Down Low Adam by Doyle Mills (2 page)

After several minutes of worshiping the smooth pink opening Adam couldn’t hold himself back any longer. He needed to be inside Alex and stroke his beautiful little body.

Alex watched Adam undress and visually worshiped every inch of dark flesh as it was exposed to him. Adam was the ultimate in masculine form and beauty with his muscled wide chest and its sprinkles of tight curls that tapered to a flat stomach. He caught his breath as he watched Adam’s slacks slide down revealing the long huge bulge which the boxer briefs were having a difficult time containing, it looked like it was about to burst free. Alex couldn’t tear his eyes away from the sight and knew that Adam was teasing him as he caressed the outside of his briefs for a few moments with his hand going back and forth over the covered length, then slowly his hands went into the waist band and began pulling his briefs down slowly, at first revealing a thick nest of tight curls, then the beginning of his shaft and finally the entire cock was revealed in all of its huge magnificence.

Adam enjoyed teasing Alex yet he hoped tha
t when he saw all that he had to offer it wouldn’t frighten him. He knew he was endowed on the extra-large size in both length and width and he also knew it would probably be a challenge for Alex to handle since he was a small guy but he was a skilled lover and he knew the night was early and he intended to be patient and gentle, it was his desire to please Alex and take him to the highest level of pleasure he had ever experienced.

Alex lay on the sheets with his hands stroking Adam’s back as he made love to him with a skill he had never experienced before. He had been apprehensive in the beginning when saw all that Adam had to offer yet any doubts were put to rest as Adam used his talents and patience to relax him.

Adam rolled over onto his back then pulled Alex on top of him with his knees resting on each side of his waist, carefully he placed his cock against the tight opening then slowly entered Alex until they were joined as one person through that physical connection. He looked up at Alex whose lips were slightly parted in awe as he experienced the magnitude of what he was feeling inside him. He pressed into the unbelievable tightness that encircled him feeling Alex’s heat and internal throbbing and it took everything in his power to control himself and not burst too soon.

Alex couldn’t believe he had all of Adam inside of him and he arched his back as he moved his body back and forth then slowly began moving his hips up and down until he was accustomed
to all of the wonder which was inside him and he was ready when Adam put his arms around his waist and turned him over onto his back reversing their positions. He wrapped his legs around Adam’s waist as he felt him going in and out of his body in a slow but steady rhythm.

Even though Adam didn’t want it to end he could not contain his pleasure any longer and he
cried out when he finally found release with uncontrolled spasms that wracked his body. Afterwards he lowered his weight so that it rested on top of Alex who was breathing hard beneath him. He looked down into the green eyes and noticed how long and thick Alex’s eyelashes were then he noticed other details about his face like how smooth the skin was and the tiny mole that was down low on his cheek. His hands came up and cupped both sides of the perfect oval face and he kissed those beautiful full lips.

Alex snuggled against Adam
’s chest and wrapped his arms around the strong arms that held him tight and fell asleep thinking this is a man I could fall in love with.

Making love to Alex had been one of the most pleasurable experiences he had ever had and it had felt so right exploring the little tight body. He wished that there had not been so much eye contact
between them because when he looked into those green depths he felt like he was losing himself or giving a peace of himself away that he had never given to another living soul before. Alex had no inhibitions when it came to letting his partner know how much he was enjoying the moment through his moans and the way his hands had clung to him. Even though he was the dominant lover he had never felt so worshipped before or felt more desired as a man. This wasn’t the way his normal encounters went and both his mind and hearts were torn. Usually there was little conversation or eye contact and definitely no emotion involved. As much as he would love to have this feeling with Alex from now on he had to let it go in the morning and walk away.    

Adam

I don’t know why I feel so guilty but I haven’t been able to look at Alex when I see him in the building where we both work. I have went as far as changing my schedule to keep from running into him because I can’t stand to see the look on face. I hope he eventually understands that what happened between us was nice but that nothing could ever come of it, it was just fun between two guys. I could tell the next morning that he was expecting something more and was disappointed when I told him I had to leave. With Alex I broke one of my own rules by spending the night with him and holding him in my arms which felt wonderful, maybe too wonderful but it can’t happen again, I am not gay, what I do with guys is on the down low.

I’ve had to admit to myself that there was something special about Alex and the connection I felt with him
was something I have never felt with another man and it bothers the hell out of me. From now on I will only see men who know what the rules are, or there won’t be any game.

Alex

I liked Adam, I liked him a lot and I don’t understand what happened, I thought he liked me too. I smiled at him when I saw him the next Monday at work but he turned his head completely ignoring me and that hurt. I have tried to get him out of my mind but I can’t, damn what did he do to me when he made love to me?

