"And tell them what? That my wife is out performing voodoo rituals somewhere? She's an adult, Pearl. I can't ask them to find her."
"But she's not thinking clearly, Daddy. Maybe she's wandering about confused."
He gazed out the window. Night was waving its wand of darkness over the world around us. "Maybe she'll come to her senses soon and return or at least call and tell us where she is," he said. He looked up at me with desperation and held out his arms. "I don't know what else to do, honey. We've got a little boy upstairs, who desperately needs his mother and she doesn't even know he's home from the hospital."
"Maybe that's where she'll go, Daddy," I said hopefully. "Then she'll come home quickly."
"Maybe, but she obviously hasn't gone there yet." He reached for his bottle of bourbon.
"Daddy, please don't drink too much tonight."
He hesitated and nodded. "You're right. I'd better stay alert. Who knows what will happen next?" he said, which put the pitter-patter in my chest and turned my legs to cold stone.
Another hour passed. Mrs. Hockingheimer tried to feed Pierre, but he was reluctant to open his mouth. I knew why. He wanted his mother. I stayed away from his room, not knowing what white lie to tell.
Daddy and I tried to eat a little, but neither of us had much of an appetite. We talked and waited and shifted our eyes from the clock to the door. Every gong of the grandfather clock was like a punch in the stomach. After dinner we went up to visit with Pierre. Mrs. Hockingheimer must have been wondering where Mommy was too, but she was too polite to inquire. She stepped out of the room while Daddy and I tried to talk to Pierre about everything else. Every once in a while, his eyes shifted back to the door until finally a single tear crawled over his right eyelid, and his lips began to move.
"Mom . . . Mommy . ." he said.
"Mon Dieu,"
Daddy said, bouncing up. "I can't stand this any longer." He charged out of the room and down the stairs.
I turned back to Pierre and took his hand into mine. "Mommy's very troubled and confused by what has happened, Pierre. She's trying to find the answers, but she loves you very much and wants to do something to help make you better quickly. She'll be here as soon as she can. You'll see," I promised, and then I kissed his cheek.
"Mom . . . Mommy," he repeated. He closed his eyes.
Mrs. Hockingheimer returned and examined him when she saw the concern on my face. "He's just exhausted," she said. "For him in his fragile state, being brought out of the hospital and set up here was a major effort."
I nodded and rose as she helped Pierre lean back on his pillow. It looked as if he had fallen asleep. In this case, I thought, that was a blessing.
I went downstairs to look for Daddy and found him pacing back and forth in his study and gulping from a tumbler of bourbon. He was muttering to himself. "What right has she to do this? Why isn't she thinking of Pierre, if not of me? And Pearl. We have a family to protect, a little boy to heal. How could she do this?"
"Daddy, don't. . ."
He paused and looked at me, blinking madly.
Suddenly he tilted his head as if he had just heard something no one else could hear.
"Oh, Pearl," he said in a hoarse whisper.
"What is it, Daddy?"
"I don't think . . ."
"What, Daddy? What don't you think?"
"I don't think she's ever coming back," he said.
8
A Letter Comes
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I sat by the front window and waited, my eyes
constantly searching the street for signs of Mommy. Daddy's words had put butterflies in my stomach. They fluttered in a frenzy and crawled through my chest. My heart felt like a lead fist pounding my blood through my veins. The grandfather clock bonged; Aubrey turned down the lights and the traffic outside all but disappeared. Still there was no sign of Mommy. Daddy made a few more phone calls, all dead ends. He came to the doorway occasionally and we exchanged looks of futility.
"Did you look in on Pierre?" he asked after a deep and long sigh.
"Yes. He's asleep. He barely ate."
Daddy nodded, looked at his watch, and then returned to his study, where I knew he was drinking himself into a stupor.
Finally, a little after nine-thirty, I saw a figure cross the street and approach our gate. When she stepped into the light, however, I realized it wasn't Mommy. It was a very tall, thin black girl in a long black skirt and a gray sweatshirt. When she headed for our front door, I rose in anticipation, but Aubrey was there before me to answer the bell. I think he was just as nervous as I was about Mommy's
disappearance. Daddy either hadn't heard the bell or was too unsteady now to come out to see who it was.
