Dreams of Reality (5 page)

Thaddeus only nodded again as he ushered Pooh out the door. The slang the young man spoke made his head hurt trying to decipher. He would put a good diction qualification if this language was on the street now, for the girl he wanted. What the hell had he gotten himself into?

Damn Craig! I’m going to beat your ass!

* * *

She sat up abruptly in bed. Something strange had just happened. The digital clock beside her bed read seven in the morning. She could tell that daylight savings time was coming in effect, because the sun seemed to just crest the horizon making longer nights, so why didn’t she feel rested? Going into the bathroom she splashed cold water on her face, then stared up in the mirror back at herself.

Her dark lavender slanted eyes were extraordinarily expressive even when she could not say what was on her mind.

The dream. She had a dream.

For some people this seemed normal, but she had not dreamed since... since the rape. It was like something in her brain died and she thought a part of her had, until last night when she was standing in a strange office next to two other women. One lady was truly frightened and Skye comforted her telling her everything was okay, but she doubted these words even as she spoke them.

A door opened and a heavyset man and another man in his early sixties walked in. The fat man seemed doubtful and whispered something to the other man. The other man coaxed him on, and she heard something like, “...won’t remember a thing.”

The heavy set man met her eyes with beady black eyes of his own that chilled her to the bone. She didn’t like the vibes she received when she looked at him. His voice was decrepitly calm.

She started shaking and her heart rate increased. She didn’t want to be here. She wanted to wake up. “L-let me wake up,” she begged.

She calmed herself down appeased that the “bad man” had somehow disappeared, but this was a dream so that could happen. Controlling her panic attacks was becoming easier and easier.

The older man helped her to a chair and comforted her more. She really didn’t need or want his attention, but allowed him to do so since comforting her seemed to relax him too. She knew she was somehow important to these men for some reason, but had never met them a day in her life. This was strange.

No one dreamed of people they never met. Before she realized it she was sleeping in his arms.

But at the same time that’s when she awoke in her bed. The man had been telling her something, but for the life of her she couldn’t remember. She knew his voice was still pounding in her ear when she awoke as if he had been standing by the bed speaking to her, but even that faded away once her eyes opened.

The clock had read four in the morning and she had still been sleepy. Drawing the covers closer to her she surmised the experience must have been something she saw on television that she had not remembered.

Skye cringed her nose deep in thought. ‘Something on television.’ This seemed reasonable to assume, yet the reasoning didn’t sit well with her. Still she was not going to dwell on this now. She had a busy day ahead of her.

Little did she know this was the first step into a reality she would never forget.

Chapter 4

Dr. Roth Johnson came in the conference room with a superiority of his own. Thaddeus watched him closely as he sat down between Sergeant Nolan and Craig. The sergeant thanked the doctor for coming on such short notice.

“We want to move fast on this,” Craig explained, “But we need an understanding of what exactly is going on. Mr. Newman is going to be the one dealing with the subject, and he wants to take precaution while helping us out.”

“Indeed,” Dr. Johnson’s gruff voice said. He had dark skin, which contrasted severely with his thick rimmed, white glasses. “I was an intern of Dr. Porter’s about twenty years ago. He was just getting into mind controlling drugs for the government, but he found out he could make a lot more money doing research on his own with private investors. I went with him of course because I knew this was a genius that would eventually discover something great at the rate he was going. When GHB was discovered about ten years ago that is when I left the project. By this time Dr. Carter had come aboard and was also an expert at mind controlling substance yet only dealing with the female psyche. I believe with ingenuity they have managed to perfect a new drug that can be mixed with Depro-Vera and used to take the mind to a sublevel of consciousness unbeknown to the test subject. Subjects with high-level thyroids are perfect because they are able to compensate and have a longer time to become addicted. When used in patients with normal to low levels, hallucinations occur severely depending on the low level of thyroid. The perfect subject though will in time accept these as dreams if they are not too severe and mentally negative. The better they are taken care of during this time that the brain is ‘dreaming’, the better they fare when they awake. We believe Dr. Carter perfected the method of hypnotizing these women and making them do what he wanted them to do when he wanted them to do it. Dr. Porter stays on the project to make sure the well being of the subject is taken care of correctly when she is in the sub-level conscious state of mind.”

“Why women?” Thaddeus asked.

“Because they are more docile and would more or less take it. When given to men whether they had a high thyroid level or not, they immediately became violent in and out of the dreams.” Dr. Johnson continued, “When you interact with this individual make her experience with you pleasant. If she protests or becomes upset you must relax her and make her feel comfortable. Get her to take her mind off the fact that this is a dream that she can’t control and she can’t wake up from. It’s frightening for her and you need to do whatever it takes not to cause any mental strain on her so that she will enjoy the time you need her at these moments.”

Thaddeus looked at Craig who seemed almost too delighted with this situation for Thaddeus. He didn’t realize that he had a frown on his face that was making the Sergeant and the doctor uncomfortably nervous about involving him on this project.

