Fallen Desire (22 page)

The black is from all the guilt he carriers on himself from hurting so many people and then the white and gold are his angelic parts that are still inside of him. 
Avarie on the other hand was surrounded with the bright emerald green aura with violet at the edges.  I could see Derrick in the forest had a glowing white coming off of him with blue lined around the aura stating that he’s an angel but is loving and caring and truly pure.  I’m not really sure how this helps me.  The only thing I can think is that by seeing the aura of a demon helps give insight to if they are worthy of redemption.  Like with Ethan, I can see that his aura does contain white and gold.  Maybe that means that there’s angel still inside of him and the Demon hasn’t fully taken over.  This would be a good moment for Derrick to show up that way he could explain to me what it is I’m supposed to do with this information.  Maybe I should be testing it out and seeing if I can read people.  The only person I can think of right now is Kim since my parents are off at work like always. 

I’ll just shoot her a text: 
Kim…At home and bored! Wanna hang out? 
It took a few minutes but she responded:
Oh! So you only need me when you’re bored!  Guess I’m full of fun. LOL Do you wanna meet in town at the Starbucks down the street from the high school? 
Coffee in the afternoon isn’t really my idea of a good time but I do want to expose myself to people in order to learn to read them? 
Sure.  Heading out now.  See you soon. 
My computer screen is still on, so I close it down and jump up out of my desk in my room.  In front of me is my body-length mirror.  My long straight brown hair is frazzled from being out in the forest in the gloomy weather.  I’m still in my sweats and a sweatshirt.  I’m looking like I just woke up.  I throw on my dark blue worn jeans with a white V-neck T-shirt and a cream zip up sweatshirt and my white high top converse.  Putting my hair up in a ponytail, I do my face up just a bit so I look presentable and then head out the door.  The school is not too far of a walk and the Starbucks is just a block away. 

I had to put my hoody over my head to protect my ears from the cold breeze.  For it being the middle of summer, this is sure a cold windy day.  Even though the sun isn’t out, I take in a deep breath of fresh aid and clear my mind.  The whole walk is silent and peaceful as
I focus on my surroundings and focus on nature in order to forget the situation for the time being and for a moment everything seems normal.  The walk seems really quick. 

Walking up to the Starbucks parking lot, all the people that are walking by and getting in and out of their vehicles have colorful glows surrounding them.  It’s a world full of color gleaming off of everyone around.  This lady with brunette hair and a tall lean build is getting into her car and is
glowing the most beautiful violet color.  While walking into Starbucks, I can see all the people with the different colors beaming off of them and at first it’s overwhelming since these coffee shops are always packed.  The colors are mixing with how close some of the people are to one another.  In all the bright colors I’m able to spot out Kim who’s sitting in the right corner at a small two-person table.  She’s glowing with a white as well as a brilliant green that’s surrounding her entirely.  I slowly pull out my little cheat sheet and read that green shows love of people, animals, nature and social.  This completely reflects her personality and her love for being social but also her love for people.  As soon as she spots me, she stands up, and I watch the glowing white and green move with her body.  I know that the white stands for purity and angelic qualities, but I know there’s no way Kim’s an angel.  It must mean that she’s a good person.  I let it go and put my arms around her to give her the biggest hug I can. 

“Wow, Lindsay!  You okay?”  She asks.

Normally I would start crying and letting out all my frustration, but since I already did that with Derrick there isn’t really much left.  Thankfully since we’re in a public place I really don’t want to have a breakdown in front of all these people either. “Yeah, I’m okay.  I just feel like I don’t get to talk to you anymore.  I’ve had so much happen.  How are you doing?” 

I want to tell her everything, about Ethan and Derrick and the aura’s I see but I can’t.  I have to keep it to myself.  “Good.  I’ve just been busy you know.  Shopping, hanging out at the clubs.  You know the things that make life fun!” 

I can always count on Kim to cheer me up with her enthusiasm.  “Well, I’m glad to hear you’re having fun.  I do need to have a night out, but I guess I’ve been wrapped up in things with Ethan.  But that’s done for now at least.” 

