Destiny Disrupted (There's Always Tomorrow Book 1) (20 page)

Chapter 15

**Ryder**

Ryder watches Xander as he fills the dishwasher. He takes another bite of his turkey sandwich and lets his eyes drift over Xander's bare torso. Xander is the complete opposite of Vance. Well, they’re about the same height, they resemble each other in the face, and have the same gorgeous blue eyes, but that’s where the similarities end. Xander is gay; obviously, Vance is not. Xander isn’t built like Vance, either. Where Vance is ripped with muscle from working out, Xander is thin with a more toned athletic build. Xander's hair is darker than Vance's; he’s more of a light brown than blond. Xander is also more timid than Vance.

Ever since Xander came out to everyone that he was gay, Ryder has wanted him. Ryder is bi, so he pretty much enjoys both men and women. He has always found Xander extremely attractive, though. He’s in no way happy that Bryan died, but now that he’s gone, Xander is single. Xander’s also in desperate need of some affection, the kind of affection that no one but he can give him. Xander is trying to deal with Bryan's death alone, even though he’s surrounded by people who love and care about him. Bryan was his first partner, doesn’t matter that they never had sex. He’s taking his death hard, and everyone knows it, but no one except Ryder can do anything about it.

Ryder finishes off his sandwich and gets up from the table. He comes up behind Xander, who is still at the sink. Ryder reaches around Xander, who tenses, and rinses his plate off before putting it in the dishwasher. Ryder then places his hands on the counter on either side of Xander's body. He lightly presses his body against Xander's back, who seems to be frozen in place. Ryder would never do this if anyone else were in the house; in fact, he’s certain that they’re the only two home. Anna took Tripp to the doctor to check his knee because of what he did the day before. Vance went to Melina's dance studio so he could act as security while she taught. And Dayne went to a doctor's appointment to get his jaw checked.

Ryder bends his head and presses his lips against Xander's neck. Xander’s breathing hitches. Ryder then drags his mouth up the side of Xander's neck to his ear.

“I know you’re still mourning Bryan. If this is too soon for you, or you want me to stop, just say so,” Ryder whispers, his lips brushing Xander's ear.

Ryder takes Xander's silence as consent to continue. Ryder takes one hand off the counter and shuts the water off. He then puts that hand on Xander's chest and holds him firmly as he kisses and licks Xander’s neck. A small moan escapes Xander’s lips. Ryder smiles and skims his hand down Xander's flat stomach to the waistband of his low-slung sweatpants.

Right before Ryder slips his hand down the front of Xander's sweatpants, Xander catches his wrist. “Ryder...wait,” Xander stammers.

“What’s the matter?” Ryder breathes.

“I...I don't know...I still haven't...” Xander stutters nervously.

“Xan, relax. It’s fine, we’ll go slow,” Ryder assures him.

Xander hesitates for a moment before slowly releasing Ryder's wrist. He starts kissing Xander's neck again. Once he relaxes some, Ryder slides his hand into Xander's sweatpants. He’s only semi-hard, most likely because he’s so nervous. Ryder, on the other hand, is hard as granite. It’s been a while since he's been with a guy, and apparently, his dick has missed it. Ryder wraps his hand around Xander's cock and gives it a long stroke.

Xander's head falls back onto Ryder's shoulder. “Oh fuck,” he grunts.

“Have you done anything, Xan?” Ryder asks quietly.

Xander swallows hard before answering. “No,” he croaks.

“Let's go up to my room,” Ryder says and removes his hand from Xander's pants.

Ryder takes Xander’s hand and leads him upstairs. He shuts his bedroom door behind them. When Ryder turns back to face him, Xander has his back to him. Ryder walks up behind him and put his hands gently on his shoulders.

“Don't worry, Xan. You’re going to enjoy every minute,” Ryder says, smoothing his hands down Xander's arms.

Xander groans. “I'm not worried about me; this is probably going to suck for you.”

Ryder laughs and turns Xander around to face him. Ryder cups Xander's face. “Oh, there will be lots of sucking, and I'm going to enjoy it.”

