Have Me (9 page)

“Because this is our time,” he says. “No one knows us personally. No one will knock on the door if there is a crisis. It’s not possible to be entirely anonymous with you,” he adds, taking my hand and tugging me toward him, “but I’d like to at least try to be invisible.”

I lean back against him, then close my eyes as his hands tighten around my waist. We stand like that for a moment, swaying slightly, the top of my head tucked under Damien’s chin.

“Are you tired?” he asks.

“Mmm. That depends on why you’re asking.”

His low chuckle rumbles through me. “That’s definitely one reason to stay awake. But I confess that I was thinking of something a bit more public.”

I turn in his arms. “What about being invisible?”

“I’m sure we can blend,” he says. “Maybe I’ll even buy you a hat to go with your dress.”

“Un chapeau,”
I correct, “and I’d like that.” The dress I chose on the plane is a vintage style shirt-dress, with buttons running the entire length and a belted waist that creates a very full skirt. I’m feeling rather Audrey Hepburn, and a hat would be just the thing.

“You’re the one who’ll be recognized,” I point out. “I’ve only become a celebrity by default.” Damien, however, has been in the spotlight since he was a kid, and he played enough tennis and did enough commercials in Europe that I doubt I’m exaggerating the chances of him being noticed. Especially when you factor in how widespread the coverage of his recent trial was.

“I have a disguise.” He grins as he says it, then crosses to the leather backpack that doubles as a briefcase when he travels.

I watch, amused, as he pulls out a white cap with a French flag imprinted on the front.

I laugh and shake my head. He’s still Damien, no question about it, and I think he looks damn hot. But on the whole it’s not a bad disguise. He rarely wears caps, and if he adds some sunglasses—and if we both carry daypacks—we’ll look like any two tourists out exploring the city.

“So do I look like just an ordinary guy?”

“You’ll never be ordinary,” I say. “But close enough.”

The hotel is located near dozens of high-end shops, but it’s only just past eight in the morning, so nothing much is open yet. Damien promises me a day of shopping later, and I am fine with that. I may be hesitant to use my husband’s money to fund my business, but I am not so proud as to turn down designer clothes.

Right now, though, we stay primarily on the side streets, enjoying the local ambiance. We are holding hands, and though I feel as though we are wandering aimlessly, Damien assures me that he knows where we are going.

“So what is on our agenda?” I ask. “It’s Paris, after all. There are about a million things I want to do.”

“What’s on your list?” he asks, as an amazing yeasty scent draws us off the street toward a tiny café with charming outdoor seating.

I start to rattle off everything I can think of, from the Louvre to the catacombs to the Seine and the Eiffel Tower. “And Versailles,” I add as we take a seat at one of the tables. “And Montmartre. And the Left Bank and the Metro and—oh, hell, I don’t know. How does everything sound?”

His smile is indulgent. “Sounds reasonable to me.”

When the waitress arrives he orders two
café crèmes
and two
pains au chocolat.
I’m impressed, but not surprised, when he orders in what I assume is perfect French.
Stark International,
I think, and grin. Why wouldn’t he speak French?

“I’m not quite fluent,” he admits as we sip our coffee and watch the people on the charming avenue. “But I can get by.”

After we’ve finished our pastry and coffee, we meander down small streets and alleyways until we cross a wider, busier avenue, then follow a half-hidden path into a lovely garden.

“It’s like an oasis,” I say. I had grabbed my camera on the way out of the hotel, and now I make Damien stop as I take a few shots. It is as if we have wandered into a fairy tale, and I want to capture the magical aura on film.

“This is one of my favorite shortcuts,” Damien says, as he leads me down a tree-lined path. “And for exactly that reason. It’s an escape. A respite from the crowds and the noise.”

“So where are we?”

“It’s called the Jardin de la Nouvelle France. I think it was set up in anticipation of the 1900 World’s Fair, but don’t quote me on that. I come for the way it looks, not the history.”

As interesting as the history might be, I have to agree, and as we follow the path—taking a few side trips just for the sake of adventure—I can’t deny the joy I feel simply being in this cool, green space. I keep my camera out, delighting in the play of light and shadow, and taking so many pictures that I will undoubtedly have to buy new memory cards before this trip is over.

