Distorted Hope (7 page)

I lifted my hips when he pulled on the sides of my shorts and a moment later, I was completely naked for the first time in front of a man. I bit my lip as he looked at me, stroking my hip and stomach with his hand. His gaze met mine, showing his delight. “You shouldn’t hide your body, Kyra. There is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.”

I clutched handfuls of the sheet and he bent down to kiss me just above the hipbone.

“Have you had an orgasm before?” He glanced up at me as he dragged his tongue across my skin. I nodded, blushing, and he grinned. “Good. But not one from a man, right?”

“Right,” I rasped as he ran his fingers through the dark curls at the apex of my thighs.

Scooting down, he kissed my mons and nuzzled the hair with his nose, making me jump. “You smell delicious.”

I gasped when his tongue flicked out to touch my clit. The room spun and I clutched at the sheet by my hips as he almost lazily began to kiss the most intimate part of my body. “Oh, Jason,” I moaned.

“Your pussy tastes amazing, Kyra,” he said, licking from bottom to top. “So wet… so sweet… so untouched…” His mouth made magic in my body and I moaned, thrashing my head back and forth in pleasure.

“Oh, God!” I cried out as he sucked my clit into his mouth, using his tongue for more stimulation.

“Come for me, hon. I want to hear you scream.”

My eyes rolled back into my head and I bucked against him as he sucked and licked. I felt the pressure deep inside and moaned as an intense orgasm began. “Jason!” I screamed when the wave fully hit and fireworks exploded behind my eyes. I soared through the sky on a blanket of pure ecstasy and cried out over and over again. The orgasm was unlike any I’d experienced on my own. It was so powerful, I shook as I returned to earth.

Jason slid up next to me and held me against him. “You okay?” he asked in that sexy, husky tone.

“Uh-huh,” I breathed. “Wow.”

He chuckled and ran his hand down my back to my ass. “I think I might have to spend a lot of time down there. I’ve never enjoyed eating a woman so much as I did you.”

I looked up, mouth open in surprise. “Really?”

He leaned down to kiss me. The taste of me on his lips was shocking at first but then became incredibly erotic. Sliding my arm around his neck, I kissed him hungrily. It made me want to try a blowjob on him. If he enjoyed me, I wondered how much I would enjoy him.

I trailed my hand down Jason’s chest and stomach until I reached his shorts. He put his hand on mine and showed me how to cup and stroke him above his clothing. I felt like a new woman after that orgasm; I felt… sultry and passionate and all sorts of things I’d never felt before. “I want to see you,” I whispered, gazing into his eyes.

“Do you want to do it or do you want me to?”

I hesitated. “I’ll do it, but help me if I mess up.”

He chuckled and rolled to his back. “I don’t think you have anything to worry about.”

I sat up and, with slightly trembling hands, unfastened his cargo shorts, looking back to find him watching me with hooded eyes and a lazy smile. He nodded his encouragement. Apparently, they hadn’t given him underwear, either, and as I parted the fabric, I sucked in a sharp breath. There he was—long and thick, nestled in a patch of golden curls. I tugged his shorts off his hips and let them fall to the ground.

I stared at him for a long minute, unsure what to do. He took my hand in his and showed me how to wrap my hands around him and move up and down. I was fascinated by the silkiness of the skin and yet it was so hard beneath the surface. A glistening bead of pre-cum appeared at the tip and I leaned down to lick it off, curious as to how he tasted. Salty, like Mark had been, but not unpleasant. He groaned and I looked up at him nervously.

“No… good. You can do it again,” he croaked. “If you want.”

I gave him a shy look and kissed the slit and then—trying to remember what I’d read in my novels—took him into my mouth, sucking gently.

“Oh, Kyra!” he exclaimed, jumping slightly. I pulled away but he put his hand on the back of my head. “Feels incredible.”

I took more of him in and moved my head up and down slowly, letting my tongue slide up and down, learning the different parts of him. I did that for several minutes until he tugged on my hair and I sat up. “Did I do something wrong?”

He pulled me down to lie next to him. “Not at all. If you keep doing that, I’ll come in your mouth instead of… Shit.”

“What?”

“I don’t have a condom. Are you on the pill by chance?”

I shook my head. “Never needed to be.”

“Some girls use it to help with their periods.” Jason sat up and opened up the drawer in the nightstand and laughed. “I think they were expecting us to have sex.” He held up a box of condoms and I blushed. “Good ones, too.” He grinned and opened the box to pull out a little foil package. Placing it on the bed next to me, he kissed me down to the bed and stretched out on top of me.

The sensation of his naked body on mine awakened my body again. I squirmed under him as he kissed me, the sensation of his hard length against my thigh making me ache to have him inside me.

He sat up on his heels and I watched in fascination as he rolled the condom onto himself. He looked up and grinned. “No babies for you.”

I giggled and he leaned down to kiss me again as he lined himself up at my entrance. I held my breath.

“I’ll go slowly, Kyra. I don’t want this to hurt any more than it has to.”

I nodded and swallowed. He kissed me and gently pushed into me. I gasped at the foreign sensation and he looked at me. I nodded. “I’m okay,” I panted.

Keeping his eyes locked on mine, he pressed himself inside my body. I winced, feeling tiny tingles of pain as I stretched open to accommodate him. I liked looking into his eyes. It felt so… intimate. He moved slowly until I gasped as he hit my hymen.

He leaned down so his body was supported on his elbows and smoothed my hair. “This is the hard part,” he whispered. “Let me know when you’re ready. No hurry.” He kissed my cheek and neck, helping me to relax.