She cocks her head at me, “What?  Why?” 

I have to tell her something, “I guess you could say we’re taking a little break.  I saw Derrick today, though.”  Hopefully changing the conversation will keep Kim from asking too many questions about Ethan and me. 

“Oh, yeah?
  Where did you see him at?” 

“Well, actually I was behind my house in the wooded area and I just happened to run into him.  Kind of strange but it was nice seeing him.” 

She shakes her head at me, “What were you doing just hanging out in the woods?  I don’t think that is very safe, Lindsay.” 

If I tell her I went out there based on a feeling I had she would really think I’ve lost my mind.  “I needed to get some fresh air, so I went for a walk and just kept walking until I found myself in the woods and ran into Derrick.  I’m not really sure what he was doing there, but nonetheless it was nice seeing him.  How about you?  Have you talked with him lately?  During school it was like you guys were inseparable.  Well, I guess we all three were.”

“Yeah, I’ve seen him around, but he can be kind of boring at times, if you know what I mean.  He isn’t too much into the partying and having fun.  Sometimes he’s just a little too serious for me.” 

I smile and shake my head, “I know what you mean.  He does seem all business and no fun.”  We both laugh a little at the same time.  It’s nice having a girlfriend to laugh with.  I feel like I never laugh anymore.  I’m always stressed lately. 

I wish I could get back to those moments with Ethan, they were absolutely incredible.  Ethan!  I really need to stop thinking about him.  I’m never going to be able to focus on what I want to accomplish with my mind always wandering back to Ethan.  The coffee is good, and we both sit here in silence for a little while, enjoying the surroundings and the warm coffee in hand.  The coffee shop is actually really large.  All the people behind the counter are moving so quickly to get the orders of coffee filled and the line from the counter goes out through the door.  All the tables are now filled with people chatting and others on their laptops.  The room is beautifully filled with all the different colors of auras, varying from red to lavender and green to blue. 

It’s amazing, and if I focus on them it isn’t too overwhelming.  Kim is still glowing with her brilliant green color and now that I’m focusing I do see the white lining her aura and it’s gorgeous.  She’s beautiful with her blonde bouncy curls and her skin that glows a radiant shade of olive.  I don’t stand out the way that she does in a room and she doesn’t even have to try.  That’s something I’ve always envied of her.  I can’t help but be anxious to get together with Derrick so that he can help me with grounding myself and finding my abilities with the elements.  I really hope he has some kind of spell book or something, because the chants that
Avarie had me say is something I could never be creative enough to come up with on my own.  For the rest of today, though, all I’m going to do is enjoy my time with Kim.

NINETEEN

Derrick

Speaking with Lindsay has me thinking.  Her spirit is as pure as an Angel’s and she’s the most beautiful human I’ve come in contact with.  She’s amazing
.  I only agreed to help her so that she’d stay away from Ethan.  There’s no way she’ll be able to save him and I won’t give her the opportunity to try.  His kind deserves to die, those that chose to side with Lucifer after the fall don’t deserve any kind of forgiveness.  I may have gone against God’s wishes to destroy mankind but I never did and never will let the evil that roams this earth and those in it consume me.  Lucifer’s descent was not because he cared about mankind but because he wanted to take God’s place and was selfish and greedy.  Those who followed him in the fall also became consumed with evil and now all they do is feed off of innocent souls to keep the evil within them fed.  I won’t allow him to harm her.  She’s too valuable.  Little does she know she can help me and the others that have formed a group to rid the earth of demons for good.  I’ll train her to use her powers to help us.  I’ll show her the dark side of those like Ethan and once she sees what they’re capable of, she’ll change her mind.  He’s putting on this show for her that disgusts me.  It’s only the littlest bit of angel quality that he has left in him that lures her in, once she sees that this is what they use to capture their next soul she will see him for what he truly is.  I’m the one who has possession of the book.  I’ll have some sort of control and I can guide her on the right path.  I have an old witch friend from back in London to thank for the book of “The Redeemer”.  She told me that one day the redeemer would come and that this book would help me in teaching that soul to use the powers gifted to aid the Fallen Angels in destroying those that became Demons.   

