Envy (2 page)

I am not a morning person. Everyone who is close to me knows this well and people who have just met me learn quickly. Especially if we have to spend the morning together. When I was kept in that horrible dark room back at the Devils clubhouse, I sometimes didn’t know if it was morning or night so it didn’t really bother me, but now I’m back in the real world its back to grumbling and sulking when I have to get up. The funny thing is, even though I hate mornings, I have to get up and out of bed because the thought of wasting the day feels so wrong to me. So with a torn mind, I get out of bed and jump into the shower. I have to get ready as soon as I get up to because if I don’t, I’ll end up not getting dressed or showering and putting my face on. I’m real lazy like that.

I look in the cupboard and see I’m out of my cereal, so decide to make toast instead. As I pop the slice of bread into the toaster I hear the sound of footsteps coming down the stairs.

I’m still living with Lauren and Grim, and I’m very thankful for that but it’s getting to the point where I feel in the way. They’re very much loved up and whilst I have enjoyed seeing another side to Grim, it’s time to get a place of my own.

“Morning.” Lauren sing songs and she skips to the fridge.

“Good morning.” I answer with a knowing smile. I look her over, she’s wearing a white silk dressing gown that’s loosely fastened around her waist. I am certain she is naked under that and the wide smile shows me how happy she is.

“You sound cheerful.” She observes, fetching a bottle of water and takes a sip.

“Let’s just say, the look of your ‘just fucked’ face makes me happy.” I smile broadly and Lauren bursts out laughing.

“Lauren!” We both hear Grim shouting from upstairs.

Lauren wiggles her eyebrows at me and shouts back. “Coming!”

“Dirty bitch.” I mutter making Lauren laugh again as she literally runs back to Grim.

I guess those two have no problem being in bed all day. The difference is, I would most likely be sleeping, whereas Lauren and Grim will be doing something much more energetic.

Before the loud noises start to descend from their room, I quickly butter my toast and sit in the garden. I make my way to the table and chairs. It’s so peaceful out here and it’s on the opposite side of the house from the happy couple’s bedroom. I scroll through social media as I enjoy my breakfast and once I’ve finished I put my empty plate and phone on the table. I pull another chair close and use it to prop my feet up, leaning my head back and taking the time to relax. I have missed this a lot. When I was with the Devils, I never had this so whenever I have the chance now, I take it.

When my phone loudly alerts on the table, the sound of the vibration rattling on the glass table and making me jump. I reach over and as soon as I see Baby’s name on the screen I giggle to myself. I know what the text is going to say before I even open it. When I read the words, “
Need rescuing”
, I laugh even more and stand.

I tidy up after myself and grab my things. When Grim invited me to move in with him and Lauren, he made clear that I could use one of his cars. I don’t know cars very well, all I do know is that it’s an Audi and very manly looking. However he gave me free use of the car for however long I need it, so I’m not complaining. As I grab the keys by the door, I hear a door shut from upstairs and wait to see if I can see who it is.

Then I see a half-naked Grim from the top of the stairs, looking down at me and I try my best not to stare at his chest. Damn, Lauren is one lucky bitch.

“Out already?” He asks me.

“I’m going to save your brother actually.” I smirk up at him.

“Really?” He laughs, and wraps his arm across Lauren’s shoulders. She’s just appeared from their room, her silk gown back in place but this time her dark hair is a mess. My grin widens at the satisfied sight of her.

“Yep, it seems Baby needs my help.” I answer back.

“They’re like a weird tag team.” Lauren shakes her head. “He sleeps with a random girl, and when he can’t get rid of them in the morning he asks Natasha for her help.”

Grim looks a little confused, but before he can ask any questions I open the door, quickly shouting my goodbyes. When I’m sat in the car, I send a quick reply to Baby to let him know I’m on my way.

Once I’m at the clubhouse gates, Spark and Neo let me in and I park up. I take a leisurely stroll inside the clubhouse, smiling as I think of Baby and what he’s got himself into this morning. This isn’t a regular thing, he only asks for my help about once a month but when he does it’s usually because the girl is a little clingy.

