Authors: James Sallis
HAD A WONDERFUL BARBEQUE dinner that night, Tracy Caulding and I, at Sonny Boy's #2 out on Lamar: indoor picnic benches, sweaty
plastic pitchers of iced tea, roll of paper towels at each table. There was no Sonny Boy's #1, Tracy told me—not that, after
a bite or two, anyone was likely to care. Amazing, blazing pork, creamy cool cole slaw, butterbeans and pinto beans baked
together, biscuits. "Biscuits fresh ever hour," according to a hand-lettered sign.
For all its cultural razing, Memphis remains one of the great barbeque towns.
Tracy lowered a stand of ribs she'd sucked dry onto her plate and, tearing off a panel of paper towel, wiped her mouth as
lustily as she'd taken to the barbeque. She picked up another segment of ribs, held it poised for launch, told me: "Stan Dimitri
and I had coffee together this afternoon. From organized crime? He filled me in on the Aleche network."
"That what they're calling them now? Networks? To us they were just gangs."
"Then for a while it went to crews. Now it's networks. This one's responsible for much of the money that gets dry-cleaned
through Semper Fi Investments. Run by, if you can believe it, a Native American who passes himself off as some sort of Mediterranean.
Born Jimmy McCallum, been going by Jorge Aleche for years now."
"He the one with the nephew?"
"Stan thinks so."
"Stan thinks—that's the best you have?"
Shrugging. "What can I say?"
"Well . . . What
I
think is, it's time for a massive rattling of the cage."
The second portion of ribs dropped onto her plate. A third or fourth paper towel wiped away sins of the immediate past. Older
sins took a bit longer.
"And here Sam thinks you're out of touch." She held up her beer, tipping its neck towards me. "I know who you are, Turner."
"I'd be surprised if you didn't. However big the city, the job's always a small town."
"I started hearing stories about you the day I first hit the streets."
"And I remember the first time I looked in a car's rearview mirror and saw the legend 'Objects May Be Closer Than They Appear.'"
"What the fuck's
that
mean?"
"That you can't trust stories."
"Yeah, but how many of us ever get to have stories told about us?" She drained her beer. "You notice how these bottles keep
getting smaller?"
From the breast pocket of her blazer she took a narrow reporter's notebook. Found a free page, scribbled addresses and phone
numbers, tore the page off and passed it me.
"Consider it part of your orientation package."
"You memorized all this?"
"Some people have trick joints, like their thumbs bend back to their forearms? I have a trick memory. I hear something, see
something, I've got it forever."
"Buy you another beer before the bottles get too small? Alcohol kills brain cells, you know—could help wean you off that memory
thing."
"Worth a try."
I got the waiter's attention, ordered another beer for Tracy, bourbon straight up for myself. He brought them and began clearing
plates.
"Speaking of stories, I remember one I read years ago," Tracy said. "I was into science fiction then, and new to reading.
Every book I opened was a marvel. One of the older writers—Kuttner, Kornbluth, those guys. People lived almost forever. But
every hundred years or so they had to come back to this center where they'd plunge into this pool and swim across it. To rejuvenate
them, I'm sure the story pointed out. Symbol of rebirth. But what
I
got from it was how the water of that miraculous pool would take away their memories, wipe them clean, let them go on."
I took a fond, measured sip of my bourbon. There was a time in my life when measured sips hadn't been called for. That whole
measurement thing creeps up on us. Start off counting hairs in the bathtub drain, before we know it we're telling people we're
only allowed a cup and a half of coffee a day, reading labels for saturated-fat content, trying to portion out our losses,
like a double-entry accountant, to history and failing memory.
"I'm not sure I know how to respond," I told Tracy.
"Yeah. Me either. Exactly what I mean. Four hundred killed when the roof of a substandard apartment building collapses in
Pakistan. A fifteen-year-old goes into his high school with an assault weapon and kills three teachers, the principal, twelve
fellow students. Half the citizens of some country you never heard of go after the other half, kill or butcher them and bulldoze
them into mass graves. There's a proper response to something like that? You get to wishing you could go for a swim, wipe
it all away. But you can't."
