Gretel (25 page)

Aulwarm.

Anika Morgan was her blood.

Gretel was late meeting Petr at the orchard and had considered not showing up at all. Odalinde’s news about the visit from Officer Stenson—Petr’s father—had left her melancholy, and though she didn’t necessarily feel required to act bubbly for Petr’s sake—they were just a pair of friendly co-workers meeting for lunch after all—she also didn’t want to be a downer.

But by the time noon rolled around the walls of the bedroom started closing in on Gretel, and she decided a picnic was just the thing she needed. Besides, it was about time to push the elephant out of the room and talk about that night on the porch—and Petr’s declaration that his father was not really there to help. Maybe there was nothing substantial to Petr’s ominous words, but she felt she knew him well enough now that he owed her an explanation.

“You’re late,” Petr said, holding the boat steady as he stepped apprehensively onto the wooden bottom. Gretel thought he looked like an old lady as gingerly as he was stepping.

“You’re not afraid of the water are you?” Gretel said playfully.

“No. Not really. Not as long as I’m on top of it and not in it. I can’t really swim that well. And when I say ‘not that well’ I mean not at all.”

“Can’t swim?” Gretel was floored by the revelation. “Whoever heard of a boy in the Back Country who can’t swim?’

“I may be
in
the Back Country, but I’m not
from
the Back Country. Just in case you forgot. And there aren’t many lakes and rivers in the Urban lands.”

Petr maneuvered his way to the center of the boat and reached blindly for a seat.

“You’d better hope the Klahrs keep you in the orchard and never ask you to fish for them,” Gretel teased, gripping a single oar with both hands and launching the boat from the bank.

Petr, who now sat only a few feet away on the bow seat facing Gretel, grimaced at her and she smiled back.

Gretel liked her current position of power, helming the vessel, responsible for the life of her passenger as she gently glided them both toward the cannery. If there was ever a time to ask Petr about that first night they met, she figured now was it. “So how is your father?”

Petr held tightly to the sides of the boat and kept his stare fixed on the water, clearly uncomfortable with his current location so far from shore. “Uh, he’s fine, I guess. Do we need to go this far out?”

“There are some shallow dunes that form close to the bank,” Gretel lied. “We need to stay out far enough to avoid them.” Realistically, they could have stayed twenty feet from the bank and been just fine, but Gretel wanted to keep Petr vulnerable for as long as possible, and hopefully get some answers.

“He came by one day to check on me,” Gretel continued, “a while ago. I wasn’t there. Did you know about that?”

Petr didn’t hesitate. “Yeah, I think I remember him saying something like that.” And then, “Is it much further?”

Gretel ignored the question. “Speaking of your father, do you remember that first day at my house, when your father sent you back for his binder?”

Petr looked up at Gretel and nodded. “Yes, of course.”

“Do you remember what you said when you were leaving?”

“You mean before you kicked me out?”

“Okay, fine, before I kicked you out,” Gretel repeated coldly. Now that the subject was afoot she was in no mood for bantering, and her words were curt and focused. She kept her gaze on the boy in front of her and steered the rowboat around the bend in the lake, intuitively heading for Rifle Field.

“I don’t remember exactly,” Petr replied, this time more serious in his tone. “I think I asked you why my father was there. Why he came out to your house in the first place.” Petr’s eyes were now back on the murky water and he was shifting slightly back and forth on the seat, trying to find the true middle.

“Wrong!” Gretel barked, snapping Petr’s head to attention. She locked on his eyes and held them steady. “You actually said, ‘I don’t think he’s here to help you,’ those were your exact words.” Gretel lowered her voice and then continued. “You already knew why he was there because I had told you in the house. And then when I asked why he
was
there if not to help us, you said, ‘I don’t know,’ and, by the way, you looked very suspicious while saying it.”

“I…I guess I don’t…”

“We’re here,” Gretel interrupted, slipping off her sandals and hopping into the shallow water bordering Rifle Field. “Help me pull it in.”

She’d, of course, pulled the boat on the bank dozens of times by herself, but she felt barking orders would keep Petr off his guard and manageable. Gretel slung the blanket over her shoulder and grabbed the loaded basket and walked off alone while Petr finished docking the boat. He sprinted to catch up with her, and the two children silently acknowledged a spot in the field and spread the blanket.