We wander farther in and find a lovely little bridge, not to mention an actual waterfall.

“Here,” Damien says, taking my hand at one point when I’m certain that we’ve managed to get horribly turned around. “I’ll show you my favorite place to sit.” He leads me to a small pond shaded by a weeping beech. There is a small stone bench, and we sit for a moment, his arm around my waist and my head upon his shoulder.

“Thanks.”

“For what?” he asks.

“You said you were giving me the world. Thank you for giving me these hidden treasures, too.”

When we finally stand to continue on our way, I’m surprised to realize that it’s after ten thirty.

“Slow and easy,” Damien says when I comment on the time. “Just like a honeymoon should be.”

I take his hand and squeeze. Because, really, I can’t argue with that.

We emerge from the park onto the Cours la Reine
,
and follow that street for a while before crossing at the avenue Winston Churchill. That road goes to the Seine, and turns into the Pont Alexandre III.

“Are we crossing?”

Damien shakes his head. “We can take the stairs down and walk along the water for a while or stay on street level and check out some of the sights. We’ll pass the Louvre in a few more blocks.”

“Can we go in?”

“We can,” he says, then kisses my forehead. “It’s already on today’s agenda. But there’s someplace else I want to take you first. You still okay with walking? We can catch a cab.”

“I’m great,” I say, meaning it. There is nothing I enjoy more than walking in a new city, unless it’s walking in a new city with Damien.

We stay on the street level until we’ve passed the Place de la Concorde and I’ve
ooh
ed and
aah
ed over the Obelisk and taken a dozen more pictures. Then we go down the stairs and walk along the Seine until we reach the Pont des Arts. We head back up the stairs, begin to cross the bridge, and then I stop, confused by the odd appearance of the bridge’s railing.

“What’s that—locks?” I’ve stepped to the side, and Damien is beside me, as I realize that the odd metallic jumble I’m looking at is in fact a collection of padlocks that are attached to the bridge railing like barnacles.

I tilt my head to look up at Damien. “What on earth?”

“This is the bridge for lovers,” he says. “You’ve never heard of it?”

I shake my head even as I look farther down the bridge, not able to fathom just how many lovers have come here to pledge their devotion.

“They come. They write their names on a lock. They attach it to the bridge, and they throw the key into the Seine.”

“For luck?” I ask, and he nods.

“Is that why you’ve brought me here?”

“It is,” he says, and those two words warm my heart. “But I want to switch it up just a little.”

I frown a bit, confused, but nod.

“Not too long ago, part of the bridge fell off—it collapsed under the weight of the locks.”

My eyes widen. “Love is a heavy burden,” I quip, then immediately frown. “Was anyone hurt?”

“No, but even so. I thought we could start our own tradition. Carry our own weight, you might say.”

I cock my head, smiling as I wait for him to explain.

He draws a small box from his pocket, then opens it to reveal a silver charm in the shape of a lock. I pick it up, and see that it has our names engraved on it. “And it has a key, too,” he says, lifting the velvet to reveal the tiny key. “It’s for you, from me. And once I put it on your bracelet, I thought we could throw the key into the river.”

My chest swells and my throat is thick with tears. I nod stupidly because I can’t get the words out. It is romantic and sweet, and I lift my wrist for him, the little Eiffel Tower dangling there as he attaches the lock charm next to it.

“I love you,” I say as he puts the key in my hand.

“And I love you.” He cups his hand over mine. “On three?” he asks, and we start to swing our joined hands. Once. Twice. On the third time, we let go, and the tiny key goes flying.

“Forever,” Damien says.

“Forever,” I agree.

The rest of the afternoon feels just as soft, just as romantic.

We wander along the Seine, looking at the street vendors’ wares, taking silly pictures of each other, and holding hands. Once or twice I see people looking at us—a few even snap pictures—but I tell myself that it is nothing. That if there are less than a dozen people who recognize us, then we are having a good day.

We spend two hours in the Louvre, and I gasp in awe at the majesty of some of the paintings, and then gasp in surprise at how diminutive the
Mona Lisa
is, certainly not as big as I expected given the enormity of her reputation.