Now that I had to adjusted to what was inside me, I wanted more. “Okay. I’m ready.”

“Okay,” he whispered. Giving me a tender look, he kissed me again and then moved inside quickly and forcefully.

I stiffened and cried out loudly as my body tore open for him. Tears sprang to my eyes and he kissed them where they slipped down my cheeks.

“It’s all over, Kyra,” he soothed. “It’s done. Now you can enjoy it. When you’re ready.”

After a while, the pain subsided and I started to appreciate his presence inside me again. I stifled a giggle and he gave me a funny look.

“Sorry. It’s just kinda weird. There’s a part of your body inside my body.”

“I could see that as strange. But the question is, do
you
like it?” He moved slightly and I moaned as the millions of nerves in the area awoke.

“Uh-huh.”

“Good,” he whispered, slowly thrusting in and out of me.

“Oh!” I exclaimed as sensations previously unknown began to seep through my body, finally understanding what made sex such a big deal. This was so much better than the descriptions in my books.

He rolled so I was sitting on top of him and I gasped at him. “You can roll your hips how you’d like and we can try and get you to orgasm again.” He grinned at my blush. “And I can stare at your beautiful breasts as you ride me.”

Ride me
. It sounded so… erotic. He intertwined our fingers and I began to move up and down with guidance from him. Soon, I felt that wonderful pressure building inside me again. My eyes snapped open wide as another, harder orgasm swept through my body and I sobbed out his name in shock and surprise. Then I felt him throbbing inside me and my name was on his lips as he came.

I leaned forward onto his chest and closed my eyes with a smile on my face.
Wow.

A sound made me jump. I think I must have dozed off because I couldn’t remember where I was for a minute. When I opened my eyes, I realized I was lying on top of someone with their arms wrapped around me. Jason.

I lifted my head and grinned, feeling giddy and shy at the same time. “Hi.”

“Hi,” he murmured, brushing my hair away from my face.

I shifted and felt him still inside me, and I giggled.

A loud knock sounded at the door and then it opened. I shrieked and rolled off of Jason, yanking at the covers as I did so. Jason helped cover me and then I turned to find Mark in the doorway looking very amused.

“Enjoy yourselves?”

“Ever heard of privacy?” Jason growled.

“I have. You no longer have it. Or at least not much.” He crossed his arms and leaned casually against the door jam. His eyes swept the room and then landed on me. “Are you on the pill?”

I pulled the blanket up higher on my chest and shook my head.

“I used a condom, if you really want to know,” Jason said in an irritated voice.

“I know,” Mark said looking back at him. “I needed to know if we need to stop and get something for you. Stopping pills in the middle of a package isn‘t smart.” He looked back at me. “Nathan’ll have a doctor look at you when you get there. Think about what kind you want. He’s not interested in having babies fill his house.” He looked back at Jason. “If she ends up pregnant, Nathan will blame you. Make sure you use a condom every time until she’s on something.” He turned and left the room, closing the door behind him.

“I never thought I’d get a safe-sex lesson from the employee of an arms dealer,” Jason commented.

It took me a minute to register what all had happened and for some reason, I burst out into laughter. Jason looked at me strangely. “I’m sorry. It’s just so… bizarre. Your comment just set me off.”

Jason laughed, too. “You’re so right. I’ll be right back.” He stood and walked around the bed and into the bathroom.

I watched him, fascinated by the differences between his body and my own. He was angular and hard and tall to my curves and softness.
So weird.

He returned a few minutes later and crawled back into bed, pulling me close. “You doing okay? Sore?”

I shifted to turn onto my side and face him and felt a twinge of pain. “Not too bad. The orgasms more than made up for it.”

He leaned forward and kissed me. “Good. There’s more where that came from.” His lips captured mine and he pulled me into another lovemaking session.

I awoke naked with a naked man pressed against my body. By the look of the light streaming into the room, it was probably midday. Jason and I had made love several times during the night and each time had been more amazing than the last.

Then I remembered what was on the day’s agenda and began to feel sick with dread.

Jason stirred behind me and I turned to face him. “Good morning, beautiful.”

A smile crept across my face as I stared into his blue eyes. “Good morning.”

“How are you feeling?”

“Wonderful… and sick.”

Jason looked confused for a moment and then nodded. “Understandable.” He kissed me and then pulled away, cradling my cheek with his hand. “I really,
really
enjoyed last night.”

“Me, too,” I said, placing my hand on his.

He ran his thumb over my cheekbone. “I love you, Kyra.”

I inhaled sharply. “I—I love you, too.”

He grinned. “I wanted you to know before things changed.”

My heart soared as I cuddled in close to him.
Jason loved me!

“Are you hungry?” he asked a few minutes later.

I shook my head. “But you can go eat if you want.”

“I don’t want to leave you.” His eyes were earnest.

“I can come along.”

When we were dressed, Jason and I went out into the living room and Mark had lunch brought to us at the table.

“You need to eat, Kyra,” Mark said firmly, watching me stare at my plate.

I tried, I really did, but every bite made me feel like I was going to throw up. Mark wasn’t pleased I’d only eaten a few bites but didn’t push me.

Jason and I went back to the stateroom after we ate and made love again. We were curled up together in bed when Mark came in later that afternoon, holding a pink dress. “Shower and put this on.”

I stared at it; it looked really short. I looked at Mark with questioning eyes and he gave me a firm look. “Don’t be difficult, Kyra. If you do as you’re told, you’ll avoid a lot of trouble.”