Authors: T. C. Boyle
The transformation had begun on the night she'd flared up in front of the little group gathered in the billiard room, though she hadn't realized it at the time. In fact, the ensuing week had been worse than the first. At least during the first week she had the excuse of disorientation, but as the second week dragged on, she felt increasingly bored and out of touch. She continued to sit at the silent table, brooding and defensive, the evenings with Saxby her sole release. But something had happened, some subtle alteration had taken place among the fixed stars of the Thanatopsis firmament, and Ruth's was on the rise. For one thing, she had the patronage of Irving Thalamus. He'd noticed her that night, oh yes indeed, and his attentionsâthe ironic glances, the little jokes and nudgesâbecame her safety net. By the third week he'd lured her
from the silent room to establish her as his chief ally at the raucous, gossipy and sacrilegious table in the convivial room. Together they would pass through the doleful, dingy corridor of the silent roomâsmirking, always smirking, a joke on their lipsâwhile Laura Grobian dwelt in the trembling deeps of her hollow-eyed middle-aged beauty and Peter Anserine and his young disciples frowned ascetically over their incomprehensible texts. And at nightâand this was the root and cause of this morning's hangover and the hangover she'd had two mornings ago and the one she'd have tomorrow morning tooâhe brought her into his after-hours circle, where she could really shine, where she could thrust and parry, charm, ridicule, demolish and redeem, where she could become her old selfâLa Dershowitzâonce again.
In a way, she almost felt sorry for her rivals. In the aftermath of that fateful night on Peagler Sound, none of them was really in the running. Ina Soderbord was attractive, she guessed, in a big, blocky, heavy-breasted, white-eyebrowed sort of way, but she inhabited her own little corner of interplanetary space and spoke in the breathless, lisping pant of the brain-numb ingénue. Gravity had not been kind to Clara Kleinschmidt and she had a sad sour smell to her, the smell of inherited lace, hope chests and the lingering loveless death of the game show and rocking chair. And the punk sculptressâRegina Mclntyre, a product of Ladycliff and Mount Holyoke, Ruth learned after some probingâwas too consumed in self-loathing to speak, but for the occasional vitriolic outburst, and her personal style was strictly for the leather crowd. Neither Irving Thalamus nor Bob the poet was the type, not to mention Sandy De Haven, a late and supremely interesting addition to the group, twenty-six, bleached locks dangling in his eyes as he bent over the billiard table, his first novel due out in the fall from Farrar, Straus and Giroux. No. Ruth was supreme here, queen of the hive.
As her confidence improved, so did her work. She revised an old story and sent it off to
The New Yorker
with Irving Thalamus's blessings, and her Japanese piece suddenly began to take off, to
blossom, to feel like something bigger than a mere short story. That's where the second thing came in, the other factor that turned Ruth's life around at Thanatopsis, as serendipitous in its way as Irving Thalamus's tutelageâthe appearance, on her studio porch, of Hiro Tanaka. Hiro Tanaka, the outlaw, the renegade, the terror of Tupelo Island, filcher of Clara Kleinschmidt's panties, castigator of Bobby and Cara Mae Cribbs, eluder of the sheriff and the INS, Hiro Tanaka, lunch bucket thief. He was her secret, her pet, her own, and it gave her an edge on all of them.
She'd caught him in the act, caught him there on her porch on that rainy afternoon ten days back, caught him with the evidence in his hands while the trees strained their backs and the earth shook and the stink of sulfur fell like a blanket over the trapped and stifling air. Lightning flashed, rain raked the trees. He hesitatedâshe could see it in his eyes, recognition and confusion both:
he'd seen her naked, her breasts, her navel, her secret hair
âand for a moment the dull shock of animal surprise left his face. Food was one thing, the first thing, yes, and this was the second.
