Exodus (31 page)

Suddenly she is choking on tears. Fox looks at her, shocked and silent.

“What could my grandfather have done?” His voice breaks. “How could he save everyone in the world? Maybe the people of the New World did what they could!”

Mara rubs away her tears and tries to steady herself. Now she tells Fox the story of Candleriggs and her rebellion over the New World's refusal to take in anyone that didn't pass its stringent intelligence test, of the abandonment of the flood refugees, and of how his grandfather had thrown the girl he once loved out of the New World with the other rebels, in order to save his dream.

“Candleriggs was sure that there must have been people in the New World who felt as she did,” Mara remembers, “but they were too fearful for their own safety to speak out. She wishes now that she had been less hotheaded and had spoken out with more understanding about their fears. Then the rebels might have had many more people with them, they might have changed public opinion and Caledon would have had to listen to his citizens—he couldn't throw them all out of the New World, could he? He would have
had
to make the kind of world that they wanted to live in. But nobody else spoke out so it was easy to get rid of the rebels. Fox, there might be plenty of good-hearted people here who would be horrified if they knew the truth about the outside world. Surely they would want to help.”

Mara thinks of Dol and her friends. She has judged them all so harshly. Perhaps, if they knew about the slaves and the refugees, they would be appalled. But would they be willing to stand up against it?

Fox is trembling violently, shocked to the core by what she has just told him. Suddenly Mara is full of fear too. What if he's so upset that he confronts his grandfather? Then she will be found out. Or he'll decide he doesn't believe her after all and then what will he do?

She must calm him down.

“Look,” she says softly, and slips off the armchair onto the floor beside him.

Mara takes off her small backpack. It goes everywhere with her, to keep its contents safe.

On the floor she lays out her treasures: the black lump of meteorite, Wing's bone dagger, Gorbals's book of poems,
A Tale of Two Cities
, the dried herbs, her old-fashioned cyberwizz. And the book on Greenland.

“This dagger,” she tells him, “is thousands of years old. It's from a museum in the old place of learning that sits high on a hill in the drowned world—the university your grandfather went to. It's the place he began his dream of the new cities. An urchin found it, a small child who risked his life to get me out of the boat camp and inside the wall. He has nothing, no parents, not even a name, so I called him Wing, after my island. Now he's a slave.”

Fox stares.

“This lump of meteorite is even older than the dagger,” she continues, holding it in the palm of her hand. “It's older than anything on Earth—as old as the universe.”

Mara points to her globe and halo and wand. “Here's my cyberwizz that I used on my island, when you stalked me on the Weave. It's ancient technology compared to yours.” She touches the leather-bound books. “These are from the book rooms of the university. This one is an amazing story of the old world. The other—well, I'll tell you about it later. These …” she picks up Gorbals's notebook, “are the poems of a Treenester. My friend. He rescued book litter from the sea, pulped it into new paper, and wrote his poems on it with charcoal embers from the sundown fire. But like the little urchin, he's been stolen from his world to be a slave for yours.”

Now Mara opens the book to the pages where she has pressed the sprig of rosemary entwined with wild thyme. “Herbs,” she tells Fox, “one from my island, the other grown in the netherworld. All these things are from the past or from the drowned world.”

Now Mara opens a page of Gorbals's lumpy paper and begins to read the clumsy scribbles.

Fox stares at Mara's treasures. Gingerly, he reaches out and picks up the sprigs of rosemary and thyme, sniffs them, and blinks in surprise at their sharp scents that are so unlike the synthetic aroma of noofood. One by one he picks up each object and examines it closely. Last of all he picks up the bone dagger and turns it over in his hands, testing the blade. His eyes are faraway and full of thoughts Mara can't read. But he's calm now.

“I didn't just come here to find you,” she says quietly. “I came here to find my friends Gorbals and Wing—the Treenester poet and the little child who were taken to be slaves. I came to rescue them. The Treenesters are surviving on a tiny island in the ruins of the drowned world but if the ocean rises again, and it's sure to soon, they won't
even have that and they'll drown too. Then there are all the people in the boat camp …” Mara sighs in despair. “Fox, I need you to help me. Maybe I can't rescue them all but I want to give as many people as possible the chance to escape, to get them in boats and—”

She stops.

“And?” Fox demands. “What will you do then? Set them free upon the ocean to drown there?”

“No,” says Mara, picking up the book on Greenland and hugging it tight to her chest. “There's land in the north of the world. I'm sure of it. This book convinced me. It's called the land of the people. I'm going to get there—I'm going to take the slaves and the Treenesters and the boat people—as many as I can rescue. But Fox, the New World should be doing all this! It could. Even if it won't take in refugees it could at least seek out whatever high, safe places there are left on Earth and provide ships and give us a chance to have some kind of future. Why can't you do that? You don't need those places. You're all stuck up here, safe in your own world, and you just don't care!”

There is a long, awkward pause. Fox doesn't look at her. He stares at the floor, his face mostly hidden by his hair.

“Why do you care so much?” he asks quietly, at last.

“Look at me,” Mara commands.