"Yes?" Aubrey asked.
"I have a letter to deliver, sir," the girl replied with a French accent. "I was told to put it directly into the hands of Mademoiselle Pearl or Monsieur Andreas," she added firmly.
"You can give it to me and I'll deliver it," Aubrey said, his hand out.
"I'm sorry, sir, but I cannot give it to anyone else," she insisted.
Aubrey was about to reply when I stepped closer. "It's all right, Aubrey. I'll look after this. I'm Mademoiselle Pearl. How can I help you?"
The tall girl studied me a moment and nodded. She didn't look more than fourteen or fifteen, but she had a strong and confident air about her that suggested she was older. She had a very smooth and shiny complexion with large ebony eyes, which captured the entryway light and sparkled like polished onyx, "I was asked to deliver this to you," she said handing me the letter.
I took it quickly. There was no name on the envelope and no return address. "Who sent this?"
"Everything is explained in the letter," she said. She didn't smile, but she fixed her eyes on me so intently that I felt as if she were delving into my very soul. Then she gave me a small, tight smile, turned, and walked out. I watched her step quickly over the tile patio and into the darkness from which she had so suddenly emerged.
Aubrey waited beside me, his face full of concern.
"It's all right, Aubrey," I said. He closed the door and returned to his quarters.
I looked at the envelope more closely and noticed some sort of red powder on the flap. I opened it quickly and saw it was addressed to Daddy and me and it was in Mommy's hand.
My heart stopped and then began beating madly. Without reading the first word, I pulled open the front door and lunged down the steps. I ran over the tile drive and into the street just as the tall, black girl turned the far corner. She was walking very quickly.
"Wait!" I screamed, but she didn't hear me. I ran up the street after her. When I turned the corner, she was heading toward the streetcar. "Wait!" I shouted. The streetcar rumbled down the tracks to the station. "Please, mademoiselle, wait."
I ran as fast as I could. She turned as she stepped up to the car and looked my way, but she didn't hesitate. She got in, and the car door closed just as I approached. I saw the girl take a seat by an open window in the rear. She gazed out at me. I waved the letter and ran alongside the car.
"Where is she? It's my mother! Where is she?" I cried.
The girl stared out at me without speaking.
"Please!" I cried as the car began to pull away from me. Suddenly the girl threw something out of the window. It bounced on the grass in front of me as the streetcar made a turn and disappeared. I stopped to catch my breath. My heart was a wild frantic animal in my chest, thudding so hard that my ribs felt as if they would burst. Gasping for air, I stepped forward until I found what she had thrown. Whatever it was, it was in a small cloth sack. I picked it up and undid the string, pausing to look in the direction of the streetcar. What could this have to do with Mommy?
I felt something hard in the bag and pulled it out carefully. The moment I set eyes on it, I screamed and dropped it. It was the head of a snake. My heart seemed to jump out of my chest and into my throat. I felt my face turn crimson, and for a moment it was as if I had stepped into a hot oven. People driving by slowed down to gaze at me. I'm sure I looked wild and hysterical, gasping, crying, shaking my head. Finally, after I got control of myself, I turned and hurried back to the house.
As soon as I entered, I hurried down the hallway to Daddy's study. He was seated behind his desk, but had turned his back to the door and was gazing up at a portrait of himself and Mommy, a portrait she had painted from a photograph. He had a tumbler of bourbon in his right hand.
"Daddy, Mommy has sent us a letter!" I declared.
He turned slowly. His face was streaked with tears. He wiped them away with the back of his hand quickly. "What's that? A letter?"
"Some girl just delivered it. I tried to run after her and question her, but she got on the streetcar before I could stop her. She threw something terrible out the window at me when I screamed for her to tell me where Mommy was."
"Terrible? What?"
"A sack containing the head of a snake," I said, crying.
"Head of a snake? How sick."
"And there's red powder on the envelope," I said, holding it up for him to see.
"Red powder. Another voodoo thing," he said with an expression of disgust. "Where is she? What does the letter say?"
