Coming Home (4 page)

I have to admit, I will be far more comfortable at Trevor’s house. Though, I would love knowing that I am in the same house as her. Just being able to breathe in her scent whenever I walk past her room. In time I will have that smell on my pillow. I have to or I risk losing my mind. Trevor would say I haven’t had one in years. He could be right. I have never been able to think straight in her presence.

We decide to walk to her house which brings back old memories. I used to walk this daily, sometimes multiple times. It was always so bittersweet. I had to deal with my dad daily but I had the world’s best friends. I could count on them to cheer me up and make everything seem worth it, especially her. I could handle anything my father threw at me with them in my corner.

“When we are alone with her again, I think I should do the talking. I don’t mind you leading when we are intimate but I think we both can agree that I am best at communicating.” Trevor says. I nod my head. There is no denying that. I am the action guy and Trevor is a negotiator. A very talented negotiator. I would be stupid if I didn’t let him do the talking. My father didn’t teach me how to communicate well, unless you consider his fist against my flesh communicating.

“Yeah man, I won’t say a word.” I grip his shoulder for a moment to let him know that I am serious. He gives me a smile and we continue walking. I wonder, not for the first time, if he knows how much his friendship has meant to me over the years? I’m not sure I would be alive today if he hadn’t come into my life. I probably would have starved to death or started stealing to survive. Either way wouldn’t have ended well for me.

We arrive at Grandma’s house and Sammy never makes an appearance. I know she is home because I can feel her but she has locked herself in her room like she did the last time I tried to get her to talk to me. Trevor looks devastated and I am getting pissed. Hiding from your problems is never the solution.

“Give her time. She will come around.” Grandma says though she doesn’t look convinced of her theory.

“No, she has had the last two years.” I stand from the kitchen table where Grandma had prepared a wonderful meal. I still ate as much as I could, though more out of habit than anything else. Trevor barely touched his food. I walk over and kiss Grandma on the cheek.

“This calls for drastic measures. I am going to break into her room and take her to Trevor’s house, so we can talk. You know neither of us will ever hurt her.” I tell her as I stand next to her. She looks up at me and gives me a radiant smile.

“I know dear. I hope things work out well. I want to know that she is taken care of after I am gone.” She looks away sadly and my heart breaks at how vulnerable she sounds. They are the only family either of them have left.

“No matter what, she has us in her life. She can’t push us away.” Trevor says as he stands up and walks over to Grandma. He kisses her cheek as I gather the dishes and start washing them. He joins me and we work side by side.

When the dishes are done, we find Grandma asleep in her chair. I cover her with her throw and kiss her forehead before heading upstairs. I have a hard headed woman to get. I notice that Trevor is following me. I reach her door and pull out the bobby pin I stuck in my pocket earlier. Yes, I have been planning this all evening. I pull it apart before slide it in the hole and push it between the tumblers, until I hear the audible click. I pull it out and quickly tuck it back into my pocket.

I open the door to find Sammy lying on the bed sound asleep with a book open and laying across her chest. I pick up the book and close it before sitting it aside. I notice it is one of those romance books with a half-naked guy on the cover. I smile. She will get her romance and then some. I lift her up into the cradle of my arms and her arms reflexively go around my neck. She nuzzles my chest for a moment before she realizes that she isn’t dreaming.

“What the hell. How did you get in here?” She asks still a little groggily. I throw her over my shoulder and take the stairs two at a time. I open the front door and Trevor shuts it behind us. She beats on my back and yells obscenities at me. I ignore her as I start to jog. I have been trained to run with a lot of weight and hers is slight in comparison. I wish it didn’t have to come to this but the woman is the definition of stubborn.

“I’ll walk you Neanderthal.” She screams and then stills. I stop and look over at Trevor. He shrugs his shoulders as I sit her down.

“If you run, I will chase you and I know I am faster.” I glare down at her until she sighs and her shoulders slump in defeat. I do not like seeing it, though at least I know she won’t be running. I let out a breath and see Trevor do the same. He likes this about as much as I do. It’s a necessary evil.

“Don’t act like you’re going to a funeral. Is talking with us that fucking bad?” Trevor snaps at her. She finally looks up at him and then at me and I see her lip start to quiver. She has never liked upsetting one of us and I see time hasn’t changed that. It gives me hope that I didn’t have before. I take her hand and Trevor takes her other and we walk the rest of the way side by side.

