Heaven's Fire (32 page)

Her lips were warm satin beneath his, and they tasted of her tears. He kissed her lightly at first, barely brushing her lips with his, reveling in her soft sighs of capitulation and pleasure—wordless promises of things to come. Her hands roamed over his shoulders through his linen shirt, meeting behind his neck to bring him closer. He deepened the kiss, devouring her mouth, greedy for that which he’d imagined so vividly and waited for so long. Flicking his tongue across her lips, he darted it between them until it found her own.

She gasped. He opened his eyes and saw her bewildered expression.

Had she never felt a man’s tongue in her mouth before? Clearly not. Just as she’d never been properly bedded; just as she’d never been well and thoroughly kissed. Despite her sexual experience, there was an untapped innocence about Corliss. The same could be said of him, of course, after eleven years of abstinence. If Corliss had much to learn, so did he; they must teach each other.

He kissed her again, at first chastely, murmuring reassurances, then lightly stroking the seam of her lips with the tip of his tongue. She quivered. “Let me in,” he breathed. Another light caress of the tongue, and another... Her lips parted tremulously, and his tongue slipped between them... to meet hers.

Yes
... She held him by the back of the head as she explored this new pleasure. A hum of satisfaction coursed through him. He settled against her, one leg resting between hers, his erection hard against her soft stomach. She pressed her hands to the small of his back to urge him closer.

He thrust against her just once, then held himself still, sucking in a breath.
It’s too soon...You’re too close.

Breaking the kiss, he shifted his weight and moved down, lowering his mouth to her collarbone. He touched it with his lips, and she shivered. Easing aside the silk, he trailed kisses along the delicate ridge, and back again. He lay next to her and kissed a slow path adjacent to the thin red line etched down the center of her chest, breathing in the sweetness of her skin mingled with the herbal salve.

He felt her silk-clad breast against the side of his face, felt her nipple stiffen as his cheek grazed it. Arousal flared within him, and he tightened his arms around her. When he felt her hands in his hair, he heard a low, shuddering groan, and realized it had come from him.

Overwhelmed with sensation, Corliss closed her eyes. She felt the soft flax of his hair between her fingers, felt the heat of his breath through the thin silk covering her breast. Her melancholy, so bleak and suffocating, had evaporated almost completely, like nighttime fog burned off by the hot morning sun.

Again she felt, through the sleek fabric, the pressure of his cheek—scratchy with the slight growth of beard that always darkened it in the evening. This time, she knew, the contact was deliberate. He nuzzled her, gently rubbing his prickly jaw on her tender flesh. The friction against her nipple sparked little thrills of pleasure that coursed throughout her, coming together between her legs like streaks of lightning converting at a single white-hot target point.

She felt a shivery heat and realized he was kissing her breast through the shift. Her heart pumped so hard, it hurt. She arched her back. His lips brushed her nipple, and she gasped. Impatiently sweeping aside the silk, he closed his mouth over the tight little bud.

So hot. So hot and wet
. She moaned softly as Rainulf gently tugged on her supersensitive nipple, caressing it with his tongue. He threw a long leg over hers and let the hard length of his erection rest against her thigh. For a timeless, dreamy interlude, they lay together like that, Rainulf suckling while she spiraled slowly upward, into a state of breathless arousal.

She felt the dampness between her legs, the little pulses of pleasure, and was astounded. The last time she’d felt like this was when he’d come to her that night at Blackburn and slipped his hand beneath her quilt. That she could experience the same kind of physical passion without that kind of touch was a revelation.

When he finally moved, it was to slide his hot, rough hand beneath the silk and close it over her other breast. He squeezed her gently, fondling her nipple until she thought she’d scream.

She writhed as his mouth and hand worked their dark sorcery; he tensed his hips, pressing himself against her thigh. Her own hips moved without her willing it. He answered her unspoken need by smoothing his hand downward from her breast until it found the white-hot need between her legs.

Oh, God
, she thought as he caressed her through the damp silk,
I’m going to go mad from pleasure.

