Finding Us (20 page)

I place one more kiss on his lips, “I’ll see you later.”

I prance back over to my suitcase feeling like I’m on cloud nine, knowing that Knox feels the same way as I do even if we didn’t say the words out loud.

Watching Jasmine say goodbye to the only family I have left was pretty fucking hard, especially with Ava. Those two clicked from the second they laid eyes on each other. If Jasmine didn’t fit in with us that would be the end of it for her and me. I would put my feelings aside for my family, no questions asked. Damn, it would hurt, but they’re all I have left.

Now I just need to figure out a way to break to her what I already know. It’s going to crush her but she needs to know and I have to man up and tell her that she was part of my revenge.

I didn’t see Knox for a few days after we got home. He said he had a lot of work to catch up on since he totally ignored everything while he spent the weekend away. I was a little disappointed but I understood. I’m sure that really set him behind. I didn’t want to be clingy so I stepped back a little and waited for him to reach out to me. Every morning when I woke up I had a good morning text from Knox and it was a perfect start to my day.

Once things return to normal Knox and I fall into an easy pattern. We run together just about every day. Wednesday and Friday are our date nights since I don’t have dance classes on those days. He took me to all my favorite places before he started taking me to his.

At least once a week Knox would shower me with some kind of little gift or do something sweet. He’s delivered flowers to me a few times, each time they are different. He’d swing by the coffee shop just to give me a kiss. But my favorite thing is when he leaves me little notes that I find after he’s left me.

I’ve learned that Knox hates fish and chocolate. Once he’d confessed that I told him he needed his head examined. I learned that Knox really didn’t want to take over his family business. He wanted Rex to do it so that he could pursue a law degree. We’ve talked about his parents a few times and how much he misses them but with time it’s getting easier.

Wednesday, I told Knox that I wanted to cook him dinner and he could grab a movie for us to watch. Of course I didn’t have to worry about Summer being around since she was almost always at Rex’s apartment now. I have a sneaky suspicion that they would be moving in together soon.

I decide to cook something light and easy. I’m sautéing chicken, broccoli and roasted peppers in olive oil while the angel hair pasta cooked. I’m feeling a little nervous since this is the first time I’m cooking for him.

Henry rings me to let me know that Knox is on his way up. I turn the heat down on the stove so nothing burns and wash my hands quickly so I can greet Knox at the door. I wait for him to knock, not wanting to be too anxious.

Knox raps on the door and I take a deep breath before opening the door. This sexy man carries himself with such confidence. Knox is wearing a three piece dark grey suit with a stark blue shirt that matches his eyes. My stomach does a little flip and my panties grow damp. All I can think about is stripping him out of his clothes and running my hands all over his impeccable body.

Knox smirks at me ogling him. “Are you going to invite me in or are we going to stand out here all night? Either way I don’t care.” He places his strong hands on my hips and pulls me to him. I melt into his body and feel instantly better.

I grab his lapels with both hands and pull him down closer to me. “I missed you.”

Knox places the gentlest kiss on my lips that I’ve ever had, he does it a few more times before taking my bottom lip between his lips and sucking gently. My body is aching for his touch, for more contact at this point.

When he lets go of my lip I sigh and rest my forehead against his. Knox smiles and wraps his arms tighter around me before picking me up and carrying me back into my apartment. He has only been here a handful of times so I’m surprised he moves around my apartment with such ease.

Knox inhales deeply, “You’re cooking?”

I’m in such a cloud I almost forgot. “Yeah.”

Knox sets me down and I go to check on the pasta. I turn the chicken off and drain the pasta since both are ready. I look over my shoulder to see where Knox has gone off too and see that he’s leaning against the counter, just watching my every move.

“Make yourself useful and grab two bowls from that cabinet over there.” I say with a wink and an extra sway in my hips when I walk past him. Knox groans but does as I ask.

When I turn to go grab forks and drinks for us Knox is standing right behind me and my body goes flush with his.

Knox leans into me with his mouth right next to my ear, “You’re gonna pay for that.”

I wish we could just skip dinner and the movie and just head right to the bedroom. Knox laughs and reaches around me to place the bowls on the table. My shoulders slump, payback really is a bitch.

I’ve decided that tonight is the night that I want to take the next step with Knox. I feel like we’re both on the same page and we’re both ready for it. It’s almost happened a few times but somehow we’ve managed to stop.

After dinner Knox and I cuddle up on the couch and forgo the movie and just flip through the channels looking for something to watch. I don’t think either one of us are really paying attention to the TV at all anyway. My body is taut with anticipation, I want him, and I need him.

Knox rubs my bare shoulder and I shiver. “Cold?” he asks, clearly amused with himself.

I roll my eyes and don’t answer.

“Come over here.” Knox says, guiding my body to straddle him.

Knox stares intently into my eyes before slowly and seductively letting his gaze go downward. My heart jolts and my pulse pounds in my ears.

“You’re so fucking beautiful.” Knox reaches up and cups my face between his hands. He kisses me, slowly at first and then with more urgency. His mouth devours mine; his tongue makes love with mine. He let out a groan when I suck on his tongue. Knox stands up, I wrap my arms and legs around him as he moves us to my bedroom.

