Read Desperately Seeking Dad Online
Authors: Marta Perry
Mitch stared at the woman for a long moment, anger simmering behind the impassive mask he kept
in place by sheer force of will. What game was this woman playing? Was this some kind of setup?
“What do you want?”
The abrupt question seemed to throw her. She cradled the baby against her body as if she needed to protect it.
From him. The realization pierced his anger. Protecting was his job, had been since the moment he put on a shield. Assist, protect, defendâthe military police code. Nobody needed protecting from him, not unless they'd broken the law.
“You admit it, then? That you're Emilie's father?”
He leaned toward her, resisting the urge to charge around the desk. It was better, much better, to keep the barricade between them.
“I'm not admitting a thing. I want to know what brought you here. Or who.”
Something that might have been hope died in her deep-blue eyes. “I told you. The baby's mother said you were the father.”
“You also told me she's dead. That makes it pretty convenient to come here with this trumped-up claim.”
“Trumped up?” Anger crackled around her. “I certainly didn't make this up. Why would I?”
“You tell me.” It was astonishing that his voice was so calm, given the way his mind darted this way and that, trying to make sense of this.
One thing he was sure ofâthe baby wasn't his. His jaw tightened until it felt about to break. He'd decided a long time ago he wasn't cut out for fatherhood, and he didn't take chances.
“That's ridiculous.” Even her hair seemed to spark with anger, as if touching it might shock him. “I came here because I know you're Emilie's father.”
His life practically flashed before his eyes as she repeated those words. Everything he'd worked for, the respect he'd enjoyed in the two years since his returnâall of it would vanish when her accusation exploded. If the story got out, it wouldn't matter that it wasn't true. By the time it had spread up one side of Main Street and down the other, all the denials in the world wouldn't make it go away.
Those Donovans have always been trouble,
that's what people would say.
The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.
“You're wrong,” he said flatly. “I don't know who that child's parents are, but you're not going to get anything out of claiming I'm her father except to cause me a lot of grief.”
The idea startled herâhe could see it in her eyes. “I didn't come here to create a scandal.” She stroked the baby's back, her mouth suddenly vulnerable as she looked at the child.
“Good.” He almost believed she meant it, and the thought cut through his anger to some rational part of his mind. He had to start thinking, not re
acting. He went around the desk and leaned against it, trying for an ease he didn't feel. “Then why did you come?”
She thought he was capitulating, he could tell. A smile lit her face that almost took his breath away. A man would do a lot for a smile like that.
“All I want is your signature on a parental rights termination so the adoption can go through. Once I have that, Emilie and I will walk out of your life for good.”
“That's all?”
She nodded. “You'll never see us again.”
“And if I don't sign?”
Her arms tightened around the baby. “I've taken care of Emilie since the day she was born. Her mother wanted me to adopt her. Why would you want to stand in the way?”
They were right where they'd started, and she wouldn't like his answer.
“I don't.” He leaned forward, bridged the gap between them and touched the baby's cheek. It earned him a smile. “She's a cute kid. But she's not mine.”
She turned away abruptly, bending to slide the baby into the stroller. Emilie fussed for an instant, until Anne put a stuffed toy in front of her.
When she straightened, her eyes were chips of blue ice. “I'm not trying to trap you into anything.”
“I'd like to believe that, but it doesn't change anything. I'm still not her father.”
She gave an impatient shrug. “I've told you the mother named you.”
“You haven't even told me who she is. Or how you fit into this story.” He was finally starting to think like a cop. It was about time. “Look.” He tried to find the words that would gain him some cooperation. “I believe I'm not this child's father. You believe I am. Seems to me, two reasonable adults can sit down and get everything out in the open. How do you expect me to react when an accusation like this comes out of nowhere?”
He could see her assess his words from every angle.
“All right,” she said finally. “You know what my interest is. I want to adopt Emilie.”
