Honey Flavored Tears (6 page)

 
When we arrived back at the apartment we found Pierre on the couch knocked out. Ava smiled and placed her index finger against her lips as she snuck over to where his head was laying.

“LOOKS LIKE SOMEONE HAD A GOOD TIME!!!” She yelled in his ear real loud causing him to jump up and fall halfway off the couch. I had to admit even though I was kind of upset that made me easily laugh.

“I should slap the shit out of both of
y’all while y’all sitting up there laughing at me,” Pierre said sitting up looking pissed now. That was one thing about him he hated having his sleep broken for no reason.

“I’m sorry Pierre but I had to do it,” Ava said as she sat down next to him.

“Whatever bitch,” he replied causing her to laugh even harder.

“That’s what you get
for staying out all night with someone you barely know,” I said as I leaned on the arm rest of the loveseat.

“Girl
, I can handle my own. You ain’t got to worry,” he replied.

“Oh but you was tripping when I went to go see what’s his face,” I said.

“Because girl, you make dumb decisions, who goes back to someone that put them through so much hell? Then every time you leave, you got to change your number.”

“Whatever Pierre
,” I said leaving it at that, it was times where Pierre could be rude as hell and if I decided not to back down we’d probably be arguing all night and my mind had too many thoughts going on for that.

“So what time did you get home
?” Ava asked.

“About thirty minutes ago,” Pierre replied.

“You were with that guy the whole time?” Ava asked with her eyes wide now.

“His name is Kevin and yes, girl he wore my ass out. I have never had anyone put it on me like that,” Pierre said as a chill came over his body.

“Ugh that’s that after sex chill. I can tell you got some before you came back home,” Ava said laughing again.

“Hell yes, we did it all over his
house. He had me in positions y’all heterosexuals haven’t even thought of yet,” Pierre said looking at me. I rolled my eyes and sighed.

“Pierre you
’re too much for me,” I said chuckling.

“So where were y
’all at?” Pierre asked. I was glad he changed the subject.

“We just came from the poetry slam downtown,” I replied. “And Ava performed and did such a good job
.”

“I don’t know about all of that,” Ava replied trying to play the modest role.

“Pierre, don’t listen to her she was great for it to be her first time,” I said.

“Yeah I know, Ava has always written poetry
. I’m just shocked she finally decided to open up and read it to the world. What poem did you do?” Pierre asked.

“‘
Daddy’s little girl’,” Ava replied.

“
Awww damn and I missed it, I love that poem. I’m going to have to come with y’all next time and you’re doing the poem again, I don’t care what you say. I’m not taking no for an answer.”

“Ok Pierre,” Ava said rolling her eyes playfully and laughing.

“Well I’ll be in my room if anyone needs me,” I said getting up from the couch. As much as I was enjoying the conversation, my mood was shifting and I didn’t want to bring down anyone else’s mood so I did what I felt was best, decided to be by myself.

                                                   
Author’s P.O.V.

Quincy heard the front door to their
apartment open and shut. He lifted his face from his hands and sighed deeply, ready for whatever Zariah was about to offer. She came into the room with her head hung low. She paused in her steps and leaned against the wall. Quincy stood up from the bed. “So where have you been?” he asked.

“I um needed to clear my head,” Zariah replied as she looked everywhere in the room but at Quincy. She fiddled with the keys in her hand.

“Look
Zariah I don’t want to argue anymore. I’m just trying to move forward with you. It just feels like we are stuck though.”

Zariah
didn’t reply.

“
I’m trying to talk to you instead of walking out; can you please try and make this easy?” he asked.

Zariah
sighed and looked up at Quincy. When Quincy saw her tear stained face his heart paused then begin rapidly beating second after second like it was about to burst through his chest. He’s never seen Zariah look so distressed before and it was eating away at him that he was the reason for all this because his heart and mind couldn’t seem to agree on anything.

“Why are we doing this Q?” s
he asked.

“W—what do you mean exactly when you ask that?”

“Why do you want to be with me? You made it clear yesterday that you can’t love me fully because half of your heart is still with her.”

“Look I only said that out of spite, because….” Quincy stopped in the middle of his sentence hesitating on if he really wanted to tell her the truth or not.

“Because of what?” She asked.

“
Zariah having a baby scares me right now because I know I’m not financially stable. Shit it’s sometimes hard for us to pay our rent on time. You mean to tell me you want to bring a baby into this struggling situation as well?”

“Q no one is ever really
prepared to have a baby unless they are married and rich as hell,” Zariah said back. “All I know is that I’m ready to have a baby with the man that I love.”