Xander blushes and gives Ryder a sheepish grin. Ryder then leans in and gently presses his lips to Xander's. He seems to melt into it, so Ryder parts Xander's lips with his tongue then slips into his mouth. Xander follows his lead and meets Ryder's tongue with his.

As the kiss becomes a little more heated, Xander finally slides his arms around Ryder's waist. Ryder slowly walks them back toward the bed as they kiss. He breaks the kiss and motions for Xander to get on the bed, so Xander sits and then scoots back onto the bed.

“Go lay at the head of the bed,” Ryder instructs.

Xander turns onto his hands and knees then crawls up the bed, and Ryder gives his ass a smack as he goes. Xander shoots him a smile over his shoulder and lies down on his back in the middle of the bed as instructed. Ryder pulls his t-shirt over his head then climbs up on the bed, crawls over to Xander, and kisses him again.

Ryder then starts kissing his way down Xander's body. Xander’s breathing picks up when Ryder gets to the waistband of his sweatpants. Ryder smiles against Xander's stomach then rears back to pull his sweatpants off. Xander is now lying naked under him, and good lord, he is gorgeous. His erection is laying on his belly, almost touching his navel. Okay, there is one more similarity between Xander and his brother; they are both hung. Ryder is a decent size, but Xander is a bit bigger. Xander covers his face by throwing his arm over his eyes.

“Don’t tell me you're embarrassed, Xan. It’s not like I've never seen you naked,” Ryder says and slides his hand up the length of his cock.

“It's not the same,” Xander squeaks.

“Cause now it's sexual?” Ryder asks then drags his tongue up the length of his cock.

“Holy shit!” Xander cries out and digs his head back into the pillows.

Ryder lets out a husky little laugh. “Do ya like that?”

“Yes,” Xander breathes.

“Do you want more?” Ryder purrs.

“Oh god yes,” Xander groans and squirms under Ryder.

Ryder wraps his hand around the base and lifts Xander's erection off his belly so that he can lick around the head. Xander's hips lift off the bed as a strangled cry leaves his lips. Ryder knows from experience that Xander isn't going to last long, but that doesn't matter. Ryder is going to have him coming multiple times before he is through. Ryder covers Xander's swollen head with his mouth and sucks.

Curses come spilling out of Xander's mouth in between the moans and gasps. His hips are pumping and Ryder lets him do his thing. Ryder just covers him with his mouth and works his shaft with his hand. Then Xander starts repeatedly chanting his name. Maybe he’s ready to come and thinks that Ryder doesn’t want him to explode down his throat. Yeah, he has another thing coming. Ryder is going to make his first time unforgettable.

Xander's hands find Ryder's hair, and he tries to pull Ryder up. But when Xander realizes that he isn't budging, he gives in and lets his fingers tangle in Ryder's hair. Xander’s rhythm falters as he comes hard. He writhes under Ryder and cries out, and Ryder stays with Xander in his mouth until every last tremor vanishes.

Ryder moves up and lies down next to Xander on his side facing him. He props his head up on his hand and just looks Xander over. He looks so sexy with his post-orgasm glow. His eyes are so heavy-lidded that they are almost closed, his lips are slightly parted, and his hair is a mess.

“I'll give you a minute to recoup before we go again.” Ryder smirks.

Xander turns his head to look at Ryder through sex-glazed eyes. “That was so much better than I expected,” he mumbles.

Ryder laughs. “One of the benefits of gettin’ blown by someone who knows what they're doing.”

Xander gives him a lazy smile. “Do you have any idea how long I've wanted you?” he asks, surprising the fuck out of Ryder.

“How long?” Ryder asks, eyebrows raised.

“Do you remember that one summer we all went skinny dipping in the ocean?” Xander asks, turning on his side to face Ryder.

Ryder's eyes widen. “You were only thirteen then.”

“Yeah, you had just gotten the gun tattooed on your hip,” Xander says.

“That was eight years ago,” Ryder says dryly.

“I know.”

Ryder is stunned. Xander hid his feelings really well, but then again, he hid that he was gay for a long time. “Why didn't you tell me after you came out?” Ryder blurts.

“I don’t know. I kinda felt bad for Bryan. He was in the same boat as I was, and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I wanted someone else,” Xander says quietly.

“If I hadn't made the first move, would you have?” Ryder asks.