There had to be a lot more to the story than that, but he'd settle for the bare bones at the moment. “And the mother? Who was she? What happened to her?”
He gripped the edge of the desk behind him. He probably shouldn't fire questions at her, but he couldn't help it.
She frowned. Maybe she was editing her words. “Her mother's name was Tina Mallory. Now do you remember her?”
The name landed unpleasantly between them.
Tina Mallory.
He wanted to be able to say he'd never heard of her, but he couldn't, because the name echoed with some faint familiarity. He'd heard
it before, but where? And how much of his sense of recognition did Anne Morden guess?
“How am I supposed to have known her?”
“She lived here in Bedford Creek at one time.”
In Bedford Creek. If she'd lived here, why didn't he remember her? “I'm afraid it still doesn't ring any bells.”
That was only half-right. It rang a bell; he just didn't know why.
“Doesn't the police chief know everyone in a town this small?” Her eyebrows arched.
Before he could come up with an answer, the telephone rang, and seconds later Wanda Clay bellowed, “Chief! Call for you.”
Anne's silky black hair brushed her shoulders as she glanced toward the door.
He reached for the phone. “Excuse me. I have to do the job the town pays me for.”
He picked up the receiver, turned away from her. It was a much-needed respite. He let Mrs. Bennett's complaint about her neighbors drift through his mind. He didn't need to listen, often as he'd heard the same story. What he did need to do was think. He had to find some way to put off Anne Morden until he figured out who Tina Mallory was.
“We'll take care of it, Mrs. Bennett, I promise.” A few more soothing phrases, and he hung up.
Anne looked as if she wanted to tap her foot with impatience. “Now can we discuss this?”
The phone rang again, giving him the perfect ex
cuse. “Not without interruption, as you can see. Where are you staying?”
She stiffened. “I hadn't intended to be here that long. Why can't we finish this now?”
“Because I have a job to do.” His mind twisted around obstacles. He'd also better run a check on Anne Morden before he did another thing. He at least had to make sure she was who she claimed to be. “How about getting together this evening?”
“This evening?” She made it sound like an eternity. “It's a three-hour drive back to Philadelphia, and Emilie's tired already.”
He was tempted to say
Take it or leave it,
but now was not the time for ultimatums. It might come to that, but not if he could make her see she was wrong.
“Look, this is too important to rush. Why don't you plan to stay over?”
“I'd like to get home tonight.”
Her tone had softened a little. At least she was considering his suggestion.
“Isn't this more important?” He pushed the advantage.
She looked at the baby, then back at him, and nodded slowly. “It's worth staying, if I can get this cleared up once and for all.”
Mitch took a piece of notepaper from the desk and scribbled an address on it. “The Willows is a bed-and-breakfast. Kate Cavendish will take good care of you.”
He considered it a minor triumph when she accepted the paper.
“All right.” Maybe she'd anticipated all along that this wouldn't be settled in a hurry. “If that's what it takes, Emilie and I will stay over. When can I expect to see you?”
He glanced at his watch, reviewing all he'd need to accomplish. “Say between six and seven?”
She nodded hesitantly, as if wary of agreeing to anything he said. “I'll see you then.”
He didn't breathe until she and the baby were gone. Then it felt as if he hadn't breathed the whole time she'd been there. Well, the news she'd brought would rattle anyone.
Just how much stock could he put in what Anne Morden said? He leaned back in his chair, considering.
It didn't take much effort to picture her sitting across from him. Cool composureâthat was the first thing he'd noticed about her. She'd reminded him of every smart, savvy attorney he'd ever locked horns with, except that she was beautiful. Hair as silky and black as a ripple of satin, skin like creamy porcelain, eyes blue as a mountain lake.
Beautiful. Also way out of his class, with her designer clothes and superior air.
Well, beautiful or not, Ms. Anne Morden had to be checked out. He hoped he could find some ammunition with which to defend himself, before she blew his life apart.
He reached for the phone.