Suddenly I’m really nervous and I feel like I’m going to lose my dinner. I want to take this next step with Knox but I’m so anxious. We haven’t talked about our past relationships so he doesn’t know that I’ve only slept with one other person and I don’t really have any experience. This past weekend when we were fooling around, everything was great as long as I left my nerves out of it. I just need to remember to do that now. I’m ready for this chapter with Knox.

Knox gently sits me down on my bed and takes a step back. He starts to unbutton his shirt but I stand up and brush his hands away. I take my time unbuttoning each button, prolonging our time together. When I’m finished I run my hands up his chest to his shoulders and push the sleeves down his muscular arms. Knox doesn’t move to help me; he’s letting me do this, letting me run the show. Once his shirt is discarded to the floor I rake my nails down Knox’s chest to his stomach and watch as his muscles jump under my touch. I unfasten his pants and slowly pull the zipper down over his erection. I don’t release him right away. I bend down and trace his erection with a finger and then grab him in my hand. Knox’s head falls back and he groans. I rub him up and down and feel his legs begin to shake.

“Jasmine,” Knox strains to say my name.

I lean forward and kiss just above his belly button while dipping my fingers into the waistband of his boxer briefs and slowly pull his pants down. Knox steps out of his pants and then helps me up.

I start to reach for the hem of my tank top, more than ready to get naked with Knox, but he stops me and takes it off himself. Things feel different this time, more intimate than our time in South Carolina. Knox reaches slowly behind me and unclasps my bra with a flick of his fingers and leans back so that it falls down to the floor while never taking his eyes away from mine. He places a kiss on my lips before making his way down to my neck to the valley between my bare breasts, and down my stomach. Knox circles his tongue over each hip piercing before placing one final kiss right under my belly button. I’m panting and barely able to stand by the time he’s done. He unbuttons my pants and then slides the zipper down. I wiggle out of my skinny jeans and I take a seat on the bed so that he can pull them all the way off. I lift my hips so that Knox can remove my panties but he presses them back down to the bed.
I wasn’t expecting that, maybe we aren’t on the same page tonight.

Knox lifts my right leg and kisses my ankle. I lean up on my elbows so that I can watch what he’s going to do. His eyes are dark and filled with desire. He stares into my eyes as he runs his tongue all the way up to my knee before he kisses right behind my knee, then he finishes his tongue assault by running it up the inside of my thigh. My legs shake so badly that I want to press them together to relieve the ache that is rapidly growing, but his large frame between my legs is making that hard to do.

I run one of my hands through his hair when he kisses me over my panties, right where I want him the most. I wish now that I hadn’t worn any. I’m moaning and squirming trying to get what I need.

Knox moves my panties to the side and sucks my clit into his mouth and my hips arch off the bed. He pushes my hips down and runs his hand up to massage my left breast.

“Knox…please…oh God….” I don’t even know what I’m begging for at this point. I feel like I’m floating away.

“I’m not stopping baby…” He sucks hard on my clit. “Not until you’ve come.” Knox inserts a single finger into me and pumps a few times.

There is a slow warming feeling that creeps into my body right before the whole world starts spinning and I’m drifted away. My heart is beating wildly as I come back down.

Knox is lying next to me with a smirk, he’s satisfied with himself. I reach up and wrap my arms around his neck, bringing him closer to me so that I can kiss him. I can taste myself on his lips and our kiss starts to get carried away; we grope at each other trying to get closer. Knox hovers over my body and he’s staring so intently into my eyes that I can see the love pouring out of them and I feel the exact same way. I’m so sure that I want this right here, right now with him. His arms begin to shake as I run my fingers down his back and grab his ass.

Knox takes a deep breath as he slides against my wetness, “Are you sure about this?”

I nod, unable to talk because he says it with such gentleness I feel the tears pool in my eyes.

Knox reaches over to his discarded pants and grabs his wallet. He throws the pants back on the floor before digging in his wallet for a condom, when he finds it he throws the wallet to the floor as well. He rips the condom open with his teeth and slides it over his erection that is larger then I remember.

Knox positions himself at my entrance and slowly starts to push in. I squeeze my eyes shut from the slight tightness as he fills me.

“Fuck Jas,” Knox grits out. “You’re so fucking tight.” He breathes deeply and begins to rock into me.

We are flesh to flesh, both moaning our desires as we learn what each other likes. Knox intimately roams a hand over my breast and pinches my nipple.

“Ahh…Knox.” I pant as he does it again.

Knox pulls out slowly and then rams back into me hard, making me I scream out in pleasure. He does this a few more times before pulling out of me and flipping me over. He grabs my hips and pulls them towards him and seats himself inside me again. Knox is pounding into me and I’m so close to coming that my vision blurs.

“Knox, I’m…ahh…I’m about to come.” I groan.

He reaches forward and cups both of my breasts in his hands and pulls me so that my back is flush against his chest. His hips still thrust as a hand roams down and he massages my clit. I try to bend over, the sensation is too much.

Knox’s thrusts start to slow down. “Come baby.”

He pinches my clit and I shatter into a million pieces. The last thing I hear is Knox yelling out my name as he finds his own release.

Knox slowly pulls out and I immediately miss him being inside me. He hops off the bed and discards the condom before crawling back in bed and snuggling up against my back.