He pulled her shift up and glided his hand between her legs. The first light probing of his fingers galvanized her. She moaned unself-consciously, clutching at his hair as he explored her wet recesses. It was torment—sweet, unbearable torment.

“Rainulf... Rainulf...”

He raised his head and met her gaze. His eyes glittered with the same wolflike hunger she’d seen one time before, when he’d gotten up and walked away from her after giving her such incredible pleasure. This time, she knew, he would not walk away. This time he would find what he wanted—what they both wanted.

He sat beside her and whipped his shirt off over his head, then untied his chausses and kicked them off.

God, he’s magnificent!
She sat up, staring openly as he kneeled before her, gathering her shift in his clutched hands. From wide, sinuous shoulders, his torso was carved in a graceful contour, sloping dramatically toward narrow hips. He was the epitome of masculine strength and beauty.

Rainulf pulled the nightgown over her head and smiled. For a few hushed moments, they just looked at each other, naked together for the first time.

Rainulf’s lean body vibrated with immense strength held in reserve. His arms and legs, banded with muscle, might have been those of a stonecutter. His flat belly was strikingly ridged; on one side of his lower abdomen, just beneath the taut surface, a single vein snaked from hipbone to pubic hair. Her gaze was drawn to the straining organ rising from that hair. It gleamed silkily in the lamplight, a tiny teardrop at the tip.
So... arousal makes him wet, too
. It seemed she had much to learn about men, after all.

Rainulf reached out almost tentatively and trailed his fingertips over her face, her throat, her shoulders, breasts, belly, and hips. “God, you are so beautiful,” he whispered. “I can’t believe how beautiful you are.”

“So are you.” She ran her fingers through the impossibly soft fur that blanketed his
solid chest, following it down to the dense tangle between his legs. He sucked in a breath when her hand brushed his rampant sex. She lightly touched it, and he gripped her shoulders hard. Drawing her hand up its taut length, she smoothed the hot little droplet with her fingertips.

He growled low in his throat. “Corliss...” She glided her moist fingers down the quivering shaft, and up again. He groaned and grabbed her wrist, then seized her by the back of the head and took her mouth in a hard, searing kiss, his beard abrading the tender skin around her lips. The rhythmic invasion of his tongue felt so frankly sexual that she moved her body against him; he grabbed her hips and thrust hard against her belly. She
wrapped her arms around him—flinching when his chest hair came in contact with her dagger wound.

He backed away sharply. “Corliss! God, I’m such an ass. What am I doing?”

“What I want you to do.” She tried to embrace him, but he held her at arm’s length.

“I can’t. ‘Twill hurt you.”

She laughed incredulously and grabbed him around the neck, pulling him down on top of her as she fell backward onto the bed. “If you don’t,
I’ll
hurt
you
!”

He chuckled as he lowered himself carefully, holding himself up on his elbows to keep his weight off her. It so gratified her to hear his easy laughter; to see the way he looked at her with such longing; and to feel him hot and hard and ready between her legs. She was ready, too; she throbbed with need. He nudged her wet opening. She closed her hands over his shoulders and arched against him, begging him wordlessly to fill her.
Now
.

“Nay,” he whispered, poised to enter her but making no move to do so. Beneath her hands, the hard muscles of his shoulders quivered with strain. His face was darkly flushed and the little vein on his forehead pulsed.

“Rainulf... Oh, God...” Frustration swelled in her throat, tears stung her eyes. Had he changed his mind? After all those years of celibacy, had he decided, at the last moment, that he couldn’t do this?

He shook his head. “Corliss, I can’t—”

“No!”

“—without telling you—”

“Don’t do this!” The tears spilled out; her chest shook. “God, Rainulf, don’t stop now.”

“
Stop?
” An astonished huff of laughter escaped him. “I couldn’t stop now. I just need you to know that I love you.” His voice caught. To her astonishment, his eyes shimmered wetly. “I love you, Corliss. I’m in love with you.”