The Encounter

Days turned to weeks and Alex and Adam had not ran into each other again until one evening and it was time to go hom. Alex barely made it to the elevator before the door closed and once inside he turned and saw Adam standing in the corner against the mirror. It was an awkward moment and at first he thought about punching the button for the next floor and getting off but instead he punched all of them so that the elevator would stop at each of the descending floors then he turned and faced Adam. “You owe me an explanation. What happened Adam? I thought you liked me.”

“Not here Alex, please this isn’t the right time for this.” He said looking down at the floor.

“From the way you have acted doesn’t seem to me like there will ever be a right time Adam.” Alex said staring up at the handsome face.

“Fine,” Adam responded with his nostrils flared in anger. “I am not Gay. What happened was a mistake.”

“You’re not Gay? Then what was it that happened between us? Seemed pretty Gay to me at the time Adam. Straight men don’t do the things to each other that you did to me.”

It took every ounce of
his will power for Adam to not slam Alex against the wall because he was so furious with him but he knew he could never physically hurt him. He could never hurt that beautiful little body that had given him so much pleasure. “Fine Alex I will talk to you.”

They rode the rest of the way down
in silence enduring the opening and closing of the elevator doors at each floor. When they finally reached the lobby, Adam grabbed Alex by the elbow and led him out through a side door into an area where employees who worked in the building took breaks during the day.

Once they were outside Alex turned to Adam and said, “Okay, talk to me Adam.”

“I’m sorry Alex, I handled this whole entire situation wrong and believe me I never wanted to hurt you.”

“But you did Adam.” Alex said trying to hold back his tears.

“Alex, I can’t be Gay, it doesn’t matter how attracted to you or any man I may be, nothing can ever come of it. In my community I was born with three strikes against me right off the bat. I was born black, strike one. I was born a male, strike two. I was born poor, strike three. You would have had to be raised the way I was to understand. One of the few places where we could go was to church and all of these religous mindsets were ingrained in me and ingrained in the black community where homosexuality is concerned and believe me when I say there is no changing that mindset. Hell Alex, look at the Proposition eight issue in California where black people turned out to vote against Gay people having the right to marry.”

“So because of the way you were raised you can’t be true to yourself Adam? Believe it or not I do understand where you are coming from. I don’t know what it is to walk in the shoes of a black man or what your struggles have been, but it hasn’t been easy for me either. I was born in a small Texas town where there is a church on every corner, and I know what it’s like to be born with a strike against you, I was born gay.”

“Yeah, but you are white, it’s not the same thing.”

“Being called a faggot while walking down the hallway in school is just as vicious as anything you have ever been called Adam, and it hurts just as bad.
From what you’ve said your family would never accept you as anything but a straight man, well my family hasn’t accepted me as a Gay man, but at least I have the courage to be true to myself Adam.”

“I am being as true to myself as best I can. I have worked my ass off to make a better life for me and make my family proud of me.”

“But what do you see when you look in the mirror Adam? Are you happy? Truly happy?”

“I’m happy that I can walk down the street and people see a successful black man.”

Alex spoke softly, “I feel sorry for you Adam, I really do. I’m afraid one of these days you are going to wake up an old man with a heart full of regrets, but by then it will be too late to go back and change things.”

“Well don’t feel sorry for me Alex, it’s my life, my choices, and if at the end of the day there are regrets then they will be mine alone.”

Alex looked up into the tall man’s handsome dark face and he longed to reach up and touch it but he couldn’t do it. He had said all he had to say and heard all he needed to hear. His heart ached as he turned and walked away because he knew he was walking away from so many possibilities. When his back was turned to Adam the tears started rolling down his cheeks and it took all of his will to not break down into sobs.

Adam’s heart ached just as badly as Alex’s as he watched the beautiful young guy walk away
. He had flashes in his mind of their night together with visions of the smooth skin and how it felt under his touch, he had never experienced anything like it in his entire life. There was something special about Alex, he had more courage in his small body than he had in his own larger one. He knew in that moment that Alex had stolen his heart. “Alex!” He called towards the retreating back and ran to catch up with him.

Alex felt the strong hands grab his arms and he fought to free himself, but it was a useless gesture because his strength was no match for Adams. He couldn’t contain his sobs any longer when Adam pulled him against his chest and held him tight. “If you don’t want me Adam, please let me go.” He cried.

“Baby, as much as I want to, I can’t.” Adam said with tears burning his own eyes. His heart swelled with what he knew was love as the small pale hands encircled his waist and he knew what joy was when the most beautiful face he had ever worshipped lay itself against his chest.

They held onto each other not knowing what the future had in store for them. They were two souls who recognized that without each other they would not be complete. Their lips hungrily found each other and neither cared who saw them.

There isn’t always happy endings in life where love is concerned, but it’s more likely when we face who we are in the core of our souls and find that courage to be true to ourselves. Who knows what will happen with Adam and Alex but for now they are getting to know each other and exploring all the possibilities.

I won’t say this is the end, it’s only the beginning.