“Are you sure you want to involve yourself on this case, Mr. Newman?” Dr. Johnson asked nervously not at all liking how grim the young man was looking. “I’m sure a more patient person for this project would be suitable.”

“Oh no,” Craig said trying to keep his laughter from bubbling. “Thaddeus is a most patient man. Boundless if you ask me.”

Dr. Johnson raised a brow in disbelief. “Then there should be no problem.” He looked at the Sergeant. “May I have a word with you privately?”

When they were gone, Thaddeus looked viciously at Craig.

“What the hell are you trying to pull?”

“Nothing,” Craig said innocently. “I am just merely assuring them you would be perfect. I think you can handle a little gentleness.”

“To a woman I’ve never met?”

“You’ve got to remember Thaddeus she’s probably just a regular woman. Nothing out of the ordinary than what we would see everyday. I know that this will be difficult and you can pull out any time before we even start this.”

“Ah ha, didn’t think I’d call your bluff.” This time it was Thaddeus' turn to laugh, leaning back in the chair. Looking at his watch, he stood up. “I have to go, but I assure you, I wouldn’t pull out because unfortunately I love you too much and I know you’ve invested a lot of time and man hours to make this work out smoothly for me. But I also know you’ve got something up your sleeve Bro, which I haven’t figured out yet. I just hope you aren’t thinking I’m just going to see this broad and know I can do anything I want and take it. You know I’m not like that and just don’t sleep with anyone. What’s the use of a woman if her mind is not there? I have no idea what this woman is like and I know I won’t be attracted to her in the least bit so your plan to hook me up won’t work, Bro.”

“What makes you think in any way I want you to do anything to this poor unsuspecting woman?” Craig asked innocently.

“Because for the last two years you’ve tried to hook me up with every woman you thought was nice, but it turned out she had an ulterior motive and I saw right through her facade. Now if you’ll excuse me I have an appointment with some clients. I still have a business to run.”

Craig was disgruntled as Thaddeus made his way out the office. It was his best friend’s intention to get Thaddeus to be unable to resist the woman and Craig was probably aggravated because Thaddeus had figured out his devious friend’s scheme so quickly.

Good! upset!

For the past couple of years, Craig felt Thaddeus' temperament was because he wasn’t getting enough sex, but Thaddeus wasn’t a man that had a very high sex drive and loved to devote more time in getting to know a woman rather than letting his dick make a decision for him on what he wanted.

Sure it was good pussy out there, but in this day and age, Thaddeus had no time to play around and lay wherever the mood struck him.

Chapter 5

Another disappointing session with Dr. Carter left Skye still unsatisfied. He asked her in depth about her feelings for Thaddeus Newman when she confessed she was thinking about him after seeing him in the newspapers and the other day. She was confused about how she felt about him.

“I guess you could call it a crush. I guess?” She was doubtful. “I don’t understand it. I like the way he was looking that day and in the newspaper. And he smelled . . .” She closed her eyes remembering him being so close and the more she thought about the more she remembered about him. The nice shape of his head, the strong nose, chiseled chin, thick neck, and of course the shoulders. Broad, bullock shoulders that made a woman want to rest her thighs on.

“My hardship?” She tried to sound as confident as possible not really wanting to admit there was a small fear of men she still harbored that she fought desperately every day to conquer. “I mean I understand that my rape wasn’t my fault and I don’t think I should allow myself to ruin my chances for an emotional relationship with a man. I accept the fact that it wasn’t my fault and I know it will forever be in the back of my mind, but I hope my panic attacks would go away eventually.”

“Possibly. Yes, you maybe attracted to this man, but anything towards sex would probably make you turn against him. If you met him, and he regarded you with mutual interest, would you have sex with him?”

Her eyes were doubtful, but interested. “I would like to, I guess,” she said doubtfully. “I’d have to know him personally. I can’t—”

“If you were in a situation where there were no restrictions, no consequences, no repercussions would you?”

Just the thought of it made Skye’s heart race. “I think I would.” It felt weird hearing her say that to someone else, but just saying it made her feel energized. “I think I’d tell myself that my panic attacks weren’t there. It’s just excitement and I could believe it for just one night or two if I knew I’d never have to wake up and see that it wasn’t real. That he didn’t have any real sexual feelings for me, but I could just accept him, physically and mentally.” Crinkling her nose, it sounded confusing even to her. “I don’t think reality likes me, so if I knew it wasn’t real I could handle him.”

Dr. Carter seemed pleased with her answer. This bothered her to know he felt comfortable with what she said, because what she said had not made her comfortable. To know to only deal reasonably with Thaddeus Newman in dreams was not a very healthy thought. She wanted to be able to deal with him at all times. That was appropriate. What she wanted was not healthy in her mind, but decided not to express this to Dr. Carter.

“But I don’t dream when I sleep, so I know it will never happen.” She added with great disappointed, but retracted this when she remembered just the other day she had dreamed. “Although I did dream the other day.”

“You did?” he seemed genuinely interested. “About what?”

She related the dream to him and how she had felt afterwards. “I let it passed because I figured with all the changes going on in my life, it must be a positive sign.”