"I don't know. I haven't read it yet."
"Well, read it," he ordered and sat forward. I turned on the lamp near me and opened the letter.
My precious husband Beau and my precious daughter Pearl,
By the time you read this, I will be long gone. I tell you that so you won't go searching wildly over the city to find me and bring me back. That's why I waited until now to write and deliver this letter.
I know that you do not believe as strongly as I do in the powers of the unknown, but the two of you were not brought up in a world in which such things dwelt. I am the granddaughter of a true traiteur, and as such I have some spiritual insight. I know that more than ever now.
Last night I spoke with the dead. Nina's voice was clear, and her spirit was in me. She regretted not having been able to speak with me before our tragedy. She thinks it might have been prevented.
"What a state of mind she is in," Daddy commented. "These people have poisoned Ruby's thoughts, taken advantage of her while she is in mourning, weak, and vulnerable. I'll have them all arrested," he raged.
"There's more, Daddy," I said, my fingers trembling as I held up the paper.
"Go ahead," he said, lowering his head like a flag of defeat.
Although I couldn't prevent what happened to Jean, I can prevent any further bad luck from entering our lives and hurting my loved ones. Nina has given me specific instructions to peel away the layer of evil that has been spread over our home and our lives, evil that was born out of my sins.
These instructions require my leaving our home, maybe forever. That's up to Fate, I suppose. I didn't want to leave so abruptly, but I knew if I told either of you any of this, you would try to stop me.
Already we have seen what these rituals can do for us. Pierre will mend as long as I continue to pursue the path I've been instructed to pursue.
I beg you both not to try to follow me or stop me, but I want to assure you both just how much I love you and how difficult this will be for me.
I am depending on you, Pearl, to be the strength I couldn't be. Stay by your brother and your father and help them.
Beau, my darling, please find it in your heart to forgive me and believe in me. If I have your trust, I will be that much stronger in the days to come and during the battle that is to follow. I will feel your faith in me.
I will not be able to talk to you or call you or even write to you again until I have completed my mission. It is painful for me to be away from the ones I love. I am doing it only because I love you all more than I love myself. My pain is nothing if it will buy happiness and health for my family.
I love you.
Ruby
I lowered my hands and gazed at Daddy. Hot tears were streaming freely down my cheeks and dripping from my chin.
He stared for a few moments and then sat back. "Well," he finally said, "there you have it. Just what I feared and suspected. Who knows where she's gone to or what she's going to do?"
"We've got to find her, Daddy, and bring her home."
"Find her," he said angrily. "Those people close around their own like clams. They won't talk to us; they won't tell us anything."
He reached for his nearly empty bottle of bourbon and poured himself another drink. "Maybe she'll come to her senses and call us or come home," he muttered.
"Daddy, we've got to call the police. She's not in her right mind after all this sadness and tragedy. They'll understand and they'll help us," I said.
He shook his head. "Waste of time."
"No, it isn't," I insisted. "I can't stand the thought of her under the influence of these people. If you don't call them, I will."
"What are you going to tell them? That your mother wandered off to practice voodoo rituals someplace?" he asked disdainfully.
"Yes."
"They won't take you seriously, Pearl. They have a great many more urgent problems to deal with in this city."
"It's worth a try, Daddy."
He took a long gulp of bourbon.
"Daddy! You can't just sit there all day and night and drink yourself to sleep," I cried.
"She's gone, run off, returned to her bizarre past, and my son is dead," he said. "My little boy is gone. My other little boy is catatonic. What did I do to deserve this?"
"Stop this self-pity, Daddy. Mommy needs us."
He lowered his chin to his chest. I felt heat crawling up my spine. What had happened to Daddy and Mommy was terrible. No parent should endure such tragedy, but if Daddy didn't find a well of strength from which to draw new energy and determination, more terrible things loomed over us. Mommy had asked me to be strong. If that meant being cruel first, so be it, I thought.
"Is this the way you handle all your crises, Daddy?
You wallow in them?" I sneered. "Is this why you ran off to Europe when Mommy was pregnant with me?" He looked up sharply, knitting his brows as if a sharp pain had cut across his forehead, as if my words were tiny knives.