Gretel sat on her knees and unloaded the basket, arranging the bread and fruit on the blanket in her own private categories.

“So, do you remember now?” she said finally, after several minutes of speechlessness.

“I remember,” Petr replied.

Gretel broke off a large piece of bread from the loaf and handed it to Petr. And waited.

“Okay,” Petr said, absently crumbling the bread piece as he searched for the words to his confession. “The truth is my father sent me to the door and told me to talk to you. I think he left his binder on purpose.”

“But why? What did he want you to talk to me about?”

“I really don’t know. He didn’t say anything specific. I think he just wanted me to meet you. When he came back to the car that night he described you to me and told me that you made a good impression on him. He said you were very sophisticated or something, and asked me why I couldn’t be as mature and polite as you.”

Gretel felt a flush in her cheeks. “So why did you say he wouldn’t help me?”

“I was just mad at him for insulting me, I guess, wishing I was more like some stranger he’d just met for only a few minutes.” Petr dropped his eyes and smiled. “And a girl to boot.”

Gretel couldn’t hold back a smile and she shook her head in playful irritation.

“Plus,” the boy continued, “I was already unhappy about the meeting at the boarding school. It was just a long day. And by the time he sent me to your door—and then you threw me out—I …I was trying to scare you, I guess. I’m sorry.”

Petr gave an epiphanic sideways glance and then nodded. “My father was right, I’m not as mature and polite as you are. Your mother had just disappeared. I should have been more understanding.”

Gretel’s look was hard as she stared at Petr’s shamed face, but she wasn’t mad at him. She put herself in his position, and though she wouldn’t have behaved exactly as he did if the roles were reversed, she certainly would have acted out in some way. Not to mention that, as she recalled, he had remained incredibly cordial and sophisticated throughout the encounter.

“And I want to be honest with you about something else,” Petr said.

Gretel stared in anticipation, swarming with relief that she had finally reached this point with Petr.

“My father knew that you were starting at the orchard, and that’s why he asked the Klahrs to take me on.”

On some level Gretel knew this fact, but she was stunned to hear it admitted. “So Mr. Klahr was lying about your friend from school?”

“No! Of course not! Mr. Klahr would never lie to cover me. He’d choose you over me any day.”

This fact was so self-evident Gretel didn’t even bother disputing it.

“My roommate really did work there last summer. That was just a coincidence, and a good excuse to use for finding the work in the first place.”

Gretel stayed quiet for several moments, and then started giggling softly.

“What’s funny?”

“Your father sure thinks highly of me!”

Petr laughed. “I guess.”

“I mean, I only met him for ten minutes!” Gretel was in full-blown laughter now. “Maybe he wants you to marry me someday!”

Petr’s laughter had crescendoed to match Gretel’s.

“Maybe,” he replied “but I don’t think your father would approve!’

This last quip sent Gretel into hysterics, and the laughter and joking continued throughout the better part of lunch, at one point causing Gretel to spit out the apple she’d been chewing, nearly causing her mortal embarrassment. It was the most fun she’d had in months, and maybe longer.

Finally, when the chortling subsided, Gretel said, “I’m sorry too.”

“For what?”

“Mainly for being mean to you that day at my house—and most of the days during the harvest—but also for your dad getting you involved that day. That wasn’t fair of him.” Gretel watched the boy closely to see if he became defensive about his father, which he didn’t seem to, and she pressed him. “Why do you think he would have done that? Really?”

Petr shook his head and shrugged.

Gretel decided to let the gesture suffice, and then asked, “Do you get along with him?”

“As much as most kids get along with their fathers, I guess,” Petr answered. “I don’t see him that much anymore since the academy, and now with work and everything. Plus he’s not home much.”

Since Petr seemed open to conversation, Gretel plowed on, asking about his home and the rest of his family, what it was like to live in the Urbanlands, and the benefits and drawbacks of having a System officer for a father, of which there seemed to be plenty on both accounts. Petr was vague on the subject of his mother, who had died when he was six, but was otherwise candid about his life, and by the end of the conversation, when Gretel had formed her image of what he’d told her, it all seemed fairly ordinary. Not quite boring, but certainly nothing like she’d have guessed only months ago.