We wait to start talking until we are settled in the living room at Trevor’s.  We sit on the couch like we always used to with us on either side of her. It feels good just knowing that she is here and we are all together again. Now, we just need to see about keeping it that way. I do not want to stop touching her so I take her hand and run my thumb across the soft skin of her knuckles, such a contrast from mine.

“I want to start off by telling you that we are both in love with you. We have loved you since we were children.” Trevor says as he lifts her hand and kisses the back of it.

“I think you already know that, at least part of you does. We never stopped loving you. I couldn’t date other women and neither could Step because you are all we want. We are not willing to lose you or each other. We both want a relationship with you. Do you understand what I am saying to you?” Trevor asks. She takes a deep breath and her cheeks are tinged pink. I always loved how easily she flushed with color.

“Yes, I think you are saying that you want to share me. How would that even work? You have me on Monday, Wednesday and Friday? He has me Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday?” She is very red as she finishes talking and I know that she isn’t liking the idea of that.

“No, I am talking about all of us sharing the same bed and being with you at the same time.” Trevor says and my dick hardens just thinking about it. I can picture myself thrusting between her pretty lips as Trevor takes her pussy. It is nearly enough to make me cum without any touch. Jesus, what will it be like experiencing it.

I notice Trevor shifting around and I know he is having the same problem. Sammy’s breathing is fast and choppy, she is effected by this too. That is better than I expected this early on. She wants us and we can work with that.

“You want me to be like a slut who has sex with multiple guys in one day.” Her eyebrows come together but I also notice that her nipples have hardened to points behind her shirt. She may not want to be turned on by the idea but she is. I smile to myself.

“Don’t get caught up in labels. It’s more like, you will have two men who worship you and are willing to do anything for you. We will give you great pleasure that only two men can give and be faithful for the rest of our lives to you. What more could you wish for?” He says so eloquently. This is why I am keeping my mouth shut.

“Is this what you want?” She says as she looks over at me. Her eyes are large and her eyebrows are clear up in her hairline.

“More than I want my next breath.” I tell her honestly. I can see that she thought I would put up a fight and two years ago, I probably would have.

“Give us a chance. That’s all we ask.” Trevor says pleadingly. She looks down at her hands and I can tell she is thinking about everything we have said. This is going far better than I thought it would.

“Okay.” She says almost too softly to hear. I must have heard her first because I take her mouth before she can take back her words. Not that I would allow her to anyway. I need her too desperately to allow her insecurities to get in the way. I know her and I know that she will second guess herself. Why such a beautiful woman has so many hang ups is beyond me. I just need to reassure her but also not let her push back too far.

Trevor moves in behind her and starts rubbing her shoulders and back as I nibble at her lips a few more times. I turn her head for Trevor to take her mouth and he does with a moan. It was never in my life plan that I would share the woman I love with another man but sometimes you have to swing at the ball that is pitched at you. I have to see this through or always wonder what could have happened. I think the not knowing would kill me the most.

Trevor releases her lips and I take his place as he starts kissing her neck. His hands wrap around her and squeezes her breast. She yelps and jerks away. It feels like she poured a bucket of cold water on us. She jumps up and starts pacing in front of us. I try to get my breathing back to normal. There isn’t any help for my cock. He has a mind of his own and all he wants is to be in her. I shake my head and look over at Trevor. His breathing is still choppy and his cock is tenting the front of his trousers.

“I’m not sure I am ready to go all the way yet.” She blushes beautifully and my dick jerks behind my zipper making me groan and run a hand over my face. I will give her anything she wants though it may kill me.

“I’m sorry. I got out of control.” Trevor says as he gets up and goes over to her, stopping her movements. He wraps his arms around her. I walk over and run my fingers through her satiny hair.

“I think tonight will just be cuddling.” I tell her as I take her hand and lead her up the stairs. It may kill me but if this is what she needs then I will be sure to give it to her. I can do no less. Trevor follows behind us and I know that everything is going to be fine. We just need to control our desires more. It might suck but I can do it. For her.

