Devious Revenge (10 page)

                                       Chapter 34

Drew brought us back to his place for tonight and that’s exactly what I keep telling myself. This isn’t permanent and it’s only one night.

I sit on the couch with my head in my hands, rocking back and forth as my plans begin to come unraveled before my eyes.

Hearing Drew come back into the room, I look up at him.

“Is she ok?” I didn’t have the heart to go to Janey after what happened to her. I just didn’t have the strength to see what my past and present are doing to her.

“She’s asleep. I told her you’d be in later. This Robby guy, what does he want from you?” Swallowing hard, I don’t know how to say it, so I just go with blurting it.

“Me. He wants me. He has a side job that according to him would be further successful if I was a part of it.” Drew sits on the coffee table in front of me but doesn’t touch me.

His eyes are distant, and lost.

“What part of business would that be?” Running my hand through my hair, I look into those lost eyes.

“Drew, you don’t need to do this.” Shaking his head, he finally grabs my wrists.

“I’ve never had to worry about things, Han. I wasn’t that type. My family didn’t want me after they saw the monster I became. You, you are the only one that has seen through every damn wall I’ve put around myself. I don’t understand how you did it, and you came back. I’m a monster, just like you. The same thoughts that rolled around your head when you had that guy pinned to the floor, those are my thoughts.” Slamming his lips against mine, again, he takes what he wants.

As much as I want to see Drew in a different light, I see myself in him too.

“What’s that mean for us? Two heartless people?” Drew’s breath mingles with mine as we stare into each other’s broken souls.

“There is no meaning for us. We live what we know, and that’s the only way we survive.” Hearing him say it means more to me than he knows.

We aren’t destined to love. We weren’t put here to be happy nor have children. We were put here solely for the purpose of fixing so many wrongs.

“We’re ruined, Drew.” Nodding his head as it lies against mine, he smiles.

“But we’re ruined together. Two broken souls will never be whole but we can fly as one.” Kissing me slowly, my mind wanders.

I have so many things that I need to figure out. So much revenge to be sought.

It was all mine before. No one else could have touched the way I felt, but Drew does. He knows the reason I am the way I am, and he didn’t run from me, he embraced me.

Knowing that I have someone on my side in this plot makes me feel, slightly. I know we aren’t capable of love but we can care.

Letting Drew rule me in private, is something I’m not sure I want. I’m my own alpha, I don’t think he can be.

                                    Chapter 35

Staying with Drew has been a nice reprieve from this hell we call life.

Janey actually seems calmer when he’s around. Too bad we have to go back to our real lives now.

Drew wasn’t happy that I took Janey back home, but she’s almost finished with school and I want to keep her routine as normal as possible.

“Are you working tonight?” Janey grabs a muffin off the counter before looking up at me.

“Yeah. I’ll be straight home after. Drew might come by to check on you so don’t be alarmed.” Janey’s lips curl into a grin.

“He’s sweet, in a dark twisted kind of way.” I can’t help but laugh at that. Only she would pick up on that.

“That he is.” Cleaning up the kitchen, I hug her before she leaves. After the little incident the other night, I highly doubt Jimmy will be back around here.

My phone dings in the other room. Heading that way, I stop at my mom’s door.

Shoving the door open, it all slams into me. The woman that was supposed to raise me, take care of me, is now gone.

A piece of me regrets not spending more time with her. Maybe I could have helped her get off the drugs and stay clean.

So many what if’s roam around in this head of mine these days.

Looking at her old worn gown that lies on the bed should make any normal person cry, but not me. Maybe I’ve never been normal.

Shaking my head, I pull the door closed. Closing the door to her room, is closing the door to a past that I’m ready to get over.

I go into my room and grab the phone off the bed to see a text from Drew.

“Bringing pizza for Janey. I’m waiting for you.”

A smile creeps across my face. I don’t think I’ll ever understand why he wants to be near me even with as much as he tells me.

“You know where my room is.”

“I do. I have plans for you tonight.”

Just that text alone sends shivers over my body.

I’ve never known anyone like Drew. The way he ignites things within me mesmerizes me. He brings out things I never thought I would like, or enjoy for that matter.

Checking the time, I know I need to head into the bar earlier than usual. There are a few things I need to check into for my Alan plan to be set in motion.

Trying to drive Drew out of my brain isn’t as easy as I would like but I’m working on it.

Being wrapped up in someone isn’t the way to get close to someone else. As much as I hate what this would do to Drew, it isn’t about him.

It’s about the revenge that I seek. It’s about completing a puzzle that has been started, but not finished.

It’s about trying to make my life seem a little more worthwhile.

So why does reality want to scream in my face? Why does it want me to be unhappy and unfulfilled?