A
nne put a light blanket over Emilie, who slept soundly in the crib Mrs. Cavendish had installed in the bedroom of the suite. Nothing, it seemed, was too much trouble for a friend of Chief Donovan's. No one else was staying at the bed-and-breakfast now, and Mrs. CavendishâKate, she'd insisted Anne call herâhad given them a bedroom with an adjoining sitting room on the second floor of the rambling Victorian house.
The rooms were country quaint, furnished with mismatched antiques that looked as if they'd always sat just where they did now. The quilt on the brass bed appeared to be handmade, and dried flowers filled the pottery basin on the oak washstand. A ghost of last summer's fragrance wafted from them.
She would have enjoyed the place in any other
circumstances; it might have been a welcome retreat. But not when her baby's future was at stake.
She had to get herself under control before her next unsettling meeting with Mitch Donovan. This afternoonâwell, this afternoon she could have done better, couldn't she?
Her stomach still clenched with tension when she pictured Donovan's frowning face. She still felt the power with which he'd rejected her words.
She shouldn't have been surprised. A man in his position had a lot to lose. The chief of police in a small town couldn't afford a scandal.
The sitting room window overlooked the street, which wound its way uphill from the river in a series of jogs. Bedford Creek was dwarfed by the mountain ridges that hemmed it in. What did people in this village think of their police chief? And what would they think of him if they knew he'd had an affair with a young girl, leaving her pregnant?
They might close ranks against the stranger who brought such an accusation. A chill shivered down her spine.
If Mitch Donovan persisted in his denials, what option did she have? Making the whole business public would only hurt all three of them. But if she didn't get his signature on the document, she'd live in constant fear.
What was she going to do? Panic shot through her. She pressed her hands against the wide windowsill, trying to force the fear down.
Turn to the Lord, child.
She could practically hear Helen's warm, rich voice say the words, and her fear ebbed a little at the thought of her friend.
Helen Wells had introduced her to the Lord, just as simply as if she were introducing one friend to another. Until Anne walked into the Faith House shelter Helen ran, looking for a client who'd missed a hearing, religion had been nothing but form. It had been a ritual her parents had insisted on twice a yearâthe times when everyone went to the appropriate church, wearing the appropriate clothing.
They'd have found nothing appropriate about Faith House or its director, Helen Wellsâthe tall, elegant woman's embracing warmth for everyone who crossed her threshold was outside their experience. But Anne had found a friend there, and a faith she'd never expected to encounter. Helen's wisdom had sustained her faith through the difficult season of her husband's death.
Not that she was under any illusion her faith was mature.
God's not finished with you yet,
Helen would say, wrapping Anne in the same warm embrace she extended to every lost soul and runaway kid who wandered into her shelter.
The good Lord has plenty for you to learn, girl. But you have to listen.
God could help in this situation with Donovan. She had to believe that, somehow.
But maybe believing it would be easier if she had the kind of faith Helen did.
I'm trying, Lord. You know I'm trying.
A police car came slowly down the street and pulled to the curb in front of the bed-and-breakfast. She let the curtain fall behind her, her heart giving an awkward
thump.
Mitch Donovan was here.
In a moment she heard footsteps in the hall beneath, heard Kate greeting himâfondly, it seemed. Well, of course. Bedford Creek was his home. Anne was the stranger here, and she had to remember that.
By the time he knocked, Anne had donned her calm, professional manner. But after she opened the door, her coolness began to unravel. He still wore the uniform that seemed almost a part of him, and his dark gaze was intent and determined.
“Chief Donovan. Come in.”
He nodded, moving through the doorway as assuredly as if he were walking into his office. The small room suddenly filled with his masculine presence.
It's the uniform,
she told herself, fingers tightening on the brass knob as she closed the door. That official uniform would rattle anyone, especially combined with the sheer rock-solid nature of the man wearing it.
“Getting settled?” His firm mouth actually curved in a smile. “I see Kate gave you her best room.”
