Fallocaust (The Fallocaust Series) (48 page)

I had to take what I could get, I felt a pit in my stomach as I unbuttoned my pants. I hoped Reaver didn’t have a feed to the bathroom. I didn’t want him to see me have to do this. I had envisioned our first time together and it didn’t involve him seeing me naked for the first time on a video camera showing myself to a mad scientist.

I pulled my pants and underwear down, exposing myself to him. My face went hot as the humiliation went through me. It took me back to the overpass, to the taunting legionaries. I stiffened my upper lip, knowing Reaver wasn’t around to save me. If he wanted to fuck me right now, he could. With Reaver either seeing it or hearing it. I was relying on the shoddy morals of a mentally deranged chimera.

The scientist stared at my groin, he made the motion to touch it but I backed away. He chastised himself under his breath and nodded before leaving the room. Shutting the door behind him.

I looked for a lock after he left, but there wasn’t one. So I quickly took off the rest of my clothes fighting back the tears. Hopefully the bath water would wash them away. If Reaver could see me, I didn’t want him to see me crying. I had to be brave for us, so we could both get out of this alive.

I got into the warm water and tried to wash myself off. The once crystal clear water soon became saturated with my grime. It was sad in a way, all things pure eventually become clouded and contaminated.

Well, at least I could make myself a little less grimy. I grabbed my satchel and got out my bar of soap. I washed myself off as best as I could.

The water around me became rosy pink as I washed the blood away from my lower arms. I ran them under some hot water to try and wash away any grime that had collected. It stung, but my body felt more relaxed in the hot water. The aches and pangs disappeared in the murky water and even my throat felt better after inhaling some steam.

I sat back and relaxed in the bath water. I would stay in here as long as I could. I was so tired, sore and scared.

But Reaver was alive, and Perish wouldn’t hurt me if I obeyed him. The only trick was getting what I needed from him as quickly as possible, without Reaver or me getting hurt. Or me well... having to do bad things with Perish.

I didn’t even realize I had fallen asleep. I was woken up to Perish pulling me out of the water.

“You’re about to drown yourself, silly,” he said lightly. I felt a clean towel get draped on me. “Are you tired?”
I looked around the white room; cold bathroom tile underneath my naked body. Perish made me stand, but I was still unsteady. The remaining drugs I had taken when I thought he was going to rape me was fully in my bloodstream now. I realized I was out of it and stoned as hell.

“Yeah,” I slurred, pulling the towel over me like it was a cloak. Perish handed me a pair of cloth pants which I gladly put on.

“How about we stitch up your arms, and you can have some ice cream,” Perish said. “Then we can watch movies, have picnics, play board games.”

I watched as he left and followed him down the hall. This guy had probably read a lot of books and watched a lot of romance movies over his years living alone. He probably had everything planned out for when he found his perfect boyfriend. I must have fallen right into his lap when he saw me in Donnely.

“Can Reaver have ice cream?”

“Sure!”

“Can I bring it to him? And you can get the medical things?”
“Okay.”

We came into the kitchen and I leaned up against the doorway as he brought out a large cardboard container with the Dek’ko label on the front. I had never even seen that sold in any of the Dek’ko shops back in the factory. And of course it was impossible for merchants to bring it all the way to Skyfall.

He handed me a plastic bowl full of white ice cream with brown bits in it. I walked towards where I knew Reaver was being held, Perish followed.

He opened the door. “Get back!” he commanded. “I’ll get you in a second, leave the blinds open. Okay? Reaver I hear anything I’ll explode you. Understand?”

“Got it.” He sounded like he was saying it through clenched teeth.

I came inside and the door closed behind me. I put the ice cream down and leapt into his arms. He squeezed me so hard I cried out.

“You don’t know what the fuck you’re doing.” His harsh whisper cut me like glass, he squeezed harder. I could feel his finger nails dig into my arms. I was confused, not scared, just confused and worried about his state.

“Reaver... you’re hurting me,” I gasped but he didn’t stop, if anything it made him grasp harder.

“He fucking jacked off outside of your door, you know that right?”

“I didn’t let him touch me, I promise.”