"No, I--"
"You left her alone to face the anger and the abuse. She gathered strength and returned to the bayou, and she managed to care for herself and for me while you were enjoying the most expensive restaurants and the wildest parties in Europe. Now, when she needs you again, you sit there gulping whiskey and moaning about what's happened to you."
"Pearl, please, that's not the way I was or the way I am," he argued.
"Then get a hold of yourself and let's go find her. Call the police," I demanded sharply, firing my words like bullets.
He nodded, sobering up quickly. "All right," he said. "Maybe you're right. We'll start with the police."
I straightened my shoulders and wiped away my tears with the back of my hand. "I'll look in on Pierre. We've got to find Mommy and bring her home for his sake most of all," I added. Daddy bit down on his lower lip and nodded. Pivoting on my heel, I marched out of the room and up the stairs quickly, so he wouldn't see how painful it was for me to treat him so harshly. I had to pause at the landing to catch my breath and slow my thumping heart.
Mrs. Hockingheimer was dozing in her chair in Pierre's room when I looked in on him. She heard me and looked up quickly.
"How is he doing?" I asked softly. His face was in repose, but his lips were crooked, reacting to some nightmare, no doubt, I thought.
"He's having a restless sleep," she said. "I couldn't get him to eat any more, but he did drink some water. He felt a little warm, but he has no fever."
"Okay," I said sadly.
"Mademoiselle," she called as I started to turn from the doorway. "He did mutter something."
"What?"
"He's calling for his mother," she said. "Where is your mother, if I may ask?"
Mrs. Hockingheimer wasn't being nosy. Anyone would have wondered why Pierre's mother wasn't at his side, I thought. "My mother is very troubled by what happened, the whole tragedy. She believes herself responsible, and she's disappeared. We've got to call the police and . ." My lips started to quiver badly. It was as if my face had mutinied. I couldn't pronounce the words. They got choked up in my throat.
Mrs. Hockingheimer saw what was happening and rose quickly to come to me. "You poor dear. I didn't mean to upset you," she said and embraced me.
"No one has seen her. My father and I are at our wit's end. We're calling the police right now."
"I'm so sorry. There, there," she said, patting my hand. "You must remain strong. Don't worry about Pierre. I will watch him very closely."
"Thank you, Mrs. Hockingheimer." I took a deep breath.
Mrs. Hockingheimer dabbed away the tears that lingered on my cheeks and smiled. "You're a strong young woman. You'll find a way to help your mother," she assured me.
I thanked her again and went downstairs to be with Daddy when the police arrived.
A detective and two uniformed patrolmen came to our door. The detective introduced himself as Lieutenant Ribocheaux. He was about as tall as Daddy, but with much wider shoulders and a square jaw. He looked like an ex-football player. The patrolmen stood in the doorway of Daddy's study and listened with Lieutenant Ribocheaux as Daddy described the terrible events that had unfolded. Daddy showed him Mommy's letter, and I then told him about Mommy's visiting the cemetary. I hadn't spelled out the details before. Daddy's eyes went as wide and round as quarters when he heard me talk of the screeching, the black cat, Mommy's walking about with a candle, and the whispering.
"This young woman who came to your door with the letter," Lieutenant Ribocheaux asked me, "had you seen her before? Was she at the cemetery too or at this house where your mother went to see the dead lady?"
"No, sir."
"And when you ran after her, you say she threw a snake's head out of the streetcar window?"
"Yes. I dropped it. It's probably still there. I can show it to you."
"I imagine it's only one of those souvenirs that the tourists buy in the voodoo shops in the French Quarter," he said.
"Still, I couldn't bring it home."
"I understand," he said, smiling. He turned to the uniformed policemen. "Ted, you and Billy take a look. Maybe it's still there, and it might give us some clue," he said, but from the looks on their faces, I knew they were doing it only to placate me. I told them where it would be, and they left.
Lieutenant Ribocheaux turned back to Daddy. "Monsieur Andreas, was your wife under a doctor's care?"
"Not in the sense I believe you mean," Daddy replied, "but our physician had given her sedatives."