We tossed off the remainder of our drinks in silence and called it a night. Enough of the world's eternal problems and our
own.
"Check in tomorrow?" Tracy said.
"First thing."
"Where are you staying?"
Since I was here on my own dime, I'd taken the cheapest room I could find, at Nu-Way Motel on the city's outer rings. Each
unit was painted a different pastel shade, mine what I could only think of as Pepto-Bismol pink. A stack of fifties magazines
inside would not have surprised.
Walking Tracy Caulding to her blue Honda Civic, I gave her my location, room and phone number. "No need to write them down
for you's my guess," I said, getting another glimpse of the smile that had lit up Sam's office back at the station. From habit
I looked in to clear the car, saw a ziggurat of textbooks on the back seat.
"What's this? Not a dedicated law officer?"
She held up her hands, palm out, in mock surrender. "Got me dead to rights."
"Graduate school, from the look of it."
"I confess. M.A. in social work, six credits to go."
She leaned back against the rear door, tugging at the silver-cuffed ear.
"Cop was the last thing I thought I'd be. From the time I was eleven, twelve years old, I was going to be a teacher. Nose
forever in a book and all that. But I grew up in a trailer park, no way my parents could afford even local colleges. I had
grand ambitions, though, applied all over the mid-South, even places like Tulane and Duke. Memphis State came through with
a full scholarship. I had a job teaching sixth grade promised before I'd even graduated. Five weeks in, I walked away from
it."
She put her hand on my arm.
"Everything I'd taken for granted all those years was gone. I had no idea who I was, what I could do, and I had to work. Of
a Sunday morning I was reading want ads when one at the very corner of the page caught my eye. Police badge to the left. Have
a degree? it said. Want to make a difference?—or something equally lame. Another of the department's periodic thrusts to improve
its image. Wanted people with degrees, offered an accelerated training program for those who qualified. So here I am. Telling
you way more than you wanted to know. Sorry."
"Don't be."
She was in the car now, looking out.
"We should talk about counseling and social work sometime," I said.
"Did a bit of it yourself, from what I hear."
"More like I muddied the water."
"So we should. Just don't tell me I'm wrong, okay?" Hauling her seat belt across. "See you tomorrow, Turner." Face in the
rearview mirror as she drove away. Objects may be closer than they appear.
Back at the motel I punched my way through a thicket of numbers, 9 for an outside line, 1 for long distance, area code, credit-card
number, personal code. Quite the modern lawman.
"Sheriffs office."
"Who's speaking?"
"Rob Olson."
"Trooper?"
"You bet. Who's this?"
"Turner, up in Memphis."
"The deputy, right?"
"Right. Don't guess Lonnie'd be around this late, would he?" "He's always around. Though it might be best if you didn't tell
him I said that." Miles and miles away, coffee got slurped. "Be here right this minute save he's out to an accident. Told
him I'd go but he wouldn't hear of it. You hold a minute, Turner? Got someone on the other line."
Then he was back.
"That's Bates on line two. He's at the hospital with an accident victim, wants to speak with you. Hold on, I'll try to transfer
you."
Some time went by.
"Turner. You there? I can't get this damn thing to work. And I think I just hung up on the sheriff. He's still over to the
hospital. You wanta call him there?"
He gave me the number, and I did.
"Those boys at the barracks are the best you'll see at paperwork," Lonnie said when I told him what happened. "Other things
. . ."
Someone was there by him, complaining. I'd probably called in to the ER nurse's station, which might be the only line functioning
this time of night. The local hospital wasn't a hell of a lot larger or more complicated than our office.
"Official police work," he said. "Chill, Gladys." Then to me: "So you're still in Memphis. Any action?"