“Eventually…I was trying to grow a pair first,” Xander says with a cute lopsided grin.

Ryder smiles. Leaning in, he kisses Xander, who seems to be feeling a bit more comfortable, because he threads his fingers into Ryder's hair and pulls him in for a more passionate kiss. Ryder rolls them so that he’s on top again. Xander reaches between them and unbuttons Ryder's jeans then rolls them over so that he can pull off Ryder's jeans and briefs.

Xander kisses along Ryder's jaw, up to his ear. “Can I do you first?” he whispers, tilting his hips forward. Their cocks are pressed together between their bodies, so when Xander moves on top of him, they rub against each other.

“Yeah,” Ryder moans, gripping Xander's ass and pulling him forward again. “There's lube and condoms in the nightstand.”

Xander stares at Ryder for a few seconds, contemplation written all over his face.

“If you’re not ready…” Ryder starts but is interrupted.

“Ohh, I’m ready,” Xander corrects him, unabashedly. “Do you think we need condoms?” he then asks, his voice a little nervous this time. “I mean, I’ve never been with anyone…”

Ryder smiles from ear to ear. “I know you haven’t, but I’d still like to go get tested together before we make that big decision,” he adds gently.

Xander nods. “You’re right. I was thinking with the wrong head.” He shrugs and laughs.

He rises up on his knees then reaches over to the nightstand drawer and grabs the lube and a strip of condoms. He sheathes himself then pours some into his hand and works it over his hard cock. Then he pours more into his hand and rubs it around Ryder's hole. Xander slips his finger into Ryder and slowly works it in and out. Ryder closes his eyes, a pleasurable moan escaping his lips.

“For being a virgin, you sure seem to know what you’re doing.” Ryder grins and cracks an eye open to look at Xander.

“I've watched A LOT of gay porn.” Xander smiles wide, showing off his sexy dimples. Xander hasn't smiled like that in a long time.

“Well, I can't wait to see what you've learned.” Ryder chuckles.

Xander removes his finger then lays his body back down on Ryder. He kisses Ryder hard. “Shut up, you're making me nervous again,” he breathes against Ryder's lips.

“Sorry, sorry, just do me.” Ryder smiles and wiggles under him.

Ryder can feel Xander's heart pounding against his own chest. Yeah, he must be really nervous, so Ryder kisses him softly on the lips. Xander reaches down between them and positions himself at Ryder's opening then drops his forehead to Ryder's.

“Is this really happening right now?” Xander whispers in a shaky voice.

Ryder reaches up and grasps the sides of Xander's head. “Yes, now stop thinking and just do it.”

Ryder gasps as Xander slowly pushes his way in. Ryder has forgotten how much he likes being with a guy. He starts to think that maybe he prefers dicks to chicks. Women are just too needy for him. He wants simple. Men are simple - easy to get along with, not overly emotional, and he can take them as hard and fast as he wants. But this thing with Xander might be a turning point for him - no more bi, completely gay.

“Oh my god, Ryder...it's so tight! I don't think I can move.” Xander pants once he’s completely in.

“You can, Xander, you can,” Ryder encourages.

Xander buries his face in Ryder's neck. Ryder wraps his arms around him and holds him tightly as he slowly pulls out then pushes back in. He groans low in his throat and starts moving a little faster.

“Oh, fuck yeah, Xan, faster,” Ryder pleads.

Xander complies and pumps faster. Ryder then pushes at him until Xander is up on his knees.

“Watch it. Watch yourself enter me and do whatever feels good for you,” Ryder instructs.

Ryder then tucks one hand behind his head and uses the other to jerk himself off while Xander fucks him.

Xander is a natural. He has Ryder coming all over his stomach in a matter of minutes. It takes Xander a little longer, since he already came once from the blowjob, but when he does come, Ryder can’t get over how gorgeous he looks. He’s glistening with sweat, his face is flushed, and all of his muscles are bulging from the intense workout he just had.

Xander collapses onto his stomach next to Ryder, both of them struggling to pull in air. “I'm not a virgin anymore, Ryder,” he drawls.

Ryder laughs. “No, man, you’re not. Now your ass, on the other hand, is still a virgin.”