Desired Affliction (3 page)

“That girl is scary she just fucking went off on me. She
used to be so sweet and fun. What the hell happened to her?” Megan whipped
around to see Kole with his arm draped across the shoulders of some nasty blond
bimbo. “Shut the fuck up Kole…you don’t know anything about her. She is a great
person don’t judge her when you got some two dollar whore hooked to your arm.”

Megan walked past him and he grabbed her elbow. He
released his hold on the girl, “Hope go wait in the kitchen.” Kole turned back
to face Megan as the girl stalked off whipping her arm in frustration.

He took his hand from her elbow, “Sorry I didn’t mean to
be a dick…it’s just that Lexi went off on me…she was so on guard but all I was
trying to do was check on her. When she was younger she was so free and
just…different.” Megan tried to refrain from being so ready to attack when it
came to Lexi, “Listen Kole you’re right…she is different but there are things
that you don’t know. There are things that no one knows, just don’t be so quick
to judge her.” She took a deep breath, “You can thank your jackass cousin for
who she is today.” Megan walked for the door as both Kole and Radley followed
her closely, “Meg Babe don’t leave…come on.” Radley begged but she knew she
needed to go back to the dorm. Lexi hadn’t said anything about the
confrontation with Kole which could only mean one thing she wasn’t okay when
she said she was. “Radley I’m going to go home I have an early morning and I just
think I need to call it a night.

“Megan, wait before you go what did you mean about my
cousin?” Kole asked as he wrinkled up his forehead. After Megan had said it she
knew she would regret it, “I never should have said anything…just forget it.”
She rushed off to her car and got in quickly pulling away.

“Hey there Lexi Lou…I am home for some Edward vs. Jacob,”
Megan announced as she walked through the door. She flopped down on the bed and
looked around the empty room immediately grabbing for her phone. After the
fourth ring it went to voicemail…

‘Lexi Nicole Warren I came home to watch Twilight with
you and I am sitting in an empty room…where the hell are you? You better call
me or get your ass home…Now!’

It was 12:48 am when the dorm room creped open and Lexi
walked in, actually it was more like she tumbled in. “What the hell Lex…Where
have you been?” Megan jumped up and grabbed her helping her to the bed, “Holy
fucking hell…Did you take a shower in a bottle of whiskey. Where have you
been?” Lexi fell back onto her bed and rolled over mumbling something that made
no sense before passing out.

(Lexi)

“Oh my god my freaking head is killing me!” I could not
believe my head it felt like it was cracking in half and my stomach was so
queasy. I slowly sat up and looked at the clock, “FUCK!” I scrambled searching
for clothes and my bag. I had class in twenty minutes. I quickly brushed my
teeth and brushed my hair into a ponytail. I was bouncing down the hallway
trying to get my other sandal on as I continued to hobble toward the elevator.

I made it to class with not even two seconds to spare
just when the professor came in I flopped down into my seat letting out a huff.
What the hell happened last night? I remember walking into that club down town
and that guy…shit what the hell did he say his name was? Todd, Toby…Trey, yeah
that was it. I should not have let him get me drunk. I had never been so happy
to see Radley before.

He rescued me from waking up in a random stranger’s bed.
He was so friendly and helped me into his car. I remember talking and him
telling me not to tell Megan because he wasn’t supposed to be in the bars
without her. I promised him and then I started rambling. What did I say? He
helped me upstairs and once we reached my room he used my key to unlock the
door going home once I was inside.

I barely made it through class without puking. I needed
to get some water…I was so hung over. Why I kept doing this to myself was the
million dollar question. I really needed to find a new coping mechanism instead
of binge drinking.