“Here.” I open the door to the room that I am sleeping in with a large bed dominating the room. I pull back the sheets and blanket and she climbs into the middle. I climb in with her and Trevor goes to the other side and climbs in and we both reach for her. I end up spooning her as she lays her head on Trevor’s chest. He plays with her hair as I rub her back until her breathing changes.

“We need to be careful about how quickly we move with her. I don’t want to scare her.” Trevor says in a whisper.

“I know. My cock is like a fucking brick right now.” I tell him and he starts chuckling until Sammy stirs in her sleep. We both shut up and hold still until she is sleeping peacefully again.

“I can tell she wants us or she wouldn’t be giving us a chance but I think she is scared of the intimacy with two men.” Trevor says, stating the obvious.

“What do you recommend we do?” I ask him. I am the kind that solves problems with my fist and through action. I have never been one that could express my emotions or talk out problems. I know when it isn’t my area of expertise. I know nothing about talking to women or how to be sensitive to their needs. I only dated a little. I usually only made it through dinner before taking them home because they didn’t compare to her. I know I shouldn’t have been comparing, though I couldn’t seem to help myself.

“I think we need to take our cues from her. She will let us know when she is ready.” Trevor says just when I thought maybe he had fallen asleep.

“I can do that.” I tell him. I am good at reading people. Good ole Uncle Sam taught me to be able to gauge people. It has saved my life a time or two. I will be able to tell when she is ready. If I am not too caught up in passion. I will have to show more restraint than I was ever trained to do. I know that I can do that for her, though I hope it isn’t long. She is as timid as a newborn bird.

We fall asleep wrapped around her, neither of us giving her any space. We gave her two years of space, it’s about all we can manage. I have never known comfort like this before. The way she feels in my arms, like she was made to be there and I intend to keep her there.

I wake up in a cocoon of male bodies. The smell of them is so familiar to me that I do not panic. I love the feeling of their warmth and the security of their arms around me. I do not know for the life of me what caused me to panic last night. I know that I want them to be my first. I always wanted them to be, but it felt like everything was moving at a speed that I wasn’t comfortable with. I kicked myself not five minutes later when I could feel their love surrounding me like a warm coat.

I stare at their beautiful faces, soft with sleep. They look so young like this, no worry lines or sadness in their eyes. It is one of the things that made me fall in love with them and one of the things I wanted to change. I want them to only look at me with love and eventually happiness. I have to say, that I loved the look of hunger I saw last night. It made me feel sexy, desirable and wanted. I have never felt that way before and I find it addictive.

I could have easily gotten caught up in the events of last night. They had me so far under their spell that I am surprised I pulled back. I am glad I did though. There is more that needs to be discussed. I need to know that this is forever and not just to see what they missed out on.

I know I can be a skeptical person and I know that in some things I do need to take chances but I am not sure I could survive the heartache if they decide to leave again. Especially if I give them my body. My virginity that I saved all these years because none of the guys who tried to date me after they left were good enough. I want it to be with whom I love and I haven’t felt that since the day I shut these two out of my life.

I regretted that day every day. I wish I could take it back and not let them leave. I have been so lonely without them. Sure I had Grandma, yet it’s not the same. I missed the joking and flirtation that would go on between us. Trevor would always pull on my ponytail and Step would tickle me. I had thought it was all in fun until I was thirteen and I noticed they would touch me longer and the way they looked at me changed. It was the first time I felt desired.

I tried to tell myself that they were just being friendly and that it was me that changed. I had too. My body blossomed and I became acutely aware of them, in ways I didn’t understand. My friend Melany at school talked about her first kiss and I wanted mine to be from them. I started to crave it.

It was almost like they found out about how I was feeling because next thing I know they were ignoring me. It hurt so badly, though I never let on. I was heart-broken. How could they dismiss me so easily? It went on like that for a while until I finally snapped and confronted Trevor. He couldn’t believe that I was so angry at him but next thing I know, they are both back as though they had never been gone. I was so happy, I never questioned why.

I think that will be one of the first questions I ask them now. I am done being timid. I want to be secure if I am to give them what we all are craving. Even now thinking of those cravings has my nipples puckering and my pussy clenching. I know my body is ready. If only my brain was too. My heart just wants them to stay, it doesn’t care how. Silly muscle wants what it has always wanted. Them. Speaking of, they start stirring.