I filled him in on my visit. Connecting with Sam Hamill, meeting Tracy. Think I may have found out where to go to get what
I'm looking for, I told him.
"That's good. Quick."
"I followed your advice."
"Hamill put you and Tracy together knowing she'd give up the contact, he wouldn't have to." As always, Lonnie was a move ahead.
"Way I saw it, too."
"So why the fancy footwork?"
"Maybe they figure I can take care of a problem they haven't been able to."
Lonnie was silent for a moment.
"In which case, since Hamill laid out the official face of the thing for you, even assigned an officer, the MPD can in no
way be held responsible. Either you handle it and you're home before anyone knows better—"
"Or I get, as our British friends say, nicked for the deed, in which case Sam and the MPD disclaim to their heart's content."
"Clean."
"More than one way to get the job done."
"Always. Damn! Now the goddamned beeper's going off. Hang on."
I heard voices behind, just out of range of intelligibility.
"Shirley checking in," Lonnie said moments later.
"You've got a beeper now."
"Simon has a band concert tomorrow, some kind of solo. Wife wanted to be sure I would make it, gave me hers." Simon in buzz-cut
and baggies was the older of two sons. The younger, Billy, despite the flag of multiple piercings, had no direction any of
us could discern but was a sweetheart, maybe the closest thing to an innocent human being I've known.
"How's June?"
"Cleared by her doctors and home with us. Mostly herself, but sometimes it's like she's not really there, she's gone off someplace
else."
"Not surprising, with what she's just been through."
"I hope."
"Give it time. Don Lee?"
"Stable, they keep telling me—though he hasn't come round yet. Wait and see, they say, we just have to wait and see."
Gladys was back, loudly demanding return of the phone he'd taken hostage. Lonnie ignored her.
"Trooper said you wanted to talk to me. What's up?"
"May be nothing to it, but the accident I answered the call to?"
"Yes?"
"It got called in as a collision, but what happened was, Madge Gunderson passed out at the wheel and ran into a tree."
"Madge okay?" Madge had been a not-so-secret drinker most of her life. Her husband Karel died last year, and since then, maybe
from grief, maybe from the fact that she didn't have to hide it anymore, the drinking had kind of got out of control.
"She will be. Just some gashes and the like. Looked worse than it is. This happened out on State Road 419. Woman driving behind
her saw the whole thing, called it in on a cell phone."
"Okay."
"Woman's from up Seattle way, just passing through. I thanked her, naturally, took her statement. Then she says, 'You're the
sheriff?' and when I say, 'Right now I am,' she asks does a man named Turner work with me."
"Say what she wanted?"
"Not a word. Sat there smiling at her and waiting, all she did was smile back."
"What's she look like?"
"Late twenties, early thirties, light brown hair cut short, five-eight, one-thirty. Easy on the eye, as my old man would of
said. Jeans and sweatshirt, kind with a hood, ankle-high black Reeboks."
"Name?"
"J.T. Burke. That's Burke with an
e,
and just the initials."
No one I knew. Maybe a patient from my days as a counselor, was my first thought. Though it was doubtful any patient could
have traced me here, or would have reason to.
"Don't suppose she said where she was headed."
"Gave me that same smile when I asked."
"That it, then?"
"Pretty much."
"So give Gladys back her phone already."
In exchange I gave him the name and location of my motel and my phone number, told him to call if he had any updates on Don
Lee or happened to hear again from Ms. Burke.
COULDN'T SLEEP.
Out on the streets at 2 a.m. looking for an open restaurant. Back to city habits that quickly. Had my book, just needed light,
coffee, maybe a sandwich. Do the Edward Hopper thing.
Dino's Diner, half a mile in towards the city proper. "Open 24 hours" painted on the glass in foot-high blue letters. Also
"Daily Specials" and "Hearty Breakfasts." These in yellow.
"Getchu?" the waitress, Jaynie, said, handing over a muchsplattered menu. "T'drink?"