It all started when he was round Grim’s house complaining about the woman he slept with the night before. I offered to help and our partnership was born.

I give a few members a quick wave as I pass them and make my own way to Baby’s room, wondering what he’s gotten himself into now. I knock just the once and let myself in. The pretty girl sat on the bed in just her underwear looks shocked to see me. I play my part and look angry to see her and cross my arms over my chest.

“Tasha!” Baby shouts, as if he’s shocked to see me.

“Surprised to see me?” I ask, sounding pissed and look back to the girl. “Who are you?”

She quickly stands, looking panicked and gathers her things. “I’m so sorry.”

“Have you two been fucking?” I scream.

“Babe.” Baby complains.

“I didn’t know he had a girlfriend.” The poor girl quickly gathers her things and run passes me. She pauses when she’s beside me. “You should be with someone better.”

She quickly runs off, leaving me feeling a little guilty. I walk to the side of Baby’s bed, he’s looking rather pleased with himself as he smiles up at me.

“She didn’t seem so bad.” I point out.

“Don’t be feeling guilty Natasha. She was talking about the changes she could make to my room! How fucking awful is that?” He honestly looks scared at the thought.

“You’re a dick.” I laugh.

All of a sudden, he jumps up out of bed and I get an eye full of a very naked Baby. He runs right up to me and I try to get away but I’m not fast enough. I squeal as he grabs me, squeezing me up against his nakedness. He laughs loudly at my discomfort.

“Don’t touch me with that thing!” I shout, trying to not think about his dick on me.

Baby backs away, but now he’s started swinging his cock around. The slapping noises are just as bad as the sight. I cover my eyes and run out his room but because I’m covering my eyes I don’t see where I’m going. I bang right into a hard body and when I open my eyes I see Devlin looking down at me. A mixture of confusion and amusement on his face.

Oh shit.

I back away from the man muscle in front of me and clear my suddenly dry throat. Fuck!

Why does Devlin affect me so much? Never has anyone made me feel uneasy like this.

I don’t want to stay around Baby’s naked dick and Devlin’s hard eyes a second more than I have to and make my way around him. I speed walk out the bedroom halls and out into the clubroom. The room seems oddly large when there’s not a lot of club members filling it up.

I wave over to the same bikers that I did on my way in as I quickly walk into the next room and then into the kitchen. I desperately need a drink and then I need to get the hell out of here. Devlin makes me feel weird every time I see him, even worse when it’s in an awkward situation like that! Fucking Baby and his stupid fucking cock.

I reach into the large fridge and find myself a fresh bottle of flavoured water. I hate water, I can only stand the flavoured kind, so I’m thankful someone thought to get some.

As I’m refreshing my throat, I hear the door open and I cringe. I really hope it’s not who I think it is.

“So, you and my brother.” I hear his deep voice and close my eyes. I’m so glad I’m facing away from him so that I can compose myself.

I place the water on the side and take a deep breathe before facing Devlin.

“Don’t even think about saying anything else.” I demand as I turn around. Shit, he fucking looks good.

Devlin is dressed in his usual black jeans and matching black shirt that clings to his thick muscles at the tops of his arms and chest. Yum!

“What were you doing in there?” He asks. “With my naked brother.”

There’s an expression on his face, and I’m left confused because I thought I saw a flash of anger. Why would he be angry? I don’t get him at all.

“I was helping.” I point out and take another sip of my water.

My throat is dry again and I’m beginning to think it’s because of the man I’m standing with.

“With the chick I saw running in her underwear?” He asks, looking surprised.

With a smile I nod. “Yeah.”

“How?” He asks, taking a step closer to me.

I can smell him. Devlin smells of freshness, like he’s just taken a shower and a manly musk that’s pure Devlin. I can’t help but take a deep breath in again. Then I remember he asked me a question and quickly answer so I don’t look like a complete idiot.

“If the girls are clingy and he can’t cope, he asks for my help.” I answer, in a smaller voice.

Devlin always gets this reaction out of me. I become uneasy and tense and I’m not sure if this is the good kind or not.

“So, you charge in there like you’re a jealous old lady or something?” He asks and this time I know I heard anger. Devlin isn’t happy and I don’t know why.