 When the professor assigned our first essay and
then excused himself I grabbed my bag and walked out. I heard my name from
behind me as I walked outside, “Hey Lexi, where did you run off to last night?
I came back from the bathroom and you were gone.” No freaking way Trey…of
course this is my luck, “Hi…um yeah my friend showed up and needed me sorry
about not saying bye.” He followed me a few more steps before he put his hand
onto my lower back causing me to flinch. “Please, don’t…” I spun around to face
him and took a step back. He was giving me the look…the ‘I wanna hook-up
look’…“I was just wondering if maybe you wanted to hangout sometime. I had fun
last night…you are a riot.” I smiled very lightly, “I have to say that is a new
one. People don’t usually refer to me as a riot. I am not that friendly.” He
stepped in a little closer running his tongue over his lip, “I don’t know about
that you were pretty friendly last night.” He was now in my space and I was two
seconds from either kicking him in the balls or punching him in the cocky ass
smirk he held on his lips.

“Hey Lex, there you are…I’ve been waiting for you. What’s
taking so long?” Kole wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I was too shocked
to react. “Thanks for keeping my girl safe for me bud,” He pulled me along as
he leaned over whispering, “Don’t punch me…you just looked like you needed
rescued.” After we got out of the view of Trey he released his hold on me and
stopped. “The guy looked like he wanted to clobber you over the head and drag
you off by your hair. I just thought maybe I would offer my help…hope you
weren’t into him.” I just rolled my eyes at him, “Thanks.”

He put his hand on his chest and stumbled back appearing
to feel faint, “Oh my god did you just…thank me? I may have to ask you to
repeat that. Just once more please.” I shoved him back a little more, “Ha-ha
real funny smartass.”

I looked over his shoulder as two girls stopped about ten
feet back from us. They were staring in our direction. The blond girl with
entirely too much eye makeup crossed her arms onto her chest and glared at me.
“Kole I think you’re pissing your girlfriend off,” he turned around to see who
I was referring to. When he turned back to me he put his hands into his front pockets,
“Hope is not my girlfriend…I don’t have a girlfriend,” he smirked. “Well
whatever she is she’s glaring at me…I think you should go take care of her or I
could just go Bitch Slap the look off her face myself.” He smiled and I turned
to leave, “Thanks again…yeah smartass I said it again.”

When I walked about twenty feet I turned to look back
just casually. I was trying not to be too obvious but when my eyes connected
with his he smiled and I had to turn quickly forward before he saw me returning
the smile. What the hell I don’t do the whole butterflies in my stomach and
happy chills down my back from guys smiling at me. Damn you Kole…pull it
together Lex.

When I got back to the room I had to suffer the speech
from Megan about getting drunk and forgetting how I got home or who I was with.
I promised I wouldn’t tell her about Radley so I had to feed into my slut
image. “I am sorry Meg…I promise I never slept with anyone I met some guy who
bought me a ton of drinks but another guy…a perfect gentleman I might add
brought me home.” I hated lying to her, “I will stop running off to
bars…promise.”

“Lexi I worry about you. You are too good of a person and
I know you are going to argue that with me but it is true. That god damn sick
son of a bitch took something from you and he is off living his life while you
suffer every day. You should be dating and falling in love while you cuddle and
snuggle with some really great guy. Instead you can’t even take the elevator on
some days for the fear of being alone with some guy inside of it. I just wish I
could find Matt and expose him for the rapist he is…I’m so sorry. I know you
hate when I say that word.” She was right the word Rapist made me feel dirty.

“Okay enough I am going to take a shower and we are going
to order a pizza. Then once the pizza gets here we are starting our
marathon…deal?” She agreed with me and I snuck off to the shower with my bag.

(Kole)

The fact that Lexi was still constantly floating around
in my head was starting to make me question my sanity. It is not normal to see
a chic every time you close your eyes. Okay so she was gorgeous and sexy…she
had the perfect tight little body and tits that would fit perfectly into my
palms. Oh yeah and that ass…I just wanted to hold onto it and squeeze.

It was more than that though she really puzzled me. She
was this hard shell on the outside. She tried so hard to push people away but
when she smiles and it cracks just a little…I can see the old Lexi. The girl
that had those dreamy eyes and beautiful smile was still there but for some
reason she was doing everything she could to hide her away. I just wish I knew
why.