He flexed his hips. She felt the broad, wet tip of him inch into her, just enough to stretch her open.

“Oh, God...” She laughed and cried as he paused and then pressed in again—a delicious, almost painful intrusion, sharply pleasurable. “I love you, too.” Taking his face between her hands, she kissed him. “I love you.” And again. “I love you. I’ve always loved you.”

Rainulf watched the tears spill down her cheeks: hers and his, mingling together.
She loves me! Corliss loves me!

She threw her head back, her eyes half-closed in ecstasy, smiling that guilelessly joyful smile of hers. He should have known that she’d approach lovemaking as she did the rest of life: eagerly and uninhibitedly, with an awe-inspiring sense of wonder.

And she loved him! She loved him!

Painfully aroused, he longed to drive himself into her with one fierce stab, but she was so extremely tight that he worried about hurting her. Instead, he gritted his teeth against that urge and pushed in slowly, again and again, easing farther and farther into her as she stretched around his unyielding thickness.

Her hips trembled, her breath came in frantic little pants. Just seeing her like this—half-delirious with pleasure as her climax approached—nearly stripped him of his resolve to go slowly. That resolve vanished altogether when she reached around him to slide her hands from the small of his back to his buttocks, pressing down hard—a wordless but eloquent entreaty, and one that he couldn’t resist.

Bracing himself on one forearm, he reached beneath her and tilted her hips up. He withdrew to the tip, then thrust forcefully, sheathing himself completely within her. They groaned in unison. God, it was incredible, being buried deep inside her—even better than he’d imagined it would be, better than all his exaggerated memories of women from his past. He did feel virginal. This might as well have been the first time he’d ever lain with a woman. It felt extraordinary—the slick, tight heat and maddening pressure, compelling him all too swiftly toward completion.

Pulling almost all the way out, he sank in again to the hilt.

“Oh, God...” She grew rigid, clutching his back.

With his next thrust, she cried out—a raw, womanly cry of fulfillment—as her body convulsed, rocking beneath him. From deep within her, a succession of spasms gripped him, like a slippery hand stroking, pulling, squeezing...

Not yet... not yet
... Gripping her hair in his fists, he tried to hold still, to make it last, but her ecstatic cries and movements, and the rhythmic contractions pumping him from within, undid him. His body took over—tightening, arching, ramming deep, deep inside her. Pleasure gathered, drew up, erupted, shooting into her with astonishing force, wracking him with its power.

For a few endless moments, he couldn’t think or see or hear. His blood ceased to flow; his lungs ceased to breathe. He came with luxurious intensity, as if his entire body were coming, filling her with his essence, his seed, his love.

When his ears stopped ringing and his body stopped quaking, he became aware of hands on his shoulders, pushing. He opened his eyes to find himself lying heavy and sated atop Corliss, his head limp in the crook of her neck, his face buried in her fragrant hair. She was trying to push him off her...

Her cut! He was hurting her. “Oh, God.” He levered himself up, taking his weight on his arms. “Corliss, I’m sor—”

Pressing her fingertips to his mouth, she smiled. “Shh.” She caressed his beard-roughened cheek and jaw and chin.

“I wish I’d shaved for you,” he said.

“Nay, I like it.” She grinned and bit her lip. “I like the way it scratches me.” She stretched like a cat, then pressed down again on his buttocks. “And I love feeling you inside me. I want you to stay inside me forever.”

“I’d give anything if that were possible.”

For a moment, he sobered, as the reality of their situation intruded on his bliss. They were lovers now, he and Corliss. Lovers, and in more than a physical sense. He loved her. He needed her, wanted her.

He also needed and wanted the chancellorship, to which he would be appointed within the next few weeks. A man with a mistress might teach, if he were willing to forsake higher administrative posts, but he could not hold the position of Chancellor of Oxford. And any attempt to keep a
secret
lover—in or out of his home—was pointless, of course. He’d seen colleagues ruined more than once over a woman they were convinced would never be discovered.