“Something like that.” I reply, not daring to look him in the eye.

“You wanna be his lady?” Devlin asks and my head spins.

“What?” I screech, now looking him in the eye. “You’re joking right?”

“Just wondering why you would do that, you seemed pretty friendly in there.” He shrugs.

“Look Dev, not that this is any of your business, but there’s nothing between me and your brother and there never will be. We’re friends and I offered to help him out.” I snap, getting right in his face.

It’s only when I stop talking and Devlin looks down at my mouth that I realise how close we are.

“What if you get hurt?” He asks, sounding honestly concerned for me.

“Why would I?” I ask, my voice lowering as the tension becomes thick between us.

“Tash, if one of these girls is a fucked up psycho and you run in with a balls to the wall attitude, they could flip.” He frowns.

“I can handle myself against a girl Dev.” I grin. “Why are you so interested anyway? Are you thinking of hiring me for my services too?”

As soon as the words come out my mouth I cringe. Shit, what did I say that for?

Devlin’s face turns smug and he snickers. “That depends on which ones you’re offering Tash.”

I take a step back, trying to clear my head of Devlin but it’s no use. It seems Devlin doesn’t want any space between us because he steps closer to me again, closing the gap and looking me straight in the eye. His dark eyes widening as he stares into my blue ones, the action causing my breath to hitch.

“If you’re offering what you do for Baby, then I don’t need that. When I have a woman, I enjoy making her come undone and scream my name, but once it’s done she’s out. No sleeping together and no cuddling, not with a random. That shit is for old ladies, and it will stay that way until I find her.”

Devlin continues to remain his eye contact and his words shake me to the bone.

“Good luck finding her.” I whisper.

Devlin tilts his head to the side, observing me. “What makes you think I haven’t found her already?”

My heart pauses, and then continues hard and fast. The way he’s looking at me, and his words, make me think he’s talking about me. He couldn’t be. We’re friends, nothing more. Sure we had that kiss when I first came here, but it was needy of me and awkward.

Devlin can’t be talking about me really, could he?

I don’t know what to say. I’m speechless. Suddenly the kitchen door bursts open, but I don’t take my eyes away from Devlin right away.

“There you are!” I hear Lauren and tear my eyes from the man in front of me and see Lauren smiling from the door. “I need your help!”

She stops smiling as she looks between Devlin and me then frowns. She takes in the scene in front of her and I haven’t a clue what she’s thinking. We must look odd, Devlin standing so close to me and staying silent.

I look at Devlin, who is still looking at me. I don’t have the slightest clue what’s going on here. I see Lauren’s eyebrows raise and her mouth begin to open, no doubt wanting to ask what’s going on.

“Bye.” I whisper to Devlin before I break away.

I quickly walk over to Lauren and take her arm in my hand, dragging her out the kitchen.

“What the fuck was that?” She asks, but I don’t answer.

I carry on walking though the clubhouse, not looking at anyone and taking Lauren with me.

“Natasha!” She shouts and I pause as we reach the front door to the clubhouse. “Are you ok?”

I take a deep breath, feeling so much calmer than I was in the kitchen with Devlin.

“Yes.” I answer and even I can hear the breathlessness of my voice.

Lauren raises her eyebrows, not believing me but I can’t answer her. I don’t even know what was happening between us.

“He caught me helping Baby and wanted answers.” Is all I can say to get her off of my back.

After a couple of seconds, Lauren slowly nods and places her hands on her hips. “Yeah, Brandon seems to be a little confused too.”

I loudly sigh and rolls my eyes. “I’m helping a friend. Perhaps I shouldn’t do it anymore.”

I don’t wait around any longer. I push open the door and walk out into the welcoming fresh air.

“Where are you going?” Lauren asks.

“I don’t know!” I shout back. Anywhere is better than here right now.

“I need your help!” She replies in a louder voice than mine. “I need an outfit for tomorrow!”

I stop in my tracks and look up to the sky. A shopping trip is just what I need right now. I spin around to look at Lauren and see she’s already smiling at me. The bitch knows me so well.