Coffee. Definitely.
And received a reasonable facsimile of same, though it took some time. Peak hour, after all. Had to be three or four other
patrons at least.
"Two scrambled, bacon, grits, biscuit," I told Jaynie when my coffee came.
Eggs were rubber—no surprise there—bacon greasy and underdone, biscuit from a can. Here I am in the Deep South and I get a
canned biscuit? On the other hand, the grits were amazing.
The book also disappointed. Three refills and I was done with it, wide margins, large type, pages read almost as quickly as
I turned them. Novels tend to be short these days. Probably most of them should be even shorter. This one was about a doctor,
child of the sixties and long a peace activist, who goes after the men who raped and killed his wife and disposes of them
one by one. Title:
Elective Surgery.
I took out my wallet, unfolded the notebook page Tracy Caulding had given me. Three addresses, none of which meant much to
me. A lot of Lanes and Places, bird names the rage. Meadowlark Drive, Oriole Circle, like that. But just then a cab pulled
up out front and the driver came in. Jaynie slapped a cup of coffee down before him without being asked. He was two stools
away. One of those in-betweens you find all over the South, darkish skin, could be of Italian descent, Mediterranean, Caribbean,
Creole. Fine features, a broad nose, gold eyes—like a cat's. Wearing pleated khakis with enough starch to have held on to
their crease though now well crumpled about the crotch, navy blue polo shirt, corduroy sport coat.
I caught his eye, asked "How's it going?"
"Been better. Been worse, too."
"And will be again."
"Believe it."
He pulled out a pack of Winstons, shook one loose and got it going. Then as an afterthought glanced my way, took the pack
out again and offered me one. When I declined, he put the cigarettes back, held out his hand. We shook.
"Danel. Like Daniel without the i."
"Turner. . . . Any chance you could help me with these?"
I slid the paper across. After a moment he looked up.
"From out of town, are you."
I pled guilty.
"But you have business here." He tapped at the paper.
Yes.
"Well, sir, this here ain't part of Memphis at all, it's another country. Birdland, some of us call it. Bunch of whitebread
castles's what it is. Some Johnny-come-lately builds him a house, next Johnny comes along and has to outdo him, build a bigger
one. Kind of business that gets transacted out there, most people'd do best to stay away from. I'm guessing you're not most
people."
"Can you give me directions?"
"Yeah, sure, I could do that. Or—" He threw back his coffee. "What the hell, it's a slow night, I'll run you out there."
We struck a deal, I picked up the Chariot as he sat idling in the Nu-Way Motel parking lot, then pulled in behind and followed
him to city's edge. Here be dragons. We'd been cruising for close to thirty minutes, I figured, six or seven classics on whatever
station I'd found by stabbing the Seek button—Buffalo Springfield ("There's some-thing hap-pen-ing here . . ."), Bob Seger's
"Night Moves"—when Danel pulled his Checker cab onto the shoulder, a wide spot intended for rest stops, repairs, tire changes.
I came alongside and we wound down windows.
"Here's where I bail," he said. "Place you're looking for's just around that bend. Don't be lookin' for the welcome mat to
be out. Ain't the kind to be expecting company up in there."
I hoped not.
"Good luck, man."
"Thanks for your help." I'd paid him back at the diner. He had a good night.
"You're welcome. Prob'ly ain't done you no favor, though."
I pulled back onto the road, along the curve, cut the engine to coast into a driveway inhabited by a black BMW and a gussied-up
red Ford pickup, chrome pipes, calligraphic squiggle running from front fender to rear wheel well, driver's-side spotlight.
Backed out then and parked the Jeep a quarter-mile up the road, at another of those pull-offs.
The house was a castle, all right—like something imagined by Dr. Seuss. Classic middle-American tacky. Once in El Paso I'd
seen a huge bedroom unit that looked to be marble but, when you touched it, turned out to be thin plastic. It was like that.