It was weird that I even wanted to know why I mean why
did I care. I heard a light knock on my door. It creped open and Hope stood
there in the entry. “Hey sexy, I was hoping I could spend some time alone with
you. What do you say…feel like getting lucky?” I knew I had to slow this
down…she was getting attached and the fact that she is getting jealous when I
talk to other girls was too much. I stood up and walked to the door, “Hope…you
are not my girlfriend. You know that I am not that guy…it was sex that’s it and
now…it isn’t anything.” I slowly closed the door as she stepped back.

(Lexi)

The rest of the week went on snag free. I kept my promise
and I never went to the bar even Thursday night when Megan stayed over at
Radley’s and I was alone the entire night.  There was a party at the frat
house just like any other Friday and Saturday night…I chose to skip it. My last
attempt almost got me in bed with the ‘Infamous Zack’…I cringed at the thought.

Sunday I made a run to the nearest store to pick up
shampoo and some other items we needed. I was walking up the stairs when Radley
was walking down, “Hey you…is Meg upstairs?” He looked at me different damn it
I didn’t want it to be weird between us I promised I wouldn’t tell Megan. He
stepped past me and down two more steps…he quickly spun around and looked at
me. He was squeezing one hand around the other nervously, “Listen Lex…something
has been bothering me since that night I gave you a ride home.” He paused
looking around and then back to me when he saw no one else was around. “You
said something and you were drunk I know but…you were serious. You cried and
said…” He stopped and took a breath I felt clammy and suddenly nauseous. “You
said that um…you apologized for being a mess and then you said that getting
raped crushed the old Lexi and now you were just a waste of space.” The tears
swelled in my eyes and I tried with everything I could to hold them back but it
was pointless because they ran down my cheeks. That damn word again, “Rad…it
was,” he cut me off. “Lexi you don’t have to explain okay you don’t have too.
You don’t owe me anything. Just know that you are not a mess…your scared there
is a huge difference. Don’t let that sick fuck mold the rest of your life. I
told Meg that I was the one that brought you home, she’s not mad actually she
was thankful. I can’t lie to her and I never should have asked you to. I also
told her what you said to me and she said that I would need to talk to you
because it should be explained by you if you wanted to.”

Radley reached out his hand and placed it onto mine as I
squeezed the railing tightly. I never flinched away…I trusted Rad completely he
was one of the good guys without a doubt. I just normally didn’t give many
people the chance to prove that to me. “I won’t say anything to anyone…but if
you ever need me to beat the fuck out of the little coward…you just point me in
the right direction doll, no questions it would be my pleasure. “ He released
my hand and after a quick smile he left me standing there on the stairs.

I made my way up the remaining stairs and to my room. I
dropped the bags onto the floor next to my desk and looked at Megan. She could
tell by my face that I had ran into Radley, “He won’t say anything Lex…I know
he won’t.”

We ended up going for a walk and going to a little ice
cream shop on the corner near campus. I told her about my encounter with Kole
earlier in the week but to my surprise she already knew because he had been
talking about me. He had even told her that ‘Hope’ was jealous and how I
threatened to bitch slap her. Megan said that he laughed when he told her that
part because he knew I would have done it. He called me a little ‘Spitfire’.

(Kole)

There was a party tonight at some off campus house. Hope
had been hanging around the house still flirting with the guys trying her best
to get under my skin but it wasn’t working. Lately I was finding myself taking
a lot of cold showers and I was on a jerking spree thinking of Lexi. I was
planning my move all out looking for the right time.

“Hey Rad…wait up,” I jogged up behind him as he was
heading into the front door. He stopped and faced me. He appeared distant, “Hey
Kole what’s up man.” Maybe he got into with Megan and I started second guessing
my thoughts but went for it anyway. “I was wondering if maybe you could
um…maybe put in a good word for me with Lexi. She is hard to break,” I smiled
over at him.

He turned and was now directly in front of me, “Kole no
man…just do me a favor and leave her alone. Seriously she doesn’t need to be
hurt...Just not her…please.” He didn’t even give me a chance to respond before
he went inside and left me standing on the porch to try and figure it out.