He jerked me away from him, he looked at me with such anger I thought he was going to hit me. “You think I’m that much of a fucking asshole that that’s what I care about? You
letting
him touch you?” His fingernails dug in further, my eyes started to brim. “Killian, he’s sneaky and dangerous. He’s going to rape-”

I cut him off. “I told him the legionnaires raped me, he shut down after. It hit a nerve with him... Reaver, he’s Perish Dekker. He’s a chimera, like General Kessler and the councillor Elish. Silas made him like this. I can control him, I know his type. I know what he wants and what he will and will not do. Please, Reaver. He wont touch me, he had the chance but he didn’t,” I said quickly. “I can get the password out of him, and your detonator. Just give me time, please?”

“No, get the detonator and I’ll make him tell us the password. Believe me I have ways.” Reaver looked crazed.

“No, no I won’t risk it.”

Reaver dropped me, I fell down in front of him. I looked at my arms and saw vicious nail marks in them. My boyfriend turned away from me, his chains were rattling as he shook with rage.

“Trust me, Reaver,” I said, I found myself trembling too. I pulled the towel over me and sniffed. “We have no other way, not without you dying, and me being trapped here for all eternity. Or both of us dying.”

“He’s... he’s dangerous... he fucking jacked himself right-”

“He’s a mentally retarded idiot who just befriended someone who might be even more crazy than he is and he hurt my boyfriend.” I got up and put my hand on his shoulder. “I might be soft and a wuss Reaver, but I’m not stupid. You can’t get out of here doing what you’re good at, but I can doing what I’m good at.”

“You’re not good at anything,” Reaver snapped jerking his arm away from me.

“I’ve read more psychology books than you’ve had birthdays.” I reminded him. “Reaver, I’m smarter than he is. He’s simple and lonely. He’s vulnerable and he likes me.”
“Killian... he’s dangerous. Haven’t you seen how quickly he snaps?”

“I’m learning him, and it wont happen again.”

I could see the inner struggle playing over and over again in my boyfriend’s mind. I had to convince the most stubborn man in the greywastes that I could do this. Though I was convincing myself just as much as I was convincing him.

“Promise me, you wont do anything stupid. Obey him and play nice.” I kissed his bad ear gently. “And in return, I promise I wont let him touch me. I’m sure I can fake a panic attack if he tries.”

“Yeah, you’re good at losing your mind,” Reaver growled. “Crying and going nuts, that’s what you’re good at.”
“I can manipulate him, Reaver,” I whispered, holding his ice cream out to him. “I can be brave, I can do this for us. Trust me.”

Reaver snatched the ice cream and sat down on the floor with it. He looked absolutely crazy, but not Perish’s goofy nut job crazy, Reaver looked dangerous. I told myself I shouldn’t be scared of him, but then I remembered that everyone back in Aras had told me I should be.

“You... you haven’t slept have you?” I whispered, he didn’t have any drugs on him either. He was a sleep deprived, sober, chained animal. I felt the pain in my arms from where he had grabbed me. I had to get us out of here quickly or he would go kamikaze on Perish. Even if he did get the password from him the moment he left the lab his head would be blown off. I didn’t trust Reaver to remember that in the heat of the moment.

My dark haired sentry spooned some ice cream into his mouth and watched the screens. He shook his head. “No sleep, watching.”
“That’s... baby that’s four days... over four days,” I whispered, suddenly his unstable behavior made a lot more sense. I dug into my satchel for some of his drugs, all of our drugs were in Reno’s bag which had been left behind in the closet. We had nothing.

“I’m fine,” Reaver said, eating more ice cream. He looked like he was thinking, planning? I watched him eat. When he was done he set the bowl down.

“If he touches you, fake a panic attack and try and get him to get Reno’s bag with the xanax in it, if he’s out of the lab you can look for the key to my collar and swipe some key cards.” Reaver said, his voice was flat and almost automated. Like his brain had recorded a message and he had just pressed play.

“Okay, baby,” I whispered, I put a hand on his shoulder. I felt him tense, but I just had to touch him. “I’m just...” I sighed, feeling a lump in my throat. “Glad you’re alive.”

Reaver’s eyes flickered to mine. “I would never ever leave you.”

The door opened and I saw Perish’s foot hold it open. “Out, Killian.”

“Did you bring the black bag with you?” Reaver asked, looking up at the scientist. This must be the beginning of my acting career.