Apparently he hoped to get this meeting off to a more pleasant start than the last one. Well, that was
what she wanted, too.
You need his cooperation,
she reminded herself.
For Emilie's sake.
“Any friend of Mitch's deserves the nicest oneâI think that's what she said.” Anne couldn't help it if her tone sounded a bit dry.
He walked to the window, glanced out at the street below, then turned back to her. “Kate said you took a walk around town.”
The small talk was probably as much an effort for him as for her. She longed to burst into the crucial questions, but held them back.
Cooperate, remember? That's how to get what you want.
“I stopped by the pharmacy to pick up some extra diapers for the baby. The pharmacist already knew I'd been to see you.” That had astonished her. “Your dispatcher must work fast.”
The source of the information had to be the dispatcher. Mitch Donovan certainly wouldn't advertise her presence.
He grimaced. “Wanda loves to spread news. And it is a small town, except during tourist season.”
“Tourist season?”
He gestured out the window, and she moved a little reluctantly to stand next to him.
“Take a look at those mountains. Our only claim to fame.”
The sun slipped behind a thickly forested ridge, painting the sky with red. The village seemed wedged into the narrow valley, as if forced to climb
the slope from the river because it couldn't spread out. The river glinted at the valley floor, reflecting the last of the light.
“It is beautiful.”
“Plenty of people are willing to pay for this view, and the Chamber of Commerce is happy to let them.”
“I guess that explains the number of bed-and-breakfasts. And the shops.” She had noticed the assortment of small stores that lined the main streetâcandles, pottery, stained glass. “Bedford Creek must have an artistic population.”
“Don't let any of the old-timers hear you say that.” The tiny lines at the corners of his eyes crinkled as his face relaxed in the first genuine smile she'd seen. “They leave such things to outsiders.”
“Outsiders.” That seemed to echo what she'd been thinking. “You mean people like me?”
He shook his head. “They make a distinction between outsiders and visitors. Outsiders are people like the candle-makers and potters who want to turn the place into an artists' colony. The old guard understands that, whether they approve or not. But visiting lawyersâvisiting lawyers must be here for a reason.”
“So that's why everyone I passed looked twice.”
He shrugged. “In the off-season, strangers are always news. Especially a woman and baby who come to call on the bachelor police chief.” His mouth twisted a little wryly on the words.
She'd clearly underestimated the power of the grapevine in a small town. But his apparent concern about rumors might work to her advantage.
“No one will know why I'm here from me. I promise.”
She almost put her hand out, as if to shake on it, and then changed her mind. She didn't want friendship from the man, just cooperation. Just his signature, that was all.
“Thanks.”
He took a step closerâ¦close enough that she could feel his warmth and smell the faint, musky aroma of shaving lotion. Her pulse thumped, startling her, and she took an impulsive step back, trying to deny the warmth that swept over her.
She must be crazy. He was tough, arrogant, controllingâeverything she most disliked in a man. Even if she had been remotely interested in a relationshipâwhich she wasn'tâit wouldn't be with someone like him.
But her breathing had quickened, and his dark eyes were intent on hers, as if seeing something he hadn't noticed before. She felt heat flood her cheeks.
Business,
she reminded herself. She'd better get down to business. It was the only thing they had in common.
“Have you thought about signing the papers?” She knew in an instant she shouldn't have blurted it out, but her carefully prepared speech had deserted her. In her plans for this meeting, she hadn't con
sidered that she might be rattled at being alone with him.
Whatever friendliness had been in his eyes vanished. “I'd like to talk about this.” His uncompromising tone told her the situation wasn't going to turn suddenly easy. “About the woman, Tina.”
“Do you remember her now?” She didn't mean the words to sound sarcastic, but they probably did. She bit her lip. There was just no good way to discuss this.
“No.” Luckily he seemed to take the question at face value. “Do you know when she was here?”