After, we buy cheese and wine and have an afternoon picnic in the Jardin des Tuileries, where we do nothing but laze about enjoying the weather, the surroundings, and each other.

As night approaches, Damien takes me back to the Seine and we take an evening cruise. We sip champagne and watch the lights of the city come on. And when the Eiffel Tower lights and sparkles on the hour, we toast to love and laughter and romance.

As we are heading back to the dock, Damien receives a text, and since he has ordered strict silence except in emergencies, he glances at the screen. I watch him, dividing my attention between my husband and the Parisian skyline.

The muscle in his cheek tightens, so I know it is not good news, and he taps out a reply quickly, his fingers practically attacking the screen. But when he turns back to me, the frustration is gone and he is simply Damien again, a man sharing champagne with his wife on their honeymoon.

“How do you do that?” I ask. “You must have a million things going on and a trillion fires to put out, and yet you can just shut it all down. Turn it all off.” I wish that I could do the same. Because although I have reveled in every moment of this day, the truth is that the threat of that damn lawsuit has been lying under the surface, clinging to my enjoyment like tar.

“I don’t know,” he says, brushing my cheek. “I simply will it away. It isn’t gone. Only shelved.”

“I can’t even manage that.” I press against him, sighing as his arms go around me. He smells of fresh air and grass from the garden, and his body is hard and hot against mine. “Make it go away,” I murmur as I feel the need rise within me. “For just a little while, make me forget everything but you.”

I lean back just enough so that I can tilt my head up to look at him. His eyes are like molten steel, and I quiver simply from the thought of his touch.

“There’s somewhere I want to take you.” I hear the strain in his voice, as if he is fighting back the urge to touch me. The boat has reached the dock, and he leads me off, then pauses on the
quai
to study me. “I wasn’t sure, but, Nikki—yes. Come on.”

I’m not at all sure what he has in mind, but I go willingly. Eagerly, actually.

On the street level, we catch a taxi and Damien instructs the driver to take us to À la Lune in the Quartier Pigalle. I note the way the driver glances back, his expression almost a leer, and I raise my brows. Damien only shrugs. “Think red light district.”

“Oh,” I say, and then settle back in the upholstered seat. I have no idea what Damien has planned, but I’m completely confident I will enjoy it.

It’s not a long drive, and soon we are in a neighborhood that reminds a little bit of Bourbon Street and a little bit of Times Square. On one corner, I see a red door and a small neon sign for À la Lune
.
The driver lets us out without a word, but when Damien pays him, his eyes stay on our faces for just a bit longer than I’d like. I tell myself it’s nothing. If he’d recognized us—if he cared—he’d have pulled out his phone and snapped a picture. As it is, he drives away.

Damien takes my hand and leads me toward the red door, but stops a few feet away on a section of the sidewalk submerged in shadows. “I meant what I said before, about Paris being a city of romance and wanting to share that with you on our honeymoon. But it also has a libertine side. A bit wild. A bit decadent.”

“And that’s a good thing?” I tease, easing up against him, so close I can feel his erection. He cups my ass and pulls me closer.

“It is,” he says, with more seriousness than I anticipated. “Do you remember what you said back in Malibu the other day? We were eating breakfast.”

I grin, certain I finally see where this is going. “I said it felt very domestic. That I liked that.” I ease closer, then grind my pelvis against his. “What’s the matter? Already feeling shackled by matrimony?”

“Shackled wouldn’t be a problem,” he says, “though I’d prefer it was you and not me. And no. But I don’t ever want us to become … settled.” As he speaks, he steps back so that he can run his finger down my dress. He eases the skirt up, then growls low in his throat when he finds that I’m not wearing underwear.

“I don’t want to be settled, either,” I say huskily.

“Dear god, I love you.” He tightens his hand around my waist and I arch back, letting him explore me, letting his touch excite me. I know that we are outside, but it is dark and this is Damien, and I don’t care. I want this. I want him. And I want the passion to fire so hot between us that it burns away everything else.

“Inside.” His voice is rough. “If I don’t get you inside right now, I swear I’m going to fuck you right here against this wall.”

I’m tempted to see if he means it, but I notice some people walking across the street. I don’t think they’ve seen us, but no sense tempting fate. “All right,” I say. “Let’s see just how decadent Paris can be.”