She wasn't afraid, not a bit. He was just a boy, scared and dirty, his eyes feverish, clothes torn, a scrap of frayed red cloth knotted round his head. He didn't even look Japanese, with his tan irises and dull reddish hair, or did he? There were the epicanthic folds she remembered from anthropology, the round face and stutter nose, the bow legs and the too-deep tan of his scraped and bitten limbs. Blink once and he was Toshiro Mifune; blink again, and he was something else.
He stirred something in her, he did. It all happened so fast that first day, so adventitiously, she didn't have time to think it out: she just saw him there, hungry and scared, and she wanted to fold him in her arms. He was the motherless fawn she'd found as a girl out back of the cabin at Lake Arrowhead, the squirrel the cat had got, the sunken-eyed orphan in a nameless village crying out to her from the black and white ad in the glossy magazine. She had no other
motive but sympathy, no other desire but to helpâor if she did have, it was buried deep, in the deep soil of the unconscious where plots and schemes and counterschemes have their first quiescent life. And if he was a fawn, and if he was pitiable, and if the lunch bucket was his salvation, she didn't want to scare him off.
The rain lashed him. His hair was knotted with burrs, his nostrils crusted over, his lips cracked. He cradled the lunch bucket and took a step back. What could she do to convince him, what could she say? Take it, and welcome to it, I'm on a diet anyway, my bed is dry and warm, there's plenty more where that came from, I want to help you, I want to keep you, I want to make you my own. She said nothing. He said nothing. But her expression must have told him all that and more, and as he backed off and the rain sobbed from his face and fed the green of the world around him till it threatened to swallow him up, she slowly, gradually, breathlessly lifted her hands to the level of her waist and spread her palms. And then he was gone.
The next morning Ruth was awake and washed and dressed by the time Owen made his rounds.
“Bonjour, mademoiselle,”
he whispered, tapping at her door. She answered him before the words were out of his mouthâ
“Merci, je suis réveillée”
âand in the next moment she pulled open the door and regaled him with a dizzy wide-lipped parody of a vamp's smile. Humbled, he could only gape as she flipped her bag over one shoulder and sashayed down the hall to breakfast. She was excited, so excited she'd barely been able to sleep. Not only over the Japanese sailor and the expectation that he'd be back again and that she'd aid and abet him, hide and nurture him, her own breathing secret, but over the new factorâor rather, factorsâin the equation: Detlef Abercorn, the tall young square-jawed agent from the Immigration and Naturalization Service, and his comical little henchman, Turco.
They'd arrived the previous evening, bedraggled and wet, at the height of the storm's second assault. The rain had tapered to a drizzle through the long festering afternoon, and fell off altogether as Ruth made her way back to the big house for cocktails. The
colonists were all gathered in the parlorâeven Septima, in her shimmering silver chemise and antediluvian pearlsâwhen the storm broke loose again with a gush of rain that rattled the windows and for a long scintillating moment cut the electricity. “Oh, we must have the candles lit,” Septima cried, clapping her hands together like a child. Her voice floated over the sudden crepuscular hush of the room, warbling and authentic, the stately breathless voice of refinement and Southern breeding. If the colonists, immersed in the generic gabble of the convivial room and cocktail parlor, ever forgot for a moment where they were, Septima's caressing and unimpeachable accent brought them back.
Saxby had left that morning for Savannah to collect the equipment for a new fish study he was contemplatingâRuth didn't know any more about it than that: it was a fish study, plain and simpleâand it was Bob or maybe Owen who appeared a moment later with a candelabrum in full festive blaze. A cheer went up, another round of cocktails was drunk, and when the lights were restored it was unanimously decided to forgo them in favor of candlelight and the romance of the storm, which beat now at the darkening windows with all the fury of the Atlantic in turmoil.
Just as Owen stepped into the room to announce dinner, there came a knock at the outer door. The front parlor, where cocktails were served, gave onto the foyer and the regal front entrance. No one ever knockedâall had free entréeâand the thunderous, rude, impatient booming at the front door took them all by surprise. The noise level dropped off to zero, conversations died; all heads turned to peer through the parlor doorway to the foyer, to which Owen, his shoulders thrust forward and with an officious look on his face, was proceeding. Ruth, who was then in the first stages of the metamorphosis that would make her the cynosure of Irving Thalamus's clique and rescue her forever from the oblivion of the silent table, followed him.