“Emilie was born in June. Tina said she'd been here the previous summer and stayed through the fall.” He could count the months as easily as she could.
He frowned. “Tourist season. They come right through the autumn colors. That means there are plenty of transient workers in town. People who show up in late spring, get jobs, then leave again the end of October.” He shook his head. “Impossible to remember them all or keep track of them while they're here.”
She'd left her bag on the pie-crust table. She flipped it open and took out the photograph she'd brought. A wave of sadness flooded her as she looked at the young face.
“This was Tina.” She held it out to him.
He took the photo and stood frowning down at it, straight brows drawn over his eyes. She should be
watching for a spark of recognition, she thought, instead of noticing how his uniform shirt fit his broad shoulders, not a wrinkle marring its perfection. The crease in his navy trousers looked sharp enough to cut paper, and his shoes shone as if they'd been polished moments before.
He looked up finally, his gaze finding hers without the antagonism she half expected. “How did you meet her?”
She bit back a sharp response. “Isn't it more pertinent to ask how
you
met her?”
His mouth hardened in an already hard face. “All right. I recognize her now that I've seen the picture. But I never knew her name. And I certainly didn't have an affair with her.”
That was progress, of a sort. If she could manage not to sound as if she judged him, maybe he'd move toward being honest with her.
She tried to keep her tone neutral. “How did you know her?”
“She worked at the café that summer.” He frowned, as if remembering. “I eat a lot of meals there, so she waited on me. Chatted, the way waitresses do with regulars. But I didn't run into her anywhere else.”
His dark gaze met hers, challenging her to argue. “Your turn. How did you get to know her?”
“She answered an ad I'd put on the bulletin board at the corner market. She wanted to rent a room in my house.”
His eyebrows went up at that. “Sorry, Counselor, but you don't look as if you need to take in boarders.”
“I didn't do it for the money.” She clipped off the words. Her instincts warned her not to give too much away to this man, but if she wanted his cooperation she'd have to appear willing to answer his questions. “My husband had died a few months earlier, and I'd taken a leave from my job. I'd been rattling around in a place too big for one person. The roomer was just going to be temporary, until I found a buyer for the house.”
“How long ago was that?” It was a cop's question, snapped at her as if she were a suspect.
“A little over a year.” She tried not to let his manner rattle her. “I knew she was pregnant, of course, but I didn't know she had a heart condition. I'm not sure even she knew at first. The doctors said she never should have gotten pregnant.”
“What about her family?”
“She said she didn't have anyone.” Tina had seemed just as lonely as Anne had been. Maybe that was what had drawn them together. “We became friends. And then when she had to be hospitalizedâwell, I guess I felt responsible for her. She didn't have anyone else. When Emilie was born, Tina's condition worsened. I took charge of the baby. Tina never came home from the hospital.”
His strong face was guarded. “Is that when she supposedly told you about me?”
She nodded. “She talked about the time she spent in Bedford Creek, about the man she loved, the man who fathered Emilie.”
He was so perfectly still that he might have been a statue, except for the tiny muscle that pulsed at his temple. “And if I tell you it was a mistakeâthat she couldn't have meant meâ¦?”
“Look, I'm not here to prosecute you.” Why couldn't he see that? “I'm not judging you. I just want your signature on the papers. That's all.”
“You didn't answer me.” He took a step closer, and she could feel the intensity under his iron exterior. “What if I tell you it was a mistake?”
It was all slipping away, getting out of her control. “How could it be a mistake? Everything she said fits you, no one else.”
He seized on that. “Fits me? I thought you said she named me.”
She took a deep breath, trying to stay in control of the situation. “While she was ill, she talked a lot aboutâ¦about the man she fell in love with. About the town. Then, when we knew she wasn't going to get better, we made plans for Emilie's adoption.” She looked at him, willing him to understand. “I've been taking care of Emilie practically since the day she was born. I love her. Tina knew that. She knew I needed the father's permission, too, but she never said the name until the end.”