of bet.” But it wasn’t a bet at all. It was an invitation. He wasn’t inviting Leanne; he was inviting me.

“Pearl and I have been plotting. She’s making you a frock woven of moonbeams, and you shall wear it to Blackberry Night.”

“I really could never do that.”

“Why not?”

Why not? Because Father disapproved? Because he delivered his mighty sermon against Blackberry Night?

Do I want Father to guide me in such matters? Do I want Father to place his fingerprints on my thoughts?

I do not.

I woke up to Rose coughing.

She stood over me, coughing and staring so hard a person couldn’t help but wake up.

“Eldric prefers that I not awaken you,” she said. “He says you need rest. But I prefer to talk to you, so I can make you better. It was quite a difficult decision.”

“I shall get better on my own,” I said.

“It’s not that sort of getting better,” said Rose.

“What sort of getting better is it?”

“That’s a secret,” said Rose.

At least I needn’t fret about Rose’s illness. The Boggy Mun had frozen the progression of her disease until Halloween, at which time she’d either get better, or die.

“I knew it!” She sat on the bed. She almost sat on the Brownie. “I knew you were all one color. Your face matches your nightdress. But Eldric says not to worry. You’ll be pretty again when you recover.”

“Eldric said that?”

Rose nodded.

“Perhaps you should bring me a looking glass,” I said.

“I prefer not,” said Rose. “I have no time to lose.”

“Not yet, mistress,” said the Brownie. “Don’t look yet.”

“I prefer so,” I said. “I have all the time in the world.”

In the end, Rose fetched a looking glass. I studied my face as one might look at a portrait of oneself.

“You’re not listening,” said Rose. “I made a very difficult decision. I want you to be able to see the secret.”

Rose was right about my all-one color, and worse: There were thin vertical lines to either side of my mouth. I knew what a soppy sort of novel might call them: lines of pain. I knew what a non-soppy sort of Briony might call them:

Ugly.

“Where is Eldric?” I said.

“Lessons,” said Rose. “I have a very important question to put to you.”

“Is he with Mr. Thorpe?”

Of course he was, but Rose is not an
of course
sort of person. “Yes.”

“Is he with Leanne?”

“Yes,” said Rose. “Now, you really must attend properly: How does midnight look to you?”

“Late.”

“I don’t mean that,” said Rose. “How does it look to your eyes?”

“Dark,” I said. “But sometimes there’s a moon.”

“How does before midnight look to you?”

“How much before midnight?”

Rose paused. “I think that might be a secret.”

“You have so many secrets, Rose!” I ticked them off on my fingers. “My birthday. That book of yours you wished had burnt. The different sort of getting better, the one that doesn’t have to do with my hand. The secret you want me to see.”

“Yes,” said Rose. “How does before midnight look to you?”

“If it’s five hours before midnight, it might look like twilight, which means the sky’s a very deep sapphire blue and the air is like a Persian cat. If it’s ten minutes before midnight, it looks just the way midnight does.”

“That’s no help at all,” said Rose. “I shall be obliged to consult Eldric.”

My hand hurt more than usual. How horrid it would be if my hand were really missing, and the pain was that long-distance pain I’d learned about in the
London Loudmouth
. My missing hand might never stop hurting because the pain would be all in my mind.

I raised my arm and looked at the monstrosity of bandages. They said my real hand was in there. That’s what they said.

Pearl buttoned me up and attended to the other tasks she believed my left hand incapable of performing. There was to be a tea party that afternoon, but I knew no more than that. A surprise was brewing, in addition to the brewing of tea. The past few days had been full of whisperings, followed by sudden silences whenever I drew near.

Rose came dancing in to fetch me. “We’ve a surprise for you, but I mustn’t tell. That’s what Father said.”

Father needn’t have said anything. Rose has a strict sense of honor, or perhaps it’s a simple inability to break the rules.

She was rosier than usual, and she smiled her real-girl smile. She was Pinocchio at the story’s end.

“Am I to see it now?” I said.

“If you prefer to come.” Rose led me down the corridor, which smelled of sawdust and paint and varnish. I hesitated at Father’s study because there was nothing else down the corridor save the remains of the library. But Rose passed the study. I dragged myself on.

We were mixed up today, Rose and I. Usually, I was the one who sped along on wolfgirl feet. Rose was the one who dawdled and stumbled and complained. But my legs had gone all snively, and now that we were nearing the library, they went all wet-handkerchief-y, which was probably because I’d been ill, but it could also be because I don’t like surprises.

