Fighting for Survival (The Estate, Book 3) (37 page)

The knock on the door had her heart pounding in her chest. She checked her appearance quickly in the mirror, smoothing down her hair.

‘Hi,’ said Caren, handing Ruth a carrier bag. ‘We have cake, biscuits and more cake. And before I go home, I’m going to have one of everything.’

‘I fear we have enough cake to last us a month.’ Ruth smiled shyly as Gina hovered in the doorway. She beckoned her in.

Coffee made, Caren started the conversation off.

‘How are you feeling today, Ruth?’

‘I feel a little delicate, I suppose, but other than that, I feel great.’ 

‘You gave us a real fright,’ said Gina, wanting to join in but not sure how much she should say.

‘I think I frightened myself a lot more.’ Ruth picked up a cake and began to nibble at it before replying again. ‘I had no idea that I was going to do something so stupid.’

‘It’s stupid, all right,’ said Caren. ‘But I happen to believe that suicide is really brave. Just think how hard it must be to end your life. I can’t imagine throwing myself in front of a train or hanging myself.’

‘Or taking tablets and getting blotto, like I did? I suppose it was the easy way out but I wasn’t thinking of anyone but myself. It was selfish, really.’

Caren paused. ‘It might have felt like that, but it was a cry for help.’

 Ruth shrugged.

‘Did you want to kill yourself?’ asked Gina.

Caren tutted. ‘Trust you to come out with the one question I needed an answer to but wouldn’t have dared to ask!’

‘I’m a Bradley,’ said Gina. ‘It’s my job. Unless,’ she glanced at Ruth, ‘unless you don’t want to talk about it.’

Ruth shook her head. ‘It’s okay. I’ve thought about nothing else since.’

After Caren and Gina had found Ruth near unconsciousness that night, at the hospital she’d had her stomach pumped out and stayed in overnight to be observed. What she’d found out while she was in there had been her saving grace.

‘The worst thing was that I can’t remember doing it,’ she admitted, her cheeks colouring. ‘I must have been so drunk that I wasn’t thinking straight. I was really upset about not going to Rachel’s funeral and you blaming me for it.’

‘I’m sorry,’ Gina said quietly.

‘No, I’m not blaming you,’ Ruth said quickly. ‘But I think, in a way, I was still grieving for the loss of my family.’

Ruth launched into her past. When she’d told them about Glenn and how devastated she’d been by his death, how she’d thought she was being punished by losing him and how she found it hard to cope with life without him, Caren and Gina finally understood why she had given her boys over into the care of the local authority.

‘That’s some story,’ Caren said, wiping a tear from her eye. ‘And I thought my life was shit when we lost our house. Have you ever thought about getting the boys back?’

‘Lots of times, but I know it’s not the right thing to do.’

‘Says who?’ asked Gina. ‘A bunch of social workers? They don’t know what’s best for you.’

‘They’re not interested in what’s best for me,’ said Ruth. ‘They’re interested in the welfare of Mason and Jamie, and so they should be. They are the most important people in all of this mess. I – I miss them so much but I think what I did was for the best.’

‘Maybe for now, but you should see what you feel like in a few months when you’re more able to cope.’

Ruth nodded. She had been thinking about her future a lot over the past week.

‘How’s Claire doing?’ she asked to take the heat away from her.

‘She’s starting to attend school on a regular basis. Seems she doesn’t want to waste her life now. I think she might be finding her feet more as an individual.’

‘Wow, that’s great.’ Caren picked up a biscuit and raised her cup in the air as a toast. ‘I do hope she settles down. It must be so hard for her.’

Gina felt her eyes brim with tears. ‘It’s so hard to be in that house every day without her. Everywhere I look, there’s a reminder of her.’

‘But that will be a great comfort in time,’ said Caren.

Gina wasn’t so sure. ‘It feels so empty now.’ She smiled. ‘I hadn’t realised how much she and Claire argued. The noise was deafening but the silence without it is so much worse.’

‘I was such a bad mother,’ she added, moments later.

‘I bet you weren’t.’ Ruth smiled. ‘We always feel that everyone else’s life is perfect, that we’re the only ones that aren’t doing it right?’

‘Human nature, I suppose.’

Caren held up her cup. ‘Any chance of another.’

Ruth stood up. ‘I have a bit of Tia Maria left if you fancy adding a tot to it? There’s enough for the two of you.’

‘Aren’t you having any?’ Caren teased.

‘No.’ Ruth placed her hand on her tummy discreetly. ‘I think I need to look after myself a bit better from now on.’

She rejoined them minutes later with fresh drinks. She gave them each a mug and then raised her own high in the air.

‘Here’s to new beginnings,’ she toasted, smiling shyly.

‘And new friendships,’ said Caren.

Gina laughed and raised her mug in the air too. ‘And here’s to no more fighting for survival!’    

EPILOGUE

‘Is that the last of everything?’ John asked as he packed another suitcase and a box into the back of his car.

‘I think so,’ said Gina. ‘Everything else has gone ahead in the van – unless Claire has anything to come.’

‘I’m done.’ Claire came up behind her. She placed both of her hands on Gina’s shoulder and rested her chin on them. ‘Feels strange, doesn’t it?’

‘Yeah.’ Gina saw her mum walking towards her. Across the road, Ruth was rushing over. Some of the neighbours were already standing on the pavement. Surely they weren’t all coming to see them off? Oh, God, she was going to cry.

‘Bleeding hell, I’m only moving a few streets away.’ She waved her hands in front of her face and blinked back tears.

As everyone crowded around to say goodbye, Gina noticed Pete in the doorway. 

‘Ready to go then?’ Caren asked a few minutes later.

Gina held up her hand. ‘Give me a minute?’ She made her way back up the path.

‘You off then?’ he asked.

She nodded, seeming a little shy with him.

‘You don’t have to leave.’

‘Yes, we do.’

Pete stepped down to her and took hold of her hand.

‘Please stay.’

Gina had never seen him looking so forlorn. He looked like he hadn’t eaten much for days – actually she knew that he hadn’t. My God, she realised. He really was going to miss her. But she wasn’t backing down now. The hardest decisions had been made. She turned to leave.

‘I’ll always be around,’ he told her.

But I won’t always need you.

‘I know,’ she replied.

Claire was already in the car. Before she joined her, Gina stopped and looked back at the house.

‘Goodbye, Rachel,’ she whispered. She continued to stare, as if she expected the ghost of her daughter to run across the garden and stop them from leaving.

‘Goodbye, Stanley Avenue,’ Claire said as John drove off.

Gina smiled at her daughter and squeezed her hand. Good riddance more like, she thought. She’d lived her life on Stanley Avenue, moving only from number twenty-eight to number twenty-five. Moving to a flat in Harrison Court was a whole new journey for them both. She was frightened, yet excited; nervous yet intrigued. Could they make it on their own?

Caren thought they could.

Ruth thought they could.

Her family thought they could.

Even Josie Mellor thought they could.

So she’d have to give it a damn good try – even just to prove them all wrong. She’d never done anything on her own before; neither had her daughter.

‘Here’s to our future.’ She smiled at Claire. ‘We’re finished with the scummy side of the street. From now on, it’s Happy Road for me and you.’

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