Owen threw back the door, a wild busy smell of drizzling nature flooded the vestibule, and Abercorn and Turco, the one too tall, the other too short, stomped dripping into the room. “Hello,” Abercorn
said, extending his hand to the bewildered Owen and flashing a flawless smile, “I'm Detlef Abercorn, Special Agent of the INS, and this”âindicating Turco, who glared round him suspiciouslyâ“is my, uh, assistant, Lewis Turco.”
Ruth felt her heart catch. This was the man she'd spoken to on the phone a week agoâspoken to blithely, pleased with the attentionâthe man to whom she'd divulged every relevant detail of her encounter with Hiro Tanaka on Peagler Sound. And now here he was, horning in on her secret. She wasn't calculating, not yet anyway, had no dream of Hiro as anything more than a creature that needed to be stroked and appeased and comfortedâan exotic and fascinating creature, yes, but not yet her own, not yet her sword and wedge and bludgeon to lay all of Thanatopsis House at her feet. She wasn't calculating, but she knew that she wouldn'tâcouldn'tâcooperate with this tall and very wet man in the cheap detective's overcoat.
Owen gaped at them, for once at a loss for words.
“I wonder if you could help us,” Abercorn began, and as the murmur of conversation started up again behind her, Ruth lingered there in the doorway, watching and listening, as Abercorn poured out his tale of woe and Owen blinked in confusion. As it turned out, Abercorn and Turco had waited three hours for the last ferry, and on finally arriving discovered to their regret and embarrassment that there were no accommodations available on the island. They needed a place to spend the night before going off in pursuit of the armed and dangerous alien who'd been terrorizing folks hereaboutsâAbercorn actually said “folks hereabouts,” though it was obvious to anyone he was a sweaty-palmed city-bred Yankee who was about as folksy as Bernhard Goetz. Sheriffâhe pronounced it “sheriff,” not “shurf,” though he was trying hardâSheriff Peagler had told him that there might be a bed or two available here, and he'd be more than happy to pay whatever they likedâhe was on official government business, after all, and the alternative was, well, flashing his smile and wincing comically at a peal of thunder, the alternative was to go on out there and drown.
And so Ruth was up early, the first one at breakfast and the first to trot off to work, up before Abercorn could pin her down with any more questions. The woods were still, the morning fragrant with the previous night's rain. The sun had risen golden and glorious from the chop of the cold Atlantic, and as she walked the path to her studio it seemed to melt into the hard unyielding posts of the slash pines. She walked slowly, breathing it all in, but still she arrived at her studio nearly an hour and a half earlier than usual. It was just past seven, and as she sat down at her desk and stared numbly at the curling page in the typewriter, she could think of nothing but lunch. Would he show up? And if he did, what would she do and what would it lead to? She envisioned her Japanese in bed, envisioned herself in Japan, a country of office buildings, claustrophobic streets and tiny feet, and then finally, to pass the time, she settled down to work.
Hiro didn't show up that day. Perversely. It was almost as if he knew she wanted to reach out to him but that he had some kind of cultural thingâsome kind of weird Japanese machismo or whateverâthat kept him from her. And that evening, since Saxby was still in Savannah and she was just beginning to flex her wings in the billiard room, and because she was bored too and felt like itâthe secret,
her
secret making it all the more deliciousâshe sat down in the parlor over cocktails and chatted with Abercorn. He'd spent a fruitless day interviewing the blacks at Hog Hammockâ“I couldn't understand a word they said, I mean not a single word,” he said, “and after a while it was embarrassing”âwhile his assistant had snooped around in the woods with a boom box. She shared a good laugh with him over that, over Turco's boom box. “Yes,” she saidâshe couldn't help it, couldn't help fooling around with him, just a little bit, just for practiceâ“I thought I heard Donna Summer out there somewhere today.”