                                 Chapter 36

Walking into the empty bar, my chest tightens. So many things have taken place in this bar.

The only solid thing that keeps me grounded is burning this fucker to the ground when it’s all over. The connections I’ve made outside of town have greatly increased my chance of this whole thing looking like an accident.

With a smile on my face, I walk into the back room where I left Lisa’s lifeless body to rot. I kneel down to the exact spot, placing my hand over it.

“You were only the beginning. Don’t worry little Lisa, your brothers will join you shortly. You thought you had me that day at your house. So many years I let you people rule me. Not anymore though. I’ve become stronger than you would have ever thought. Now you can watch me from your gate in hell as I take down the only things you ever cared about. Your brothers.” Pushing myself up from the floor, I gaze at the spot.

If only she didn’t help them, she might still be alive.

The slight giggle that leaves me is nothing compared to the laugh I’ll have taking them down.

Checking the back door, I make my plans for Alan. After what he had said to me that night about not wanting to do it, I’ve decided he deserved to die with his little sister.

How gracious of me.

Alan is going to be easier than expected, considering I can now play off that little confession of his.

Did I think about using him against Brian? Oh hell yes! On more than one occasion that occurred to me, but it wasn’t ideal.

Get them down to just one, and that should be a breeze.

I hear the sound of keys jiggling in the door before I pull it open to see Alan. He looks shocked to see me but quickly calms.

“I didn’t know you were here already.” Putting his neutral look back into place, I hold the door for him to walk in.

“I wanted to talk to you actually.” Trailing behind him like the lost puppy they want me to be, he doesn’t answer or acknowledge me.

Once we’re out front near the bar, he stops to turn to me. I make sure I’m close enough to him that he bumps into me.

His hands land on my shoulders to steady me as I make myself sway.

“You ok? I didn’t realize you were that close.” Our stare is heated as we size each other up. I know what to make of him, in fact, I’ve known for the past seven years.

He, on the other hand, has no idea.

“I think I’m ok.” Play the dumb blonde card, it always works.

“What um. What did you want to talk about?” Watching his nerves take over, I’m in love. Who knew the little shit would buckle under a few bats of the eyelashes?

“Us.”

                                        Chapter 37

The silence is awkward to say the least. I want him to take the bait, so I have to keep calm about this.

“Us? There are no us.” Shaking his head, he tries to walk around me but I don’t let him. Side stepping quickly, I’m back in front of him.

“I thought you felt something that night, in the back. Maybe I was I wrong.” Taking a step back, he grabs my wrist.

Alan looks around to make sure that no one else is in here or listening before he speaks.

“I did. I do. Hannah, this shit is complicated. What we did to you.” Shaking my head, I put my finger over his lips to hush him.

“It’s the past. You were wrong about one thing though, Alan.” His vile nasty tongue sweeps across my finger before sucking it into his mouth.

Forcing myself to moan slightly, he seems pleased.

“What was I wrong about, Hannah?” Pulling my finger from his mouth, it pops. How sexual would that be in any other situation?

“Me. You said I wouldn’t have wanted you, but the truth is, I always have. You were the bad boy, the one all the girls wanted. That included me. I never thought you would want me back.” Within seconds, Alan has my body pinned against the bar, his lips on my neck.

The light sucks should turn me on, but all they are doing is making me sick.

Stay strong, Hannah. You can do this.

I chant that line over and over in my head. The end prize of seeing him dead is well worth the vomit.

“You wanted me? No one wanted me. They all wanted Brian.” Growling against my neck, he bites down to make his point.

The pain is masked by the thrill of the hunt. He is my prey now.

“Not me. Brian was too into himself. I wanted someone to be into me, like you were.” Turning the tables, I slowly lick my way down his neck before sucking his flesh into my mouth.

His hand knots in my hair as he shoves my face closer to his body.

Grazing my teeth along his neck, I can feel him shudder. He’s enjoying this, just like I knew he would.

“Brian can’t know. He can never know.” Lifting me in his arms he sets me on the bar. His hands travel down my sides before stopping between my legs.

As much as I don’t want to do this to Drew, I know I have to. I have to be the town whore just like I am called.

Alan’s finger grazes over my panties as I arch into his touch.

As none pleasing as this is, I have to make it believable.

“I want to suck every last drop out of you, Hannah.” His lips saying my name almost make me cringe.

Alan’s head drops down before he shoves me back slightly on the bar. His fingers tease the side of my panties before he slides them to the side.

Swallowing hard, I will the vomit to stay where it is, and not ruin this for me.

His finger slides inside of me before I groan.

His lips quickly follow as his tongue darts out and slide between the wetness.

As soon as he begins to suck at my clit, we hear the door.