Elizabeth was her name, and she felt the same way I do – that the demons can never be saved and even once the redeemer does come they will not deserve it and it is our duties as Angels of God to see that
they are never returned to his side.  Her teachings are what led me to joining a group of Fallen Angels who will take out the demons with the help of the redeemer’s powers once the redeemer was reborn on earth.  For the Redeemer is the only one who can kill a Fallen Angel or Demon.  The time I had with Elizabeth was such a turning point for me.  I spent so many centuries wasting time doing nothing.  All I’ve ever wanted was to be able to prove myself to God, prove that I have the abilities of a great Angel. 

Even though there is evil in mankind I want nothing more than to show Him the love that is here as well.  I spent so much time following those that did spectacular things to help others, once I realized that God no longer cared, I knew that all I could do at this point was to get rid of the evil on earth that doesn’t belong.  I can’t change mankind because without evil there could be no good but I can kill the evil that doesn’t belong here.  I know now that this is my purpose.  Lindsay is the type of person that drives me to continue my path of ridding earth of demons.  She’s a human that has no evil and she is pure.  It’s her and those like her that keep me on this path.  She’s special and I will protect her and keep her safe from Ethan.  If she learns her abilities and tries to run around saving demons, she’ll just end up with her soul taken.  They will show no mercy.  I won’t allow that to happen to her.  She means too much to me and when she came here and I first got sight of her I knew she was special.  There’s a reason why she was brought here.  We all have our greater purposes and hers is to be with me and stand by my side during the war that will come.  She has so much power inside of her and once she can use it she will be more powerful than any angel that could stand by my side. 

I’ll go to her tomorrow, and we’ll spend day after day practicing until she’s ready – and once she is I will show her the demon world and open her eyes to the truth that is all around her.  Her sight gives her the clear ability to see the Demons.  By the time I’m done with her, not only will she see those that are Angels and those that are Demons but she will see those that have passed.  She’s capable of seeing all those that exist.  She will also hold the power of magic not only in spells but pure power within her.  I will do all I can to show Lindsay how much I love her and I have faith that in the end she will choose to stand by my side.  I’ll never allow Ethan to tamper with her soul. 

All I’ve been able to do is stand by for centuries as Demons fed on innocent people, taking their souls, taking from humans the only thing that makes them who they are.  I will no longer stand down and allow the demons to wreak their havoc unpunished.  Whatever makes the Guardians think that it’s okay to let Demons roam free as long as they obey the law of not killing humans is beyond me.  Allowing them to take part of a humans soul is just as bad as killing them.  The laws that the Council of the Fallen put down after the fall were all to protect the earth from war between Angels and Demons.  They felt that there would be too many innocent sacrifices and Yolanda’s unwavering love for her demon mate, Laurence, who is on the Council didn’t help much either.  I know that the whole purpose of having demons and angels on the Council is to keep it balanced and equal so that we can both inhabit earth without there
being a war but we should not just sit around while demons are out there harming humans.  Many are killing them as well but the killings aren’t being reported.  It’s only a matter of time before the Angels fight back and I’ll be there when it happens.  Not all the Angels on my side are the Fallen, but they inhabit this earth as well and want nothing more than to help me kill the Demons.  We have gone to the Council over and over again trying to convince Yolanda, Laurence and the rest that many demons are breaking the law.  

No matter how much proof we had or ho
w many times we went to them, they turned us down every time, telling us that if they allowed the angels to begin a war with the demons it would only bring more harm to the innocent humans and would bring destruction to this planet.  Now that we have the Redeemer, we can take care of this war without hurting any humans and it will be quick.  There will be no long battle filling the sky in Angels and Demons.  There will only be the silent tracking down of each and every one of them and the use of Lindsay’s magic.  It will be a silent war.