Step rubs himself against me and moans as Trevor opens his eyes. His eyes are truly the most beautiful I have ever seen. I could drown inside the blue depths. My belly quivers with excitement and I have to tamp down my desires, though it is difficult to do.

“Why did you both stopped coming around for a while when I was thirteen?” That’s it go for the jugular. It is time to get some answers so that we can all move forward.

“We had both started desiring you and we made an agreement to stay away from you so that we didn’t fight over you.” He says as he runs his thumb across my lips. I turn my head to see that Step’s eyes are opened now too. He kisses me softly on the lips. A quick swipe of his lips across mine before moving back again so that he can look into my eyes.

“It was my idea then. I knew how I felt and I could see that Trevor felt the same way. I never thought of sharing you. I only wanted to retain our friendship.” He tells me. I narrow my eyes at him.

“Yeah but what about me? You were okay with cutting off your friendship to me.” I glare at Trevor too who looks sheepish for a moment.

“If we had continued the way we were we would have all lost. We would have fought over you. You would have been angry at us for fighting and we would have been angry at each other. We did what we thought was best.” Trevor says. I can tell he honestly believes that was a real possibility. I stop and think about it for a minute. I probably would have been angry with them if they fought over me. I do not think things would have gone well. We were all hopped up on hormones as our bodies changed and it doesn’t induce rational thought.

“You’re probably right.” Both guys let out a breath as if they were holding them in for a while. I hate that I worry them but I need these answers so that we can move forward.

“If I was to ask you to make love to me, how would you do it? Would you take turns or would you both be doing things to me?” I feel my face heat up at the question and I press my face into Trevor’s chest to take the sting out of my cheeks.

“Probably a little of both.” Trevor says in a strangled sounding voice as I feel his lower body begin to stir. It has to be his cock that is hardening against my leg. I rub my leg against it to see what would happen.

“Fuck.” Trevor says and moans as I do it again. It is even more thrilling than I thought it would be. Just knowing the effect I have on him is turning me on. I feel powerful and that helps in making the decision to jump in with both feet. I always wanted them to be my first and now they can be. Both of them.

I push my bottom back against Step and feel his hardness against me. My eyes widen as I feel the pipe he calls a cock tenting his underwear. Holy shit. That thing will never fit. He growls in my ear and pushes up against me. I whimper at the thought of him breaking me in. Trevor of course notices my distress.

“If you’re not ready. Just tell us and we will stop.” He says and I take his head between my hands.

“I want you, both of you but I am scared of how big Step feels against me.” I feel the flush not only cover my cheeks now but down my neck and across my chest. Stefan groans and leans his head into my neck. I can feel the warmth of his lips and I want them on me. Only…..

“Oh baby, you stretch. If you are worried, we will make sure you are well prepared for us. We will have you so wet and open for us that you won’t feel as much pain. I won’t lie though, it will hurt this first time or so I have heard. It will be all of our first times.” Trevor says and I gasp. I look at Trevor to see if he is lying to me. He nods his head and I look back at Step. He smiles at me and kisses my lips.

“Neither of us could bring ourselves to be with someone else. All we ever wanted is you.” For the quiet one he sure can say the most profoundly wonderful things. I melt into his arms and thrust my tongue between his lips to let him know how much his words mean to me. I know that I will never forget this day and now I know that neither of them will either. It makes this all the more sweet. I am glad I waited for them to come back to me.

Step pulls away and I whimper at the loss until I feel my shirt pulled over my head. He turns my head so that Trevor can have a taste of me. They kiss so differently yet both are equally arousing. Trevor kisses me as though he is making love to my mouth and Step kisses me as though he is taking me. He ravishes my mouth in his dominating way that gets to me in a whole different way. The two of them together are a perfect combination.

“You’re are so fucking beautiful.” Step growls as he takes my nipple into his mouth. He mumbles to himself between suctioning each nipple between his lips. I moan against Trevor’s lips as the sensation of each pull goes straight to my clit, engorging it, making it throb in time with my heart. I roll my hips to seek relief and Step chuckles against my chest.

“Don’t worry baby. I am heading there next.” He pushes his thumb against my drenched panties and I groan as he finds my button. I soak my panties more. This is what I need. Them both worshiping my body.