“No, it was on the quad,” I said getting up. “I’ll be fine though.”

“What is it?” Perish asked, he was holding something in his hand. It looked like a stuffed lizard.

“Killian needs medication. You know that horrible thing that happened to him at the hands of your master’s Legion? He has mental issues from it and started taking medication for it. You didn’t bring that for him?”
Perish’s face went from surprised to a look of concern. “No... I didn’t know.”

“He’ll have anxiety attacks without them,” Reaver said, shoveling more ice cream into his mouth. “You’re his boyfriend now, it’s your job to make sure he’s okay.”

Anyone in their right mind would have seen Reaver was being manipulative towards the scientist, but he didn’t have a clue. He looked at me, then kissed my cheek. Reaver’s eyebrow twitched.

“I’ll help him, I’ll just love him. I’ll make it not hurt him. Like he’ll make me feel better,” he declared clapping his hands.

Well shit, this was going to be a bit harder than I thought.

“He needs his medication,” Reaver said angrily. “You’re a piece of shit boyfriend if you deny him his medicine. I’m a fucking mercenary and I care more than you.”

The scientist’s fingers clenched around the lizard. “Step outside, Killian.” Before I could react he pushed me out of the room, with the stuffed lizard falling to the tile floor. The door slammed and moments later I heard a sickening thunking sound as he started hitting Reaver.

When Reaver let out the first groan I put my hands over my ears and tried to hold back the tears. I swear I could hear it no matter how hard I pressed. I kept expecting to hear a gun shot, or the sound of Reaver decapitating him with his bare hands but there was nothing.

I only saw Reaver for a moment when Perish opened the door. He was staring into space, his nose and mouth were streaming blood and his already bruised face was red and swelling.

He picked up the stuffed lizard and gave me an angry look. I stared back, resisting the urge to attack him. I was understanding what all of this was putting Reaver through, seeing this crazy fuck hurt the one you love was rage inducing.

This was my chance though. If I didn’t go through with this, it would all be for nothing.

“Next time, will you let me hit him too?” I asked.

Perish’s angry face brightened, he squeezed the lizard to him and clasped his hands together again. He gave me a nod and started walking back down the hallway.

After he gave me a white lab coat to wear, he brought me to a living room type place. It was the only room I had seen so far that was painted. It had light blue walls, with paintings and old Skyfall advertisement posters hung on them. There were bookshelves and shelves full of movies, surrounding a large TV.

There was also lots of furniture. Stuffed, clean couches covered in flower fabric, polished coffee tables and side tables, all on a thick blue and white rug. I had to put my hand down to feel the carpet. Reaver’s carpet was a mat, caked with dirt no matter how hard you scrubbed. This one was fluffy with thick thread, you could sleep on it and be in luxury. Perish giggled at my odd actions but he let me touch everything for a few minutes. The coffee table was soft and smooth from the polish. There was even a new chess board in a corner with two chairs on either side. It had real pieces too. I had only played chess with knuckle bones.

“Come and sit down, I would like to stitch your arms before we put the movie on,” Perish said gently. I sat on the couch and started picking the dry blood off of the angry red wounds as he rummaged around. I looked over and saw he had several white cabinets open. The entire wall beside the door was all white shelves and drawers. I could see stacks of clean cardboard boxes, plastic containers filled with medical supplies.

Perish turned around holding a plastic container full of different objects. He sat beside me and picked up a syringe. When he saw the look of fear on my face he smiled reassuringly at me.

“Do you know what a tetanus shot is?”

I nodded. You got tetanus from cutting yourself on something rusty it was usually fatal. Vaccines were available, though they were rarer to come by than working cars. Even in Skyfall only the top elites of Silas got vaccines.

“This will do you for five years,” Perish said taking a glass vile from the container, he snapped the cap off with one finger and poked it into the vial.

I opened my mouth to ask if Reaver could have one, but I clamped it shut. Bad move. Instead my eyes moved to the still open cupboards. In one of those boxes were the vials. I could get Reaver one, Greyson, Leo, Doc and Reno and we could sell the rest. We could make a load of money off of them. With this in mind I was able to remain silent. Perish very gently poked the needle into my arm and withdrew it.