 
Quincy sighed deeply and walked over to Zariah. “Zariah,” he said above a whisper. She refused to look at him. He cupped her face with his index finger and thumb, gently lifting her face to meet his eyes. “Listen to me, I understand everything that you are saying but I wish you would’ve talked to me before you started making decisions behind my back.”

“I understand that…and I apologize,” she said in return.

“It’s okay I’m just glad we can come to an understanding…have we come to an understanding?” Quincy asked wanting to make sure. Zariah looked him deep in his eyes then said, “I just have one question for you.”

“Okay I’m listening.”

“Do you want to have a baby with me?

“We will cross that bridge when it comes, take it one day at a time. When do you go to the doctor’s office to see if you really are pregnant though?”

“Next week,” she replied, feeling somewhat hurt on the inside. Quincy had a way of making her feel low even when he wasn’t trying to.

“Look
don’t feel sad, we will get through this. There’s just a lot on my mind but we will get through this.”

“Okay Q…whatever you say,”
Zariah said leaving it at that. She was too tired of arguing and too weak to keep putting energy into someone who didn’t love her fully.

                                            Chapter 5

                                    
Jaidyn’s P.O.V.

  
I woke up in the middle of the night to find out Quincy was calling me. As my blurry vision came into clear I looked at the clock and noticed it was 4 in the morning.
What could possibly be wrong that he would call me at 4 something in the morning?
I thought to myself as I answered the phone. If he wanted to say sorry for not coming earlier he could wait until it was a reasonable hour, I don’t like my sleep being broken either.

“Hello,” I said in my sleepy tone, laying there feeling comforta
ble.

“Hey, I’m sorry if I woke you up but…I really need to
see you.” The tone in his voice startled me. I sat up in the bed with my heart pounding against my chest. Not once ever since I’ve known Quincy has he sounded like his world was coming to an end.

“Where are you?” I found myself asking.

“I’m out at the Pierce Park, the place where we always use to come and watch the full moon reflect off the water.” Once he said that a smile crept across my face as those memories flooded back into my head, those were the good days before the complications kicked in.

“I’m on my way,” I replied.

“I’ll be waiting,” he said in return. Once we hung up the phone I got up and started putting my clothes on. It’s funny how at one moment your heart and mind feel like they are moving on then your heart takes two steps back like that and there’s nothing your mind can do about it.

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I was rushing just to be
near him. My palms were slipping off the steering wheel, but all I could think about was what it was going to be like when I got face to face with him. The last time we were face to face it wasn’t too pretty; I was just hoping this time could be a little bit better.

When I pulled into the parking lot of the park I could see his silhouette sitting on the bench, the moon was out and it was full. My heart started skipping beats as I walked
over to where he was sitting. My mother and grandmother always use to tell me that whenever there is a full moon out expect something crazy or something out of the ordinary to happen. I just sighed deeply to myself hoping that tonight wasn’t one of those nights.

“Hey Q,” I said as I was standing right in front of
him now. He slowly looked up at me, the moon shined down on his face and I could tell his eyes were half open. A grin slowly appeared across his face. “Come sit,” he said in a low tone as he patted the empty seat next to him. I did as I was told but I didn’t feel comfortable for some reason, instead I was more intense and uptight. I sat there with space in between us and racing thoughts on my mind. He looked at me out the corner of his eyes and I just wanted to melt. Here I am 23 feeling like I was a little kid all over again sitting in front of my crush. It’s pathetic but that’s how he made me feel.

“You
alright?” he asked.

I looked
at him and just nodded my head yes.

“Why are you so quiet
?” he asked.

I shrugged my shoulders, couldn’t find an answer
to his that question. I guess some things just don’t have an answer to them.

“You look beautiful tonight,” he said.

I looked down at what I had on which was some grey jogging pants with a light pink tank top and my hair was pinned up in a sloppy bun with some glasses and white Air Force ones on to finish off the touch. I was shocked that he found this to be beautiful but when I think about it, it doesn’t take much to impress him.

“Thank you,” I said in return with a small smile upon my face now.

He laughed and shook his head. “Oh you talk when I give you a compliment, still self-centered huh?”

“Shut up,” I said laughing as well now and I was starting to feel more comfortable too.
I scooted a little bit closer and rested my chin on his arm, looking up at him. His mind looked like it was floating somewhere else because I could tell he wasn’t in this reality right now. “Are you okay?” I asked. He looked back at me then sighed and shook his head no.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“Man Jai I don’t think you really want to know,” he said as he looked down.