“Hurry up!” said Rose. “You have to go in first.”

But still, I hesitated. The house-fixing smells were in there, as well as the voices and laughter, and among the voices was Leanne’s. Leanne? Some foolish part of me had hoped she and Eldric were no longer friends. After all, Eldric hadn’t gone on the hayride.

Foolish Briony. A regular girl would have known.

“I prefer that you open the door,” said Rose.

My right hand was still encased in plaster. I turned the knob with my scarred left hand. The door opened upon the color of honey. Upon honey-colored wainscoting, gleaming with beeswax. Upon a honey-colored floor with an island of crimson carpet.

“Briony preferred to attend the party!” said Rose.

And more. A piano; Father’s fiddle; Mother’s rocker; window seats tucked beneath diamond mullions; a table, too new to have accumulated the usual rubbish that breeds on horizontal surfaces.

“Are you surprised?” said Rose.

“Very surprised!”

But my memories of the library were stronger than this new reality. The flames; my hand; my screams; the smell of burnt flesh, horribly delicious.

I looked about for something familiar, beyond the acres of honeyed wood and glinting teeth, surrounded by smiles. Eldric stepped forward and with him came Leanne. She’d foamed herself up with pearls and lace.

She looked like a rabid dog.

“I want to give Briony my present first,” said Rose.

“That’s right, Rose,” said Father. “You be first.”

“It’s not against the rules to give you a present.” She handed me a slim packet wrapped in a sheet of the
London Loudmouth
. “That’s because you have no birthday.”

Beneath the sheet of newspaper lay more sheets of paper, but these were precious papers from Rose’s collection. Creamy paper, and linen-y paper, and pebbled and ragged-along-the-edge paper. I looked at them, sheet by sheet.

“Do you like them?” said Rose.

“I like them very much, Rose. They’re beautiful.”

I found myself extending my forefinger and after a pause, Rose did the same. We touched fingertips. I’d all but forgotten this old ritual. It’s a way to hug Rose without actually hugging her. Rose doesn’t much like people to touch her. Father suggested it, I think.

“Now you can write your stories again,” said Rose. “I like the ones where I’m the hero.”

I drifted about the library. It was a crisper, younger version of its old self. There was even a scatter of books on the shelves,
David Copperfield, Jane Eyre
, a collection of Yeats. We used to spend a great deal of time in the library before Stepmother entered our lives.

The tea was already laid out: lovely little sandwiches and blueberry pie—the blueberries were at their peak.

Cecil waved me over from one of the window seats. He’d been lying in wait for me, with two plates of pie. I took the one with more whipped cream, set it on the seat between me and Cecil. How convenient to be unable to hold it. I let my left hand take the fork; no one could expect me to use my right. My hand was like a puppy, delirious at being let out at last.

A train shrilled into the square. The London-Swanton line had been launched while I was ill. How I wished I’d been clever enough to talk the Boggy Mun into curing Rose of the swamp cough, rather than pausing it in its course. Then she and I would be off on one of the trains. Good-bye, Cecil. Good-bye, Leanne. Good-bye, good-bye, good-bye.

But at least I needn’t worry about Rose getting worse. The Boggy Mun had promised that Rose would survive Halloween. She would likely die later if the draining didn’t stop, but for the moment, there was no need to take special care of her. She wouldn’t get better, but she couldn’t get worse.

The library was divided into little fiefdoms: Cecil and I on the window seat; Father, Mr. Clayborne, and Mr. Thorpe at the table; Rose at the piano, plunking out random notes; and Leanne and Eldric leaning against the back wall, far from the fire, despite the chill. I remembered Fitz always teasing me, pointing out that Stepmother never liked to stay too long near a fire. He didn’t care for Stepmother and loved to provoke me into defending her. I always thought he’d change his mind once he became better acquainted with her, but you can’t become better acquainted with a person when you refuse to spend time in her company.

Here came Leanne, marching across our border without so much as showing her papers. Eldric followed, wagging his tail.

“Eldric has a gift for you,” said Leanne. Eldric reached past her, a chain of crystals dangling from his fingers. He’d gone pale and ill, just as he’d been at the garden party. That would teach him to take up lessons without me!

“It’s beautiful,” I said. Eldric had strung the crystal pendants of a broken lamp onto one of Father’s fiddle strings. It was as lovely and mysterious as a snowflake.