In the front room just off the entryway (as I peered through what I could only think of as eight-foot-tall wing windows) a
large-screen TV was on, but there was no evidence of anyone in attendance. Action appeared to be centered in the kitchen—I'd
come around to the back by then—where a card game and considerable beer consumption were taking place. Many longnecks had
given their all. Bottles of bourbon and Scotch. One guy in a designer suit, two others in department-store distant cousins.
Newly awakened from its slumber in Glad bag and hand towel, the .38 Police Special felt strangely familiar to my hand.
One of the cheap-suit players was raking in chips as I came through the door. Undistracted, his counterpart pushed to his
feet, gun halfway out as I shot. He fell back into his chair, which went over, as though its rear legs were a hinge, onto
the floor. I'd tried for a shoulder, but it had been a while, and I hit further in on his chest. There was more blood than
I'd have liked, too, but he'd be okay.
Thinking it over for a half-minute or so, the second cheap suit held up both hands, removed his Glock with finger and thumb
and laid it on the table, just another poker chip.
Dean Atkison in his designer suit looked at his flunky with histrionic disgust and took a pull off his drink.
"Who the hell are you?" he said.
I was supposed to be watching
him
at that point, of course—cheap suit's cue. He almost had the Glock in hand when I shot. His arm jerked, knocking the Glock
to the floor, then went limp. He stood looking down at the arm that would no longer do what he willed it to do. His fingers
kept on scrabbling, the way cat paws will when the cat's asleep and dreaming of prey.
It was all coming back.
Atkison's eyes went from his fallen soldiers to me.
"Be okay if I call for help for my boys here?"
"Go ahead."
I stood by as he punched 911 into a cell phone, asked for paramedics, gave his address, and threatened the dispatcher. Thing
about cell phones is you can't slam the receiver down.
"Think we might attend to business now?"
"We don't have any business."
I whacked his knee with the gun, feeling skin tear and hearing something crunch. Blood welled through the expensive fabric.
None of that should have happened.
"I live in a small town far away from here," I said. "Not far enough, apparently. A few days ago you brought your garbage
to it."
He'd grabbed a hand towel off the table, was wrapping it around his knee.
"Paid some goddamn arrogant surgeon nine thousand to have that thing fixed, not six weeks ago. Now look at it."
"A man named Judd Kurtz came through. He didn't get through fast enough and wound up in jail. Then a couple of others came
in his wake. None of them stayed."
"And I should care what happened in Bumfuck?"
I walked to him, helped wrap the towel.
"I need to know who Judd Kurtz is. I need to know if he's alive. And I need to know who the goons were who thought they could
come into my town and tear it up."
"That's a lot of need."
Pulling hard at the ends of the towel, I knotted them.
"I was in a state prison for seven years," I told him. "I managed okay in there. There's not much I won't do."
He looked down at his shattered knee. Blood seeped steadily into the towel.
"Looks like a fucking Kotex," he said. "I'm a mess." He shook his head. "I'm a mess—right?"
"It could be worse."
He pulled a napkin towards him. Started to reach under his coat and stopped himself. "I'm just getting a pen, okay?"
I nodded, and he took a bright yellow Mont Blanc out of his coat pocket, wrote, passed the napkin across. Classic penmanship,
the kind you don't see anymore, all beautifully formed loops and curls—confounded by the absorbent napkin that blurred and
feathered each fine, practiced stroke.
"My life's not all that much, mind you," he said, "but I'd like to know it doesn't end here."
I shook my head. Sirens of fire truck and ambulance were close by now.
Nodding towards the napkin, Atkison said, "You'll find what you need there."
What I needed right then was to go out the back door, and I did.
When first I held it, the gun had felt so familiar. The body has a memory all its own. I started the car, pulled the seat
belt across and clicked it home. Slipped into gear. The body remembers where we've been even as the mind turns away. I eased
off the clutch and pulled out, hot wires burning again within me, incandescent. Blinding.