He flinches at her tone and looks up. Then flinches again at her fierce gaze. But her eyes hold his.

“I care …” Mara's voice shakes with anger, “because I'm one of them.
I'm
a refugee.”

His lips part. He gives a soft gasp and his pale face flushes.

“And because of my family and all the people I've lost,” she says bitterly.

“Of course,” he murmurs.

Fox blinks, and she feels him, in one long, encapsulating glance, register her skinny body, her skin tone, the sharp bones of her face, and the fading scar on her cheek. Her body burns with humiliation; she can feel him judging, gauging, evaluating her in an uncomfortably different way from before. When he meets her blazing eyes, he drops his gaze in confusion.

“I suppose I was imagining that a refugee would be, well, different. You
are
different—different from anyone I've ever met—but you're not so unlike me … I mean you're not—not …” he trails off, embarrassed, unwilling to voice what he thought.

“Not what? Not stupid? Not dirty? Not quite human? Just some kind of—of outcast?” Mara's anger becomes confusion as she remembers gentle Broomielaw's contempt for the urchins for exactly these reasons. And also, she's scared. Scared that Fox won't want to have anything to do with her now that he knows what she is—someone his world considers to be less than human, undeserving of care or compassion or even the right to a life.

“I'm sorry,” says Fox. His face flushes even deeper. “You're obviously not any of those things. You're quite, um, amazing, I think.”

“Amazing, am I?” Mara lets out a breath of relief. Then she gives a brittle laugh. “I was filthy enough in the boat camp and the netherworld. And I've certainly been stupid.” Her voice shakes and she swallows.

Hesitantly, Fox reaches out and touches her hand. The touch zips up her arm like electricity.

“Listen,” she says, his touch unsettling and steadying her, all at once.

Now she tells him the final part of her story—all about the legend of the Face in the Stone and the statue of Thenew
that is her own image, even down to the scar on her face that is also strangely repeated in the crack in the mirror of Granny Mary's little box. Last of all, she describes the signs in the old city that the Treenesters believe is the stone-telling.

“And they say that when the signs come together then the stone-telling will happen and they will be free. The one who is the Face in the Stone will lead them to their true home in the world. That's what they believe. They believe it's me,” Mara finishes quietly. Her face crinkles in a frown. “I don't believe it's me but somehow I seem to be trying to live out their expectations because—because …” she casts around for the reason and finds it, “I don't have anything else to live for.”

Fox stares at her, mesmerized.

“Will you help me?” Mara pleads.

Fox puts his head in his hands. The tawny tangle of hair spills over his eyes again, but this time his eyes stay fixed on hers. Mara feels the tug inside that pulled her toward him even in a distant electronic universe. Nervously, hesitantly, she reaches out and touches his hair.

“Help me,” she urges, “and maybe I can help you.”

His face tightens. “I'll help you, Mara,” he tells her. “But how can you help me? And why would you want to?”

Mara can't answer; she only knows that she does want to.

They talk deep into the night. At some point, in the gap between words, they both fall asleep, sprawled in exhaustion beside each other on the floor with the scatter of old world treasures all around them. In the middle of the night Mara wakens in fright. The world sways and lurches and she can't remember where on earth she is. On a boat out on the ocean? In a nest in a tree?

“Mom?” she whimpers. “Broomielaw?”

Someone reaches out and pulls her close. Mara hears the gallop of heartbeats—her own and another's. She feels her own fear and the still intensity of the other one. And something else, something raw and primitive, thrilling and scary.

“Fox?”

“Here.”

His touch becomes the whole world. His mouth, hands, hair, every limb and muscle, every cell of his body, becomes part of her own. All thoughts of the past and the future scatter. The outside world and the sky city all around them, everything beyond this moment and this room, seem distant, fragile, unreal. All that exists, all that Mara feels, is the power of now.

Mara wakens as darkness is lifting. Drowsily, she watches light ooze into the room from some unknown source, like a gently breaking sunrise. Yet there are no windows in the room, just the undulating walls. Fox is still wrapped around her, his face soft with sleep.

She still can't believe she has found him. As she gazes at the face that, until last night, she had never seen, studying his features, learning him by heart, he yawns and opens his eyes, wide awake in an instant. For a second he looks bewildered to see her there, right beside him. And all of a sudden Mara feels shy and strange to be so close in the bright morning light to someone who is, in so many ways, unknown. His face mirrors her own clash of emotions. Then he closes his eyes again and, slowly, kisses her. The kiss rushes through her like a live current. Her body knows with an astonishing certainty what her mind still struggles to comprehend—that she has never felt such a strong connection with anyone or anything in the world.

They lie together, close and silent, for a while.

“I'm
starving
,” he suddenly grins.

He jumps out of bed and grabs a jug of juice and a bowl of the large, soft bread rolls that seem to be full of air. But Mara tucks in ravenously. Fox gulps juice, watching her,
as if he hasn't a clue what to do about this girl who has fallen out of the Weave and crashed into his life.

“What about your parents?” she asks, to break the tense silence. “Where are they?”

He mentioned them only briefly last night, Mara noticed, though they talked for hours.