She watched his expressions throughout the lunch, recognizing the shine of pride in his eyes as he recounted the pistoleer award he’d won when he was ten; and, alternately, the devastation at the loss of his grandmother—the woman who had raised him—only the year before. Gretel was rapt by his voice, so lush and sincere, and when the discussion lagged, it seemed the most natural action in the world for her to lean over and kiss him. He kissed her back, awkwardly yet gently, and when Gretel pulled away Petr remained puckered and shut-eyed for just a moment too long, and this made Gretel giggle and Petr blush.

After the kiss, neither child said a word until time dictated they begin the process of leaving. Gretel would have stayed until nightfall if she could have, and she knew Petr felt the same.

In blissful silence the two teenagers walked back to the rowboat, occasionally stealing glances and smiling, though Petr’s smiles possessed something more than Gretel’s. Gretel had enjoyed the kiss—later, what she would always consider her first—but it was being with Petr that she enjoyed more. It was friendship that she wanted most from him right now, and though their relationship had certainly crossed into something more since this morning, Gretel wasn’t in love. At least not yet. Not in the holding hands, having babies kind of way.

The silence continued for the entire ride back to the orchard, with Petr in his same position on the bow seat and Gretel at the helm. When they finally reached the bank, Petr lingered for a moment, staring at Gretel and smiling. She thought he was going to kiss her again, which would have been perfectly appropriate, she thought, but he didn’t, and that was okay too.

“Thank you,” he said finally, “for the picnic. I had a great time. I wish I could stay longer.”

“Me too,” Gretel replied softly, smiling. And then, as if needing something to segue from the mushiness, said, “And good luck on the ride home with your father.”

“Thanks.”

Petr disembarked with a hop, displaying a confident acumen not seen during boarding, and Gretel watched with a sympathetic smile as he jogged up the bank into the first cut of grass lining the orchard.

At the tree line he turned back toward the water and called with a wave, “And good luck with your stepmother. Everything’s going to be fine.”

Gretel waved back and watched the boy as he ran on air toward the Klahr house. When he was out of sight, she shoved off toward home, pressing the oars back and forth with steady deliberation. She had considered an afternoon rowing session, but decided to pass. It wasn’t that she was tired—in fact she had more energy than she’d had that morning—but her talk with Petr had created a longing for her family—Hansel mainly, but father as well—and she decided to go directly home to see them.

She was halfway across the lake when the knot formed low in her belly, and by the time she’d reached the bank of the Morgan property something akin to panic had set in. She stepped from the boat and stood statue-like on the rocky shore, her eyes wide and searching, her breath shallow as she rummaged through her memory, replaying each of the encounters she’d had with Petr over the last few weeks: today at the picnic, that day in the Klahr kitchen when he’d reappeared like a vivid memory, the past few days in the fields and in Klahr house working as partners and forming a real friendship. She even thought about each of the dozen or so perfunctory conversations they’d had during the harvest.

And she was sure.

Gretel knew the answer to her internal question: she’d never referred to Odalinde as anything other than her father’s nurse.

She’d never mentioned to Petr that Odalinde was going to be her stepmother.

The car presented itself to Anika first in a dream, as a low sustained thunder somewhere miles off on the horizon, a benevolent warning to an inevitable storm.

The dream itself was almost an exact replica of Anika’s current situation: she had escaped from an isolated cabin in the woods and was now desperately looking for help along the Interways. Only in her dream she was not alone, Hansel and Gretel were with her, and Anika’s desperation to find safety for her children was a burning sickness in her abdomen. And in her dream, unlike in reality (thank God), rain was apparently on the way.

On any other day the rumbling thunder would have been inaudible to Anika, or unperceived, a white noise drifting above the trees until simply vanishing into the atmosphere. But Anika’s senses were heightened, and even in her sleep her mind indexed the sound, cross-referencing it with latent experiences of the past. Her mind told her the sound was an impending storm, but the rumble was continuous and growing, unlike the crescendo and decrescendo of thunder. And, as she recalled, the sky had been clear before she’d fallen asleep.